Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Jeremy Davis of Paramore

this guy got skills weiii.. seriously. i thought what he did in the Pressure vid was just an act since like all music videos are sort of just acts. but then since i watched the DVD of The Final Riot Jesh got me for Christmas, i was shown to be wrong. the guy damn pro man. seriously. cuz he does it live. this is a must watch vid! seriously. esp for all musicians!

Currently Listening To: Born For This - Paramore

Monday, December 29, 2008

Games I've Played This Year

i think i've done justice to my gaming laptop. and i'm proud of myself. so here's what i've finished playing this year. the only ones i didn't finish is Far Cry 2 and Fallout. basically cuz both were extremely boring. and Race Driver: GRID also didn't finish. too hard for me. =/

k that's all. one end of the year update done. :)

Currently Listening To: Hope For Every Fallen Man [Acoustic] - Relient K

Friday, December 26, 2008

Youth Camp

okayyyy. so yes there's been a lack of updates. well, surprisingly enough, i've actually been busy the few weeks i've been home, day AND night as well. like really busy with stuff. tho i've had time to come online, no time to blog. and currently since it's the day after Christmas and it's in the morning i'm kinda relaxed now (for now la. from afternoon onwards busy til night di. haha), so i thought might as well blog.

so first off youth camp. k i dun really feel like talking abt all the stuff that went on in camp la. it's kinda boring for me to do so and i'm kinda hoping someone else wud do it. haha. but to me, i really enjoyed this camp. like a lot. and like the whole time there i was trying to figure out why. then when i came back, Uncle Ravi sorta pointed it out. u know why i enjoyed myself? simply because i didn't have any responsibilities. yeah. that was the simple reason.

i wasn't part of the committee, i wasn't a group leader, i wasn't in charge of the room and i wasn't in charge of my sis also (but she's grown up and can take care of herself anyway. haha) but yea la. i had nth to worry abt. and that's like the way i liked it i guess. it's jus peaceful u know, like not worrying abt anything can go and lepak and do stuff u want during free time. the only thing i was bound to was worship practices and stuff. which was kinda bad cuz it ate up my free time and also my meal times. but yeah. still i was FREE! i was finally a camper relaxing and enjoying. it sorta reminded me of 2004 YC where i didn't have anything either and cud relax as well. well that time not fully relax la since i had other stuff and worship prac as well. but yea. smth like that.

other than the relax times i also got to meet new seriously damn cool ppl. ppl like Jervis, Sai, Joyce, Alisha. seriously cool stuff. and got to know ppl better too. and my team was like Cekap la! Ju-Hann was the leader of Intersection. and we almost won. and actually cud've won if any of us decided to hand in our book. but that's the thing u know, even if we didn't win, it didn't seem to matter, i still had fun with my team and doin all the stuffs with my team and all. it's no doubt la that my team was the best even if we didn't win. i love my team man. prob another reason why i enjoyed YC.

this feels like a commentary for some reason. ish. anyway, camp was cool also cuz i managed to lepak with the ppl i dun normally lepak with. like all u know la, not my gang sorta ppl. i even sat with Euodia and Mel at that emo bench and jus lepak and talked that one night. it was cool. plus both of them are damn funny and can really make u laugh. and also got other ppl as well la, can't really remember who and stuff but yeah la. i liked YC cuz of the lepaking with others and all.

yeah. that's abt it that i wanna say la. i seriously enjoyed myself. it's definitely the ppl la. and the stuff we did. :) oh and my angel was damn cool. he said he nvr gave me anything cuz he didn't have the time, but i got three things "from him". haha! cekap la. haha.

oh and the camp site was super nice and cekap also. shud go again next year. unfortunately i dun have any photos yet since luke has to stll edit some photos and Euodia can't find her usb cable and dunno what else. but anyway, some are up on FB. so check it out there. :)

sry Jo if there's not much explanation abt the camp. jus felt like talking abt me and camp. haha.

Currently Listening To: S.O.S - Rihanna

Monday, December 22, 2008

Did You See It?

so did you see it?

did you see nothing is what it seems?

or did you just accept whatever you saw?

some things seems simple but are far from it.

and sometimes you're looking at it from the wrong perspective. or wrong point of view.

so, now what did you see?


But nothing's as it seems

Escape The Fate

Currently Listening To: Breakin' - The All-American Rejects

Thursday, December 11, 2008

The Lie That Was For Your Own Good

so please understand. it was for your own good.

i didn't tell you guys for a reason.

so that if anyone were to ask you, you wouldn't have to lie.

that's all.

sry but it had to be a secret and it still has to be.

Currently Listening To: Sic Transit Gloria.... Gloria Fades - Brand New

Monday, December 08, 2008

Expect Disappointment

i just feel so numb.

i dunno. i guess when i read what i read, i didn't expect to hear that. maybe i expected something more... of higher values? hmm.

i dunno. it's just disappointment. it seems like i'm trying to fix the world but it just keeps falling apart. why? why don't ppl see what's right and wrong? what gives them this skewed perspective? is it friends? is it family? is it just because of rebeliousness? or is it just because they don't know? but if they didn't know and they were told, would they want to accept it? it scares me to know that most probably they wouldn't. they'd rather not choose to sacrifice something eventhough they know it's wrong.

maybe i expect too much of ppl nowdays? i guess i want to live in a world where ppl who are supposed to be good do the right things. and have the right mindset.


and why do i care so much?

apparently it's Messiah Complex according to Sanjit. and it sucks.

the only way to beat this is to not care.

and like ppl have been saying in blogs these past few days, possibly the only way to not be disappointed it to not expect at all.


in other news...

my results i got back. i'm actually not happy with it at all. maybe cuz i also had the impression it's easy as to do well. haih. i dunno. i just feel... like i didn't do well enough for some reason.

actually i did do well, it's just that one subject that i'm not happy about. i mean, i totally didn't expect to do badly for that sub. and i did badly. maybe it's the term test that brought me down. or maybe everyone else did well.

honestly, i don't have a reason to complain actually. i definitely didn't study as hard as the others. heck far from study hard. i should be rejoicing at the grades i got.

but aih. i guess i'm just greedy. and not satisfied with what i have. i know i have to study hard. but can i even do it? i need to change! for my own sake! haih. i hope next year is diff.


i miss Yih Ren. i miss playing with him so much. cuz he and i like practically memorised all the bits and parts to songs that we don't need practice all we need to do is play.

it's like that time at Youth Camp last year. he on drums and me on bass. it was just a random session that we had. just "oh hey, let's jam" and there we were playing like 4-5 songs back-to-back without even practicing.

now that's jamming. and even if we messed up we managed to like fix it without stopping the song. and we knew when the song when to the verse and what not.

so yeah, i miss Yih Ren. wish there were more ppl like him. then we cud prob form a band or smth.


yeah i'm pretty emo today. possibly cuz i'm tired too. enjoy reading.

