Friday, October 31, 2008

Red Alert 3

WOOO HOOOO! it's here! and it looks so nice!

i'm in love with the water! still haven't played the game yet. but went through all the tutorials so far.

and there's quite a lot of interesting stuff they added and changed. cekap la. lets see now how it'll go.

i think i'll prob finish RA3 b4 Far Cry 2. FC2 is kinda boring la. and RA3 looks so nice! :D

k time to sleep. then ENGR102. haih. it's gonna be a tough paper. :(

Currently Listening To: Life For Rent - Dido

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Ben J

i like the nickname.

it's something i came up. plus i dun think i've seen anyone else use it.

it's become like my identity. which is cool la.

i mean i could like call ppl and say, hey it's Ben J here. and they would know who i am.

that i must say is pretty cool. and ppl actually calling me that is also cool.

i actually made a nickname for myself that actually sticks.

cool. :)

(p.s.: Su Teng! check out the song i'm listening to. pretty cool. yeah this is random. nth to do with the post. haha.)

Currently Listening To: Prepare The Masses - A Change of Pace

Monday, October 27, 2008

I Don't Get It

seriously. it doesn't make sense.

i mean, what do you do when you stumble across somebody's Friendster profile or smth else AND that person is someone you know.

and when i say someone you know i limit it to actually knowing the person la. like can talk and chill and all. not like those meet one time and then dunno whether will see again.

i mean logically, you add the person la. i dun get why some ppl who know you can come across ur page then just do like dunno. doesn't make sense.

the worst part is they can actually come and tell you something like "oh i saw ur friendster page that day" and then didn't add.

i dunno la it just doesn't make sense to me. chances are these ppl wud rather add like those 1 time meet ppl. why? to keep in touch konon la.

just dun get it. and NO i will NOT add you either esp after knowing you came and didn't bother. like why should i? pffft.

no this is not about getting more "friends" to show off la k. pls la. not that shallow. how many friends also wanna compare. i think if you REALLY want to compare, then compare who will actually stick by ur side la k. sheeesh.

this post is just about how i don't get why there is no add. guess you tak kenal me la for some reason.

fine. and i thought i was the one who forgets ppl face and name easily.

k la. i'm like so talking off topic now. rubbish la. haha. k ciao

Currently Listening To: B.Y.O.B - System Of A Down

Just My Luck

seriously la. it's just my luck la.

when i go over my internet limit and things go slow, that's when i'll have users to download from.

and so i get slow download speeds. what rubbish la. when i had a fast connection cannot give la now? haihh.

then when things are slow also the Camp Promo comes out. so it takes forever to load one second or it doesn't load at all.

just my luck la. ish. i have a feeling FB apps are the ones that ate my bandwidth. see FB is just pure evil la. why la why. ish.

Currently Listening To: Jersey - Mayday Parade

Sunday, October 26, 2008

So Why Take A Photo?

if noone should see it?

now i remember.

cuz it's for my memory.

so i don't forget.

Currently Listening To: Cutting Deep - Sound The Alarm

Friday, October 24, 2008

Live Music Albums

k if there's any reason to get live music albums, it's to just listen to the variations they make in some songs.

yeah, most of them stay original and don't change. but some of them are awesome. and i guess if u put urself as an audience during the concert when the album was filmed. it prob feels more cool.

so far i haven't really listened to that much la. jus heard like The Black Parade is Dead and Louder Now: Part Two. and not all are greattt variations of the song. but there are some notable ones.

k from the Black Parade is Dead i can only remember It's Not a Fashion Statement It's A Deathwish (from the DVD part not the music one of the album). such a cekap intro! tho the song itself isn't that great, but the intro is soooo cool la. k maybe cuz i imagine it again la. but still! like wow! damn good stuff la. go listen.

then from TBS's Louder Now: Part Two got a few. Liar, Error: Operator and What's it Feel Like To Be A Ghost. seriously all three got a cekap intro. for liar the guitar was cekap. then for Error the bass intro was damn nice. i like the way he went into the song. cekap la.

