I Tried I Really Did

but the disgust of what you told me, and the embarassment to be associated with you, is really killing it.

i honestly can't do this. i just find myself not at peace. trying to act as if it's ok.

but the worst part is, that's all i can do.

well that's all i can do to avoid anymore drama. just too sick and tired of it.

so here is to acting like i care when i don't.

and actually really learning not to care. again.

cheers.

Currently Listening To: Superman (It's Not Easy) - Five for Fighting

Would I Lie To You?

most definitely

without hesitating

prob smth you should know to make things a little more fair for you

Currently Listening To: Ppl Outside my window talking

And Apparently, Countdown Is The Map I'm Best At

Europe server


Malaysian Server



but i guess the Europe server i was top cuz i was the only one who seemed to be doing the work like capturing the flags and killing the ppl trying to capture the flags. that's why my score is like waaaayyy above the other ppl in my team i guess. but we still lost. :(

and i take my gaming pretty seriously. i shout too much at the comp. lol.

k back to movie.

Currently Watching: Blade II

Why I Think Kowhaii Is Better Than The Rest

k this was long overdue. but since Mr. anon wants to know to decide his/her future accomodation at UC, why not list it out?

so first, my problems with Hinau:
-fridge too small
-room doesn't have drawers to put stuff in
-you gotta pay 4 bucks a week for laundry
-no light switch near bed so you can tuck urself in and then turn off the lights.
-the closet is like totally open most of the time.
-theres no oven (for those who like to bake or cook food that requires baking
-the heater was a pain to figure out. can only work it illegally.
-the room comes with only 2 hooks to hang clothes.
-further from uni
-small living room
-flat doesn't have doorbell
-no mirror in room

but there's some good also:
-"home-ly-er"
-newer than the others.
-bigger bed
-when the heater works, it'll be really hot.
-bathroom and toilet are linked together. so you can do your business, then have a bath! lol
-lifts move way faster than Kowhaii


and i think that's all i can think of.

why i want to move into Kowhaii?
-big fridge
-room has drawers to put stuff in
-free laundry
-light switch near bed so you can tuck urself in and then turn off the lights.
-closed closet
-oven (for those who like to bake or cook food that requires baking)
-think the heater is easy
-i think there's more hooks
-closer to uni
-big living room
-flat has doorbell
-room is big
-there's a mirror in the room

the bads are pretty much the opposites of the goods of Hinau la. but yeah. u get the picture.

well i hope that helped. and anyone else who knows any other reasons for either side, feel free to comment! :)

Currently Listening To: Beat It - Fall Out Boy ft. John Mayer

Apparently My Holidays Are For Photoshop

this is what i do during my free time of my hols.

it's enjoyable as. seeing something turn out pretty awesome. :)

those tutorials are REALLY good.

ah. what a gr8 day. :)

Currently Listening To: Believe Me - Fort Minor

Too Much Talk

i don't like this feeling like i've spoken too much.

said things that'll give me away.

for this, i blame my stupid habit of must having to say everything i'm thinking of and feeling.



but the question arises, maybe since i don't care now, will i not be emo? hmmm

Currently Listening To: Never Let Me Go - Planetshakers

I'm The Support Hero

i dunno why, i just prefer to take the role considered as "support hero" role.

in Dota, i prefer to be the guy that helps other ppl get the kill. i guess cuz i'm not good at the game so i prefer to let the pros do the killing.

in futsal, i prefer to be the defender or the passer, not the goal scorer. to me, it doesn't matter, as long as the goal is scored. i guess cuz i know i'm not that good in futsal la.

in playing guitar, i prefer rythym guitar rather than lead, giving melody to the song and supporting the lead. this is prob cuz i'm not good at guitar and i can't solo. so rythym is easier la. plus i guess it's easier to go crazy on rythym la. ;P


so yeah. i'm the support hero. and i like it that way. i don't mind other ppl getting the attention. :)

prob the only time i like taking the spotlight is in COD4. but not like i'm thaaat good at COD4 also. oh the happy thing today is, i was the last guy left in a game of Sabotage, killed 2 ppl. planted the bomb, killed another guy, got my 7 streak kill and won the round for my team. that was pretty awesome. gr8 feeling. esp when playing with online ppl whoa are way more pro.

this is online with 36 players and clan members. considering i got 3rd in my group. that's pretty awesome. :)


but then again. i like playing Sniper. and that's sorta like support hero. lol.

Currently Listening To: Why Don't You and I [Alternate Version] - Santana ft Alex Band

Possibly My Most Irritating Habit

on facebook at least. i tend to write something to comment on ppl stuffs.

then i find i'm not satisfied with what i type and try to retype it it.

then i find i'm still not satisfied.

by this point i lose interest and just don't bother commenting since i can't say it right.


what a waste of a few minutes of my life.

Currently Listening To: WTH>You - Linkin Park

There's No Way

just no way she would know the reason.

absolutely none. i don't recall telling it.

well was it the reason in the first place?

til now, i've yet to decide.


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funny how i would/will change and do the things i said i wouldn't do for the things/girl i want.

Currently Listening To: Never Let You Go - Third Eye Blind