1000th Post

who'd have thunk it? i made it this far with blogging. 1000 posts. just on blogspot alone.

quite an achievement i must say. or it could just mean i blog waaaayyyy too much. lol.

but imagine, i've been blogging for 6 years now. that's pretty crazy long.

my style of blogging has changed so much. from writing long essays about my daily life to short posts abt random stuff and thoughts and stuff. a lot of things have changed to. like the sidebar stuff. people have been added, order changed, ads put in and all.

i must say it's been really fun blogging. letting out my thoughts and all. and having interesting conversations with people about my posts. makes me think and also makes them think. but i like when people challenge me to think as well.

and it's weird, from having one or 2 visitors a month or so, it's grown to about 10 ppl a day. even when i don't post stuff. to some extent it's scary. cuz i used to know who came to read. but now i have no clue. it's like random people are reading! so i learnt to watch what i say as the years went by. and it's weird also, cuz i've found out i got people i don't even know coming back to read what i have to say (yes my dear, this is you i'm talking about. hope your life went better than mine. :) ).

so how do i celebrate my 1000th post? i feel like i should do something special. so i'm going to make this post contain all the topics of my blogging style.

as i see it, i've probably got 4 ways of blogging: Talking abt daily life stuff (what's going on in my life), Random stuff, Stuff people who read this blog will go "what in the world is he talking about???", Thoughts, and Music.



so first, daily life stuff. well for me right now, things are going pretty good. back in Malaysia for now. enjoying it quite a lot. started my internship. however they don't really give me anything to do, which sucks la. it's like, they're not sure what to give. so most days i just sit at office and do nothing. yeah freaking 8 hours of doing nothing. haih. but i took off a few days so i could go to Youth Camp and also Family retreat. glad i did. i needed those two breaks. :) got to catch up and spend time with people i haven't seen in a while and got to know ppl better. hmmm. i'm also getting fatter! which is good and bad in a way. good cuz, well i need to put on wait. but bad cuz now all my six packs have become 6 flabs. :( yeah i don't go gym remember? so now i gotta at least do my own exercises to get back those packs! :) i realise also i've got a lot of friends i'm yet to meet up with. other than that, life is going good. this year has definitely been amazing. tons of bad stuff has happened. but some good stuff has happened to. in my life. changed perspective in a lot of things. met ppl i appreciate a lot. appreciated ppl more as well. so yeah. it's been a good year. :) yeah this is all i'll say about my life for now. :)


as for the random fact, i guess it'll be, i'm pretty good at board games like pictionary & cranium, where there's drawing and guessing. for some reason i can guess the random nonsense people draw even if it doesn't look like the real thing. i dunno how. but yeah. so apparently... i can read mindssssss. hmmmmmmmmmmm. :)


random:
i wonder if it'll ever be, k i'll give you what you deserve, even if i don't get anything in return.


the stuff you (possibly) won't understand:

it's like i'm lying and lying, but i'm not. it's just never come up.

it's hard for one thing to mean something, when everything means something, and you treasure everything. (exactly why i just wanted one gf. but if i ever find a girl who likes me and me her, i'll never let her go and make sure she feels like she stands out from everyone else in my life.)

i think i'm half letting myself not feel. cuz i know i can feel. that's probably what i'm feeling. it's the fear of feeling and being let down, which for my case, just seems inevitable. which sucks. but i guess that's my life.



k enough stuff that people may not understand what i'm talking about. hmm. so thinking time. well not really, but more like, my opinion on stuff. k title? Beating around the bush.

seriously, people should just get to the point of what they want. now i can relate to friend's post which said smth like, if you want help, say exactly what you want. don't go "Hey you free?" i mean for me la, i don't wanna answer questions like that, cuz i don't know what i'm getting myself into. why would i wanna say yes i'm free to something i don't wanna do? people should just say, hey you free to help me out to do this thing?". STRAIGHTFORWARD LA. seriously.

