Bitch Time

k the whole lucky draw issue is what i wanna talk abt. sry for those who won't understand. and honestly, the whole discussion deviated greatly from the original point. it's quite amazing actually. anyway..

k first of all i wanna start out saying the fact that she commented AFTER everything is done is really irritating. and out of this whole issue, this is the one thing that pissed me off. why? cuz it relates to Cyber Games.

k for those who don't know what happened, the ori CG was supposed to be DotA (cuz a lot of ppl said they wanted to play that). then sudd those a lot of ppl disappeared. and then in the midst of that, when some ppl heard that we couldn't get enough ppl for the CG, they said that "oh if it was CS we sure will join la". so fine, we changed it to CS, and guess what?? NOONE SAID THEY WANNA JOIN NOW. noone replied the emails or the texts. (k only one person did. but what happen to all those ppl who talked so much saying they sure join?). i mean seriously, no way ALL can be busy right? so yeah, it's easy for ppl to talk after the thing is organised and comment on things saying oh it should have been done like this. when we change to cater to you, sudd no response. what crap?

so yeah. this is why this issue bugs me la. i mean it's so easy to sit and comment. but when ppl put you up to the challenge, you don't wanna take. reason? i'd rather be an observer? what stupid rubbish is that. then like this u'll just sit and forever try to find faults and complain la. it's way easier to do that anyway rather than try to change the problem. that's the problem with most ppl also. like in our country i'm sure there's a lot of ppl who can sit there and complain and complain and complain abt the country. but who is actually doing something to change it?? i mean seriously, sitting back with a stupid excuse "i'd rather be an observer" ISN'T gonna change ANYTHING. if you wanna talk, better be ready to freaking walk ok.

If you talk you better walk you better back your shit up

London Beckoned Songs Written About Money By Machines
Panic! At The Disco

then the next part, thinkin you wont cause and hurt or disappointment in the organisers? really? with all the arguing ure doing based on ur BIG EGO and ur failure to just let this thing go? and forget about it? after all, by saying and constantly arguing it also gives the impression that you think we are being inconsiderate and insensitive to let the dance go on? this could lead to a whole point altogether. i mean really, how much do we have to give in to your views? it's not YOUR night. it's for everyone. back to not meaning to hurt anyone. let's put it like this la k. what if someone comes up to you and says "daymn ure ugly" they meant no intention of hurting you. just telling the truth. now what? i believe everyone would know how hurt u'd feel right?

and how much do you follow your words? saying that the women shouldn't dance and sing in front of guys means that you SHOULD NOT support any women who do right? so there goes all the women singers in Malaysia who are muslims la. i mean, you shouldn't listen to them right, unless ure a hypocrite. so what now, listen to guys? what if the guys turn the girls on? so then no listening to guys as well? so no music from any muslims right? can you follow what you're preaching?

and then you complained and said 'whoa don't get all emotional when writing the comments'. like hello, as if you weren't all emotional in your first few comments. what with the excess of question marks and exclamation marks. classic example of pot calling the kettle black la.

and honestly, the way you talk clearly and the things you said was saying that whoever disagrees with you is wrong. yet you still can say you are not acting like that? you clearly have the "holier than thou" complex. your ego will prevent you from seeing it.


funny thing is, you said that it's okay if you lose friends for fighting for the whole issue. you assume you can survive alone. 500 bucks says you cant. so stop trying to act so tough.


honeslty, i've known you for 4 years now. i know you're the type of person who like to comment on ppl. you always sit back and comment on the things they do wrong or if whatever they do doesn't agree with you. when oh when will you ever try and make the change? sitting back and talking is damn easy ok. and stupid fool can do it.





pssshh. k i think i'm done la. k no that's a lie. that's actually more stuff that i can talk about. but considering, it's 3am, i can't form proper sentences to explain myself (like in this whole post), and i can't remember what else, i'm just gonna leave it here.

feels good to lepaskan. now it won't be on my mind.

Currently Listening To: Hammerhead - The Offspring

When You Become A Sell Out

nobody remembers you cuz they hate you.

for real. i mean seriously who knows that Avril has a whole new album out this year?

i didn't even hear of such a thing. and it's a good thing too. after her disaster of her previous cheerleader album, probably nobody wants to hear her anymore.

well i guess that's what happens when you go from punk to cheerleader. you lose whatever respect ppl had for you.

lol.


on a happier note, Mayday Parade's album is out! :D listening to it now.



Currently Listening To: If You Can't Live Withouy Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet? - Mayday Parade

I Think I Shall Bitch About This

but maybe tmrw. as for tonight. i'll sleep.


and darn, why'd it have to be taken down? =(


p.s.: Black Ice + ulcer = DAMN CRAZY FREAKING PAIN OKAY

Currently Listening To: Slow Dance With A Stranger - Danger Radio

I Refuse To React On Knowing Through FB

i honestly don't like doing things on FB based on what other are talking about for everyone on FB.

what the hell am i talking abt?

it's basically like this, if it's someone i'm hardly close to, just cuz i'm notified by the facebook events section that it's their bday or even if i see someone wishing them, does not mean i'll wish them.

i mean, i feel it's really insincere don't you think? the only reason i would be wishing is cuz someone told me, not that i actually care about the person or that the person actually did tell me before. not cuz i just found out based on someone wishing that person.

cuz seriously, if there wasn't FB, then i wouldn't know abt the person's bday. and if i din know, i clearly don't know that person that well and i haven't taken the effort to find out.

so yeah. and it's basically not bdays only. like anything happening in the other person's life. if i find out they're leaving for some other country through their chat with someone else, i see no reason to wish them bye if i'm not close to them. i mean, first they did not tell me personally, so we both acknowledge that we're not close to each other. and 2ndly, saying bye and i'll miss you when i don't mean it is just pure dumb.




pssshhh once again jumbled unorganised thoughts. but yeah if you get me, you're awesome. and the only time i reach to what ppl have been talking abt, is only when i care about them enough that i feel i should know about them. other than that, i refuse to react based on finding out something thru ppls chats. just because it's insincere.

Currently Listening To: Majestic - Majestic Youth

So According To What I Said

well apparently since i've gotten what i wanted, it's time to change isn't it?

i should. it wouldn't be fair if i didn't.

but it feels like under the deformation i've been through, i've gone past my yield strength from elastic to plastic deformation.

or so i think. maybe i just wanna stay plastic.

well, we'll just see what i decide.

