Thursday, July 31, 2008


NOONE knows how to appreciate the great things they have in their lives.

and yes, i do include me when i say that.

Hold on
To what you've
Been given

Hold on
To what you
Know you got

Hold on
To what you've
Been given

Hold on
Cause the world will turn if you're ready or not

KT Tunstall

Currently Listening To: Never Let You Go - Third Eye Blind

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Jojowa Sufibro

seriously, how'd u get that name again? haha.

anyway, Jo will be leaving tmrw for US. and who knows how long la til i see him again. he said he'll be back in 2010 so i'm planning to come back then also. hopefully the timings and stuff will be nice enough la. haha.

hmm. i've known this guy for like what, almost 20 years now. thats like giler long. k la. abt there la. sure i din know him for the first 9 months when i wasn't born yet la. and also when i was a small kid and pretty much din know anything or anyone. but u know what i mean la.

the earliest memory i have of this guy is probably the funniest ever. i remember we were in Appacha's house in SP. it was night. we were like so small kids then. and i think i remember not wanting to share my tricycle and all. and Jo wanted to ride it or smth la. then i called him stupid. and that got me in a big deal of trouble. he told his dad and his dad spanked me. damn. i so remember crying. haha.

what a first memory of someone eh? the guy got me spanked k. all for jus saying 'stupid'. and now he ends up being the closest person to me. haha! things sure have changed eh.

and i think i remember writing a letter to him when i was in Std 1 talking abt the Power Rangers episode that ended a few minutes ago. obviously the letter never got mailed. haha. but not bad la. so young di started writing letter all. must have been the first letter i wrote or smth.

more recently, i remember all the crazy things we used to do. skipped BM tuition once to go and watch The Punisher. not bad. we cycled all the way to One U man. thats like achievement. haha. and so many other places i cycled to also. i remember cycling to BK classes also. then i started learning drums from him also. cuz of the drum set at the BK place. oh there was dinner at ming tien also b4 goin to class and all.

joined BB cuz of Jo also. and man, i seriously dunno what would i be doing on my saturdays if i din join BB man. i wud be so bored and dead and what not. met so many great ppl and learnt so so many things in BB also. oh i think i used to hang around him a lot during the first year at church and all. must've been quite annoying eh having like a tag-a-long guy following u around. but thx for tahaning me i guess and helping me make friends and all. now i don't have to tag-a-long and all. haha.

oh ya. i remember in Form 3 also. we used to like spend long times on the phone and all. seems so weird now. but last time like nothiing also. haha. then we had a competion to find who can get 100 MSN contacts first also. he obviously won. haha. in fact, i think like almost everything also he wins la. quite cekap. like the time we both tried to get 100 for math. i'd always fail and he got 100. ish. tak puas man. haha.

oh ya. went and did my driving lessons with him also. we like signed up one day after SPM finished i think.

oh and he got me to read the Dan Brown series too. not bad. for a person like me who doesn't like to read. and got me interested in ambigrams also. i still think the ambigrams he does are better than the ones i can do. respect! haha.

and he can drive the volvo too man! thats like the ultimate skill. for me to drive also like can die. seriously dunno how u do it man. haha.

and he also brings me along to all the stuffs he does with his friends and all. cuz studying in Intec means i don't have a lot of friends that i can go out and hang out with very often. so yea. thx for bring me along and making my life more fun.

oh and the poker also! man those times were fun. playing and betting and he and his poker face. susah to menang man. haha. and also Catan! Catan was like the best board game ever. and it's so hard to beat that sneaky mischevious Jo. too much. like somehow when it looks like he's winning in one turn everything's gone. ish!

i prob played Futsal so much cuz of Jo also. he is like the synonym for Football la i think. Makan, Minum and Tidur bola. haha. i dun think he ever missed a single Man U match la. even through SPM and STPM. itu lah dipanggil fan. haha. i prob like Man U cuz of him also. one of the most skilled players i know. heh. i remember the Ronaldo strands of hair that he kept. and which i was influenced to keep also. haha.

heh. i remember Mr. Chan's tuition also! i remember we were all reading from the book then when it came to his turn, he din read. why? cuz he slept off! haha! but he slept off in a way that he looked like he was reading his book. quite skill man. haha.

oh and i remember Buggy also! and Need For Speed 3! damn. those were fun games to play. not bad la. i remember staying over and like almost everyday we'll play buggy and try to figure out all the hidden stuffs and all. i remember Meanie Mode! haha! and Ghost also. eh i wanna play Buggy la now. ish.

i actually dunno anyone who doesn't like this guy la. somehow he got that skill of making everyone like him or smth. like some magic spell or smth. not bad. k of course when i say anyone i'm excluding those problematic ppl whom everyone has a problem with la. and also those who mmg don't like anyone and all.

