Thursday, July 31, 2008

Unappreciatetiveness


NOONE knows how to appreciate the great things they have in their lives.

and yes, i do include me when i say that.

Hold on
To what you've
Been given
Lately

Hold on
To what you
Know you got

Hold on
To what you've
Been given
Lately

Hold on
Cause the world will turn if you're ready or not

KT Tunstall

Currently Listening To: Never Let You Go - Third Eye Blind

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Jojowa Sufibro

seriously, how'd u get that name again? haha.

anyway, Jo will be leaving tmrw for US. and who knows how long la til i see him again. he said he'll be back in 2010 so i'm planning to come back then also. hopefully the timings and stuff will be nice enough la. haha.

hmm. i've known this guy for like what, almost 20 years now. thats like giler long. k la. abt there la. sure i din know him for the first 9 months when i wasn't born yet la. and also when i was a small kid and pretty much din know anything or anyone. but u know what i mean la.

the earliest memory i have of this guy is probably the funniest ever. i remember we were in Appacha's house in SP. it was night. we were like so small kids then. and i think i remember not wanting to share my tricycle and all. and Jo wanted to ride it or smth la. then i called him stupid. and that got me in a big deal of trouble. he told his dad and his dad spanked me. damn. i so remember crying. haha.

what a first memory of someone eh? the guy got me spanked k. all for jus saying 'stupid'. and now he ends up being the closest person to me. haha! things sure have changed eh.

and i think i remember writing a letter to him when i was in Std 1 talking abt the Power Rangers episode that ended a few minutes ago. obviously the letter never got mailed. haha. but not bad la. so young di started writing letter all. must have been the first letter i wrote or smth.

more recently, i remember all the crazy things we used to do. skipped BM tuition once to go and watch The Punisher. not bad. we cycled all the way to One U man. thats like achievement. haha. and so many other places i cycled to also. i remember cycling to BK classes also. then i started learning drums from him also. cuz of the drum set at the BK place. oh there was dinner at ming tien also b4 goin to class and all.

joined BB cuz of Jo also. and man, i seriously dunno what would i be doing on my saturdays if i din join BB man. i wud be so bored and dead and what not. met so many great ppl and learnt so so many things in BB also. oh i think i used to hang around him a lot during the first year at church and all. must've been quite annoying eh having like a tag-a-long guy following u around. but thx for tahaning me i guess and helping me make friends and all. now i don't have to tag-a-long and all. haha.

oh ya. i remember in Form 3 also. we used to like spend long times on the phone and all. seems so weird now. but last time like nothiing also. haha. then we had a competion to find who can get 100 MSN contacts first also. he obviously won. haha. in fact, i think like almost everything also he wins la. quite cekap. like the time we both tried to get 100 for math. i'd always fail and he got 100. ish. tak puas man. haha.

oh ya. went and did my driving lessons with him also. we like signed up one day after SPM finished i think.

oh and he got me to read the Dan Brown series too. not bad. for a person like me who doesn't like to read. and got me interested in ambigrams also. i still think the ambigrams he does are better than the ones i can do. respect! haha.

and he can drive the volvo too man! thats like the ultimate skill. for me to drive also like can die. seriously dunno how u do it man. haha.

and he also brings me along to all the stuffs he does with his friends and all. cuz studying in Intec means i don't have a lot of friends that i can go out and hang out with very often. so yea. thx for bring me along and making my life more fun.

oh and the poker also! man those times were fun. playing and betting and he and his poker face. susah to menang man. haha. and also Catan! Catan was like the best board game ever. and it's so hard to beat that sneaky mischevious Jo. too much. like somehow when it looks like he's winning in one turn everything's gone. ish!

i prob played Futsal so much cuz of Jo also. he is like the synonym for Football la i think. Makan, Minum and Tidur bola. haha. i dun think he ever missed a single Man U match la. even through SPM and STPM. itu lah dipanggil fan. haha. i prob like Man U cuz of him also. one of the most skilled players i know. heh. i remember the Ronaldo strands of hair that he kept. and which i was influenced to keep also. haha.

heh. i remember Mr. Chan's tuition also! i remember we were all reading from the book then when it came to his turn, he din read. why? cuz he slept off! haha! but he slept off in a way that he looked like he was reading his book. quite skill man. haha.