This city's killing me
I want, I want, I want everything
This city's killing me
In the heat of Los Angeles
What has become of me?
I want, I want, I want everything

Currently Listening To: Los Angeles - Sugarcult

Yes This Is Why I Like COD4

i still got it in me. and this is like 3 months++ not playing. plus it's on a new comp so it's a whole diff feeling.

yes this is why i like the game. :) i like being good at something. :)


25-30 Kill streak. can't remember the exact number


unfortunately, i was using the sniper after dying the first 2 times. plus i wasted a lot of bullets missing the target. gotta improve.

aahhh how i love COD4. :)

Currently Watching: House Season 6 Episode 1 & 2

Use Somebody

listening to the original version, the paramore version and remembering last night's ball version, this is the conclusion:

EVLYN + MERVYN + ADRIAN > PARAMORE

which means..

Evlyn, Mervyn and Adrian TOTALLY PWNED Paramore at the song. totally. and some of you know how much i like Paramore. i've two CDs on my wall ok. so u know i'm not being biased. Paramore just sounded like they ruined the song. but Ev just made it sound so awesome. like really.

i'm still in disbelief how ppl can actually say the Paramore version is good. what crap.

ish.

ROCK ON EV, MERV AND ADRIAN

(though you'll probably never see this. :P)

hmmm i hope somebody recorded it.

Currently Listening To: Use Somebody - Kings Of Leon

Mornings

i hate waking up early on mornings.

esp after late nights.

now the inclination to change this has fueled other supposed dying thoughts in my head.


oh and last night may not have been perfect, but it was good enough plus i'm too lazy to care di. so whatever i got, i'm happy with. :)

Currently Listening To: Ignorance - Paramore

Friday No Drink

this probably the first friday where i had smth to drink and didn't drink it.

prob i should celebrate by drinking. hahahaha :P

Currently Listening To: Whatever You Like - T.I.

Lesson 101

~Hiding something from people

-give them no reason to ask or suspect anything

~Making people curious

-give them a reason to ask or suspect something
-be a failure at hiding something


Currently Listening To: Headfirst Slide Into Coopestown on a Bad Bet - Fall Out Boy

ZOMGWTFBBQROLFLMAO

k ignore the title. but this is funny for those of you who watch CSI: Miami



hahahahahhahahah



on a more emo note, test today sucked so bad. i dunno why i panicked for. so i din have enough time to do. what crap. plus 211 design task this time sounds like a lot of work. crap.


on a happy note! my Lab Report got amazingly high! i dunno how also. i mean when doing the discussion, i simply wrote and it wasn't like so much explanation also compared to other ppl. and i din even do the error propogation. plus the song 10,000 Nights is getting really addictive. i can't wait for the ball on Sat. it feels like it's gonna be fun. So seriously, YOU GUYS SHOULD GO FOR THE UCSSS BALL. :)

i feel happy now. cuz i managed to finish online quiz, finish test, finish memorizing chords, finished learning the solos. i feel like i accomplished a lot but it's not really a lot. haha. now the Cyber Games poster is sorta half done too. i hope there's enough ppl this time tho.

Currently Listening To: Rock & Roll - Eric Hutchinson

Remembering Sunday

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Starting making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place is familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, whoever she may be

[Juliet Simms:]
I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt; now the rain is just
Washing you out of my hair
and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
So many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head

[Alex Gaskarth:]
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home

All Time Low

Currently Listening To: Luckie St. - Cartel

Facebook Is My News Page

seriously. it's the only place i get my news.

well even if i don't get the news there, if ppl say something interesting enough, i end up googling to find out.

and just for the record, yes, that is how i found out abt Michael Jackson.


sad. i should read the news more. :P

Currently Listening To: Say It Again - Marie Digby

Crap I Think Everyone Knows

malunye. like hilang muka di. :(

Currently Listening To: Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

I Think I May Have Overpacked Myself

somehow maybe i've got too many things going on at once.

in CMSA committee. Refuel band. UCSSS band. sunday church service band.

on top of that there's homeworks and assignments to do.

this week will be pretty bad. UCSSS band have to memorise all their song chords and stuff for the ball this sat. and practice is whole of friday. and sat.

on top of that. there's a 224 test on wednesday worth 20% of final grade. and a 227 quiz on friday. not to mention onine homeworks for 227 on sunday, monday and thursday.

Design task 3 is out on wednesday as well.

gotta plan for the next Cyber Games too for the sat after the ball. hopefully can go talk to the place ppl tmrw and see how it goes.

i think i may have overpacked myself with stuff.

and with my self set standard and pride, things probably get worse as i expect myself to do extremely well.

hmmm


Currently Listening To: Unnatural Selection - Muse

Malaysia Negaraku

Currently Listening To: Didn't See That Coming - Taking Back Sunday

How Objective Can You Be?

when you act or feel something, can you be objective?

for example. you don't like something someone does, but then realise that you are the one doing it or have done it b4.

do you continue to get irritated by what the person did? or realise ure not any better and you shouldn't be complaining or you deserve it? do you still think that you have reasons for doing what you did while the other person has no excuse?

why do you get immunity?

it's ok to feel guilt or shame knowing what you don't like was what you have done/are doing.

it's NOT okay for you to be angry or upset.

seriously.


no idea why i used you here. it feels like i'm refering to somebody. funnily enough, i'm not. i guess i'm refering to you reader. so yeah. you.

Currently Listening To: You Know How I Do - Taking Back Sunday

I'm Freaking Out. Great

how am i supposed to concentrate like this??

most prob cuz i've nvr done such a thing b4.

well i asked for it, now i got it.

crap. i'm nervous as.

like for real. i just stoned and zoned out staring at the screen thinking abt.

it's exhilarating yet nerve wrecking at the same time.


kk. don't think much of it. it's nothing. you will be fine. breathe in breathe out.

and i realised i have no idea how i'm going to lie abt it.

i tend to sneak a smirk when i lie about sneaking stuff.

and now i'm staring at the email i got. freaking out.


and i realise i'm typing the same thing over again. blame the freaking out la k.


GGGAAAAHHH.

Currently Listening To: Come Home - OneRepublic

Albums Left Worth Buying

k so the ones on top are the ones left to buy. the others since my other post have finally been bought after hard searching. and i saw a Deluxe Version of Switchfoot's The Best Yet. now i so wish i waited (hmm). plus a Deluxe version of Where You Want To Be. dunno whether to buy or not. expensive. almost bought it that day out of impulse.

crap la. i spend A LOT when i'm pissed off.

75 bucks right there. crap.

and Kim! i've got the baileys! now what?? haha.

Currently Listening To: Which To Bury, Us or The Hatchet - Relient K

Cons

i'm still pissed off.

fuck you guys la.

wasted my money.


i guess i have myself to blame too for being nice.

fuck la.

i wish i had more guts and know how and bravery and not niceness to handle this situation.

argh! >:(

Currently Listening To: Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

Note-To-Self: Pictures

take as many photos with all my friends as i can.


so that in a few years time we can look at them and look at how much we've changed and laugh.

well i think it'll be pretty cool. :)


which reminds me, i think my batch ppl shud take a picture again like last year. sitting in the same position. and if we do it every year, we can watch how much we grow year by year! :D

Currently Listening To: Untitled/Trapped - Paul Dateh

Question

if you don't care abt something someone is explaining to you, do you just tell them you don't care or pretend to care?

one choice, you be sort of rude (cuz hey ppl want you to care cuz they care. how that works i dunno). and the other choice, you be fake and you suffer listening to smth you don't wanna listen to.


solution?

somehow just find a way to care.



crap.

