Monday, November 29, 2010

10 More

and with this, it's 10 more. exactly.

then it all HAS to end.

Currently Listening To: Do Or Die - Papa Roach

Oh FB Is So Not Private

and neither is this blog.

which is exactly why the things you don't need to know, there's calls, texts, email, and FB msgs.

and just when you thought you knew it all. ;P

Currently Listening To: MK Ultra - Muse

Zooom Zooooom ZOOOM

Switching from the 4th lane to the slow lane in one move.

140 in an 80 zone.


Shouting at the driver in front of you (and hoping somehow he can hear you)

Weaving in and out of lanes cuz the fast lane clearly isn't fast.

Cutting the red light just as turns.

But then freaking out when you realise there's a police there. and then hoping he didn't see it.

Going on the fast lane then suddenly slowing down when u notice a police in the middle lane.

All this and still being safe. of course. :)

SO SO missed driving. :)

Currently Listening To: You'll Think Of Me - Keith Urban

It Makes Sense And It Makes Me Laugh

seriously, just the knowledge of that one thing, and it makes sense so much now.


and it's funny cuz it sucks to be him cuz he doesn't know what's coming.

and it sucks to be her cuz her life sucks.

and i'm sitting here laughing away at both of them.


run as much as you want from the facts, but it'll always be there.


Currently Listening To: The Sound (John M. Perkins Blues) - Switchfoot

Sunday, November 28, 2010

It's Just What Should Be Done

Dropping girls back 101: Always make sure they're safe in their house before you leave.

that's why i always stay back til the girls i drop off are in the house before i leave. cuz just in case someone might come suddenly and try to break into their house while their going in and all.

glad i learnt this when i just started driving and still practice it now. :)

so guys, when u drop ur girls back, make sure they walk into their door before leaving. make sure they're safe. :)

Currently Listening To: Airplanes Pt. II - B.o.B. ft Haley Williams & Eminem

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Maybe It's Irritating

I have this irritating habit of asking people stuff i already know.


i can't decide which reason it is.

for one thing, it's to find out whether the person trusts me or whether the person can be trusted to tell the truth.

the other reason would be to find out how ppl know that something. i mean i already know how they know, but i just want to be sure. i always like knowing the origins of things ppl know or how they arrive to a thought.

i think my reasons for this habit of mine is the 2nd reason. well i try to make it that reason most of the time.

but ya somehow i find it irritating.

Currently Listening To: And One - Linkin Park

I Would Say It's The Greatest Thing I've Learnt In My Life

what is it?

this: loving people the way you would love someone like you're in love with them.

there's just something satisfying about truly caring about the well being of someone. whether it's their physical and mental health.

plus, it's also what the world needs more isn't it? people caring for each other?

and when i mean caring, it's like how u would care for your gf/bf/wife/husband/sister/brother. think abt it, these ppl, you supposedly love a lot and would treat and care for them with all you can right?

now if you do that for all the people you love (and on occasion those you don't love), it would just make the world a better place right?

so yeah that's the greatest thing i've learnt. loving and caring for people as much as i can without falling in love with them or whatever. just learning to care for people, cuz a lot of ppl in this world need love.

hmmm. yeah. i dunno. yet another post that didn't come out as i intended it to sound like. oh well, hope you get it anyway.

p.s.: hmm i just realised, this is probably why ppl think i'm together with a lot of girls. cuz i treat them well. lol.

Currently Listening To: The Small Print - Muse

Friday, November 26, 2010

My Friends Are Awesomely Crazy

who else do you know would skip in a circle, singing Sleigh Ride in Mid Valley

or just randomly SIT in a circle outside a shop in Subang Parade.

or start shouting random nonsense in the mall


seriously, if i was not friends with my friends, i'll be just there staring at them, saying "what a bunch of weirdos"

hahahah. but now, on certain occasions, i am one of those weirdos. :)

it's like come back to Malaysia, it's like we own everywhere, go anywhere and do whatever we like. lol.

Currently Listening To: Careful - Paramore

It Was Supposed To Be The One Thing That Works

funny how i let go of the one thing that is supposed to comfort me and make me feel happy/better/contented, and yet, all those things that i need to have a better outlook on life i have now. after letting go and not paying as much attention to it as i have for the past few years.

makes me wonder, a lot.

Currently Listening To: When I Get Home, You're So Dead - Mayday Parade

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I Laugh At The Strangest Things

comment on a drummer, snareguy17, who did amazing on his cover of 30 Seconds To Mars' cover of Closer To The Edge.

