totally speechless. and i'm also laughing at the same time.
why? i also dunno.
it's like damn pathetic and cheap la. at least that the thoughts going through my mind. yea sure i shouldn't think like that. but it's natural la. not talking abt the thinkin abt the pathetic and cheap of course. it's what that made me think those things.
but seriously la. after finding this thing out, wah, lagi sakit man. hurts even more. shows like even more low i was. but yet i'm still laughing at the patheticness i guess. dunno la.
but one thing i know from this is what i want. what i want to happen. quite sure. and since i'm saying it in my head not in an angry way eventhough it hurts so bad, it must mean i'm sure.
wow. just when i thought it couldn't get worse. haha!
k la. i'm prob like crazy. i blame the adrenalin and whatever else is giving me the rush now. ;)
well, it's a good thing it just feels good. for now at least.
i'll prob have to deal with the reality and the crap tmrw morning. but oh well.
no time tho. gotta study. haha.
see how it goes! =D
How to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
Alanis Morissette
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