Currently Listening To: Run - Hillsong

Friday, December 05, 2008

The Edge

Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break!

Linkin Park

Currently Listening To: One Step Closer - Linkin Park

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Jam (Khoo 2008)

-verb (to be used manglishly)
1. The state someone gets into when faced with something unbelievable, shocking or illogical. Sometimes followed by whole body freezing with blank or shocked expression on face.

e.g: When i read what she wrote, jam.

lol. Bernard, feel free to edit. drop a comment or smth. :P

Currently Listening To: Hit The Lights - Bullet For My Valentine

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Like Flipped 180?

hahhaa. i dunno what to say la.

k in situation A, it would be better to use method 1 la. but some ppl decide to use method 2 which is more expensive. tak logic man.

and in situation B, both ways is fine la. but like method 2 i think is more normal. but now method 1 is used. win la.

and blaming the person for dying when you caused them to die? that's like super win. hahahahha!

sry for a cryptic post Jo. but i think u may understand la. or maybe not. haha.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Thank You

such a perfect song. heard it this morning. i dunno what else to say wei. haha. i guess this wud go under the songs where if i had to highlight any bit of the song i wud have to do the whole song.

I thought that I could always count on you
I thought that nothing could become between us two
We said as long as we would stick together
We'd be alright
We'd be ok

But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back


I wonder why it always has to hurt
For every lesson that you have to learn
I won't forget what you did to me
How you showed me things I wished I'd never see

But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

When the tables turn again
You'll remember me my friend
You'll be wishing I was there for you

I'll be the one you miss the most
But you'll only find my ghost
As time goes by
You'll wonder why
You're all alone

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

Simple Plan

Currently Listening To: Thank You - Simple Plan

I Like Today

yeah i really did. it's probably just the way that there were no rules u know? like i could do anything and wasn't bounded by factors like time, parents, studies or anything. today was what a holiday was like for me: just sitting and chilling and talking and doing stuff with my friends. it was nice. :)

i love being back. :) (i would say it must be cuz of my friends, but my friends are all perasan ppl so i probably better not =P)

and now i'm wondering whether i should go for the NCO retreat or not. i mean, it's not like i have anything better to do here. plus i still wanna lepak also la. hmmm. to go or not to go?

and on another note, i'm actually curious why noone else has actually asked me anything abt it. ok la. one person did. but that's diff case. haha. no la, i mean all the ppl i expected to ask didn't. maybe cuz they don't care or they expected it. or maybe i expected too much. haha! oh well, whatever, just let the wrong expectation go la. hmmm.

fuh. my longest post in a while.

oh ya. Malaysia is hotttt!!! melts!

oh and Dana can drive. not bad. hahahah!

Currently Listening To: This Moment - Disturbed

Well Just Maybe Some Overreaction

but i reckon it's pretty normal.

finding out your life is just gonna end suddenly one day.

but maybe freaked out too much.

haih. i guess guys like me shudn't know the future. or shud i just say "future".

Currently Listening To: Dear Maria, Count Me In - All Time Low

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Strong Word

hmm someone once said that hate is a strong word.

i can safely say i know what they meant.

Currently Listening To: The Pinky and The Brain

Friday, November 28, 2008

Brilliant Idiot

got this from caleb's friend's blog. MUST WATCH!

i dunno who is dumber. the guy on the car or the driver.

Currently Listening To: Situations - Escape The Fate

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

After Watching The Bird And The Worm

this is what someone said after watching The Bird and The Worm video i posted a few days back:

".... i don't think i'll be able to sit on a couch peacefully again :S..."


Currently Listening To: Planetshakers - Saved The Day

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Things Change

and making it seem like it didn't is hard.

and noone can find out cuz noone will understand.

things change.

and it causes people to change.

and most of the times it isn't into something good.

Currently Listening To: Wake The Dead - The Used

Monday, November 24, 2008


Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cuz I fear I might break
And I fear I can't take it
Tonight i'll lie awake
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all the days that we spent
Carry away from home

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go

I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
But I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me


Currently Listening To: Pressure - Paramore

Friday, November 21, 2008

Asian Food

u know right, for this whole year so far i've been here, the only times i've actually gone out to eat asian food is when somebody else wants to eat asian food.

like really. not ONCE have i gone out to go buy asian food.

i've never even had the urge to want to buy i think.

hmm. i think i'm really half kiwi di. haha!

prob the only part still malaysian abt me is my speech la. haha!

Currently Listening To: Addicted - Simple Plan

My New Room

sooo yaa.. time for an update.

k like some of u know, i've moved out of Uni Hall and moved to Ilam Village. both are residential halls except Ilam is self catered. so yes that means i'll have to be learning how to cook. hahaha!

anyway, i tot i'll just post up pics of my room.

nothing much yet la. still needs loads of deco to come in and stuff. the pics are like on the day i was moving stuff and all. so yea la it'll be messy and not so fancy. sry. haha

Kitchen view from living room
Living Room

Dining Area
Hallway to Kitchen and Living Room
My Room From Door
My Door From Room

kk that's all. seeya!

yes i'm still dying of boredom. trying to get NFS.

Currently Listening To: The Sharpest Lives - My Chemical Romance

Thursday, November 20, 2008


Ben J has gone to visit his aunt in Rotorua. (that's in the North Island)

will be quite busy and not updating much.

be back soon.