"What kind of loser username is that?

snareguy17? Pfft.

Please change it to epicsnareguy17."


lol. no idea why i find it so funny. must be cuz it looked like an insult but turned out to be an epic compliment. which makes the whole comment awesome/amusing.

cekap fellas la. both the drummer and the commenter.

Currently Listening To: Closer To The Edge - 30 Seconds To Mars

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Speaking Malay

so apparently, i just found out today, that guys can speak BM more naturally than girls.

well, in my life it's true la.

i mean, my sisters, and quite a few of my girl friends, when they speak BM, it's like seriously like damn kayu. it's kinda ilarious to listen to tho.

and then the guys, i rarely ever hear them sound weird speaking malay.

i dunno why that is. it's quite interesting.

but of course, i'm not saying ALL guys speaking malay non-kayuly and ALL girls speak like some mat salleh attempting to speak.

i do know some guys who sound so bad speaking malay and some girls whom you'd think they're malay as well.

so yeah.

just in general mostly.

quite interesting. :)

Currently Watching: Glee Season 2 Episode 8 - Furt

Just The Way You Are

this song, really makes me want to find a gf and sing this to her. bloody amazing song.

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Bruno Mars

Currently Listening To: Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

It Balances Out Somehow

i realise, how much i text back home.

like if got nth to do, then i'll just go into my room and text ppl.

texting has become a thing to do. lol.

i guess cuz i'm just so malas to play comp.

or got ppl to text back.

come to think of it, i've survived 5 days without my HD. :D

aaaaaaaaahhhhh. i love being back. :)))

coming up next: driving! :D

Currently Listening To: Find My Way Back - Four Year Strong

She Did Bring Up A Good Point

like how long will i stay mad?

i mean, granted i don't care anymore. well sorta.

but when will it all be ok?

well it definitely doesn't seem like anytime soon.

cuz hey, why on earth would i bother with someone who totally doesn't give a damn about apologizing and thinks she's right, right?

i would say the irritating thing is i have to see her everyday, but it really doesn't bother me anymore.

why should i be running?

but most of all, i'm shocked at how arrogant she's being after what she did. goodness, can't believe she's acting as if i'm the one who wrong her and my friends are treating her badly.

some ppl. dunno what to say la.

Currently Listening To: Find My Way Back - Four Year Strong

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


i'm, quite frankly, one of the most understanding person u'll ever meet.

if u can explain stuff properly and ure true intentions, chances i'll be able to understand what's going thru ur mind.

of course, this doesn't mean that if you stab me, i'm not gonna just say "yeah i understand u had stab me". hell yeah i'll be mad. there's a limit to be being tolerating and understanding.

think about it, how often have i got mad? or is it more like i were to say "i understand what you mean."

i'd like to think that i'll try my best not to misunderstand ppl.

now if i can only get ppl to not misunderstand me. hmmm.

Currently Listening To: The Best Places To Be A Mom - Taking Back Sunday

Monday, November 22, 2010


and the worst of it all,

i hate the fact that i lost someone i can talk about anything to.

and also the fact that it's a one way feeling.


and it's hard to get my friends to be doing the right thing, cuz i want them to have a life without regrets and live the best life that they can, when i know i don't believe the words i say. haih.

Currently Listening To: Na Na Na - My Chemical Romance

I'm So Glad To Be Back

honestly. it feels brilliant to be back.

being back this time, made me realise one thing, how much i really missed and love my friends here.

it's just been so amazing to be able to hang out with them. and just lepak and talk stuff. like seriously, spending 12 hours a day out. wow. i SO SO miss this.

and i can finally post this cuz now Yumey finally knows. loser, can waste my time without even knowing it. tsk.

really la. the past few days for the past week has beeen AMAZING.

happy giler. :):):)

which makes me feel kinda hypocritical. cuz i was like all emo abt ppl leaving chch and all just a few days ago, and now i'm like happy to the max.

hahahaha. dunno la. i'm just overjoyed to be backkkk. :D:D:D

like i said la, 2010, is really being an epicly good year. :)

Currently Listening To: Na Na Na - My Chemical Romance

Sunday, November 21, 2010

If You're Wondering What's The Reason, This Would Be It

somehow the image of that person has tied in to that thing i do.

so now, if anything to do with her pops up, i automatically feel the need for one.

well in my defense, it kinda does make me feel better.

damn it. should have brought the pack along.