plus it's scary when people say, "eh i wanna talk to you one of these days." esp when ure a guy like me who's always screwing up, you wonder if ure gonna get sounded. i'd like to prepare for that pls. cuz a talk can be anything!

so seriously people, just get to the point! it's not hard. say exactly what you want. ure not gonna offend me if you don't start the convo with hi, how are you. as i see it, you should only ask if you really mean it. and most of the time, u got ppl who nvr talk to you, suddenly asking how r u. and u know the next few sentences that are going to come out is them asking you for help. and hey, i've got no problem helping. but i've got a problem when u act as if you care. seriously, just don't, and go str8 to the asking for help. it's much better that way for me. well i believe it is at least.

just mean what you say people! i've had too much of people saying stuff they don't mean to me. i can't take it la. so yeah. touchy subject. hmmmm.


NOW, the BEST part of the 1000th post! the music! so i'm going to post the song, and the video of songs i find are pretty awesome recently. and knowing the readers of this blog, i'll post the ones people i know in general will like the best first la k? k now then, enjoy! :)

Wonderwall



Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me (that saves me) 3X

Oasis

Mad Season


Video

I feel stupid, but I know it won't last for long.
And I've been guessing and I could have been guessing wrong.
You don't know me now, I kinda thought that you should some how.
Does that whole mad season got you down?

I feel stupid, but it's something that comes and goes.
And I've been changing, I think it's funny how no one knows.
We don't talk about the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around.

So, why ya gotta stand there looking like the answer now?
It seems to me you'll come around.

I need you now, do you think you can cope?
You figured me out that I'm lost and I'm hopeless.
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken;
I come undone.. in this mad season.

I feel stupid, but I think I've been catching on.
I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on.
You grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around.
What that whole mad season knock you down?

So are you gonna stand there, are you gonna help me out?
We need to be together now.

I need you now, do you think you can cope?
You figured me out that I'm lost and I'm hopeless.
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken;
I come undone.. in this mad season.

And now I'm crying, isn't that what you want?
And I'm trying to live my life on my own, but I won't, no.
At times I do believe I am strong,
So someone tell me why, why, why, do I, I, I, feel stupid.

And I come undone, well I come undone.

I need you now, do you think you can cope?
You figured me out that I'm lost and I'm hopeless.
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken;

Well I need you now, do you think you can cope?
You figured me out, I'm a child and I'm hopeless.
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken.
I come, oh, I come undone in this mad season.
In this mad season.
It's been a mad season.
Been a Mad season.

Matchbox Twenty

Terrible Things



I said you could count on me
But I wouldn't hold that breath my self
If I pass out on your floor
It's just a cry for help
Damnation, redemption, the cycle
She said "Look and see, you're the worst thing that's ever happened to me"

We're doing terrible things
Just doing terrible things
We're doing terrible things
Doing just terrible things

Still I can't imagine
My life without her
We can't live through this
Somehow we already were

We're doing terrible things
Just doing terrible things
We're doing terrible things
Doing just terrible things

We're terrible things
What are we doing?
Doing just terrible things
Just doing terrible things

Damnation, redemption, the cycle
Echoes through my ears
You're the worst thing, You're the worst thing
That's ever happened to me

I never tried it but i'm always up
Am I keeping up?
Am I keeping up?

I never tried it but i'm always up
Am I keeping up?
Am I keeping up?

We're doing terrible things
Just doing terrible things
We're doing terrible things
Why do we do it?

We're doing terrible things
(Am I keeping up? Am I keeping up?)
Doing just terrible things
(Am I keeping up? Am I keeping up?)

We're doing terrible things
(Am I keeping up? Am I keeping up?)
Doing just terrible things
(Am I keeping up? Am I keeping up?)
Such terrible things

Terrible Things

k so that's it! hope u had fun reading the 1000th post! :) now go enjoy ur life and don't sit in front of the comp! :) take care people.

and yes, this is hopefully the last post ever. i think i make ppl irritated and worried and dunno what with all the words i say. so for my own benefit, and urs, i decided to stop. :) been always wanting to, but now since it's reached a thousand, seems like a cool way to end. so ya. :)

bye everyone! :)

Currently Listening To: Terrible Things - Terrible Things

I Laugh At The Strangest Things

comment on a drummer, snareguy17, who did amazing on his cover of 30 Seconds To Mars' cover of Closer To The Edge.