Currently Listening To: Slow Dance With A Stranger - Danger Radio

Well It's That Time Again

What we have in life is based upon moment to moment choices of what we do in each of those moments we choose.We either take a risk, move toward what we want or play it safe & choose comfort, most of the people most of the time choose comfort. In the end people either have excuse or experience reason or result buts or brilliance.They either have what they wanted or they have a detailed list of all the reasons why not.

This quote, speaks to me. and in more ways than one.

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I know i shouldn't let it affect me. guess i'm not fully over it as i should be. i don't wanna care. i don't i don't i don't. it's so irritating how it always appears there. and i'm reminded. well, for now at least. by tmrw it'll all be gone, mostly at least. then i won't be forced to think abt it.

sucks to know i mattered. and now i don't.

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ran across some quotes i put up in the closed down blog. pretty awesome stuff. love those quotes.
feel free to get some awesome quotes here.

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i need real ppl. not ppl who agree with you all the time. i don't want to be soft. it'll be painful yeah i know, but that's what i want. i gotta force myself to take it. life isn't a perfect place.

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if you congratulate and encourage ppl for the smallest good things that they do, doesn't that mean you kinda look down on them as being a low self esteem person who isn't capable of doing smth big? cuz if u lift them up for the small things, then they end up thinking that's all they're capable of so they don't achieve higher.

dilemma?

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i think my arrogance is getting out of hand. it's that or ppl just like proving me wrong. they seem to go out of their way to do so. hmmm.

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and that is exactly why i don't give my opinion. cause nobody likes to hear smth that they don't agree.

how lame.


Currently Listening To: What To Say - MoZella

The Random Video Post

ok so youtube has like tons of videos which are awesome i've seen lately. and i decided i'm gonna put them up. haha

the famous sohai vid



amazing coordination



joker n batman :)



the awesomely talented ppl i play with (i still think this is so awesome)



halal (seriously what the crap man. hahahah)



k that's all i have for now. enjoy la if you got free internet. :)

Currently Listening To: Collapse - Saosin

I Apparently Can Talk To Randoms

seriously. i think it's easier to talk to random ppl i meet, and when i say talk i mean talk quite a lot, well relatively, as compared to ppl i should know and should be able to talk a lot to.

maybe cuz i know i won't be seeing them again so i don't have to worry about what to talk next time? hmm i dunno la.

i guess that's why one night stands are way easier than real relationships?

who knows. oh well.


and today was a good day. hair got cut. and washed. plus went skateboarding for an hour with friend. good day. the sun was out too! plus going out later tonight. aaahhh. good times good times. :)

Currently Listening To: Beat It - Fall Out Boy

I Know It's Not Wrong, But It's Just Weird

k to me right, when somebody does an accent/slang that is not originally theirs, it's like super weird. it just feels out of place and very noticable a.k.a weird.

example? when a Malay/Indian person starts speaking with a Chinese slang (the lor, meh, etc). or when a Malay/Chinese person speaks with an Indian accent(?). or even when a Chinese/Indian person speaks with a Malay slang.

it's just weird! am i the only one who notices it? i dunno la. maybe sometimes it's the person who says it la. actually ya i think it's the person who says it. cuz i realize some ppl, when they speak malay it's really weird. like it's real funny. well, that's what i noticed from my sis la. she just speaks it in such a mat salleh way. and it's hillarious. but some ppl can do it just fine. like Bernard. i don't think i've felt weird whenever he spoke it.

but yeah, when an Indian guy starts using "lor", it's just so weird la. and when other ppl tend to use the Indian accent, it turns out funny, which i guess was the main point of them mimicking it which does make it insulting la but i don't wanna be a bitch and be over sensitive (though maybe i'm not being that) and whine and say you shouldn't but yeah. it's just weird la.

i think cuz maybe sometimes ppl try to hard to put on the accent that it sounds so fake and that's why it's weird.

ah whatever la. u get what i mean.

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on another note, it's super hard to NOT be pissed off at some idayots who simply cari pasal with you because your friend doesn't want you to get into a fight or for things to get worse.

what a dick la. seriously.

but i guess i probably asked for it with what i said. aih wtv la.

don't wanna let it affect me.

but yea i'm pissed.


and omg nice guy, my friend, pretty good friend too, is now pretty good friends with bitch? what? seriously? come onnnnn. what are the oddss?? stupid la.

Currently Listening To: All I Need Is You - Hillsong United

What Conditioner Do You Use?

hahahaha. i find this photo funny.


Currently Listening To: Slow Down - The Academy Is....

I'm Pissed But Trying To Change, So In The Meantime

**** inside jokes la.

it's only purpose is to irritate other ppl who don't get it.

am i the only one who seems to understand the concept of control? or consideration?

Currently Listening To: Knock You Down - Keri Hilson ft Kanye West & Ne-Yo

So Far Gone

Late night contemplating on the words to say
Gotta set the record straight
I can't pretend that I'm alright
I give in to the night

She's got me on the edge, I'm slipping
Try to look away
But she stares down inside me
And I lose my way, can't fight
I give in to the night

So if it's love that she wants Love that she's after Don't come looking for me Cause I'm so far gone If it's love that she wants Love that she's after Don't come looking for me Cause I'm so far gone

Been exhausted
I'm so worn out by the games she plays
Sneaking off, you leave me hanging
I won't take that bait
Can't offer you forgiveness
Or justify your foolish mistakes

So if it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come looking for me
Cause I'm so far gone
So if it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come looking for me
Cause I'm so far gone

So far gone, so far gone, so far gone


So drained and falling apart
Predicted it from the start
Tried hard to break it
But I strayed too far away
Your words, they don't mean a thing
I stayed despite of the pain
I'll keep my distance
And you'll keep all the blame

So if it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come lookin' for me
Cause I'm so far gone
If it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come lookin' for me
Cause I'm so far gone

Love that she wants, whoa, love she's after
Don't come lookin' for me.
Cause I'm so far gone.
Love that she wants, whoa
Love she's after
Don't come lookin' for me.
Cause I'm so far gone.
I'm so far gone.
So far-

Danger Radio

why does it feel i was pushed away just to be pulled back in?

or i just thought i was pushed away?

or maybe i think i'm being pulled in?

we'll see soon.