Currently Listening To: Friends And Alibis - Escape The Fate

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

It's The Beard La

i promise. that's prob the only reason i never get my ID checked.

so far whenever i dun shave and keep a beard, then i go and buy stuff that requires ID, i have never been asked for ID.

i prob look damn old man. haha. so next time if i forget my ID, all i have to do is make sure i have a beard! hahaha

and on another note, those two dining hall server girls are so funny la.

i find it so cool how they're fascinated with my hair. it's really quite amusing.

one of them was "OMG i love his hair i love his hair!" today.

hahahha. and she says that when i'm standing right there in front of her. damn cute la both of them. hahahah.

it's nice to see ppl like what i do with myself. hahahahah

so hah! see Karen! some ppl don't find my hair "scary". hahahah.

k la. i'm prob high on syiok sendiriness now. hahah.

Currently Listening To: I Write Sins Not Tragedies - Panic! At The Disco

Obviously Hidden

u make something so obvious, nobody will guess it's hidden. ;)

Currently Listening To: There's No Solution - Sum 41

Monday, November 17, 2008


k Ben is bored.

but Ben has things he's been doing.

you could say he's busy.

he's has been packing stuff and moving them to Ilam Village.

he shall post up pictures soon.

he shall go off now

*i swear the bored is the one typing in this weird manner. it's not me. seriously

Currently Listening To: Blurry - Puddle Of Mudd

Saturday, November 15, 2008

The Difference Between You And Me

"see? that's your problem. that's why you'll never win.

you're here to teach me a lesson.

i'm here to kill you."

i think i need my own fight club.


Currently Listening To: Times Like These - Foo Fighters

Thursday, November 13, 2008

The Bird and The Worm

the video may be disturbing. so watch only if u are brave enough to handle it.

He wears his heart safety pinned to his backpack
his backpack is all that he knows...
Shot down by strangers whose glances can cripple
the heart and devour the soul...

All alone he turns to stone
while holding his breath half to death
Terrified of what's inside
to save his life
he crawls like a Worm from a Bird
(crawls like a worm from a bird)

Whispers of...(just keep working...just keep terrified)

Out of his mind away
pushes him whispering:
"Musta been out of his mind..."
Mid-day dillusions of pushing this
out of his head
make him out of his mind..

All alone he turns to stone
while holding his breath half to death
Terrified of what's inside
to save his life
he crawls like a worm...
(crawls like a worm!)
crawls like a Worm from a Bird

crawls like a worm from a bird
crawls like a worm from a bird
crawls like a worm...
crawls like a worm from a Bird...

Now he knows
if he can't relieve it, it grows...
and so it goes...
he crawls like a worm...
(crawls like a worm from a bird)

out of his mind away
pushes him whispering: musta been outta his mind

All alone he turns to stone
while holding his breath half to death
Terrified of what's inside
to save his life
he crawls like a Worm from a Bird

All alone he's
holding his breath half to death(holding his breath half to death)
Terrified to save his life
he crawls like a worm (crawls like a worm)
crawls like a worm (crawls like a worm)
from a bird...
crawls like a worm from a bird
crawls like a worm from a bird

Currently Listening To: The Bird and The Worm - The Used

Monday, November 10, 2008

If You Get Past Me, You're Quite Set

i dunno why la, but somehow, i'm the type of person who will try to find all the wrongs and faults in a certain idea.

it's like when someone suggests smth, i will question it til i find myself comfortable with it.

k just for the record, i don't do this to piss anyone off like i'm purposely trying to find fault. it's just that i wanna know that this idea is good la. it's not gonna fall flat.

i mean, to me la, no point having a plan that is pathetic and can't stand on it's own right?

unfortunately, most of the ppl i know, hate this. even if they don't say it, you can just feel it la.

it's like i'm just supposed to agree and not question just cuz i know them.

prob to them i'm really annoying, but like to me, they are the annoying ones. prob it's jus a Malaysian thing la. like we're just so nice to each other that when an opposing opinion comes abt, the stress level just rises and there's tension in the room.

it's kinda weird la. cuz i'm there chilling and just pointing out stuff, and the other person there is getting all stressed up. hayooo. relax la.

but yeah, i've had no choice but to try and control it seeing certain ppls reactions. i know now that i can't give them proper feedback on their opinions cuz they can't take it.

hey, i'm jus doin it for ur own good la k.

it's like if you get past me, your plan/idea/suggestion is good. i'm not saying i'm like the guy who's so great that u must come check with me and all. no. i'm jus saying that ur idea is better since i will most prob look at the wrongs that might come out of it and if you have an answer or good explanation then cool la. only you benefit right?

i'm not that pathetic to take enjoyment in watching you look bad. i've better things to do than try and make u look bad. it's not my intention also to make u look bad by questioning ur ideas.

gah. words just don't flow the way i want it to la. i'm prob talking in circles. wtvr la.

Currently Listening To: This Photograph Is Proof (I Know You Know) - Taking Back Sunday

Sunday, November 09, 2008

You Can't Go Wrong There

to me, you pretty much can't go wrong with emo hair. haha.

it's like ur "coolness meter" just goes up a few notches. hahaha.

but! the problem is, some ppl who want the hair, don't want the label emo. too scared of what ppl think. esp since emo ppl are like 'persecuted'.

well, if you care what ppl think sooo much, then gone la, ure never gonna get what u want.

emo hair is cekap la. seriously. haha. jus like my hair. cept it's not really that emo. cuz i dun wanna comb it that way. it's seriously annoying when it gets into ur face.

which reminds me, i shud blog abt my hair soon. haha.

k i'm obviously bored that's why i'm here. oh well, see ya!

Currently Listening To: Perfect - Simple Plan

Friday, November 07, 2008

Done With RA3

and now on to Fallout 3! hahaha.

Currently Listening To: When I Get Home, You're So Dead - Mayday Parade

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Caleb's Logic

k so Caleb asked me last time whether i will get FB last time. and since i was still doing the challenge that time (i guess we shall call it the period of challenge), i said i will never get it to him.

so according to him, eventhough the challenge was with my sister, he wins. just cuz i said i will never get FB to him and now i do.

i dunno la how come i din challenge him or he didn't challenge me also he can win. can someone explain to me? hahaha.

and yes. this is all posted with Caleb's permission. He asked me to go and post this actually.
(*k update: he asked me to go and post this up last time. but now he said i don't have to. and post if i want to. so yea. now i'm posting cuz i want to)

so ya. here it is. but i need to know what logic is this la. haha.