GO LISTEN TO THEM. and if u know anymore live cool tracks with cool intros and stuff LET ME KNOW! :D

Currently Listening To: The End - My Chemical Romance

My Wallpaper Is Hot!

why? simple. cuz it's Brooke! it's MY Brooke! :D

and she looks sooooooooo hottt in this photo k. like wow! :D so happy i found this wall. :D

k back to studying!

but how to keep my eyes off the comp now la? hahahahaha


Currently Listening To: Help Me - Nick Carter

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Less Than 3

neo7: i less than three you post!!
post: i less than three you too neo7!!

hahahhahahah! these hub-ers are pretty creative i must say. haha!

do you get it? =P

Currently Listening To: Slide - Goo Goo Dolls

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


k just for some rectifying, is it rectifying? whatever. k i need to sort this shit out so i shall explain the whole process of things that happened. (that recitfying crap is all from Russell Peters. damn i'm addicted la to him. haha.)

k it all started when my sister came back in the middle of last year. and since india is soooooo maju, they already had facebook la. b4 all the slow noobs in Malaysia started it (k now i think of it, it's the slow noobs in Malaysia's fault la i din get FB early enough to avoid the challenge).

so yeah la. she was telling me u shud get facebook. and i'm like what for? i already got friendster. and at that time i guess i tot FB was gonna be a failure like hi5 or smth. (how bloody wrong i was.) so i said la, k no i won't get FB, cuz it's jus me to want to fight anything ppl say la.

so yea. then she also came out with a challenge. k not really a challenge but i took it as one la. she said, you wait la, in a few months time, ure gonna get facebook. and being the guy who loves challenges i said pfffftt.. u wait la. i won't get facebook.

SO YEA. thats the basis of this story. my long struggle against facebook.

do you know how hard it is to tahan? esp with all u ppl laa. ish.

first EVERYONE will be talking abt their facebook applications and how fun it is and bla bla bla. it feels for a moment it's like u walked into a nerd convention a bit where they jus talk abt comp stuff and all. and ure like the dude who knows nothing abt comps and ure sitting there with no clue wtf is happening.

that was fine la. still not so bad. i mean there was a lot of ppl asking me to get also but yea i tahaned.

then things got worse this year. cuz apparently, all invites and stuff are sent out thru facebook. and even photos! yea i know! like part of my life i can't get. photos! but nvm la tahan tahan.

then UCICFC also post the next game playings on FB. and i'll always be the alst to find out cuz i dun have. ish. nvm nvm.

then Malam came, and all the photos from Malam were posted on FB. and i got tagged in photos eventhough i din have FB. ish.

ppl like RAYMOND (who has tagged like prob almost 10 photos of me), Yuen Leung, and Gloria also. all tagging me and pressuring me to get. and i'm like shit! it's photos of me. i want! and how else am i supposed to get photos la otherwise. i mean some photos can get from Li Ying cuz she can put on the hub. but those ppl who dun live in the halls? yea i can ask them, but they purposely won't give. ish.

OOHHHH and i din mention why photos i need. well it's cuz i dun have a camera. and when i say camera i dun mean camera phone which is cacat. so yeah.

yeah, went for the thing on sunday. and my BIGGEST regret was that i din have a camera that night. so how la? how am i supposed to get photos?? and everyone is like do you have FB?? and i'm like nooooooooo......

damn i want my photos!!!!

so yeah. finally when i couldn't tahan this anymore, i now have facebook.

i bet EVERYONE now is like :O:O:O:O:O:O

and i bet Raymond is laughing away now that i have it. ahhaahha.

yes yes i have it. and i know i'm never gonna hear the end of this from everyone. hahaha.

i'm still lost in FB. i have no idea to do most of the stuff there. i think friendster is easier still. and there's no who's viewed you thing which i dun like. and there's no when was the last log in also. which sucks. for now i'm still liking friendster better. but haih, no choice la. how esle to get photos. and since it's easy to get. oh well la.

since joining i actually got 40+ notifications from them. sheeessssshhh. my mailbox will be full fast. sure of it.

and i guess getting it now is ok as well. i mean, i did prove my sister wrong and lasted like a whole year plus without getting FB. and i must say that's very impressive. see la. CAN ALL YOU FB-ERS tahan a year without it or not?? sure;y u can't right?? hahahahaha.

so yea. i shall end this rectifying stuff with i'm pretty awesome for tahaning something so seducing for so long. :D

haihhhhh. Facebook. sheesh.

*and to Yuen Leung and Sam! it's not why u think i joined k! but it IS to get photos from that night la. hahahha!