"What kind of loser username is that?

snareguy17? Pfft.

Please change it to epicsnareguy17."

:)

lol. no idea why i find it so funny. must be cuz it looked like an insult but turned out to be an epic compliment. which makes the whole comment awesome/amusing.

cekap fellas la. both the drummer and the commenter.

Currently Listening To: Closer To The Edge - 30 Seconds To Mars

Just In Case You All Forgot

Nothing. Is what it seems.

But nothing's as it seems
Escape The Fate

Don't believe everything you read about me
(People talk, but it doesn't matter what they say)
Amber Pacific

just cause you see someone as something, you may build up certain expectations and assumptions about them.

so when you find out stuff about them, try your best not to think they changed, but more like, u just never knew that part to them.

and even when they actually do change, they might just have a reason which you can't understand for now for changing.

cuz hey,

Nothing is what it seems.

Currently Listening To: Three Words - Amber Pacific

Directly Proportional

how much you want something, is directly proportional to how much you will sacrifice, how much effort you put in, how much you won't give up.


and it's good to know, that sometimes, when you put a lot, you do end up getting what you want.


Currently Listening To: Deciphering Me - Brooke Fraser

It's A Secret

i just realised smth i said. and it's pretty awesome that i can say it.

what did i say?

this:

it's a secret, that's why i told only you.


:)

it's pretty awesome having someone you can trust to keep a secret i must say.



and yet again, i'm being happy, despite the fact the exam today was just horrible.

i think, i've had so many bad things happen in my life, that now, when things happen, since i've gotten so used to brushing them off, it's so easy to just brush it off and be happy.

i'm being happy when there's bad things happening. and the times i'm emo, is when my life is empty.

so, apparently, i function well, when there's bad things going on?



right.


lol.


and b4 i end, i must say this - I FOUND MY DREAMJOB.

details soon.

Currently Listening To: He Reigns - Newsboys

How To Know If A Joke Is Funny

simple. if u literally can't contain your laughter, it's funny.

it's like, if ure in the library, and u know u should be quiet, but, no matter how hard u try not to laugh at the joke u heard, u still end up bursting into laughter. while everyone around you stares at you wondering "what's wrong with this kid?/doesn't this kid know this is a quiet zone?"

and that's how u know a joke is funny. or how funny a joke is.

why am i talking abt this? cuz it happened to me.

was in the Grotto, and posted a FB status update which got a reply that made me burst out in a short laugh before i realised i was attracting attention. oh yeah, this was when it was pretty close to midnight and hence was pretty quiet in there. and i was tired. here's how it goes.


Me: Meng And Tuk
Joshua: tea door lah!


and for some reason i found that hilarious. i dunno why. maybe it's cuz Josh said it, but yeah. i just burst out laughing. sure it's not exactly a joke per say, but a play on words (and languages). but nevertheless, i found it funny as. haha.

good joke. good joke.

:)


(note: an understanding of malay is needed to get the joke.)

Currently Listening To: More Than Anything - Hillsong United

I Want To Highlight Certain Lines

but every single word suits. every single word.

read.

When I Get Home, You're So Dead

The words are coming I feel terrible
Is it typical for us to end like this
Am I just another scene
From a movie that you've seen 100 times
Cause baby you weren't the first or the last or the worst
And I've got to fill the blanks in the past with a verse
And we could sit around and cry but frankly your not worth it
Anymore

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

On any other day I'd shoot the boy
But your simple toy
Had caused a scene like this
Leave him hanging on the walls
Just a picture in the hall
Like 100 more
Consider this as a gift as you taste him on your lips
And he's making you scream with his hands on your hips
I hope he's leaving you empty baby this is just a fix
For such a simple little whore

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

And your name remains the same
All that has changed is this pretty face

So pull the trigger
It never gets closer
You want to start over
But never start over
(x2)

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Say hello, say hello ohh
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Mayday Parade

and yes. even the ones u didn't think applies, applies.

who'd have thought, lying would actually turn out to be worth it.