Currently Listening To: Rough Landing Holly - Yellowcard

Band, Song, Album Are All The Same!

u know what'd be cool?

if a band, had a song which is also the name of the band, from their album which is also the name of the band.

not bad right? i mean, do u know of ANY band that has a song which is the same name as the band? i seriously don't. but if u do let me know la.

see that's why it'd be so cool to have a song with the same name. if from the same album somemore, then wah. super chun. haha.

and if it does actually happen after this, remember! u saw this idea here first! :D

Currently Listening To: Champagne's For Celebrating (I'll Have A Martini) - Mayday Parade

Wednesday, November 05, 2008


i honestly do not see why all the people who don't live in US, won't be living in US, not a single bit of American blood in them and pretty much have NOTHING to do with America (other than tv shows), care so much about who won the Presidential Election.

like it's fine if they jus want to know. hey knowledge is important right? but for those ppl who say "YAYYY Obama won" "I was rooting for him the whole time!"

like seriously? you didn't even vote. He's not the president of YOUR country.

somebody please explain why it affects them so much. i seriously wanna understand why it's so important to them.

Currently Listening To: Dear Angel - April Sixth

That's Pretty Cool

i picked up 150++ friends in 2 days.

mmg like everyone was waiting for me to come also.

i had like 20 requests b4 joining itself. then when i joing and didn't approve anyone for 2 weeks, got like 72 requests.

then after joining more came in. giler. didn't expect that at all.

famous also kot. hahahahah :P

Currently Listening To: Can You Feel The Love Tonight - Elton John

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

So This Is Officially My First Day of Holidays

and i spent so much di. ish.

but it was worth it!

aaahhh. i'm so glad i found Escape The Fate. i mean it honestly can't be found anywhere.

and the Switchfoot. well i thought of buying a CD from them. and since got the greatest hits. well, good la. then bought la.

but hayoooo. expensive la. haha.

nvm worth it. :D

Currently Listening To: When I Go Out, I Want To Go Out In A Chariot Of Fire - Escape The Fate

Monday, November 03, 2008

1 Year Down, 3 More To Go


exams are done!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

hahaha. as u can see the blog is back open! so for all the ppl who actually asked why is the blog closed and why you couldn't log in and all, I EXPECT YOU TO READ ALL THE POSTS I POSTED SINCE I CLOSED IT K!

and just for the record the blog was closed off to EVERYONE. i didn't remove anyone from the readers list or anything.

so yea. exams are over. what shall i get up to now? :D hahaha i dunno

k see ya!

Currently Listening To: In This Diary - The Ataris

Sunday, November 02, 2008

It's That Smell Again...

i know that smell....


Currently Listening To: Start The Machine - Angels & Aitwaves

Saturday, November 01, 2008


i like how it was sorta like an unspoken rule that day.

"what happens here, stays here."

Currently Listening To: Time Stands Still - The All American Rejects

Friday, October 31, 2008

Red Alert 3

WOOO HOOOO! it's here! and it looks so nice!

i'm in love with the water! still haven't played the game yet. but went through all the tutorials so far.

and there's quite a lot of interesting stuff they added and changed. cekap la. lets see now how it'll go.

i think i'll prob finish RA3 b4 Far Cry 2. FC2 is kinda boring la. and RA3 looks so nice! :D

k time to sleep. then ENGR102. haih. it's gonna be a tough paper. :(

Currently Listening To: Life For Rent - Dido

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Ben J

i like the nickname.

it's something i came up. plus i dun think i've seen anyone else use it.

it's become like my identity. which is cool la.

i mean i could like call ppl and say, hey it's Ben J here. and they would know who i am.

that i must say is pretty cool. and ppl actually calling me that is also cool.

i actually made a nickname for myself that actually sticks.

cool. :)

(p.s.: Su Teng! check out the song i'm listening to. pretty cool. yeah this is random. nth to do with the post. haha.)

Currently Listening To: Prepare The Masses - A Change of Pace

Monday, October 27, 2008

I Don't Get It

seriously. it doesn't make sense.

i mean, what do you do when you stumble across somebody's Friendster profile or smth else AND that person is someone you know.

and when i say someone you know i limit it to actually knowing the person la. like can talk and chill and all. not like those meet one time and then dunno whether will see again.

i mean logically, you add the person la. i dun get why some ppl who know you can come across ur page then just do like dunno. doesn't make sense.

the worst part is they can actually come and tell you something like "oh i saw ur friendster page that day" and then didn't add.

i dunno la it just doesn't make sense to me. chances are these ppl wud rather add like those 1 time meet ppl. why? to keep in touch konon la.

just dun get it. and NO i will NOT add you either esp after knowing you came and didn't bother. like why should i? pffft.

no this is not about getting more "friends" to show off la k. pls la. not that shallow. how many friends also wanna compare. i think if you REALLY want to compare, then compare who will actually stick by ur side la k. sheeesh.

this post is just about how i don't get why there is no add. guess you tak kenal me la for some reason.

fine. and i thought i was the one who forgets ppl face and name easily.

k la. i'm like so talking off topic now. rubbish la. haha. k ciao

Currently Listening To: B.Y.O.B - System Of A Down

Just My Luck

seriously la. it's just my luck la.

when i go over my internet limit and things go slow, that's when i'll have users to download from.

and so i get slow download speeds. what rubbish la. when i had a fast connection cannot give la now? haihh.

then when things are slow also the Camp Promo comes out. so it takes forever to load one second or it doesn't load at all.

just my luck la. ish. i have a feeling FB apps are the ones that ate my bandwidth. see FB is just pure evil la. why la why. ish.

Currently Listening To: Jersey - Mayday Parade

Sunday, October 26, 2008

So Why Take A Photo?

if noone should see it?

now i remember.

cuz it's for my memory.

so i don't forget.

Currently Listening To: Cutting Deep - Sound The Alarm

Friday, October 24, 2008

Live Music Albums

k if there's any reason to get live music albums, it's to just listen to the variations they make in some songs.

yeah, most of them stay original and don't change. but some of them are awesome. and i guess if u put urself as an audience during the concert when the album was filmed. it prob feels more cool.

so far i haven't really listened to that much la. jus heard like The Black Parade is Dead and Louder Now: Part Two. and not all are greattt variations of the song. but there are some notable ones.

k from the Black Parade is Dead i can only remember It's Not a Fashion Statement It's A Deathwish (from the DVD part not the music one of the album). such a cekap intro! tho the song itself isn't that great, but the intro is soooo cool la. k maybe cuz i imagine it again la. but still! like wow! damn good stuff la. go listen.

then from TBS's Louder Now: Part Two got a few. Liar, Error: Operator and What's it Feel Like To Be A Ghost. seriously all three got a cekap intro. for liar the guitar was cekap. then for Error the bass intro was damn nice. i like the way he went into the song. cekap la.