Currently Listening To: So Far Gone - Danger Radio

Stuck

so which do i choose?

to just leave i feel would raise a ton of questions.

and the party that would have caused it, would think it's cuz of the other party.

and the other party would definitely think it's cuz of them when it's not.


things just change. they don't fit anymore. with one. the other, well, i thought i would have eventually, but it doesn't seem so.

and it feels like i can't leave more because i would feel bad if i leave cuz i know i'm needed. and no i'm not being perasan.

and heck, i don't know if i should. maybe i'm concentrating on the things that don't matter when it comes to that. my focus should be elsewhere. but i still don't think i can/want to focus for now.


what to do? =/

Currently Listening To: Love Is Waiting - Brooke Fraser

My My How Things Have Changed

seriously, other than the obvious, i've like totally become the opposite of who i was.

i used to be pretty outdoor-ish (cuz of BB i guess). going for camps, hiking, jungle trekking and all the other things that go with it.

and now, if i had a choice, i wouldn't go for any of these things.

i used to cycle everywhere. i've even cycled to One Utama from approximately Taman Paramount LRT station.

and now, ppl wonder if i can even ride a bike. (even i'm starting to wonder if i still can)

i used to know ALL the cars on the road. the brand and model.

and now, i just don't care. all i know is a tiny bit of fancy cars.

i used to know who wears what number of ALL the MU players.

and now, i don't even know who's still playing for MU.

i used to collect Nokia cards.

and now, i don't even try anymore.

i used to only play Need For Speed as my main game.

and now, well, it looks like the list of games won't end.


funny how i'm nothing like i used to be and i don't even look like i would have been able to do such things.

the only thing constant was my love for music that just grew and grew.

from the sorta outdoorish guy, i've become the gamer-skater-rocker guy.

i find myself pretty interesting. :)

Currently Listening To: Monsters - Matchbook Romance

If You Wanna Talk, Let's Talk

seriously, one of the most irritating things i find is when ppl start saying something, and then stop.

and then when you ask them more about it, they don't wanna tell.


WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU BRING IT UP IF YOU DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT?

ugh.

fine, you have the right to say what you want and not say what you don't want. but it's just SO FREAKING IRRITATING.

Currently Watching: Babel 1080p

I Like This

so i was on FB (as usual) and i came across smth a friend wrote. i REALLY like this cause he's being very real and logical and well, i don't know how else to explain it. it's just that i think he's thinking very real and very str8 and very true (well to him at least).

pssh. i have no idea if i'm explaining it right, but yeah, i really like this. there's truth in it. give it a read.

i hate malays.malays are stupid!they dont even need to be educated to get into uni.i hate chinese.they eat pork!disgusting!

*the author like to express his intention of naming the post as so is that it is a quote from a movie he recently watched

recently i watched a malaysian movie entitled 'gadoh'. personally, i think the content is interesting as well as the presentation (it gave me a theatrical kind of feeling after i watch the movie)
anyway, the issue tackled in the movie is basically on racism, facism and all those stuff related those words. i remember someone once told me that racism in malaysia is overrated. it is just being amplified by media and old people's talk. the young ones are actually uniting under one umbrella regardless of skin color, eye size, height, body odour, hair style or race.but sadly, i hardly think so.

being a born malay, i was destined to be able to mix around malays easily.sometimes unconsciously.it is so hard to break the bond and just hop to another group of friends with different races (though i personally think that this is mostly due to language constraint.malays generally suck in english and they often think that the chinese sounds superior when they converse in english even if some of them speaks ah beng slang).but what makes it even harder to leave the malay group is how hard it is to be accepted in another group - in this case, another race group.its hard to mix in with the chinese because they prefer to speak mandarin/cantonese/hokkien

/whatever-chinese-slang that they use.maybe thats why malays who understand mandarin mix well with the chinese.

its hard to mix in with the indian because they are too busy trying to mix in with the chinese(since the word chindian is synonym to coolness and hotness at the same time).its hard to mix in with white people because they think asians can't speak english and for some reason every asian just have to know 'arigato'.its hard to mix in with black people because when we talk to them in english, they just have to be ludacris.

generally, it is hard to mix in with anyone.that's why you rarely see tigers playing around with hyenas.it is by nature that everyone have their own soft spot towards their own species.but sometimes being too immersed with this nature might be stopping everyone from looking ahead, from enjoying what life really offers.sure that there are certain constrains that some races feel 'uncomfortable' with but still, that is not an excuse to be left out from the world.once in a while try to do something out of the ordinary.

imagine a world without indian.there would never be curry.imagine a world without white people.there wouldnt be hollywood.imagine a world without arab.there wouldnt be al-jazeera.imagine a world without japanese..there wouldnt be porn.(there are a lot more better examples than what i just provided, but i guess you smartasses could figure it out yourselves)see?we are actually in need of each other.so why arent everyone shaking hands rather than hiding in their own group?

lets be honest.some of the most important person in my life are not even my own race.and i dont regret that.some people ask me why do i hang out with these guys?usually i would answer because i want to try something else.i've been living, growing up with malays for 18 years of my life.why not try spending a year with indians?why not spend a year with black people?taste their food, talk their talk, walk their walk, understand what to they see as home.

it pisses me off when i read something about freud's research saying that white people carries superior genes compared to asians.screw freud.we stand on the same ground.we eat the same food.we throw away the same food.so why bother comparing genes?just because asians are shorter than white people so asians are inferior?

anyway, this is just another session of my ranting because i can't get enough sleep and im pissed of with something(which the author would not reveal in this post).

anyway, watch gadoh (with subtitles if some of you dont understand mandarin)

the only part i may disagree on is the indians being too busy mixing with the chinese cuz chindian is hot. well that's for me of course. i mix with ppl who can and want to speak english, which happen to be chinese. so yeah that's me.

what do you think about his thoughts?

Currently Listening To: Hoopes I Did It Again - Relient K

Once Again, What Holidays?

so this holidays i have:

Solidworks Design Task 2
EMTH271 Assignment 1
227 Lab Report
224 Long Lab Report
CMSA Cyber Games
Band Prac + Ballroom Check
Malam Stuff

ALL in the 2 weeks

so seriously, what holidays? seems like no time to do anything else also. so how to do everything else??