k if i were to write everything down, this blog post wud seriously almost never end. so i think i shall stop here. also because i can't remember what else i wanna write la. =P haha! and if i were to list his good qualities and all, the list might jus go on forever also la. plus i think i agree with the list that Jesh made up la. quite accurate.

so Jo! since ure goin to US and all, ALLTHE BEST K! and u seriously better be a good boy there k! like seriously, don't too much and all k. don't do what i won't do also. haha. k la, i know u shud know well enough and all. so yeah.

damn i so know i'm going to miss you. k one day i'll come visit u in US or smth la k. seriously. weird la how i'm not in Msia but yet i feel like ure leaving also. hmm.

and damn i don't even have a proper photo with you to put up. ish. too much la the time i left, hardly cud say bye or take photo with anyone. ish.

anyway, i sudah cakap panjang panjang, so i'll end here.


Currently Listening To: Lonely Nation - Switchfoot

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

That Day

Well that day, that day
That day
What a mess
What a marvel
I walked into that cloud again and I lost myself
And I'm sad
Craving purity
A fragile mind and a gentle spirit

That day
That day
What a marvelous mess
Well this is all that I can do
I'm done to be me
It's supposed to be like this
I accept everything
It's supposed to be like this

That day
That day
I lay down beside myself in this feeling of pain
Crawling towards the light
And it's all that I see and I'm tired
And I'm right
And I'm wrong
And it's beautiful

Well that day
That day
What a mess
What a marvel
We're all the same but no one thinks so
And it's okay
And I'm small
And I'm divine
And it's beautiful
And it's coming
And it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect

Well that day
That day when everything was a mess and everything was in place
And there's too much hurt
Alone and everyone's a cynic
And it's hard
And it's sweet but it's supposed to be like this

Well that day
That day when I sat in the sun and I thought
And I cried 'cause I'm sad
Strong and I'm nothing
And I'm true
Only a brave man can break through
And it's all okay
It's okay

Well that day
That day
I lay down beside myself in this feeling of pain
Crawling towards the light and it's all that I see
And I'm tired
And I'm right
And I'm wrong
And it's beautiful

Well that day
That day
What a mess
What a marvelous mess
We're all the same but no one thinks so and it's okay
And I'm small
And I'm divine
And it's beautiful
And it's coming
And it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect

Oh, Oh, Oh

That day

Well that day
That day when I lay down beside myself in this feeling of pain
Crawling towards the light and it's all that I see
And I'm tired
And I'm right
And I'm wrong
And it's beautiful

That day
That day
What a mess
What a marvelous mess
We're all the same but no one thinks so
And it's okay
And I'm small
And I'm divine
And it's beautiful
And it's coming
And it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect

That day

So sweet
Can you feel it
(Can you feel it)
Are you here
Are you with me
I can feel it and it's beautiful

That day (x3)
Absolutely perfect

Natalie Imbruglia

Currently Listening To: That Day - Natalie Imbruglia

Monday, July 28, 2008


Secretary: Mr. Guster? There's a Lt. Crunch here to see you.

Gus: Lt. Crunch?

*Shawn walks in*

Shawn: Well, actually I've been promoted. It's now Captain Crunch.

hahahahhahaha! seriously Shawn is just soooo sooo lame. and the way he does his psychic moments and his "really?" thing is so funny.

season two's 11th episode is still the best and funniest episode ever. get that episode!

seriously la. awesome show! currently started watching from season 1 and on the way to season 3! haha!

Currently Watching: Psych - Season 1 Episode 6: Weekend Warrior

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Things To Blog About Part 2

  • Music Influences Part 3
  • Msn Bridges Gaps
  • Tribute To Jo
  • Change of Attitude
  • Kedah
  • Need To Get Outta Here
  • My Hair
k need to remind myself if not all i'll forget.

so much to blog, so little time. haih.

and Ally left for back home today. and i feel kinda sad. like emo liddat. i guess one reason is prob the regret that i never spent enough time with her la. but she made so many good friends here tho. not ur usual hi and bye friends. like really good friends. wel it seemed that way la at least. feel like i need to learn that attitude of friendlyness from her la. haih.


damn. she told me not to emo also. haiihhh.


Currently Listening To: Could I Ever - Planetshakers

The Painter

Cause he paints pictures for people to see. and what people sees of him is only the pictures he paints.

It's interesting because since people only see what he paints, he basically controls what they see. If he wanted them to see a blue sky, all he'd have to do is paint a blue sky. If he wants them to see a mountain range scenery, all he has to do is paint that.

And they say that a picture tells a thousands words. And most of the time when he paints, he'll paint something related to him and his life. So in a way, his picture tells a thousand words of his life.

So would you say that the people who looks at his paintings know him?

I guess to a certain extent they do.