GO LISTEN TO THEM. and if u know anymore live cool tracks with cool intros and stuff LET ME KNOW! :D

Currently Listening To: The End - My Chemical Romance

My Wallpaper Is Hot!

why? simple. cuz it's Brooke! it's MY Brooke! :D

and she looks sooooooooo hottt in this photo k. like wow! :D so happy i found this wall. :D

k back to studying!

but how to keep my eyes off the comp now la? hahahahaha


Currently Listening To: Help Me - Nick Carter

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Less Than 3

neo7: i less than three you post!!
post: i less than three you too neo7!!

hahahhahahah! these hub-ers are pretty creative i must say. haha!

do you get it? =P

Currently Listening To: Slide - Goo Goo Dolls

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


k just for some rectifying, is it rectifying? whatever. k i need to sort this shit out so i shall explain the whole process of things that happened. (that recitfying crap is all from Russell Peters. damn i'm addicted la to him. haha.)

k it all started when my sister came back in the middle of last year. and since india is soooooo maju, they already had facebook la. b4 all the slow noobs in Malaysia started it (k now i think of it, it's the slow noobs in Malaysia's fault la i din get FB early enough to avoid the challenge).

so yeah la. she was telling me u shud get facebook. and i'm like what for? i already got friendster. and at that time i guess i tot FB was gonna be a failure like hi5 or smth. (how bloody wrong i was.) so i said la, k no i won't get FB, cuz it's jus me to want to fight anything ppl say la.

so yea. then she also came out with a challenge. k not really a challenge but i took it as one la. she said, you wait la, in a few months time, ure gonna get facebook. and being the guy who loves challenges i said pfffftt.. u wait la. i won't get facebook.

SO YEA. thats the basis of this story. my long struggle against facebook.

do you know how hard it is to tahan? esp with all u ppl laa. ish.

first EVERYONE will be talking abt their facebook applications and how fun it is and bla bla bla. it feels for a moment it's like u walked into a nerd convention a bit where they jus talk abt comp stuff and all. and ure like the dude who knows nothing abt comps and ure sitting there with no clue wtf is happening.

that was fine la. still not so bad. i mean there was a lot of ppl asking me to get also but yea i tahaned.

then things got worse this year. cuz apparently, all invites and stuff are sent out thru facebook. and even photos! yea i know! like part of my life i can't get. photos! but nvm la tahan tahan.

then UCICFC also post the next game playings on FB. and i'll always be the alst to find out cuz i dun have. ish. nvm nvm.

then Malam came, and all the photos from Malam were posted on FB. and i got tagged in photos eventhough i din have FB. ish.

ppl like RAYMOND (who has tagged like prob almost 10 photos of me), Yuen Leung, and Gloria also. all tagging me and pressuring me to get. and i'm like shit! it's photos of me. i want! and how else am i supposed to get photos la otherwise. i mean some photos can get from Li Ying cuz she can put on the hub. but those ppl who dun live in the halls? yea i can ask them, but they purposely won't give. ish.

OOHHHH and i din mention why photos i need. well it's cuz i dun have a camera. and when i say camera i dun mean camera phone which is cacat. so yeah.

yeah, went for the thing on sunday. and my BIGGEST regret was that i din have a camera that night. so how la? how am i supposed to get photos?? and everyone is like do you have FB?? and i'm like nooooooooo......

damn i want my photos!!!!

so yeah. finally when i couldn't tahan this anymore, i now have facebook.

i bet EVERYONE now is like :O:O:O:O:O:O

and i bet Raymond is laughing away now that i have it. ahhaahha.

yes yes i have it. and i know i'm never gonna hear the end of this from everyone. hahaha.

i'm still lost in FB. i have no idea to do most of the stuff there. i think friendster is easier still. and there's no who's viewed you thing which i dun like. and there's no when was the last log in also. which sucks. for now i'm still liking friendster better. but haih, no choice la. how esle to get photos. and since it's easy to get. oh well la.

since joining i actually got 40+ notifications from them. sheeessssshhh. my mailbox will be full fast. sure of it.

and i guess getting it now is ok as well. i mean, i did prove my sister wrong and lasted like a whole year plus without getting FB. and i must say that's very impressive. see la. CAN ALL YOU FB-ERS tahan a year without it or not?? sure;y u can't right?? hahahahaha.

so yea. i shall end this rectifying stuff with i'm pretty awesome for tahaning something so seducing for so long. :D

haihhhhh. Facebook. sheesh.

*and to Yuen Leung and Sam! it's not why u think i joined k! but it IS to get photos from that night la. hahahha!

Currently Listening To: Disappear - Anberlin

Monday, October 20, 2008

Dream Come True?

k i like drew this so giler long ago. and now i actually have hair like this! or mostly like this.

dream come true? hahaha.

Currently Listening To: Manhattan - Midtown

I Guess It Makes Sense

cuz i mean i hardly ever get angry in front of ppl. and i hardly scold anyone in real life.

heck i dare say that i'm pretty much laughing at everything in life. even at things that shudn't be laughed at. yeah i know i shouldn't but yeah.

so when i give a sarcastic comment or jus sound a bit angry ppl freak out.

hayooo. chillax la. i mean if i dun get angry in real life, jus cuz i sound sarcastic or anything doesn't mean i'm really angry la. ish. i can control my anger la k. i dun get upset over rubbish stuff.

chillax k. seriously.

Currently Watching: Russell Peters - Red White and Brown

Sunday, October 19, 2008

What A Night

seriously. it was great, damn typing this also susah sgt. lol.



i totally need to get facebook now.


Currently Listening To: House Music

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Notice Of Closure

k so this blog is now gonna close down for the next 3 weeks. nope not even privatised. cuz k la, i know that if i leave it open, i'm gonna keep coming back here to see who visits and stuff.

so since study week and exams are coming up, i really need to concentrate. so i'm trying to cut out all the distractions. so this place will totally be closed off. to EVERYONE. and yeap now my blog is open to all. just for this sunday. then monday comes and EVERYTHING will be closed off.

so yeah. just letting u guys know la.