Currently Listening To: Your Love Is My Drug - Ke$ha

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Names That Stick In Your Head

u know, when u meet ppl, and they have a name that u've never heard b4, the name sticks with you.

like the moment you see the name, and it's not common, u think of that first person u've come across with that name.

and sometimes it's pretty cool knowing that ppl will think of you first cuz hardly anyone has ur name.

unfortunately, that doesn't go with me and my name.

but it works for my friends with those special names.

and it's cool when u have amazing friends. so whenever u ever see those "rare" names again, u think of ur amazing friends.

and it feels good somehow.

i dunno where i'm getting at, but it's cool. :)

Currently Watching: One Tree Hill Season 8 Episode 8 - Mouthful of Diamonds

So Then Now, What Do I Do?

i hate the way she's affecting my plans.

what do i do?

avoid her?

or just go, hang around friends, and ignore her.

bloody hell. damn kacau.

So do what now?

Currently Watching: One Tree Hill Season 8 Episode 8 - Mouthful of Diamonds

Spoilt Kid

i realise, each year when i go back, i go from being this independant kid, to this spoilt kid.

honestly. no need to wash cups or dishes. fridge always full. no need to wash laundry. no need to iron and fold. no need to even put away. no need to make bed. no need to clean room. extra car to use.

it all "just happens"

bloody hell i'm quite the spoilt kid when i'm in Malaysia

well, i guess it makes me look forward to going home. :)

Currently Listening To: Bulletproof - La Roux

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Hell Yeah I Judge People Based On Looks

i know it's not nice and what not.

but if u look ugly and awful, of course i'm gonna look down on you.

but that's what i got from the world.

i got a front seat lesson from the world that nobody looks at who you are but how u look like.

i dare say i aced that class and changed everything.

and now hey, you get what you give right?

so hi, i'm ben. i'm bloody judgemental. deal the f*ck with it.

Currently Listening To: Listen Up Sunshine - My Chemical Romance

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Cut Me, Mick

I can't keep this together,
And I might lose this year.
I can't get through December,
And you know all my fears.

Someplace, somewhere behind me,
I walked right through the truth.
Truth is that you're the one thing,
That always pulls me through.

This troubled life I choose..

You are the one that I need,
You know that I can still bleed.
Bring me back to life..
Bring me back to life..
You let me down from my cloud,
You keep my feet on the ground.
Bring me back to life..
Bring me back to life..

When I thought that I might,
Be invincible.
It wasn't long before I,
Was invisible.

To your eyes and I swear,
There's nothing left in here.
And the more you say you don't care,
The more I know you're there.

You are the one that I need,
You know that I can still bleed.
Bring me back to life..
Bring me back to life..
You let me down from my cloud,
You keep my feet on the ground.
Bring me back to life..
Bring me back to life..

I can't keep this together..
(you are the one that I need..)
I can't stay sick forever..
(you know that I can still bleed..)
I can't stop this disaster..
(you bring me down from my cloud..)
I can't fall any faster..

You are the one that I need,
You know that I can still bleed.
Bring me back to life..
Bring me back to life..

You are the one that I need,
You know that I can still bleed.
Bring me back to life..
Bring me back to life..
You let me down from my cloud,
You keep my feet on the ground.
Bring me back to life..
Bring me back to life..

You are the one that I need..
You know that I can still bleed..
You let me down from my cloud..
You keep my feet on the ground..


For some reason this song came to mind. been playing it on repeat for half an hour. and still emo and thinking of other emo stuff as well.

ish. tak bes. i tak suker beremo. >:(

Currently Listening To: Cut Me, Mick - Yellowcard

Monday, November 15, 2010

Emo La Bro

i'm feeling like damn emo now.

thinking of all the ppl that's gonna be leaving.

chch just won't be the same without everyone of them.