But, they only see what he wants them to see. Chances are they will only see the good that he paints as the bad he hides from the world and it never becomes a painting.

So they wouldn't really know the painter. They just know what he wants them to know.

And the only way to know the painter is not through his paintings. But through the painter itself. It's i guess the only way to go about it. And the most efficient no doubt.

But doing this takes time and you most probably won't know the inner secrets of the painter with just one meeting. It takes time.

So then you ask yourself, do you really want to know the painter?

Currently Listening To: You Know My Name - Chris Cornell

Friday, July 25, 2008

Why So Serious?

(sif u din know u were gonna see this pic when u read the title. haha)

kecekapnessan. i like. not bad. very nice.

the only not nice thing is i forgot to invite Sam to come along and watch. haih.

but still! cool!

so lemme ask u...

Why so serious? >:)

Currently Listening To: Tears Don't Fall - Bullet For My Valentine

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Stay Away!

k i totally gotta stay away from my laptop if i want any work to get done. like really.

cuz now i end up chatting away and surfing and who knows la what else. and it's not like i'm in my room so much also to be wasting so much time when i am in my room ready to do work. so yea.

plus! i can't be emo when i'm doing work. cuz this will happen.

and then once i start, i won't stop til i sorta think it's done.

oh i may plan to colour in the black lines. but see how.

but FOR NOW! i totally gotta do my physics work which is so overdue. hmm.

and i think it's someone's bday today. can't know for sure and have no communications established yet. haih.

oh and yeah. got some mistakes on my busyness post last week. i actually start at 8 for 4 days in a row. and i also din come online cuz i dun have my spare batteries for my mouse. and my touch pad is a pain. so yea. bad stuff is internet is back now. so more distractions. ish. but will try to use up all my cap somehow.

and it's so cool to know that ppl you hardly ever talk to don't want to see u emo. it's like u know when they say stuff it's sincere and genuine. cuz they like normally don't ever talk to u. but then sudd THEY start the convo just to tell u not to emo. plus they're encouraging too. itulah dipanggil kawan. they may not always be there and not neccesarily ur good friend and even close friend. but i believe they are somehow real. like real friends. aih. dunno how to explain la. i guess it's jus the nice feeling when someone u don't expect to care cares la. maybe cuz it's opposite of the ppl u expect to care not giving a shit la and doing nth. hmm.

oh and i should learn to find out the truth instead of assuming stuff. i take back my words in the Very Disappointed post. hmm sry man. shud have asked first.

so thats all for now. will leave here and i plan to only come back when i have finished all my work. maube i won't come on weekends so i finish my work too la. so this is ur post for the whole week.

still have mails to reply. sry WZ! also that guy compiling the book i need to reply. and like asap. ish. forgot abt that. still more friendster replies to reply. cepat la u perempuans. haha. and i also got an email expecting for once. haha! yes i know it's a long one Lauren, sry. u shud know after all the mails i can't stop once i start. haha!

kk see u guys! won't be online also cuz dun wanna get distracted. anything means leave me an offline msg. i'll check in the morning b4 i go to class. then i'll shut down laptop again.

kk see ya.

p.s.: sheesh. i told that i would off the comp at like 9.30 and now it's an hour plus and it's still on. sheesh.

Currently Listening To: You Saw Me- Hillsong

Monday, July 21, 2008

Chances You Have Should Be Taken

when there's a clear open chance, it should be taken.

cuz if not, u'll end up regretting the moment u let the chance slip away.

u'll end up thinking of it so much and it'll end up bugging you so much.

that was your chance! you may not have the chance again!

and now all u have is regret.

i should have said something.

haih. =/

Currently Listening To: Be My Escape - Relient K

Race? What Race?

think about it.

cuz in the end, we're still all Malaysian.

Currently Listening To: Now That You're Near - Hillsong United

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Very Disappointed

i was so shocked.

this is TOTAL lupa kawan k.

so many days to do smth but nvr did anything.

heck. i had to find out myself k!

wth la. this is kawan la it seems.

too much. seriously damn too much.

extremely disappointed


Currently Listening To: Here I Am = PlanetShakers

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Shoutout To My Friends

k i was chatting with Caleb that day and replying Lauren's mail and i came to this conclusion:

If any of u are emoing or feeling bad and need to talk it out, i am definitely free k. DON'T YOU DARE think abt me k and whether i'm free or whatever! don't think "oh i don't want ben to worry about me." eh hello, thats what friends do k. so let me do my job! ish. and don't think "i don't want to tell cuz he also is emoing now so then it'll make it worse" eh then u will never tell right? cuz when i'm happy and fine ure going to say "oh he's happy now and i don't want to make him sad." someone actually did this to me and it pissed me off la.

so seriously, if u got a problem, stop worrying about me la. ish. i can take care and know how to organize my emotions and all la. don't worry. and if most of u know me well, u would know that most of the time i exaggerate my emoness when it's actually nth. so don't worry to tell me stuff when i'm emo la k. seriously.

k just think abt it urself also la, if u had a close fren who's having a problem, would you want them to not tell you cuz they "don't want you to worry?". there's probably only one answer for this question and i don't think i need to answer it. and if there's a person who doesn't worry abt their friends, then i shouldn't be using the word "friend" for that person.

so seriously,



Currently Listening To: That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed) - Panic at The Disco

Thursday, July 17, 2008


k. i think it's kinda obvious that my life is getting kinda busy from now on. lets see why.