Currently Listening To: ...To Be Loved - Papa Roach

Listen To Barney Stinson

cuz when he says "Suit Up", you suit up.

:)

Currently Listening To: Pray Tell - Anberlin

Is There A Problem?

G: You asked me if there was a problem earlier. Yeah. There is one. We don't like you.

M: Heh. That's not a problem. ;)

- Pathology

>:)

Currently Watching: Pathology

So Apparently I'm Kinda Mean

so here's the thing, i got this friend organising this thing. and in the thing, there's like this entertainment part, which a member in her thing is organising. and, this person, let's name her A.

So A, thinks she knows it all, wants to do everything her way and won't listen to other ppls suggestions. not even her superiors a.k.a my friend.

so my plan, which i mentioned to ppl when we were talking about this issue is this: when A's entertainment thing is done on the event day, i would casually walk behind her, while (acting like i'm) talking to my friend and say "Yeah, this thing is pretty awesome, cept for that entertainment bit which was crap." loud enough so she can hear it.

and surprisingly, a lot of ppl were shocked at how mean i am/could be, which btw, i def don't think i'm being mean at all. which is kinda weird. i mean, hey, this girl is being a bitch thinkin she's right and not listening to my friend who is actually the leader of the whole thing. so yeah, why should i be nice to someone who's being a bitch to my friend? and yeah, i do think being "mean" to her is justifiable.

hey, she's my friend, i'd def have her back if ppl mess with her. and yes, that includes being mean to those who mess with her.

i'm not mean. i've just got my friend's back.

:)

Currently Listening To: Guernica - Brand New

Sometimes, The Hub Can Give You A Good Laugh

[19:34] SilentNub> has ne1 here played the game singularity?
[19:35] Catalyst> im going to say no because its shorter than yes, as you said ne1 because its shorter than anyone
[19:35] Catalyst> so no
[19:35] SilentNub> ...
:D

lol

Currently Listening To: Breakin' - The All American Rejects

It Just Only Happens, Everytime

and then you went and proved (once again) it was all just a lie.

things said was from the spur of the moment.

i guess i kinda expected more than a "yeah finally i got what i want (without trying again)" and then just leaving it.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?

You Found Me
The Fray

funny how i'm always the one trying to fix things when it's not me who screwed up.

k i have to learn not to take ppl's words seriously. esp if they're alone and emotional. hmmm

i really gotta learn to accept that a leopard can't change it's spots. and i've been learning to accept the things i deserve instead of crap. (but then again, i deserved what i got. hmm)

oh well, time to chill out and relax.

so going away for a few days.

Currently Listening To: You Found Me - The Fray

Inspirational Advice From My Mom

read.

now apply it.

Currently Listening To: Wasting Time (Eternal Summer) - Four Year Strong

Not Good Enough

not that easy now. ;)





on a side note. i'm not emo anymore. and haven't and won't be emo. so calm down. everything's good now. :)

Currently Listening To: All Day - Hillsong United

Owned

seriously. owned. i dunno what to say.

[~:¦| βεη Ј |¦:~]© - Airplanes says:
dont' get distracted by fb!
Face your book!

yumey says:
i am texting
and facebooking
hence
i'm textbooking
textbooking = studying
GOOD ENOUGH ;A



gg.