oh and i remember Buggy also! and Need For Speed 3! damn. those were fun games to play. not bad la. i remember staying over and like almost everyday we'll play buggy and try to figure out all the hidden stuffs and all. i remember Meanie Mode! haha! and Ghost also. eh i wanna play Buggy la now. ish.

i actually dunno anyone who doesn't like this guy la. somehow he got that skill of making everyone like him or smth. like some magic spell or smth. not bad. k of course when i say anyone i'm excluding those problematic ppl whom everyone has a problem with la. and also those who mmg don't like anyone and all.

k if i were to write everything down, this blog post wud seriously almost never end. so i think i shall stop here. also because i can't remember what else i wanna write la. =P haha! and if i were to list his good qualities and all, the list might jus go on forever also la. plus i think i agree with the list that Jesh made up la. quite accurate.

so Jo! since ure goin to US and all, ALLTHE BEST K! and u seriously better be a good boy there k! like seriously, don't too much and all k. don't do what i won't do also. haha. k la, i know u shud know well enough and all. so yeah.

damn i so know i'm going to miss you. k one day i'll come visit u in US or smth la k. seriously. weird la how i'm not in Msia but yet i feel like ure leaving also. hmm.

and damn i don't even have a proper photo with you to put up. ish. too much la the time i left, hardly cud say bye or take photo with anyone. ish.

anyway, i sudah cakap panjang panjang, so i'll end here.

ALL THE BEST and BE GOOD K! =D

Currently Listening To: Lonely Nation - Switchfoot

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

That Day

Well that day, that day
That day
What a mess
What a marvel
I walked into that cloud again and I lost myself
And I'm sad
Sad
Sad
Small
Alone
Scared
Craving purity
A fragile mind and a gentle spirit

That day
That day
What a marvelous mess
Well this is all that I can do
I'm done to be me
Sad
Scared
Small
Alone
Beautiful
It's supposed to be like this
I accept everything
It's supposed to be like this

That day
That day
I lay down beside myself in this feeling of pain
Sadness
Scared
Small
Climbing
Crawling towards the light
And it's all that I see and I'm tired
And I'm right
And I'm wrong
And it's beautiful

Well that day
That day
What a mess
What a marvel
We're all the same but no one thinks so
And it's okay
And I'm small
And I'm divine
And it's beautiful
And it's coming
And it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect

Well that day
That day when everything was a mess and everything was in place
And there's too much hurt
Sad
Small
Scared
Alone and everyone's a cynic
And it's hard
And it's sweet but it's supposed to be like this

Well that day
That day when I sat in the sun and I thought
And I cried 'cause I'm sad
Scared
Small
Alone
Strong and I'm nothing
And I'm true
Only a brave man can break through
And it's all okay
Yeah
It's okay

Well that day
That day
I lay down beside myself in this feeling of pain
Sadness
Scared
Small
Climbing
Crawling towards the light and it's all that I see
And I'm tired
And I'm right
And I'm wrong
And it's beautiful

Well that day
That day
What a mess
What a marvelous mess
We're all the same but no one thinks so and it's okay
And I'm small
And I'm divine
And it's beautiful
And it's coming
And it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect

Oh, Oh, Oh

That day

Well that day
That day when I lay down beside myself in this feeling of pain
Sadness
Scared
Small
Climbing
Crawling towards the light and it's all that I see
And I'm tired
And I'm right
And I'm wrong
And it's beautiful

That day
That day
What a mess
What a marvelous mess
We're all the same but no one thinks so
And it's okay
And I'm small
And I'm divine
And it's beautiful
And it's coming
And it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect

That day

So sweet
Can you feel it
(Can you feel it)
Mmm
Are you here
Are you with me
I can feel it and it's beautiful

That day (x3)
Absolutely perfect

Natalie Imbruglia

Currently Listening To: That Day - Natalie Imbruglia

Monday, July 28, 2008

Psych!



Secretary: Mr. Guster? There's a Lt. Crunch here to see you.

Gus: Lt. Crunch?

*Shawn walks in*

Shawn: Well, actually I've been promoted. It's now Captain Crunch.


hahahahhahaha! seriously Shawn is just soooo sooo lame. and the way he does his psychic moments and his "really?" thing is so funny.

season two's 11th episode is still the best and funniest episode ever. get that episode!

seriously la. awesome show! currently started watching from season 1 and on the way to season 3! haha!