Currently Listening To: Disappear - Anberlin

Monday, October 20, 2008

Dream Come True?

k i like drew this so giler long ago. and now i actually have hair like this! or mostly like this.

dream come true? hahaha.

Currently Listening To: Manhattan - Midtown

I Guess It Makes Sense

cuz i mean i hardly ever get angry in front of ppl. and i hardly scold anyone in real life.

heck i dare say that i'm pretty much laughing at everything in life. even at things that shudn't be laughed at. yeah i know i shouldn't but yeah.

so when i give a sarcastic comment or jus sound a bit angry ppl freak out.

hayooo. chillax la. i mean if i dun get angry in real life, jus cuz i sound sarcastic or anything doesn't mean i'm really angry la. ish. i can control my anger la k. i dun get upset over rubbish stuff.

chillax k. seriously.

Currently Watching: Russell Peters - Red White and Brown

Sunday, October 19, 2008

What A Night

seriously. it was great, damn typing this also susah sgt. lol.



i totally need to get facebook now.


Currently Listening To: House Music

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Notice Of Closure

k so this blog is now gonna close down for the next 3 weeks. nope not even privatised. cuz k la, i know that if i leave it open, i'm gonna keep coming back here to see who visits and stuff.

so since study week and exams are coming up, i really need to concentrate. so i'm trying to cut out all the distractions. so this place will totally be closed off. to EVERYONE. and yeap now my blog is open to all. just for this sunday. then monday comes and EVERYTHING will be closed off.

so yeah. just letting u guys know la.

My exams are like follows:

28th - EMTH171

30th - MATH109

1st - ENGR102

3rd - PHYS113

and then after that, i shall be FREE! and this place will open again. k so see u in 3 weeks. bye!

Currently Listening To: Yesterdays - Switchfoot

For JSE & Jo

k since u guys asked me of movies to watch, i shall post this for u. and also cuz i can't fit everything into the chatbox la. haha. k anyway, here are some movies that i kept in my comp la. so i guess these are the one i remember. i'm sure there are others as well so yea. k here goes.

  • Felon
  • I Robot
  • Ironman
  • Shooter
  • Number 23
  • Dark Knight
  • Fight Club
  • Hellboy 2
  • Taken
  • Little Miss Sunshine
  • Green Street Hooligan
  • Terminator Trilogy
  • 21

Yeapppp. pretty much that's it. so go and choose la. which ones u haven't seen then go watch. newer ones are like Felon, Shooter, Hellboy 2, Taken. yeap enjoy.

oh and definitely must get is Russell Peters - Red White And Brown! i've seen it like 6 times already. hahahahhaa. k now go forth! and get multiple movies! =P

Currently Listening To: Dare - Gorillaz

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Key Word: Trying

k i was seriously TRYING to study. key word. but failed.

but continued later and have no idea which is proper time and dilated time now. or even proper length for a moving object and stuff. like which goes to which part of the equation??

haih. Physics.

Currently Listening To: Black Burning Heart - Keane

Contacts Sial

like wow. i'm actually amazed at the lengths ppl go la. haha. with the contacts all. networking man. lol. haha!

that seriously amused me. good job ben. good job. i think the greatest plan was telling ppl different dates la. and not revealing the real one. haha.

i impressed myself again. not bad. hahahaha.

Currently Listening To: Rise To The Challenge - Asian Dub Foundation

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


k that just pisses me off as well. i mean come on! Fall Out Boy isn't just Pete Wentz la k! ish. i hate it when like one member of the band gets like all the face coverage of the band. like ppl will only know one guy from the band.

the band is SO NOT JUST ONE GUY LA K! they like overplay the role of that one guy when in fact he isn't that great also. seriously la. why is Pete Wentz the star (or so it has been made to seem) of Fall Out Boy?? what about Patrick? or Joe? or Drew? too much la.

and this sooo doesn't go for this band only. other bands also kena. i'd hate to be in a band where everyone knows just one guy from the band and doesn't know me. what rubbish is that.


Currently Listening To: Risque - Cute Is What We Aim For

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Fake It

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self esteem along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down...

And just fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite

And you should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down...