1. EMTH weekly labs - which have 10 programming task to do. and 2 extra task which are extra tough.
2. Phys weekly online quiz - which apparently is hard
3. Phys weekly 3 hour labs - nuff said
4. Phys weekly tutorials - starts today
5. Math weekly tutorials - work for the first tut is already up and i'm yet to do it.
6. Engr weekly tutorials - Starts next week. and i have no idea where the rooms are.

k these are all the additional stuff other than the classes which i'm going for. which is abt an average of 3 hours each day. the extremely boring lecturers DO NOT help one bit.

3 of 5 days my classes start at 8. the other 2 they start at 9. with shaving and washing hair and everything, i normally have to wake up between 6 and 7. this explains why i don't come online anymore. i know i have to sleep early and if i go online i WILL end up chatting so to sleep early i just don't open my msn anymore.

plus i'm learning to not be on the comp so much. i honestly have no idea what u ppl do when ure at home. it's so boring! jus sit in room and there's only the comp. i've actually been shutting down my comp the past few days. no reason to keep it on cuz there's nth. i would really wanna know la what ppl do at home if they're not in school. hmm.

my internet has also reached it's limit. so now i have only dial up speed instead of broadband. (which feels just like streamyx la now.) so yeah. with such slow speeds i got no mood even more to come online.

and to my ppl i owe emails to, sry ya. will try to reply ur emails as soon as possible. when i'm less busy. sry for asking for a reply from you so soon when i can't answer them right now. din know it'll end up like this. same goes for the lovely ppl who still use Friendster and comment. haha. :) and also to the gr8 ppl i need to chat with online. :) sry!

got so many things on my mind also now. worrying abt friends, things to do, ppl to please, self to please, friend to make sure don't become enemies, and enemies to make into friends, to know certain ppl more, or at least start talking to them, and seriously a bunch of other stuff.

k so ya. i'm kinda busy. so will prob won't be around for some time. see how la. maybe got time on weekends. see ya.

Currently Listening To: U Can't Touch This - MC Hammer

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Picture Post

Currently Listening To: Follow The Format - Taking Back Sunday

Revenge Can Cause Diabetes

because it's just super sweet. :)

reading ppls blogs when they dunno ure reading can be quite fun. i guess it's fair since they read ur blog and dun really tell. i mean they told la. but not really also. hmm.

and the problem with saying "i told you so" is that the person ure going to say it to needs to remember that you've told them b4. cuz it's no point going and telling them "hah! see la. i told you so b4." and then their reply is "oh is it? i really dun remember u telling me at all la. hmm." it's just not... satisfying. and u also go unappreciated when they remember what others tell and not when u say it.

but thats the story of my life. :)

and besides i'm in a good mood now. maybe cuz i'm feeling cheeky and sneaky and mischevious. which are like basically almost all the same thing. but yea. u get what i mean.


Currently Listening To: Break Free - Hillsong

Sunday, July 13, 2008


Currently Listening To: Coming Undone - Korn

Saturday, July 12, 2008

You Alone Are Worthy

The rules are:
a. put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. for each question, press the next button to get your answer.
d. put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. put this on your blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
Timberwolves at New Jersey - Taking Back Sunday
(err what the heck? hmm maybe i'm like refering to some event to remind the person how i felt then to answer the question la. haha.)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Out Of Control - Hoobastank
(hahaha. not bad)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Down on My Head - Yellowcard
(hmm. maybe i'm looking for some emo looking chick? like she looks down in from my view? hmm)

4. How do you feel today?
Baby Boy - Beyonce
(hahah! maybe it's cuz i was like sleeping whole day like a baby la. haha.)

5. What is your life’s purpose?
Tell Me Baby - Red Hot Chili Peppers
(not bad. sounds like i'll ask my girl to tell me whats my life purpose. haha)

6. What is your motto?
Where Are We Runnin'? - Lenny Kravitz
(heh. not bad. i think it sorta means know where ure going. haha)

7. What do your friends think of you?
How You Remind Me (Cover) - Sum 41
(i remind ppl of stuff? "And this is how you remind me, of what i really am" hmm. cool so i remind ppl of who they are. haha.)