My exams are like follows:

28th - EMTH171

30th - MATH109

1st - ENGR102

3rd - PHYS113

and then after that, i shall be FREE! and this place will open again. k so see u in 3 weeks. bye!

Currently Listening To: Yesterdays - Switchfoot

For JSE & Jo

k since u guys asked me of movies to watch, i shall post this for u. and also cuz i can't fit everything into the chatbox la. haha. k anyway, here are some movies that i kept in my comp la. so i guess these are the one i remember. i'm sure there are others as well so yea. k here goes.

  • Felon
  • I Robot
  • Ironman
  • Shooter
  • Number 23
  • Dark Knight
  • Fight Club
  • Hellboy 2
  • Taken
  • Little Miss Sunshine
  • Green Street Hooligan
  • Terminator Trilogy
  • 21

Yeapppp. pretty much that's it. so go and choose la. which ones u haven't seen then go watch. newer ones are like Felon, Shooter, Hellboy 2, Taken. yeap enjoy.

oh and definitely must get is Russell Peters - Red White And Brown! i've seen it like 6 times already. hahahahhaa. k now go forth! and get multiple movies! =P

Currently Listening To: Dare - Gorillaz

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Key Word: Trying

k i was seriously TRYING to study. key word. but failed.

but continued later and have no idea which is proper time and dilated time now. or even proper length for a moving object and stuff. like which goes to which part of the equation??

haih. Physics.

Currently Listening To: Black Burning Heart - Keane

Contacts Sial

like wow. i'm actually amazed at the lengths ppl go la. haha. with the contacts all. networking man. lol. haha!

that seriously amused me. good job ben. good job. i think the greatest plan was telling ppl different dates la. and not revealing the real one. haha.

i impressed myself again. not bad. hahahaha.

Currently Listening To: Rise To The Challenge - Asian Dub Foundation

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


k that just pisses me off as well. i mean come on! Fall Out Boy isn't just Pete Wentz la k! ish. i hate it when like one member of the band gets like all the face coverage of the band. like ppl will only know one guy from the band.

the band is SO NOT JUST ONE GUY LA K! they like overplay the role of that one guy when in fact he isn't that great also. seriously la. why is Pete Wentz the star (or so it has been made to seem) of Fall Out Boy?? what about Patrick? or Joe? or Drew? too much la.

and this sooo doesn't go for this band only. other bands also kena. i'd hate to be in a band where everyone knows just one guy from the band and doesn't know me. what rubbish is that.


Currently Listening To: Risque - Cute Is What We Aim For

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Fake It

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self esteem along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down...

And just fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite

And you should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down...

And just fake it, if you're out if direction
Fake it, if you don't belong here
Fake it, if you feel like infection

Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite
Whoa, whoa

I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it with the best of 'em all
I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it all

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self esteem along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped man
Follow me down...

And just fake it, if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite

Fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite


Currently Listening To: Fake It - Seether

Monday, October 13, 2008

In Times Of Pissed Offness

ppl will do crazy things when they're in rage.

crazy and stupid things.

theory has been proven.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Things That Piss Me Off

so i was doing a lot (trust me when i say a lot) of thinkin since i've been not blogging. and i decided that i'm gonna put up stuff that piss me off. heck, i'm going to even create a label for such posts.

so today i'm going to start it off with ppl who are CLEARLY wrong but won't admit.

it's seriously PISSING OFF. first of all, all the facts are there. the reasons why you are WRONG have already been told. all the reasons why you are wrong have been given. clearly and logically. but just because you wanna see urself as RIGHT, you won't admit. cuz you can't be wrong la right? ure too good to be wrong. rubbish la.

what's worse is that they will purposely try and find some way to justify their wrong. or find some excuse to make their wrong not seem so bad. mahai. still want. wrong means wrong la k. there's no "oh but at least this this this all didn't happen right?" or "since nothing happened from there, it's ok la." or "it's only a bit wrong what, so it's ok." RUBBISH la. no such thing as half wrong k.

gosh some people have the nerve la. this is what happens when ur ego becomes too big.


Currently Listening To: This Is Who We Are - Hawthrone Heights

Monday, October 06, 2008

Meeting @ Burger King

Disclaimer: the next few lines are the all real life conversations based on purely real people. any similarities to any fictional character living or dead is purely coincidental. some lines have been omitted as the writer was not able to keep up with the conversation.

p.s.: i'm so glad i took 'minutes' for that day. i still can laugh looking back and reading it. haha.

No need la. This is not meeting. Just chilling out

Li Ying:

Yuen Leung:
Eat it la. I dare you.

Om nom nom nom

You think this is msn is it??

Yuen Leung:

*All stares at Ben*

All stare.... Cilaka!

Then we talk more see if Ben can keep up.

Yuen Leung:

Li Ying:
Then we send Yuen Leung go refill.

Since you like to write so much then you write for me next time. See then he's going to write that down.

Yuen Leung:
If this is a sea horse, then what is this?

Li Ying:

Yuen Lueng:
If this is a condominium then what is this?

what else? Come.

So easy.

Didn't ask me.

Li Ying:
No. yea la yea la yea la. Oh this one. I think i heard before.

Cannot ah. i dunno.

Yuen Leung:
Also a wave la.

Oh my precious sky!

Yuen Leung:
I think you miss out a lot.

Li Ying:
We go to the other table. see what he does.

Oh ya. lets do this. we pass around.

Li Ying:
but i thought it's in the book? So the team got another one?

then Gloria pass to me to to do for the team.

Li Ying:
i don't have pen. Yuen Leung. Eh i thought it Loong. Did you write affirmation for me?

Yuen Leung:

Li Ying:
Just asking

Yuen Leung:
Oh no my pen.

*All go quiet as they write the affirmation*

Li Ying:
eh Farid wo pu tong smth smth...


Yuen Leung:


stopped there cuz i wrote one whole page long di. haha.