And just fake it, if you're out if direction
Fake it, if you don't belong here
Fake it, if you feel like infection

Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite
Whoa, whoa

I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it with the best of 'em all
I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it all

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self esteem along the way

Good god, you're comin' up with reasons
Good god, you're draggin' it out
Good god, it's the changin' of the seasons
I feel so raped man
Follow me down...

And just fake it, if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite

Fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, you're such a fuckin' hypocrite


Currently Listening To: Fake It - Seether

Monday, October 13, 2008

In Times Of Pissed Offness

ppl will do crazy things when they're in rage.

crazy and stupid things.

theory has been proven.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Things That Piss Me Off

so i was doing a lot (trust me when i say a lot) of thinkin since i've been not blogging. and i decided that i'm gonna put up stuff that piss me off. heck, i'm going to even create a label for such posts.

so today i'm going to start it off with ppl who are CLEARLY wrong but won't admit.

it's seriously PISSING OFF. first of all, all the facts are there. the reasons why you are WRONG have already been told. all the reasons why you are wrong have been given. clearly and logically. but just because you wanna see urself as RIGHT, you won't admit. cuz you can't be wrong la right? ure too good to be wrong. rubbish la.

what's worse is that they will purposely try and find some way to justify their wrong. or find some excuse to make their wrong not seem so bad. mahai. still want. wrong means wrong la k. there's no "oh but at least this this this all didn't happen right?" or "since nothing happened from there, it's ok la." or "it's only a bit wrong what, so it's ok." RUBBISH la. no such thing as half wrong k.

gosh some people have the nerve la. this is what happens when ur ego becomes too big.


Currently Listening To: This Is Who We Are - Hawthrone Heights

Monday, October 06, 2008

Meeting @ Burger King

Disclaimer: the next few lines are the all real life conversations based on purely real people. any similarities to any fictional character living or dead is purely coincidental. some lines have been omitted as the writer was not able to keep up with the conversation.

p.s.: i'm so glad i took 'minutes' for that day. i still can laugh looking back and reading it. haha.

No need la. This is not meeting. Just chilling out

Li Ying:

Yuen Leung:
Eat it la. I dare you.

Om nom nom nom

You think this is msn is it??

Yuen Leung:

*All stares at Ben*

All stare.... Cilaka!

Then we talk more see if Ben can keep up.

Yuen Leung:

Li Ying:
Then we send Yuen Leung go refill.

Since you like to write so much then you write for me next time. See then he's going to write that down.

Yuen Leung:
If this is a sea horse, then what is this?

Li Ying:

Yuen Lueng:
If this is a condominium then what is this?

what else? Come.

So easy.

Didn't ask me.

Li Ying:
No. yea la yea la yea la. Oh this one. I think i heard before.

Cannot ah. i dunno.

Yuen Leung:
Also a wave la.

Oh my precious sky!

Yuen Leung:
I think you miss out a lot.

Li Ying:
We go to the other table. see what he does.

Oh ya. lets do this. we pass around.

Li Ying:
but i thought it's in the book? So the team got another one?

then Gloria pass to me to to do for the team.

Li Ying:
i don't have pen. Yuen Leung. Eh i thought it Loong. Did you write affirmation for me?

Yuen Leung:

Li Ying:
Just asking

Yuen Leung:
Oh no my pen.

*All go quiet as they write the affirmation*

Li Ying:
eh Farid wo pu tong smth smth...


Yuen Leung:


stopped there cuz i wrote one whole page long di. haha.

Currently Listening To: Burn This City - Cartel

Sunday, October 05, 2008

I Blog Too Much

well, according to many sources (and even myself) i blog waaaayyy too much.

so in light of that. i'm going to cut down. like REALLY cut down.

so IF you actually want stuff to read go read all the posts i've put up recently. cuz i know there's noone who's actually read all. haha.


and bye for a long time. :)

p.s.: things have been good and happyfying the past few days. :) of course i could wish and hope for so much better. but who says i deserve better? nobody really knows right? so i'm just being happy with the small things that i get. yeah. things have been good. :)

Currently Listening To: Breaking - Anberlin

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Can You Find A Bluer Sky?

i think the sky here is cekap. this photo is not photoshopped or anything. quite nice right the sky. macam some professional photograph only. haha.

^ original photo.

which u think is nicer? hmm.

quite a random post. haha.