8. What do you think of your parents?
God Is Great - Hillsong
(haha. yeah. my parents are Godly ppl. and they've taught me how great God is. and also i guess God is great for giving me such awesome parents la. cool.)

9. What do you think about very often?
I'm A Believer - Smash Mouth
(hmm. i think abt how i'm a believer in God and how i should live my life? cool. haha.)

10. What is 2+2?
Strong Tower - Kutless
(erm good calculations are needed to build a strong tower? =P)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Forevermore - PlanetShakers
(wah. not bad. best friends til forever. cool. haha.)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
R-Evolve - 30 Seconds To Mars
(hmm. maybe it means my life revolves around her? or will revolve around her? or she will cause me to evolve. haha. )

13. What is your life?
Gunslinger - Avenged Sevenfold
(hmm. my life is the life of a gunslinger. nice. haha.)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Friend - The Feelers
(yeah. i wanna be a good friend to my friends in the future. =) )

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Know You More - Hillsong
(eh cool. i do want to know the person i like more. ;) )

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Break It Off - Rihanna ft Sean Paul
(hahahahaha! sounds like a bad wedding song eh? haha. but actually it means break it off with the it meaning my wife's old boring life la. cuz now she has me so it'll be all cool. ;P )

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Still Time - Hidenori Tokuyama
(hmm. time will be still cuz of my death. haha.)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Stars - Switchfoot
(well, no it's not watching stars as a hobby. it's playing guitar and this song is cuz this is the one song i'm proud of playing. cuz i can do it with my eyes closed. haha.)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Boro Boro - Bluffmaster
(err. i have no idea what to say. it's an Indian song and i dunno what it means. haha!)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Only Hope - Switchfoot
(maybe it's some hope somewhere in me...)

21. What do you think of your friends?
I Can Tell There Was An Accident Here Earlier - Saosin
(erm. nvm. haha)

22. What will you post this as?
You Alone Are Worthy - 1 A.M.
(nth to comment. but it makes it like smth very interesting to read aye. haha.)

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas - Relient K
(hmmm. i'll be soo good it'll be like getting a christmas present?? wut the.... haha!)

Ppl I Tag:
1. Dana
2. Lauren
3. Su Teng
4. Smith
5. Caleb

k have fun ppl. and enjoy! =P

Currently Listening To: Cadence [Acoustic] - Anberlin


k so the last few days been playing some pool. til like really late. but yest was def the best day la. for me at least. cuz of all the crazy shots i took. and the shots i aimed for went in.

k imagine this, behind the back shot, hits one ball twice so it goes in at one end. then the white ball travels all the way across the pool table and hits another ball in at the other end. behind the back shot okayy. haha!

then there was this other spinner shot. which basically went like this.

k my shot is to hit the purple ball. the yellow and red i cant touch.

so yea la. i hit the white and it goes in the middle of the yellow and red. then the amazing happens.

like u can see in the pic, the purple ball moves in direction 1, then somehow turns back and goes in the direction 2 which is like opposite of direction 1. then it goes in direction 3 which goes through the yellow and red and then goes into the pocket!

that was like the coolest shot ever la. instead of going right after direction 1, it turns back cuz of the spin. haha. quite cool man. prob one of the best shots i've made. haha.

other than that there were also times i used other balls instead of the white to hit the ones i wanted in. quite the skill. haha.

k thats all i wanna say for now. see ya.

Currently Listening To: Stan - Eminem




how the hell she dare complain somemore??

that's exactly why she shudn't have it got the iPod.

too much of a manja kid and a spoilt brat.

seriously damn too much. damn damn too much.


Currently Listening To: Johnny B. Goode - Chuck Berry

Friday, July 11, 2008


Currently Listening To: All That I've Got - The Used

One More Question?

and another question pops in my mind.

What do i DESERVE?


Currently Listening To: All The Small Things - blink-182

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Things To Blog About

  1. KS's Tag
  2. Music Influeneces Part 3
  3. Picture Post
k thats all i got for now.

Currently Listening To: From God Above - Hillsong United


just finished 2 and a half hours of guitaring.


i needed that.

awesome mood for now. =)

Currently Listening To: Stationary Stationery - Anberlin

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

God Rocks!


just amazing la how he knows me so well.

and how he can make things work out so i can have the small satisfactions of my life. k this may not be small. it's pretty huge deal to me.

but yea! keawesomenessan la God. u totallu rock my world!

thank you so much! =D

Currently Listening To: Fill Me - Magnify

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Stuff Found On DA

Just some interesting stuff on DA. plenty more where that came from. feels like DA is my 2nd home now.

can't find a good one for disappointment tho. like real really bad disappointment. let me know if you do. cheers.