:(

Currently Listening To: Darkshines - Muse

Something's Not Right But I Can't Place My Finger On It

k so i created my third wallpaper. but somehow, it kinda looks okay, but just doesn't feel right. but i dunno what.


so take a look. and let me know what you think. i personally don't like the way the main pic turned out. and for the verbs, i wanted more, but din know what else i could put. plus i'm not sure if i wanna list them or just randomly put them overlapping each other with the last one over everything and in red as well. plus choosing the fonts itself gave me such a headache but i settled for what you see. i think the blend of the picture to the black area cud have probably be done better.

maybe if i actually knew how to use photoshop instead of simply trying stuff it could have turned out exactly how i wanted. but yeah.

what's puzzling is how when i create stuff, ppl tend to like it more than i do. it feels like somehow it cud have been better, but ppl tend to like it as it is. an example, my current FB profile pic. i really think it could have been way better. but somehow ppl like it.

maybe it's cuz i had a picture of how it's supposed to turn out like. so knowing that, i'm not happy with what i got. and others, well, they weren't expecting anything i guess. hmm.

but yeah.

k tell me what you think.

p.s.: you're supposed to tell me WHY you got the joke la, not whether you did or did not. tell me what you understand from the "joke". cuz there's ppl who say they got the joke, but totally didn't get it. so yeah, WHAT did you get? hmm.

Currently Listening To: One Man Drinking Games - Mayday Parade

My Most Frustrating Joke EVER

somehow it seems like this joke noone can get (except smart ppl like Gloria. thanks Glo for getting it! :D ). and it's so frustrating! trust me, when someone doesn't get your joke, it's not cool man.

anyway, here's the thing, i'll tell the joke, and then you tell me what u understand from it k. leave a comment. and it must be the first thing that came to your mind. no cheating and looking what other people answered b4 answering.



Q: When are your eyes not eyes?

















A: When the wind makes them water.



ok! comment away! do you get it? or do you think you get it?

Currently Listening To: Breakin' - The All American Rejects

I Give Up

cuz i'm seriously too lazy to be bothered.

i try. seriously i do. but if you don't want me (to), i'm going to leave it.

there IS other people.

this is why i end up nonchalant.


and to you. i don't respect you because you don't respect me. i know you don't like me. and with recent days and the way u've been recently, i'm growing not to like you too. i know how fake you can be. but if i can withstand this for so long now, i believe i can go on. why? because when it comes to people like you, i'm better at being fake. but just to you. other people don't deseve it as much as you.

remember, i don't see who you want others to see, i see the real you. the twitch in your facial expression, the tone of your voice, the intonations, the words you use and how you use them, they all mean something. and these things, try as you might, you can't control it.

so, to you, you and that subject, i give up on. it's a good thing both parties won't care. you won't notice, but i will.

being care-less is like being free. :)

Currently Listening To: Every Day - Ten Second Epic

I Love Futsal

i absolutely love playing futsal here. it's an utter joy i tell you.

it's like total enjoyment. and i'm faaaarrrr from good at playing football. but yet it' so fun.

why? cuz of the awesome ppl who play. everyone funny reactions and everything la.

at least once during the game smth will happen that will make everyone laugh.

i think that's why it's fun also. everyone is laughing and playing.

possibly also cuz i don't take winning seriously. so even if my teams loses i still have tons of fun playing the fun ppl i play with. but i still try my best.

isn't gr8 when you can try your best, fail, but still have the time of your life?

well i think it's gr8. :)

Currently Listening To: America's Suitehearts - Fall Out Boy

Biggest Mistake Of My Life

i should have gone to watch Iiro Rantala and his Trio. this is by far the biggest mistake and the biggest regret of my life. :(

30 bucks is cheap for a show. if only i knew that. plus they're damn good.

arrgghh. i think i regret more reading what Deb said about it. damn she made it sound so good. plus they got photos and autographs.

craps.

biggest mistake of my life!

Currently Listening To: Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

Emo People

they piss me off. like seriously. i just realised how annoying it is.

and note, when i say emo people. i mean those types who sit and brood and whine ALL THE FREAKING TIME. this doesn't include when normal ppl have a down time.

but seriously, they are so annoying. thank goodness i grew up and left that phase. but i shall still apologize for being emo last time and no doubt being freaking annoying. man was i irritating.

actually right,when i say they, i actually mean one fella la. this guy, every single freaking day has some emo thing to post as his status update on FB. and everyday he's sad. it's actually gotten to the point it's annoying. sheesh. let it go man. whatever it is. it's not worth it. start living life. enjoy!

being an emo kid is so not cool. u should at least try like ppl i know to not be emo. u wanna look emo, fine. just don't act all emo ALL THE TIME. it's annoying.

but seriously, damn i must have been so annoying last time.

yes, apparently i am heartless too. deal with it. >:)

Currently Listening To: Disturbia - The Cab

Other Alcohols>Beer

just because you get to keep your abs

Currently Listening To: Weightless - All Time Low

I Miss My Sister

i really do. and i knew i would. like i said in a post b4 i left.

i miss her lame jokes
i miss bullying her
i miss lepaking with her
i miss jamming with her. (tho we only really properly did Check Yes Juliet)
i miss picking her up from school. (cuz it gave me a reason to drive)
i miss how she would "apologize" to the drivers that have to move out of the fast lane to make way for me.
i miss how she would get irritated for me using noob so much that'll she'll use it in a burst against me.
i miss walking around in the mall with her and pointing out random strangers and making fun of them and calling them nerds.
i miss how it irritates her so much when i do that and how she'll say i'm so mean and how she'll tell other ppl how mean i'm being.
i miss the way she then tries to find ways to call me a nerd.


hayooooo. i miss my sister la. :( how to not miss her when she's so cool?

nvm, a few months time i get to see her. yeay! :D

Currently Listening To: Running From Lions - All Time Low

Save Save Save!

for a guy who is supposed to be saving, i spent 32 bucks altogether tonight.

5 bucks for ticket and the rest on drinks.

crap la. save save save!

shud have just spent that 30 bucks to go watch Iiro Rantala.

but then again, i dun regret going. and i regret not going Iiro.

so if i dun wanna regret, i should spend more.

gr8.

oh a stranger at Coyote said i look like Taboo from BEP. 3rd tme now. must really look like him then. haha

k la. it's freaking late. i shud go sleep now. makes sense since head feels heavy.


p.s.: band prac is sooo gonna be crap tmrw. everyones gonna be wasted as. hahaha

Currently Listening To: Shit Catapult - Iiro Rantala New Trio

Name The Nameless

i just realised, for more than a year and a half up til now, not once have i heard anyone say her name.

not ONCE. like seriously.

ok fine, the lecturer did call out her name to answer questions. but that's it! (assuming she is the one who answered the question. don't blame me! i sat at the back so couldn't see.)

haven't heard any of her friends call her name.

so, maybe, she has another name! that's not official.

but no, i prob would have heard that name.

interesting how some people can be nameless.

of course all this assuming i got her name right last year. but i'm sure! hundred percent!

plus i don't think i'm that blur to not notice. i tend to notice this stuff ok. lols


k random. i know. i'm just finding excuses to take breaks from my online quiz now. haha.

crap quiz tmrw too. and weird situations happening around me. really can't understand why certain ppl are acting that way.

and why certain ppl who read my blog and know i when ppl make up excuses still wanna try. haiz. oh well, don't wanna linger on it la anyway.

and k, seriously, i gotta post up the stuff i wanna post b4 it becomes irrelevant to post anymore.


oh and comp died again. but hardly feeling the effects. think i got used to it. now can concentrate on studying. hahahaha. damn i sound like a nerd. yucks.

which brings me to think, what is a nerd anyway. officially. k let's go check.