Currently Listening To: Swim - Jack's Mannequin

2 = 60 or 20 = 90?

well i just found out from Shuang Xiu that i can call home for $2 and talk for 60 mins. cheap eh? Thanks Shuang Xiu!

cuz i was like previously buying phone cards which cost $20 and can last only 90 mins.

well technically for 90 mins i wud use $4 la. (cuz it's jus $2 for 60. fixed time-money thing.) of course i have to make two calls la. end the first one b4 it goes over 60 mins and then make the next one.

but still! 4 bucks compared to 20??? whoaaa. super cheap okay. now i'm gonna save on phone bills calling home also. yeay! :D but of course it has to be like those long calls where i spend 60 mins talking la. haha.

coolness la vodafone. :D

Currently Listening To: Take It All (Backing Track) - Hillsong United

Jack's Mannequin


Andrew McMahon has managed to look different in every single one of his music videos.

and i couldn't even tell if it was the same person.

not bad.


Currently Listening To: The Way - Parachute Band

Another Can You Handle The Truth?

cuz what i read, i agree with what Jo said.

he explained it really well as well.

so yeah. if you can't handle the truth, then don't bother clicking the link.

and if you do, read every word. seriously.

quite well thought out writing.

k go read.

Link 1

Link 2

Currently Listening To: Penny and Me - Hanson

Friday, October 03, 2008

But I Don't Wanna Sleep Just Yet

i'm bored as.

like totally. i'm like stoning in front of comp.

i feel tired but yet i dun wanna sleep.


got all THOSE issues making me think and bugging me also. haih.

what do you want from me? what do i have to do for you to leave me alone? words mean nothing to me anymore. so don't come to me with words. just leave me alone.........



yih ren msged me!

k now i got smth to do for the next few mins. :D

Currently Listening To: Someone That You're With - Nickelback

Last Day Of Freedom?


today was a good day i reckon.

managed to do most of my physics tutorial and hand it in. (well at least i hope she did hand it in on time. and to the right person. holy crap. i just realised she may not know which tutor is mine! YL!!!)

nvm. i shall hope for the best. haha.

finished math assignment too. don't really hope much on that. don't think i did some parts right for those. but i think shud be an OK mark la.

EMTH171 test went really well imo. i think i did part 1 all correct i hope. and finished both parts of part B with a thumbs up and good job from my tutor. so hopefully that'll be good. and all under 45 mins. haha. but then again, when things go too well, something may be wrong. hmmm.

my hair today looked really good too. like i think la. not so puffy. seemed more straight and flat. haha. maybe cuz i slept on it or smth la. haha.

missed ENSOC BBQ today tho. :( cuz it was 10 bucks for entry so i tot stuff it. might as well save money. but i did get to practice some guitar la. so not so bad.

and got dinner too cuz Uni Hall dinner was cancelled due to food fight. thx for the Bak Kut Teh Raymond! i think it was pretty good. i mean i dunno what's it supposed to taste like la. but yea i tot it was nice.

watched Everything Is Spiritual also. pretty interesting show. i think i managed to grasp most of what he was saying la. The Pro-Skater pastor guy. haha.

and watched Iron Man for the fourth time too. and yea. i would really say that's a good movie. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY better than Transformers. k actually my third time watching wasn't fully la. so maybe 3.5th time watching? haha.

aaaahh. pretty good friday imo. haha.

but tmrw open house and football. and have to squeeze in Skills Test practice and also Lab report somehow.

hmm k i shall celebrate by watching my new Smallville ep. thx Vince!

see ya!

Currently Listening To: Open Up The Gates - Planetshakers

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Work Work Work

i have a lot of work i need to do.

but i'm not in the mood at all.

i just feel so....




life is full of what ifs.


what if....


Currently Listening To: Situations - Escape The Fate

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

The Best Tattoos

are self designed.


well to me it is.


Currently Listening To: The Resistance - Anberlin

Saya Rasa

lapar siot.....

ntah la knape.

but i think it's psychological also. cuz i know i have food so i can be hungry.

too much la my mind. psyco-ing me all. ish.

Currently Listening To: F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X - The Fall Of Troy

I Smell...


mucho sneakyness.


Currently Watching: House Season 5 Episode 3

It's RAYA!

Selamat Hari Raya! :)

Currently Listening To: Raya Song