Currently Listening To: Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars


i really don't like to throw stuff away.

they just mean smth to me i guess.

like i still have the tyre of my first skateboard. and the candles from my bday last year.

oh my gosh! i'm a hoarder! :O

Currently Listening To: Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Do Not Want That Attitude In My Life

k first of all, i don't know if it's a malaysian or other countries do this as well.

but, i know at least malaysians are damn kiasu. don't care what race u r, chances are u are kiasu.


it's like when a person knows something, that noone else knows, they'll tell the whole world. BUT, when ppl ask how u know/how you got that thing, the person won't tell, or will be super reluctant to tell.

i dunno why, but a lot of malaysians are quite stingy with their knowledge. it's like, once they tell, they feel like ppl won't come back to them to ask for help. it's like they like the attention.

but i guess u cud say they like being useful and needed and all. but yeah, why so stingy la? esp with friends?

it's like, i used to know ppl, who get music updates and songs very fast. and when you ask them, which site do you get it from? they don't wanna tell. they'd just say, i'll get for you la. why is it so hard to tell?

even with episodes of shows or movies or anything. heck it doesn't have to be online stuff. but in general la. malaysians just don't seem to want to share knowledge.

i know my friend had asked me once before where to get a certain game and just told me to private msg him on FB. i'm assuming he said pm cuz he thought i don't want the whole world to know where i got the game since i was one of the first few who got it. but instead, i just posted where i got it from to his wall.

so what if the whole world knows? so what if i won't be the sole person playing the game and everyone may start asking "how's the game" and "wah so lucky you got it so fast". i'm really not that desperate for attention. and honestly, if i have to rely on knowing where to get games as something special about me, since i'm the only person who knows if i don't share where i get it from, then that's kinda sad right? that the special thing is knowing where to get games. well to me it's kinda a sad case thing.

k of course, maybe i'm the only one feeling this way abt the witholding knowledge thing? but am i?

cuz at the end right, these ppl end up wanting to pull down ppl who do well. why? cuz they want to be on top, they want to be wanted and needed.

but shouldn't we be the one encouraging ppl? and helping them be better? how r we going to make the world a better place if all you do is just tear down ppl who do well.

is it really that hard for you to feel happy for someone who has smth you want? just be happy for them. why be jealous? not gonna help you in any way.

and yet, another post where i don't think i'm getting my original point across. why is it so hard to explain these thoughts in my head!!?


but yeah. anyway, these two attitudes, i do not want to have in my life.
1. Reluctant to share info
2. Pull people down.

i know i used to be like that as well. and i'm glad that i've changed. i wanna do the opposite. tell ppl if they ask stuff and also encourage ppl.

think about it, you don't lose anything either way by doing those two. you tell ppl, you help them, and you still don't lose ur knowledge by telling them. and when you encourage ppl, still don't lose anything but you build the person up and help the person feel good about themselves.

of course, if you wanna complain you lose time and lose breath telling/talking to the person, then i dunno what to say la. lol. like that also can complain, then it's a wonder if you have friends. lol.

i type so long, and at the end i look back, and i wonder if i made sense. and if i managed to get my true point across.

oh well. at least i feel better now i said smth about it.

check one more off the list of stuff i wanna blog about.


Currently Listening To: Closer To The Edge - 30 Seconds To Mars

My Sister


that i








YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Currently Listening To: Here Comes The HotStepper - Ini Kamoze

Saturday, November 13, 2010

I'm Being Healthy

i've had a really gr8 past few days. after exams.

been spending time talking and just listening to ppl talk.

and basically just lepaking la. feels great.

managed to catch up with Su Yuan as well. missed hanging out and talking with her actually.

i'm also learning to let go of those things that really bugged me last year. trying my best to understand and let go the feelings of being left out and what not.

so yeah, things are going good. :)

and why i'm healthy?

cuz u know, laughter is the best medicine. :) and i'm been taking a lot of medicine then. lol.

Beauty Foo.

hahahahahahhahaha. laughed until i couldn't breathe and thought my lungs were gonna pop. lol.

so gonna miss so many ppl next year. all the ppl leaving actually. i mean, like almost everyone at the party i know i'm going to miss. and for some reason, i realised, i'm kinda "close" to the batch leaving. like done quite a bit of stuffz with most of them. and each one there's smth special about them and smth only they have which i know noone else can replace. their personality la. which is why i know next year, even though we may not have talked much, from those small times we did talk and lepak, i know i'm going to miss them.

ahhh. emo. darn, if only ppl didn't have to leave. :(

but, i guess i should be happy that they're moving on to greater things in their life. can't be selfish and keep them here right? so just gotta be happy for them i guess. :)

the more i think about it. the more and more this year is being an epic year.


despite the nonsense and the ridiculous bad stuff that has happened, i still love this year.

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here
All Time Low

i guess, i don't wanna waste another minute being emo. :)

Currently Listening To: Weightless - All Time Low

Friday, November 12, 2010

Just In Case You All Forgot

Nothing. Is what it seems.