Currently Listening To: Waiting Game - Yellowcard

Monday, July 07, 2008

Mouth Sealed

cuz it's smth i know.

and EVERYONE says is obvious.

but i'll never admit.

cuz i believe i've tried enough.

Currently Listening To: The River - Good Charlotte

Sunday, July 06, 2008


i need to learn this.

which is precisely why i have to leave.

or find another way to do it.

Currently Listening To: Holly Wood Died - Yellowcard

A Complete Diff View

weird, how somethings, which are wrong, i see as okay.

and how some things which are wrong i saw as okay at first but now i see as wrong.

and cuz of that, some things which were wrong, now look okay.

times like these, we all wish we knew the ending.

Currently Listening To: Dead Living - Sugarcult

Me and You

u know, i think it comes down to doing what i wanna do.

or doing something that helps others.

of course helping others shud come b4 ourselves and all.

but what if you had to give up a HUGE part of ur life and suffer by just helping someone.

just to make them feel better? make their life better?

and don't underestimate the HUGEness of the part of ur life.

just imagine, if you had to stay paralyzed. but u help someone make their life better.

sounds like a noble thing to do right. give up ur life to help others?

but what if they screw you over? they go back to their messed up ways? then everything you sacrificed sums up to NOTHING!

kinda sucks doesn't it. no matter how much you tell urself, "it was worth it", deep down u know it wasn't worth it.


just thoughts going through my mind. and somehow this line comes to mind: "actions speak louder than words"

comments more than welcomed. long profound ones from anonymous ppl are cool too. thx.

Currently Listening To: Secret Place - Planetshakers

Saturday, July 05, 2008

The Blade

i swear, that blade will one day be the death of me.

why am i doing this? why read the past mails?

just crazy works of an insomnimaniac.

Currently Listening To: Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day

Why Can't I Sleep?

hmm. i have a feeling my body clock is all messed up.

cuz i can't sleep now when i want to.

or maybe it's just something in my mind bugging me.

aih. i dunno la.

me jus wanna sleep!

Currently Listening To: ...To Be Loved - Papa Roach

Friday, July 04, 2008

Misery Business

i love the confidence in this song. maybe the lyrics can't really tell, so go hear the song! =D and it'll be great for my someone to sing this. feel so... wanted and precious. haha.

Misery Business

I'm in the business of misery, let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass that's tickin like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out...
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth

I waited eight long months
She finally set him free
I told him I can't lie he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we had caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile

Whoa... I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But god does it feel so good
Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
Cause god it just feels so...
It just feels so good

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse

Whoa... I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But god does it feel so good
Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
Cause god it just feels so...
It just feels so good

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Whoa.. I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now

Whoa... I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But god does it feel so good
Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
Cause god it just feels so...
It just feels so good



fuh! i just watched the video for the song. and i must say! kepowernessan! like really! absolutely must watch til the end! =D

Currently Listening To: Misery Business - Paramore


i just realised i think i may have made a style of saying some words. and i din know it at first but then i just say it and sudd i realised ppl started laughing.

cuz its like if it's normal, then ppl won't react la. so if got reaction means its prob new. just like how ppl went "wahh" with my hair today. haha.

anyway, what style did i *believe* i created?

basically, it's just putting words in between the words ke-, -ness and -an which is called kata imbuhan in malay according to Beccy.

i mean it works for anything. k not anything. but some words la. like...






yea. u get my drift. and i just realised its used for words of expression. cool.

k i shall update abt GoldRush, which was really cool, some time soon.

oh and smth intersting!

i slept at 9! yes in the morning. after breakfast. haha!

thats like worse than in Malaysia when i came back at 7 and fell asleep. haha!

see ya! =D

Currently Listening To: Rise and Fall - The Offspring

Sleep Lost

cuz here i am.

finished eating breakfast.


but i think i feel sleepy enough to sleep now.

lets see how it goes

wish me luck! =D

Currently Listening To: Perfect King - Hillsong United

I Should Sleep. Like Really.

note to self:

when creating stuff, remember to use font size 400.

gives way better resolution. best for resizing too.

now i should sleep.

or wait an hour to go for breakfast?


nah. sleep wins. =D

Currently Listening To: Fall - Hillsong United

Thursday, July 03, 2008


thx to Miss Lauren, who said she's been "commenting" on my blog but meant saying smth in the chatbox, i went on a nice and interesting trip down memroy lane reading ALL (yes i am that free) the comments ppl have left me on my posts.

well, i must say it was cool. and i think it was awesome how some ppl are brave enough to just comment on the things i say and not be afraid of what i might think or say or feel or whatever. i like how some comments ppl left were just them speaking their mind abt what i said. its awesome. i mean in today's world where everyone is so self concious and worrying abt what some other person might think of what they say, comments with such great content are really rare. so yeah.