Currently Listening To: Burn This City - Cartel

Sunday, October 05, 2008

I Blog Too Much

well, according to many sources (and even myself) i blog waaaayyy too much.

so in light of that. i'm going to cut down. like REALLY cut down.

so IF you actually want stuff to read go read all the posts i've put up recently. cuz i know there's noone who's actually read all. haha.


and bye for a long time. :)

p.s.: things have been good and happyfying the past few days. :) of course i could wish and hope for so much better. but who says i deserve better? nobody really knows right? so i'm just being happy with the small things that i get. yeah. things have been good. :)

Currently Listening To: Breaking - Anberlin

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Can You Find A Bluer Sky?

i think the sky here is cekap. this photo is not photoshopped or anything. quite nice right the sky. macam some professional photograph only. haha.

^ original photo.

which u think is nicer? hmm.

quite a random post. haha.

Currently Listening To: Swim - Jack's Mannequin

2 = 60 or 20 = 90?

well i just found out from Shuang Xiu that i can call home for $2 and talk for 60 mins. cheap eh? Thanks Shuang Xiu!

cuz i was like previously buying phone cards which cost $20 and can last only 90 mins.

well technically for 90 mins i wud use $4 la. (cuz it's jus $2 for 60. fixed time-money thing.) of course i have to make two calls la. end the first one b4 it goes over 60 mins and then make the next one.

but still! 4 bucks compared to 20??? whoaaa. super cheap okay. now i'm gonna save on phone bills calling home also. yeay! :D but of course it has to be like those long calls where i spend 60 mins talking la. haha.

coolness la vodafone. :D

Currently Listening To: Take It All (Backing Track) - Hillsong United

Jack's Mannequin


Andrew McMahon has managed to look different in every single one of his music videos.

and i couldn't even tell if it was the same person.

not bad.


Currently Listening To: The Way - Parachute Band

Another Can You Handle The Truth?

cuz what i read, i agree with what Jo said.

he explained it really well as well.

so yeah. if you can't handle the truth, then don't bother clicking the link.

and if you do, read every word. seriously.

quite well thought out writing.

k go read.

Link 1

Link 2

Currently Listening To: Penny and Me - Hanson

Friday, October 03, 2008

But I Don't Wanna Sleep Just Yet

i'm bored as.

like totally. i'm like stoning in front of comp.

i feel tired but yet i dun wanna sleep.


got all THOSE issues making me think and bugging me also. haih.

what do you want from me? what do i have to do for you to leave me alone? words mean nothing to me anymore. so don't come to me with words. just leave me alone.........



yih ren msged me!

k now i got smth to do for the next few mins. :D

Currently Listening To: Someone That You're With - Nickelback

Last Day Of Freedom?


today was a good day i reckon.

managed to do most of my physics tutorial and hand it in. (well at least i hope she did hand it in on time. and to the right person. holy crap. i just realised she may not know which tutor is mine! YL!!!)

nvm. i shall hope for the best. haha.

finished math assignment too. don't really hope much on that. don't think i did some parts right for those. but i think shud be an OK mark la.

EMTH171 test went really well imo. i think i did part 1 all correct i hope. and finished both parts of part B with a thumbs up and good job from my tutor. so hopefully that'll be good. and all under 45 mins. haha. but then again, when things go too well, something may be wrong. hmmm.

my hair today looked really good too. like i think la. not so puffy. seemed more straight and flat. haha. maybe cuz i slept on it or smth la. haha.

missed ENSOC BBQ today tho. :( cuz it was 10 bucks for entry so i tot stuff it. might as well save money. but i did get to practice some guitar la. so not so bad.

and got dinner too cuz Uni Hall dinner was cancelled due to food fight. thx for the Bak Kut Teh Raymond! i think it was pretty good. i mean i dunno what's it supposed to taste like la. but yea i tot it was nice.

watched Everything Is Spiritual also. pretty interesting show. i think i managed to grasp most of what he was saying la. The Pro-Skater pastor guy. haha.

and watched Iron Man for the fourth time too. and yea. i would really say that's a good movie. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY better than Transformers. k actually my third time watching wasn't fully la. so maybe 3.5th time watching? haha.

aaaahh. pretty good friday imo. haha.

but tmrw open house and football. and have to squeeze in Skills Test practice and also Lab report somehow.

hmm k i shall celebrate by watching my new Smallville ep. thx Vince!

see ya!

Currently Listening To: Open Up The Gates - Planetshakers

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Work Work Work

i have a lot of work i need to do.

but i'm not in the mood at all.

i just feel so....




life is full of what ifs.


what if....


Currently Listening To: Situations - Escape The Fate

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

The Best Tattoos

are self designed.


well to me it is.


Currently Listening To: The Resistance - Anberlin

Saya Rasa

lapar siot.....

ntah la knape.

but i think it's psychological also. cuz i know i have food so i can be hungry.

too much la my mind. psyco-ing me all. ish.

Currently Listening To: F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X - The Fall Of Troy

I Smell...


mucho sneakyness.


Currently Watching: House Season 5 Episode 3

It's RAYA!

Selamat Hari Raya! :)

Currently Listening To: Raya Song

Monday, September 29, 2008



the new CMSA website is like.. ZOMGWTFBBQ awesomeness!

Mamat is the man la. seriously.

cekapness la. haha.

check it out! --->

Currently Listening To: House Of Wolves - My Chemical Romance

Now That I Think Of It...

i really think it's like one of those movie things la.

how it happened in real life i also dunno.

i doubt it happens in real life la. ish.

i'm refering to the even that happened earlier today when i walked into a tiang .

cuz i wasn't paying attention. k la it was cuz of a girl i guess. ish.

stuff like this only happens in movies laaa... how come can happen to me. ish.

then got some random guy on the bus laughing at me somemore. too much. ish.

ok u all can stop laughing now too. double ish.

my life is apparently a comedy movie la. nonsense betul. ish

Currently Listening To: April Sixth - Dear Angel

I Don't Have To

cuz i really don't have to.

cuz i'm tired of making everyone happy.

doing things i don't wanna do.

seeking approval in their eyes in doing things i don't want to do.

things in fact i don't HAVE to do.

just so tired of all this.

so yea.

i find comfort knowing i don't HAVE to.


Why should I
Have to try
To fix things i didn't create or contrive?