But nothing's as it seems
Escape The Fate

Don't believe everything you read about me
(People talk, but it doesn't matter what they say)
Amber Pacific

just cause you see someone as something, you may build up certain expectations and assumptions about them.

so when you find out stuff about them, try your best not to think they changed, but more like, u just never knew that part to them.

and even when they actually do change, they might just have a reason which you can't understand for now for changing.

cuz hey,

Nothing is what it seems.

Currently Listening To: Three Words - Amber Pacific

One Thing I Like

at least there's one thing i like about me.

i like how i can help ppl.

and i like how to me, it's really no big deal to help ppl.

to some extent, i enjoy it. i find, i like helping ppl. i like making them feel better.

maybe i'm being perasan. but i don't care. i'm glad i have smth good abt me that i can be proud of. :)

the only bad part, i tend to sacrifice myself when helping others. i mean like, i cause "damage" to myself when i help others.

example is like when i tried helping Tawfik with his Solidworks stuff. it kinda took me away from my time to study for my test which was in a few minutes.

i knew i had to study, but more of me wanted to help. and i still did feel kinda bad for having to tell him i gotta go study instead of helping him.

i dunno la. i kinda feel like, putting ppl and helping ppl first, is better than studies? lol. but that's just cuz i hate studying, so maybe i'm just trying to escape studying. lol.

but yeah. u get me. i'm sure everyone feels better after helping ppl.

which is probably why i feel terrible cuz i told Dana i'd call in half hour, but ended up spending 3 hours talking to friend who also wanted to talk over dinner. and she waited for me for 2 hours.

ugh. first, i ditched my friend who needed me. 2ndly i made her wait, and everyone knows a guy should never let a girl wait ever. the guy should wait for the girl.

ugh. lousy ben. once again, i'm sorry Dana. :(

so yeah. at least there's one thing i can like about me. esp after going through in my head abt all the things i hate abt me which seems infinite.

good to make myself feel good.

Currently Listening To: Good Life - OneRepublic

Noticing It Cause It Aint Usually There

i have.

a Bible in my room.

it feels weird.

considering, i haven't had one in my room the whole year.


k at least i'll be returning it to owner soon.

Currently Listening To: Everybody Loves Me - OneRepublic

Good Life

i dunno why. but i'm just feeling this song right now.

might be cuz i'm talking to becky choy and she told me to listen to this song a while back.

k i should sleep. been out for the past 12 hours. surviving on 3 hours of sleep. and did eventually have 6 events for the whole night.

but still, i'm here writing this.

i think i'm addicted to the blog. damn you. lol. nah i love you blog.

k i probably should stop talking to inanimate objects. ...

BYE. :)

Currently Listening To: Good Life - OneRepublic

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Can't Be Just Me Right???

today, i found out, that 16 year olds use perfumes priced at abt RM270. and, apparently this is normal.

i'm in shock.

someone pls tell me that i'm not crazy for thinking that's a ridiculous amount to spend on perfume.

and also that it's ridiculous that a SIXTEEN year old is the one with the ridiculously expensive perfume.

and also that it's not normal.

i still believe this is insane. and parents are really spoiling and manja-ing their kids.

Currently Listening To: Error: Operator - Taking Back Sunday

I'll Put It Simply

would you rather,

a) hang out with people who want you around and want to hang out with you which is why they call you to go do stuff;


b) hang out with ppl who are pretty much the opposite of the above?

case, solved.

just for the record, this isn't why i won't be staying long at certain events tmrw.

Currently Listening To: Fuck You - Cee-Lo Green

Add This To The List Of Things I Don't Like About Me

i really don't like how i complain abt stuff before actually "experiencing" the thing.

why? cuz then when the thing isn't so bad, i end up wrong. and well, i hate being wrong.

so now, i guess i have to take back abt complaining abt her. cuz i really did enjoy her company. it was fun honestly. and well, she was the only reason, i just sat there and studied, instead of going off to a comp to be distracted.

ah. i should learn to appreciate those ppl who do good in my life more.

Currently Listening To: I Still Remember - Bloc Party

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

5 Events One Night

sounds like an epic plan.

now, to stay sober enough to enjoy the night! :D

we'll see la. lol

Currently Listening To: Bullet Soul - Switchfoot

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Forgive. But. Never Forget

no. contrary to popular belief, sorry just can't fix everything.

Currently Listening To: What I've Done [Distorted Remix] - Linkin Park

Monday, November 08, 2010

Yes, This Always Happens To Me

i’m going somewhere, and out of the corner of my eye i see someone.