there was this once tho, that there was like 8 comments which was really cool and helpful and insightful also. tho there was anonymous ppl, they actually identified themselves so it was all good. i think the most fun was when i asked for one emo song and ppl responded. that was cool. finding out emo songs and all. and yes i DID download and listen to every single song that everyone recommended. so thank you very much to those who took the time to comment. REALLY appreciate it. thx! =D

i think i just love comments la. on anything i blog abt. random also can. i hate the anonymous comments that don't make sense. i like how Jin blasted one anonymous guy by saying they were cowards. cuz i guess thats what they are la. not willing to stand for what they say. k la, i prob am scary and all, but i am willing to accpet anything ppl say la. i may not agree, but i will accept la. so bring it on! haha! plus do explain stuffs la. i'm not a smart guy so u have to explain a bit la. haha.

and also while going through my posts i noticed the ppl who comment quite frequently on my blog. not many but still important la. these ppl are Wei Zhen, Gloria, Eu Jeen, Caleb and also KS.

UNFORTUNATELY, despite these wonderful ppl commenting on my posts, i somehow always like don't reply their comments. this is something i need to learn la. so sry ppl for not replying ur comments on my posts! sometimes i guess i dun have anything to say or dunno what to say or procrastinate til i forget. haha! need to learn to acknowledge the comments!

PLUS! i need to learn to comment more on ppls blogs too. k i prob don't do that much cuz i dun have much to say la. but yeah. will try to comment more on other ppls blog cuz i'm sure it makes them happy somehow. haha! =D

random: it's 2.18 in the morning and i'm eating the sushi the girls made yesterday. talking abt weird hours doing weird things. but one sushi has a kiwi fruit in it! =D

Currently Listening To: Violence - blink-182

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

All I Can Say Is...

[insert swear word here and SCREAM at the top of your lungs]

i wanna go back to Malaysia now. :(

at least reach by the end of July jus in time for august.

WHY LA?? WHY?????

so unfair. so so so so so unfair.

it's a monday somemore. and i won't have any school or rubbish to disturb.


i swear, if it was during the hols i'd def be back. confirmed.

whats weird is, b4 knowing this i mmg had a plan to come back at the same time. haha!


WHY LA??!?!!?!


*update: i just realised that i'll be missing Jo's leaving also if i'm not back then.

ARGH!!! WHY LA!? k. this so SUCKS! =(

Currently Listening To: Fly Away - Lenny Kravitz

Music Influences Part 2

k i shall continue where i left off here.

Jimmy Eat World - Bleed American, Futures, Chase This Light
k as i know J.E.W. has been around like since forever la. cuz i remember their old songs and it used to be quite famous la. but then those were the old radio days before the comp and downloading music and all. so i din have any songs from them til like 2003 or 2004. was watching MTV and there was their video for Work. dun think i really listened to the whole thing also. may also have heard it on radio then. but anyway, i heard it then got the songs from the album and all la. quite a few songs i heard on OTH and went and downloaded. and ended up with all three albums from them. out of which i like Chase This Light the best.
First Song Heard: The Middle [Bleed American]

Jon Foreman - Fall EP, Winter EP, Spring EP, Summer EP

yeapp. it's Jon Foreman from Switchfoot with his own albums. 6 songs in each album. first heard he was doing his own album EPs from Wei Zhen. but only recently i went and downloaded them. this is also after Julian sent me a song from his Winter EP. it's not bad la. quite nice to listen to. but it's basically all acoustic stuff.
First Song Heard: Learning How To Die [Winter EP]

Kate Voegele - Don't Look Away

Kate Voegele, or more known to ppl as Mia from OTH. well, basically, thats where i found her la. from OTH. was watching and realised that she really has such a gr8 voice. and the album's not bad la i guess. quite cool. i guess cuz she has a good voice la. her songs are not thaaaat gr8 la as far as i can remember.
First Song Heard: No Good

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

k apparently she's and American Idol. i have to admit i've been listenin to her songs for so long not knowing this. i think i was watching MTV and saw her there for the first time. so one song from there. then she kept coming out with awesome song after awesome song. so yea. she's in my top 3 favourite female artists.
First Song Heard: Breakaway

Klaxons - Myths Of The Near Future

this band was found from the Newspaper. Star Newspaper to be exact. not bad eh? well, apparently, they won some best new comer award or smth like that. so they must be pretty cool la. so i went and got some of their songs. weird at first. but not bad la. then saw more on MTV also. wah not bad song also. then AGAIN appeared on Need For Speed ProStreet. and the song was weird at first but u grow onto it la. quite cool. tho most ppl dun like la. haha.
First Song Heard: Golden Skans [Golden Skans EP]

Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory, Reanimation, Meteora, Live In Texas, Collision Course, Minutes To Midnight

k. this band is like legendary. i have like 3 of their albums as in ori bought ones. all worht it. and when i have the money i'll buy Reanimation also. k so i found this band out like way back in 2001 or 2002. they were played on the radio and noone knew them then. but their songs were not bad la. first they seemed like some crazy metal band la. then thx to my good friend So Eu Jin from Alor Star, i got to know them better. and man, it was totally worth it. they are really awesome la. they got skillz. it's like 6 ppl in a band which is like normally too much, but then for them it's just nice. plus how many rock bands do u know that has an MC and a DJ? cool right?
First Song Heard: One Step Closer [Hybrid Theory]

Lostprophets - Start Something, Liberation Transmission

this band was found while playing Need For Speed Underground. as i figured the bands they used on the games were like pretty much unknown so i din think they were that gr8 la. then i remember seeing them on MTV also for their MV of Shinobi Vs. Dragon Ninja. and it was a cool song man. then later on i found their lyrics for Last Train Home posted on Grace's blog waaaayyy back when she used Xanga. then i was like, eh this band quite famous eh. then more songs came from them and i loved like everyone that came out. then i got the albums la. another 2 albums i would buy if i had money.
First Song Heard: To Hell We Ride [Start Something]

Mayday Parade - Tales Told By Dead Friends, A Lesson In Romantics

another band introduced by Mr. Jin. i think we were at Starbucks at Cemara there where he asked me to listen to a song by them. and i was like, eh not bad la. then when we went back on the weekend he sent the song to me. and wah got addicted la. and he sent some other songs also la. then i also like, then i when i got both their albums la. which both were good. but i would def say A Lesson In Romantics was better. but maybe cuz there were more songs la. hmm.
First Song Heard: When I Get Home, You're So Dead [Tales Told By Dead Friends]

My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge, The Black Parade

i'm pretty sure this band was found from listening to the radio. and also from talk in school la i guess. then there's also watching I'm Not Okay on MTV. which is a pretty cool video. and out of the two albums, i think i like Three Cheers better. but some tracks on Black Parade are really cool too la.
First Song Heard: Helena [Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge]

OneRepublic - Dreaming Out Loud

this band shot to popularity with their song remixed by Timbaland. so i would def attribute the finding of this band to the radio. or it cud have been my younger sister too. can't remember. haih. but yea. also after recommendation from Peter, i got the album. and it's pretty not bad la. ok la. some mellow stuff and enjoyable i guess.
First Song Heard: Apologize (Timbaland Remix)

Panic(!) At The Disco - A Fever You Can't Sweat Out, Pretty.Odd.

never knew of this band during the time they were up and rising cuz i didn't listen to the radio during that time. had no clue of them. then in church i was talking to Yui Teng abt the Fall Out Boy video which just came out. and i remember her mentioning abt The Academy Is... singer being in the video. then i remember her mentioning abt Panic! At The Disco too at the time. being the lazy me, i didn't really go and find out la. then Grace also post their video on her blog. and i watched la. then heard of them more on the radio and also through MTV. then found their song quite cool la. and got it. then came to NZ, and was randomly listening to music off ppls playlists and saw their A Fever You Can't Sweat Out album. so i thought, might as well have a listen. and wow, i was so impressed man. i even went and bought the album man. thats how good it was. Pretty.Odd. is still an ok ok album la. AFYCSO is still way better. best NZD15 i ever used. haha.
First Song Heard: I Write Sins Not Tragedies [A Fever You Can't Sweat Out]

Paramore - Riot!

another Friendster found band. was surfing along friendster and came across Shahira's page and the video for a song started playing. and i was like, eh quite cool la. so got the song la. and then suddenly a few months or weeks after that day, Paramore became famous. with their album Riot! quite a few good tracks on the album. and the acoustic songs are also really good. proves she can sing.
First Song Heard: Emergency [All We Know Is Falling]

Relient K - MMHMM, Apathetic EP, Five Score and Seven Years Ago, Let It Snow Baby... Let It Reindeer, The Birds And The Bee Sides

as i remember, i was surfing Yahoo music and instead of the song i was searching for, Relient K's video starting playing. and i also listened la. and i was like, wah not bad. quite nice. so i got the song. then i got some other songs from them too. then i remember lending my thumbdrive to Julian and he put in the Five Score album in. and wah. it was nice man. well, it shows since i bought the album too la. haha. i think this is probably the only band i have that is like all feel good songs. k not all la. but mostly and i get that feel good and happy feeling. cuz their songs also like happy happy only. haha.
First Song Heard: Be My Escape [MMHMM]

k thats all for part 2. will try and finish up by part 3 maybe. but i counted a lot more to go. and hopefully i can remember how i know all these bands as thats the main reason i'm doing this.

Currently Listening To: Be My Escape - Relient K