Currently Watching: South Park - Season 8 Episode 2 (A.W.E.S.O.M. - O)

Because, I Don't Believe In Love Anymore

it's funny, we were talking about all the people getting married and stuff.

and then i was asked, when am i getting married.

and i thought about it, and considering all that has happened to me, and quite possibly, i probably won't get married. that's what i said too.

i mean what's the point. as i see it, there's quite possibly no girl in this world whom i could/would fall for, who would actually love.

there's no more love in the world. just lust. what the eyes and the flesh wants.

i think i've come to believe that there's no girl who could love without lust.


so yeah. i'm not interested. at all. cuz in today's world, i don't believe there's such a thing as just love anymore.




if i can actually find someone, whom i can fall for too, then i might get married.

but i doubt it.


love is dead.



but the bright side is, doesn't mean i can't be happy. :)

Currently Listening To: Picture - Kid Rock

Why You Shouldn't Let People Affect The Things You Wanna Do

seriously tho. if you let ppl affect the things u wanna do, ure nvr gonna be able to do it. some things in life, u just gotta do it.

from where i see it, in my life, if i saw it like "crap, if grow my hair long, and str8en it, everyone is gonna think i'm some sorta girl doing girly things". and if i did that i would never have had my long hair. but thankfully, i don't care what ppl think that much. so i did it. and i've no regrets in keeping my hair long. i had a gr8 time having it long.

another example, skateboarding. here, it's like only the kiwis are the ones u'll see skateboarding. and i can think "crap, i'm not a kiwi, so i shouldn't be skating. plus no other malaysian does it.. bla bla bla." but no. i can skate so why should i think like that. so i told myself do it. why take 15 mins to get to class when u can do it in 5 mins.

there's a saying:

"You miss 100% of the shots you don't take."

hmmm.

honeslty, if it's something that's not going to ruin ur life in any way. just do it. if your heart wants to do it, and it's not wrong. then do it. are you really gonna let what ppl think affect you so much that you end up just doing things to please other people.

so they might end up thinking ure weird, poser, trying to act cool etc. but as long as you know what reasons ure doing it for, then why should you worry what they think abt you.

u'll only worry if u know they're right. and if they're right, well then u've got a problem of being fake.



and speaking of being fake, sometimes, i feel like i'm going to burst at how some people can be so fake. in front of you, they'll talk nicely, and behind your back, hah, u know la.

the best part is, these ppl are the ones who are the most affected by what others say. they must be on the nice list of everyone. and they end up being fake. it's so annoying! cuz they say stuff to please others. and have no backbone. the moment someone says smth different. they change their view. ugh. their main goal is to get ppl to like them. and the way they do this is by being fake.

as for me, i really can't stand it. just be real la. if ppl don't like it. then change! i mean, ppl are not going to hate smth good. so if they hate you, then there's smth bad abt you. and there's nth wrong with changing smth bad.


k my rant seems random as. but it's basically coming from the fact that ppl who are affected so much by what ppl think that they end up being fake and "got no balls" to stand up for what they believe in.

come on! man up!

I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me

Fall Out Boy

Currently Listening To: I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy

The End Of It All

thx Manjuli for the pic.

says everything i need to say

Currently Listening To: Consuming Fire - Hillsong United

My Cousin Said It Right

"No, not all Indians are "black" and yes, there are Indians that are " fair".And so what if we're EITHER? At least we've come to terms with it and have learnt to embrace what God has given us. What's with your obsession about our skin colour anyway?"

finally i know that i'm not over reacting. or being over sensitive and there are ppl who feel the same way as me.



and it's funny to note the ppl who make the comments abt the skin colour as well.

Currently Listening To: Always - Hillsong United

Miracle

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Paramore

pretty cool lyrics. :)

and no. you can't just pick the ones you want to hear. you take it all. :)

don't pretend you didn't see/hear/read what i said. don't ignore it. do something about it. :)




the more i think about it. the more i realise what's happening. the more i'm setting my life str8. the more i see what i should be doing and what shouldn't hope for.

the more i realise how to be happy i guess.


i have to not let this matter. and it'll work out gr8. :)

i'm in a pretty okay mood. cept reading msn convo history and all the things said. esp the things that are a huge deal treated like none. haih.

but be happy! :)

FRIDAY.


if only i could go earlier. haih.


OFF NOW. :)

Currently Listening To: Feeling Sorry - Paramore