Nerd (pronounced /ˈnɜrd/) is a term often bearing a derogatory connotation or stereotype, that refers to a person who passionately pursues intellectual activities, esoteric knowledge, or other obscure interests rather than engaging in more social or popular activities. Therefore, a nerd is often excluded from physical activity and considered a loner by peers or will tend to associate with like-minded people

wikipedia definition. hmmm. ok definitely don't wanna be a nerd. brrr. so for now i'll just say i'll study for the sake of passing my next quiz la. haha.



aaaahh man i'm crapping so much. k here's the plan. finish the online quiz. go get dinner. camp in library to finish studying for tmrws quiz. gr8. now go!

byes!

p.s.: Mayday Parade's The Silence - pretty good stuff. i like Anywhere But Here better tho.

Currently Listening To: The Silence - Mayday Parade

Promotion

It STILL pisses me off how the undeserving get promoted and awarded, while those who deserve it more get forgotten.

like someone once said to me, "open your eyes to the things you do not see"

granted i may not know who does deserve the promotions and stuff, but who doesn't deserve, anyone who knows can clearly say so.

nothing is what it seems.


so irritated by the way ppl get away with stuff just cuz "administration" doesn't know shit.



on a side note, i think it's called ironic when someone who wants justice sides with someone who continously fucks screws up and gets away with it citing the same stupid reasons over and over again.

congrats. you know who you are.

Currently Listening To: Breaking - Anberlin

Don't Ask Me, Ask My Body

looks at the snacks i eat la.


the yoghurt, there's 5 more in the fridge. the tupperware is filled with awesome popcorn. the kit kat, the other pack is finished and there's barely any left in this pack.

so despite all the snacks i eat, i don't get fat. what rubbish.

why?

don't ask me, ask my body.

ish.

Currently Listening To: A Decade Under The Influence - Taking Back Sunday

Change To Dependance

i realise i'm needing ppl a lot. not good not good.

but haih, now i'm stuck. i want to know what exactly i should say. but nobody knows this about me. and i guess i don't really want anyone to know either.

but i need someone to ask! so i don't make a fool of myself. grrrr.

but thinking back, those days when i just did whatever i wanted were the days that were really fulfilling.


arrgghhh. so here goes!

don't regret this ben, you clearly don't know what you're doing.

Currently Listening To: Guilty - Rasmus

Uknowingly Ignored

u know it's kinda funny, we both CLEARLY know each other. but each time we see each other now, it's like i never met her.

and it's actually come to the point that it's actually like we didn't meet at all. it feels that way.

and if i just realised this after the moment we glanced at each other and looked away. and i thought to myself, hey don't i know her?

funny, apparently, if u ignore someone long and hard enough, they actually disappear somewhat from your head.

cool. :)

Currently Listening To: Forgiven - Relient K

Anywhere But Here

Tonight it's the one thing left
And I haven't said it yet
I'm falling, and the writing's on the wall

Today was misery
And I just can't believe this happened
And I finally broke down

She held on to my heart
But now my only star is falling,
And it's burning to the ground

Now i cry it out...

Secret love my escape
Take me far far away
Secret love are you there?
Will you answer my prayer?
Please take me anywhere but here

Anywhere but here...

You're all I've got right now
Noone else figures out this feeling,
and how lonely it can get

These words can cut right through
Cause all along I knew you're sorry
But you haven't said it yet

But i won't forget..

Secret love my escape
Take me far far away
Secret love are you there?
Will you answer my prayer?
Please take me anywhere but here

When we're together,
Thoughts of her disappear
If i fell to pieces, you'd heal this pain i feel

Secret love my escape
Take me far far away
Secret love are you there?
Will you answer my prayer?

Secret love my escape
Take me far far away
Secret love are you there?
Will you answer my prayer?
Please take me anywhere but here

Anywhere but here...

Mayday Parade

they sound good so far. i like. :)

Currently Listening To: Anywhere But Here - Mayday Parade

My Brain Thinks It's Chinese

seriously. kind of a funny story that happened the other day.

k just for those who don't know, most of my friends that i hang around with are mostly chinese, ever since secondary school. i dunno why. it's just like that. i prob fit in better with them. and most of them are those who speak english mostly. i suspect that's why i can fit in with them cuz i only speak english and not tamil. so naturally, i have a tendency to stick to ppl who can speak english. and now i realise that it's not just chinese ppl, but anyone who can speak english i can fit in. just so happen there are more chinese ppl who speak english more. k that's the background

ANYWAY! so here's what happened. some minister came to Chch la. so i got invited to go for this sorta big dinner that he wanted to have to meet the Canterbury students. so when we reach there, it ended up that ppl mostly ended up sitting with their own race a.k.a the Chinese sat with themselves and the Malays also sorta sat with themselves. you can guess where i initially sat la.

then i'm there like crap, i don't like this, we should mix around and not just sit among ourselves. so i was telling YL that we should change where were sitting cuz it's so weird that all the Chinese were sitting together. then he turned and was like, why u so worried for? u can sit anywhere and u'd be mixing la (cuz i'm like the only Indian there). lol.

and that's when i realised my brain actually thinks it's Chinese due to the constant hanging out with my Chinese friends. see! told u my brain is going crazy. Brain! ure Indian okay! get that right! sheesh. cacat thing. haha.

and thinkin about this made me think abt smth else i was thinking about last time. u know how i tend to be the only Indian guy among friends, i wonder if it's really obvious. i mean like, most of the time from my view everyone around me is like almost the same. like nobody stands out that obviously. so it's like what if it's from someone elses view? or at least when i'm around my Chinese friends. do i stand out. cuz clearly there's no denying that i was born with skin darker than my friends. so i wonder if like real obvious.

like if you see it from their eyes, is the dark skinned friend standing out among the fair skinned friends? i mean i really dunno, cuz for me, it's just all fair skinned friends, so noone is standing out. so i wonder if i stand out that way. hmmmm.

ok crap. i dunno if i made sense again. so yeah. just some thoughts. :) byes! i shud study now.