So i turn and just glance at them. Cause they’re looking at me and I don’t wanna look like i’m staring.

So then i turn back my head to where I’m going. Then, a few seconds later I realise that was a person I’ve met before.

So I turn around to say hi.

BUT, most of the time the person is not looking at me anymore. Why? Clearly since i looked and turned away, it would seem like I don’t remember the person. SO that’s what they think.

So then it goes on that person thinks i don’t remember them. So the next time we walk past each other, I get ignored this time. Cuz hey, why say hi to someone who doesn’t remember you right? If you do, and the person doesn’t say hi back, you end up looking like a weirdo.

AND on top of that, I look like some arrogant guy who doesn’t remember ppl.


and also, I have this feeling most people don't remember me. cuz after meeting one time, why would they remember me right? i guess i don't expect ppl to have the same memory to remember ppl like me.

BUT then, my memory aint that good either. like i have a prob remembering ppl's faces and names sometimes. however, this is like, soon after meeting them. so all the more i might ignore them if i walk past them or smth. the retarded thing is, after seeing them like probably 2 or 3 times more, that's when i recognise i've met them. but by then, i already seem like some perasan case who doesn't remember ppl.

it's like i'm made to be antisocial. gr8 la.


Currently Listening To: Top Of The World - Kate Voegele

Some People, Are Just

funny isn't it.

these ppl they can hurt you.

BUT, they don't realise it. which is bloody annoying.

the WORST thing of it all.

they still think you're close friends.

how ah?

ppl treat you like crap, and yet, ure supposed to be there for them.

some people are just.

Currently Listening To: Three Words - Amber Pacific

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Cannot Keep It In

that's just me. i can't keep anger in.

i have to let it out.

hence, the blog. and thus, why there's a lot of pissed off posts, and emo posts.

and it works out. why? cuz i don't feel as pissed off/angry abt the thing anymore.

so yeah. that's just me. i get angry, i talk/blog abt it. then it's all ok. not angry anymore.

quite cool how this part of me works.

and if there is a person pissing me off, i find, talking str8 to the person, completely removes the anger and all is ok.

BUUUUTTT. i still want to have more patience and get less angry. so, i'm working on that.

plus, i'm learning to let a lot of stuff go. don't let the small stuff bother me.

and just like most posts, this posts, just made me feel better. :)

Currently Watching: The Office Season 6 Episode 24 - The Chump

Friday, November 05, 2010

Directly Proportional

how much you want something, is directly proportional to how much you will sacrifice, how much effort you put in, how much you won't give up.

and it's good to know, that sometimes, when you put a lot, you do end up getting what you want.

Currently Listening To: Deciphering Me - Brooke Fraser

I Work With Bricks

certain things have walls.

and i WILL act as though they never happened. and i have no idea what you're talking about.

it's not you, it's me. :)

Currently Listening To: 1979 - Good Charlotte

Not Made To Be Understood

How is it, she says "If you need someone to make her jealous, I'm the girl for you."

yet, when you purposely make out with her in front of the other girl, she slaps you. for using her.


girls. not understandable.

Currently Listening To: We All Lose One Another - Jason Collet

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Off The Charts

on the hotness scale, she rates ridiculously hot.

like seriously la. wow.

damn. if only.


Currently Listening To: All These Things I Hate (Revolve Around Me) - Bullet For My Valentine

But, If She Likes Him, Why Not?

u know, i always wonder, should you tell someone they have someone who likes them?

like u have a friend, who likes another mutual friend. but being like every other person, they won't want to say anything cuz of the fear of being rejected, bla bla bla.

so would it be so bad, if I were to just tell that like person "hey, you know, i think he/she is into you."

then see the reaction from there, and sorta advise both sides la. i mean, how horribly wrong could it go?

k though, granted, i've never actually done this before, but i just wonder, how it would go.

cuz i mean, someone told me they like this guy before, so i made the effort to introduce them, and now they're together.

so everything turned out alright? but in this case, i nvr told the guy she likes him la. just the intro only.

i wonder how diff it would be.

k now i feel like finding someone who likes someone else, and going and telling that someone else.



and it's getting scarily real that i won't be back next year. =/

miracles. that's what i need now.

Currently Listening To: Barbara Sterisand - Duck Sauce

Back Off

bitch, don't you dare do this again.

you already got what you want, so stay the hell away.

the bleedin hell is wrong with you?




Currently Listening To: Duck Sauce - Barbara Streisand