Currently Listening To: The Night - Goodnight Nurse

Sunday, September 28, 2008

I Wonder

i wonder if there'll ever be a day when if you didn't like something someone did, you could and would actually go up to the person and tell them that instead of just keeping it in ur heart and hoping the person will find out somehow.


Currently Watching: Fringe Episode 1 Season 1

I Want My Games Back

this sucks! :(

after i uninstal got ppl playing COD4 quite often.


but i know it's for my own good. but i wanna play. they played for an hour plus that day too! :(

now i'm so tempted to install COD4 again. haih. shud i? hmm.

and my stupid CD burner screwed up in burning my CD. so the last two songs can't play prop.


but walking back after futsal jus now listening to the songs i've burnt was happyfying. :)

and Shooter is a damn good movie. like really. k maybe cuz i like COD4 la. haha.

k better bathe and study and do online quiz and math assignment and laundry. k bye!

Currently Listening To: Breaking - Anberlin

Saturday, September 27, 2008

One Small Step For Me

one giant step to becoming and getting what i want.

i don't see it as a loss.

cuz i've seen and noticed the things noone has noticed.

and i believe i know better.

i'm just protecting myself from suffering.

and stepping closer to my goal i want to achieve. :)

regret? definitely not. :)

and i can predict what's gonna happen.

so must learn where to step away from the line of fire.

and smile and walk away. :)

Currently Listening To: Casting Crowns - Stained Glass Masquerade

Do You Feel

currently listening to the Do You Feel album by The Rocket Summer (which apparently a one man band), and for some reason, with every song i listen to, i just feel like switching to the song Do You Feel.

i guess it's just that time when i'm addicted to a song again. haha. but seriously, the song is really that good. i liked the video too. and the song has a real good meaning as well. combined with the video = epic win. so yea.

get the song. :)

I'm thinking 'bout other things I heard about today
All this week and tomorrow
And how these hands could create some better things for bettering
but you see for now I got my own things
I can't help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching can heal the world
Lip service makes us look great

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your things?
Yeah we all have our things I guess

I guess my mind wanders off
from time to time
Sometimes I convince myself
that all is fine in the world
It's not mine
Why should I
have to try
to fix things I didn't create or contrive

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have so many things

Have the habits
Had you
Has it been for long
Can you feel the souls behind what's going on

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your own things
Yeah all have our things

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your things
'Cause we all have so many things
And I can't get past these things


Currently Listening To: Hold It Up - The Rocket Summer

Nuffnang Ads

k i must say, nuffnang ads jus PISS ME OFF.


cuz they seriously SLOW down the loading of the page by A LOT.

when i'm on broadband sure it's fine. but then on diap up... pfffftt. have to wait so long b4 the rest of the page can load.

seriously pissing off.

so ya.

random smth i had to say. haha.

Currently Listening To: Ammunition - Switchfoot

Friday, September 26, 2008

Song Suggestion For CD 5

k la. i really dunno what songs to put di for my CD 5. nvr planned for the CD la. but yea. currently liking the bunch of songs u see there la. i think i need abt 1 or 2 songs more.

so if u got anything u think i may like based on my songs that u see. feel free to suggest smth and i'll take it into consideration. thx. (i really wonder if i'll get any replies from this request. haha.)

and so far, the best CD's i've burnt is still CD 1 a.k.a Disc One and CD 3 a.k.a Rocking Disc. such great CD's. i have a feeling this one will be good too. i think the skill is in not rushing to make a CD. jus slowly along the way make one. haha. and so far right, the odd number CD's are the cekap ones. haha! so CD 5 shud be good.


Currently Listening To: There's No 'I' In Team - Taking Back Sunday

Don't Place A Bet On Something You'll Lose

cuz that's pretty much placing a bet with me la.

cuz i don't bet unless i can win.

which i guess is pretty much not a fair chance to you since i already know i'm right and i'm gonna win.

so yea. when i insist on something and am willing to bet on something, it pretty much means i'm gonna win.

so just don't bother la. finding the time to prove you right is really a waste of my time.

don't be stubborn and accept:

Ben = right.


Currently Listening To: Take This To Heart - Mayday Parade

Thursday, September 25, 2008


so cool

it even has live cut scenes. for the first time. not the half animated ones.

so so cool.

can't wait.

Currently Listening To: Rough Landing Holly - Yellowcard

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

The Number 23

damn good show.

definitely a must watch.

go. watch. i give you leave to do so.


Currently Listening To: 23 - Jimmy Eat World

I Look Like Someone

you know right, i was looking at the pic we took during CS's bday.

and right, i think i look like Howie D like how he looked like in the call video.

the only pic i cud find. go watch the video to see properly

hahaha. what u think? got resemblance? =P hahahhaa

funnily enough i actually sang his part when we performed in form 2. haha!

Currently Listening To: The Call - Backstreet Boys

Cuz Hardly Anyone Says So

cuz honestly, noone has ever said that to me.

and yeah, i have myself to blame with the way i let ppl see myself.

and considering i was trying hard to get it, when i finally got it, man, it was so fulfilling. :)

and i know it was honest and sincere opinions.

cuz the ppl who said it don't know me that well to know what i wanted or should hear.

aaahhh. it was jus happyfying la k.

now i can prob die happy. :)




Currently Listening To: Can You Keep A Secret? - The Cab

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

If You Wanted A Song Written About You All You Had To Do Was Ask

i like these lyrics. esp the way it's sung.

take me home
i'd rather die than be with you
take me home
you have a problem with the truth
take me home
because this happens every time
and i knew it would...
i knew it would...

Mayday Parade

No i'm not emo. haha. just listening to some emo songs that sound nice. haha.

Currently Listening To: So What - P!nk

Yes I Know Thx

yes. i know i don't fit in.

and i know i never will.

i've known since the start.

i'm dealing with it. and i must say pretty well considering i stick out like a sore thumb.

so don't rub it in and try to make things worse. even if it is unintentionally.

i'm not a kid. though i can act like one, i know the right things to do and not to do.

i suggest you realise that too. and don't act like a kid either and don't treat me like one too.


for making me feel out of place even more.

Currently Listening To: Prepare The Masses - A Change Of Pace

Monday, September 22, 2008

7 Months Later

16th Feb 08

22nd Sept 08

what a diff. haha.

and Happy Birthday Choon Seng! :)

Currently Listening To: Burn This City - Cartel