Currently Listening To: Over My Head (Better Off Dead) - Sum 41

I Am Too Smart For My Own Good

because i can't con myself into believing things i want to believe. guess i'm too logical.

because my brain doesn't listen to me anymore. it automatically does what needs to be done to keep me sane. it hides things from me.

because i prepare for every possible situations and automatically try and fix the messed up situations. prob why ppl say i'm a good liar. well mafia proved that anyway.

because i don't think of just what i'm thinking. i'm thinking of what you're thinking. and how you would react.

and all these things, somehow manage to balance out for good and bad and keep me alive and sane.



why am i posting this?

my brain told me to do so. i swear it's taking over.

oh and if u were wondering, yes i am crazy. :D

Currently Listening To: Famous - Puddle Of Mudd

Before I Finally Leave, I Think I'll Leave The Truth And Go

Who You Are Without Me - Kate Voegele

Who You Are Without Me

Put me up on your pedestal
I’ve got nowhere to go but down
You expect the impossible
And it’s too much to carry around

Well you tell me I’m beautiful
It feels empty and I don’t know why
But it seems that you’re searching me
For something you’re not going to find

I’m not your anchor so don’t hold on
I’m not the answer you got me wrong
I’m not your savior, save your energy
To find out who you are, yeah who you are without me

Ooohh

Wide awake lying next to you
Being careful to get the words right
See it hurts me to tell you this
But it kills me to keep it inside

And I’m alone with the present tense
Making plans is over rated to me
And I don’t speak in guarantees
Or at least not the kind that you need

I’m not your anchor so don’t hold on
I’m not the answer you got me wrong
I’m not your savior, save your energy
To find out who you are, yeah who you are without me

Oooh well I still believe in happy endings
But this just isn’t where I wanna spend mine
I believe in now I’ve said it
Oooooh

I’m not your anchor so don’t hold on
I’m not the answer you got me wrong
I’m not your savior, save your energy
To find out who you are,

I’m not a mirror look inside yourself
I’m not a hero you know too well
I’m not your savior save your energy
To find out who you are, who you are without me

Yeah, oooh

Kate Voegele

Currently Listening To: Who You Are Without Me - Kate Voegele

I Love My Cousins

most of all, i love how it's seriously more like brothers and sisters rather than cousins.

:)

congrats! :)

Currently Listening To: Glamorous - Fergie

He Did It Again!

k remember this post: Jack's Mannequin

well, he did it again! serious, every video, diff face. too much the fella. what a joker. and for that i'm gonna post all his music videos for you all to see. from most recent to not. well i'm not sure of the order so whatever la.

Jack's Mannequin "Swim"





Currently Listening To: Swim - Jack's Mannequin

Facebook Is Being A Bitch

so annoying. say can upload til 200 photos.

try cant. failed twice. so i try 150. FAIL AGAIN.

too much. so now 3 albums for 2 weeks. what crap.

oh well. anyway, the winter hols pics are up at my FB. go check it out. think there's quite a few awesome possum scenery pics. GO SEE! :D

****

looks like all i can do now is just hope for the best and not get caught.

****

was going thru all my documents to clear stuff up for more space. found a freaking 5 page word document. i typed. i wonder if i actually sent it at all or not. can't remember. 5 pages wei. giler. i had a lot to say.

****

i just realised i said that if she got it i would text her. but i didnt. =/ talk about fail texting skills.

****

k the comp is seriously eating my comp and study time. too much. but it's soooo good. :)

****

more kickass music:







Currently Listening To: Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson

Shit Catapult

this is keawesomenessan.

seriously, what an unlikely trio making awesome music.



props to Merv for the intro. that guy knows how to find good music.

Currently Listening To: Shit Catapult - Iiro Rantala New Trio

Google Ads Actually Help!

like for real. and no i'm not getting paid to say this.

k why? first of all, the ads relate to whatever you blog about right?

so a while back, i blogged about my broken skateboard right?

and then the ads were smart enough to find stuff about skateboards for me. (dunno if you guys see it) so yeah, there was one ad where is says skateboard, click here to find your nearest dealer in new zealand.

and well, since i was looking for one that time, i clicked la naturally to find right. and then i found out about Cheapskates located somewhere in City. and that's exactly where i bought my skateboard. :)






so THANK YOU GOOGLE ADS a.k.a GOOGLE ADSENSE! :)

Currently Listening To: For Real - Gensomaden Saiyuki

Sleep Being Devoured

i used to be a good boy who studied each night before sleeping when the new semester started.


:P


kk fine back to how it was tmrw. today is the day to enjoy. :)

well now i got motivation to finish labs and classes as fast as i can. and Tuesdays are so gonna rock. :DD

heh. yes i'm very proud of this. :) not best in the world. but awesome as to me.

Currently Listening To: Poison - All Time Low

Like A Kid On Christmas

heh heh heh.

i feeeeeeeeelllll so excitedy. hasn't reach yet. but i know it is going to VERY soon. :D

considering the hours i spent at the com lab trying to find the best one and the most worth it one, i think it has finally paid off. i feel proud of myself for doing the research and making a decision. :)))

but of course i couldn't have done it alone la. and on the top of my head i can think of 3 important ppl to thank; YL, for helping tons with the comunication with the seller and letting me use his comp and even paying on behalf of me while i was on hols. i bet to some extent i bugged him a lot too. sry man. then Isaac, for telling me whats good and not good. and Ray Tien for telling me to try and get a deal from the seller.

and with all these help. i got awesomeness. i just hope i can pick it up today, cuz i'll be restless as hell if i don't. i hope YL finishes SOlidWorks in time to go pick it up. hope hope hope.


Currently Listening To: Last Train Home - Lostprophets

This Makes Me Stressed Out

seriously, this comp issue is bugging the shit outta me.

at least now i'm confident enough to go buy a new one. as in, that's the right course of action.

but now it's the deciding how much is an ok price and a good deal. and how good do i want it. if i buy smth good, i want it to last pretty damn long.

but if i want smth good, then it'll cost more.

then there's the monitor and the keyboard and what not.

haih. so bugged out by this, why did u have to spoil. retard la.

STRESS.


and for a guy who LOATHES spending money, i reckon i'll be spending almost 2k or more this hols.

so for a while, please try not to make me spend money or even ask me to belanja u stuff or ask me to give you stuff which cost me quite a bit to get in the first place. thx

p.s.: just because i bought it, doesn't make it cheap or less valuable, so please understand why i hesitate to offer. it still cost me smth to get it.

Currently Listening To: Therapy - All Time Low

When It Rains, It Freaking Hailstorms

i've got a lot to complain about and a lot of things that are disturbing/irritating/bugging me.

i shall leave til after i get my comp.


on a side note, good stuff did happen too. so i shall blog about that for now.

like how everyone seems to be saying that we should have competed which i shall take as we played really well and we would have won. :)

it's nice doing something and people feeling that it's good enough to win a "competition". :)

unfortunately the song i like, most people can't appreciate, but yet they still thought we should win. that's pretty awesome.

ahhhhh. it feels good to do something good with my life.

plus the whole Tech Crew thing turned out really well. sure there were one or two mistakes. but it sure didn't turn out to be as stressful as what i thought it would be. i honestly had fun. :) the guys i was working with prob made it fun la. i'm glad that i could still laugh around with them while doing my job. awesome stuffs.

conclusion, not stressful, pretty fun stuff. :) dunno la why also. i think it's cuz Mamduh n Radin did give help to make my job easier. but really la, things went well, so i'm happy.

and i spent a long time just destressing in the comp lab here and not worrying so much abt my comp so maybe that's why i'm feeling better.

k gtg see ya.