Currently Watching: Psych - Season 1 Episode 6: Weekend Warrior

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Things To Blog About Part 2

  • Music Influences Part 3
  • Msn Bridges Gaps
  • Tribute To Jo
  • Change of Attitude
  • Kedah
  • Need To Get Outta Here
  • My Hair
k need to remind myself if not all i'll forget.

so much to blog, so little time. haih.

and Ally left for back home today. and i feel kinda sad. like emo liddat. i guess one reason is prob the regret that i never spent enough time with her la. but she made so many good friends here tho. not ur usual hi and bye friends. like really good friends. wel it seemed that way la at least. feel like i need to learn that attitude of friendlyness from her la. haih.

emo.

damn. she told me not to emo also. haiihhh.

blank.

Currently Listening To: Could I Ever - Planetshakers

The Painter


Cause he paints pictures for people to see. and what people sees of him is only the pictures he paints.

It's interesting because since people only see what he paints, he basically controls what they see. If he wanted them to see a blue sky, all he'd have to do is paint a blue sky. If he wants them to see a mountain range scenery, all he has to do is paint that.

And they say that a picture tells a thousands words. And most of the time when he paints, he'll paint something related to him and his life. So in a way, his picture tells a thousand words of his life.

So would you say that the people who looks at his paintings know him?

I guess to a certain extent they do.

But, they only see what he wants them to see. Chances are they will only see the good that he paints as the bad he hides from the world and it never becomes a painting.

So they wouldn't really know the painter. They just know what he wants them to know.

And the only way to know the painter is not through his paintings. But through the painter itself. It's i guess the only way to go about it. And the most efficient no doubt.

But doing this takes time and you most probably won't know the inner secrets of the painter with just one meeting. It takes time.

So then you ask yourself, do you really want to know the painter?

Currently Listening To: You Know My Name - Chris Cornell

Friday, July 25, 2008

Why So Serious?

(sif u din know u were gonna see this pic when u read the title. haha)

kecekapnessan. i like. not bad. very nice.

the only not nice thing is i forgot to invite Sam to come along and watch. haih.

but still! cool!

so lemme ask u...


Why so serious? >:)


Currently Listening To: Tears Don't Fall - Bullet For My Valentine

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Stay Away!

k i totally gotta stay away from my laptop if i want any work to get done. like really.

cuz now i end up chatting away and surfing and who knows la what else. and it's not like i'm in my room so much also to be wasting so much time when i am in my room ready to do work. so yea.

plus! i can't be emo when i'm doing work. cuz this will happen.


and then once i start, i won't stop til i sorta think it's done.


oh i may plan to colour in the black lines. but see how.

but FOR NOW! i totally gotta do my physics work which is so overdue. hmm.

and i think it's someone's bday today. can't know for sure and have no communications established yet. haih.

oh and yeah. got some mistakes on my busyness post last week. i actually start at 8 for 4 days in a row. and i also din come online cuz i dun have my spare batteries for my mouse. and my touch pad is a pain. so yea. bad stuff is internet is back now. so more distractions. ish. but will try to use up all my cap somehow.

and it's so cool to know that ppl you hardly ever talk to don't want to see u emo. it's like u know when they say stuff it's sincere and genuine. cuz they like normally don't ever talk to u. but then sudd THEY start the convo just to tell u not to emo. plus they're encouraging too. itulah dipanggil kawan. they may not always be there and not neccesarily ur good friend and even close friend. but i believe they are somehow real. like real friends. aih. dunno how to explain la. i guess it's jus the nice feeling when someone u don't expect to care cares la. maybe cuz it's opposite of the ppl u expect to care not giving a shit la and doing nth. hmm.

oh and i should learn to find out the truth instead of assuming stuff. i take back my words in the Very Disappointed post. hmm sry man. shud have asked first.

so thats all for now. will leave here and i plan to only come back when i have finished all my work. maube i won't come on weekends so i finish my work too la. so this is ur post for the whole week.

still have mails to reply. sry WZ! also that guy compiling the book i need to reply. and like asap. ish. forgot abt that. still more friendster replies to reply. cepat la u perempuans. haha. and i also got an email expecting for once. haha! yes i know it's a long one Lauren, sry. u shud know after all the mails i can't stop once i start. haha!

kk see u guys! won't be online also cuz dun wanna get distracted. anything means leave me an offline msg. i'll check in the morning b4 i go to class. then i'll shut down laptop again.

kk see ya.

p.s.: sheesh. i told that i would off the comp at like 9.30 and now it's an hour plus and it's still on. sheesh.