Currently Listening To: We Still Kill The Old Way - Lostprophets

Why Am I Worrying About The Money?

k my mom is like "Go for the ski trip. nvm that it's expensive. these once in a while things must try"

and then she was also like "So after we visit you, you come back with us la"

and i'm like "What the. Money doesn't grow on trees la ok!"

haha. so weird right? normally it's the other way around. but yeah. dunno la. my parents want me to go back with them at the end of the year all. but pppssshhhh. no way la. what crap 4k to come back. so many reasons to come back. but got reasons to not come back as well. mostly people i don't intend on seeing ever again and also the hot weather.

but anyway. ya. i think mostly cause i don't wanna spend my money. cuz right now, since coming to NZ, i'm surviving on my own money a.k.a JPA la. eh actually ah, my ticket back home last year also i paid myself. plus the camera i bought also is my own money.

yeah, so i guess i know my parents want me to come back means that i'll be spending their money. which i seriously hate doing i guess.

why? i think i figured it out. it's cause i absolutely hate asking people for help. seriously. in anything i do. i prefer doing it myself. why? i just don't like bothering people i guess. i mean, they sure got better things to do. plus if i can do it myself, i'll do it. plus i don't like asking for help from people who don't really wanna help right? so yeah. if they offer fine. if not, i'd rather not. i think sometimes if they offer also i prefer not to.

another reason i like staying in NZ. i feel so independent. it's like how it'll be when i'm working. so it's like a glimpse of my independent future. pretty cool. what'll be cooler if i can survive 4 years here without relying on my parents. then i guess for the future i should be okay. i hope at least. haha.

so maybe that's why i'm kinda protective about money. cuz it's mine that i'm using and not my parents. they've got tons to worry about already. i don't need them adding me to their list thank you very much. haha.




BUT right, all this talk about going home at the end of the year makes me wonder........ hmmmmm......

Currently Listening To: Carousel - Linkin Park

Note-To-Self: Things To Do After Exams (Update 1)

Update:

1. record new vid
2. check website to choose equipment to rent
3. play around with photoshop
4. go watch Terminator (prob get it from the hub la)
5. watch Transformers tmrw
6. reply emails
7. reply facebook walls
8. reply facebook msgs
9. plan? for road trip
10. play Prototype
11. defrag comp
12. band prac for TN?
13. learn up sound stuff for TN
14. update CMSA website (already currently confused with the layout and stuff)
15. Flat Ground Ollie on flat ground
16. RELAX TIL I CAN DIE (prob not ever gonna happen)
17. Do all the TN stuff.
18. Buy new skateboard
19. UCSSS band prac
20. Learn songs for TN
21. Buy speakers!



wah so the list grows longer as i cross things out. great.

and really la. i think they really expect me to learn one song i've never heard before with the solo and all in less than a day. craps. good thing i can do it. well, we'll see how it goes during band prac tmrw.

and really la. i keep getting asked to play for ppl who want to play pop songs. and the more i play the pop songs, the more i realise i like it. haha. i mean cuz it's easy la. so it's fun. so it feels like i shall just end up being one of those guitarist people hire to play for pop stars. lol. i don't mind actually. those songs are actually fun cuz it's easy. haha.

Future Pop Star Guitarist? not bad. better than nothing i guess. haha.

Currently Listening To: Love Story - Taylor Swift

This Guy Makes Me Want To Learn Piano/Keyboard

The Rocket Summer. AWESOME band. i dunno why, but i listen to his songs, and the piano in it is awesome. like really. plus the way he sings his songs u can like so totally feel like he is REALLY feeling the song. like putting every emotion into the song. that makes you love and feel the song even more.

he really makes me want to learn piano man. seriously. so awesome.

Currently Listening To: Save - The Rocket Summer

Taking Back Sunday Contest!!

so right, Taking Back Sunday is having a contest. which is to play a song from their new album. so right, i need you guys help. cuz it's based on how many views and also ratings, i would like if you guys could just view the vid and rate. and i don't expect you guys to give like good ratings and all. just rate based on what you think la. cheers! man this is exciting! :D




Currently Listening To: Punk Rock Princess - Something Corporate

It's Time To Buy A PS3

because right, after playing a bit of Prototype, i realise i don't like it being laggy and hangy. so i realise, i should just buy a PS3 and enjoy. :)

well so far i've got 4 reasons to get one





:)

on a side note. Prototype is SO FREAKING COOL MAN. my hero Altair also loses to him. i wonder how Ezio will match up. the game trailer makes him look awesomeness. we'll see la.


sry. don't mind the gamer talk. :) i just love games. 13 games installed and counting. :)

Currently Listening To: Timberwolves at New Jersey - Taking Back Sunday

Honestly Never Thought It Would Happen

the unthinkable happened.


my skateboard board actually broke. like for real. that wood piece actually broke. how? i also dunno. i thought it should be able to withstand stuff. lol. lameeee.

but i found it real interesting and amusing that it did break. really. i dunno why. haha. here's pics anyway. smth the blog has been missing for a while.







oh and there's two good things that came out of this. i get to finally dismantle my board and see what's it like inside of the tyres and check out the bearing.


the bearings are really lame btw.



the other good side is that now i get to buy a new board! :D which i've been wanting to since the one i had was kinda lame and i don't even know if it was meant to do tricks. "so now i've learnt my lesson and shall not spend too little on a board." - quote of the year. :P

wheeee hols and shopping time!

Currently Listening To: Lifeline - Brooke Fraser

Note-To-Self: Things To Do After Exams

1. record new vid
2. check website to choose equipment to rent
3. play around with photoshop
4. go watch Terminator (hopefully tonight)
5. watch Transformers tmrw
6. reply emails
7. reply facebook walls
8. reply facebook msgs
9. plan? for road trip
10. play Prototype
11. defrag comp
12. band prac for TN?
13. learn up sound stuff for TN
14. update CMSA website (already currently confused with the layout and stuff)
15. Flat Ground Ollie on flat ground
16. RELAX TIL I CAN DIE

who said my holidays are free? :P

STILL ON A BOAT! THE BOAT ENGINE MAKE NOISE!

Currently Listening To: I'm On A Boat - The Lonely Island (ft T.Pain)