Currently Listening To: You Saw Me- Hillsong

Monday, July 21, 2008

Chances You Have Should Be Taken


when there's a clear open chance, it should be taken.

cuz if not, u'll end up regretting the moment u let the chance slip away.

u'll end up thinking of it so much and it'll end up bugging you so much.

that was your chance! you may not have the chance again!

and now all u have is regret.










i should have said something.

haih. =/

Currently Listening To: Be My Escape - Relient K

Race? What Race?



think about it.

cuz in the end, we're still all Malaysian.

Currently Listening To: Now That You're Near - Hillsong United

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Very Disappointed

i was so shocked.

this is TOTAL lupa kawan k.

so many days to do smth but nvr did anything.

heck. i had to find out myself k!

wth la. this is kawan la it seems.

too much. seriously damn too much.

extremely disappointed

>=/

Currently Listening To: Here I Am = PlanetShakers

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Shoutout To My Friends

k i was chatting with Caleb that day and replying Lauren's mail and i came to this conclusion:

If any of u are emoing or feeling bad and need to talk it out, i am definitely free k. DON'T YOU DARE think abt me k and whether i'm free or whatever! don't think "oh i don't want ben to worry about me." eh hello, thats what friends do k. so let me do my job! ish. and don't think "i don't want to tell cuz he also is emoing now so then it'll make it worse" eh then u will never tell right? cuz when i'm happy and fine ure going to say "oh he's happy now and i don't want to make him sad." someone actually did this to me and it pissed me off la.

so seriously, if u got a problem, stop worrying about me la. ish. i can take care and know how to organize my emotions and all la. don't worry. and if most of u know me well, u would know that most of the time i exaggerate my emoness when it's actually nth. so don't worry to tell me stuff when i'm emo la k. seriously.

k just think abt it urself also la, if u had a close fren who's having a problem, would you want them to not tell you cuz they "don't want you to worry?". there's probably only one answer for this question and i don't think i need to answer it. and if there's a person who doesn't worry abt their friends, then i shouldn't be using the word "friend" for that person.

so seriously,

STOP THINKIN ABOUT OTHERS AND THINK ABOUT YOURSELF FOR ONCE!


ish.

Currently Listening To: That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed) - Panic at The Disco

Thursday, July 17, 2008

KeBusyNessAn

k. i think it's kinda obvious that my life is getting kinda busy from now on. lets see why.

1. EMTH weekly labs - which have 10 programming task to do. and 2 extra task which are extra tough.
2. Phys weekly online quiz - which apparently is hard
3. Phys weekly 3 hour labs - nuff said
4. Phys weekly tutorials - starts today
5. Math weekly tutorials - work for the first tut is already up and i'm yet to do it.
6. Engr weekly tutorials - Starts next week. and i have no idea where the rooms are.

k these are all the additional stuff other than the classes which i'm going for. which is abt an average of 3 hours each day. the extremely boring lecturers DO NOT help one bit.

3 of 5 days my classes start at 8. the other 2 they start at 9. with shaving and washing hair and everything, i normally have to wake up between 6 and 7. this explains why i don't come online anymore. i know i have to sleep early and if i go online i WILL end up chatting so to sleep early i just don't open my msn anymore.

plus i'm learning to not be on the comp so much. i honestly have no idea what u ppl do when ure at home. it's so boring! jus sit in room and there's only the comp. i've actually been shutting down my comp the past few days. no reason to keep it on cuz there's nth. i would really wanna know la what ppl do at home if they're not in school. hmm.

my internet has also reached it's limit. so now i have only dial up speed instead of broadband. (which feels just like streamyx la now.) so yeah. with such slow speeds i got no mood even more to come online.

and to my ppl i owe emails to, sry ya. will try to reply ur emails as soon as possible. when i'm less busy. sry for asking for a reply from you so soon when i can't answer them right now. din know it'll end up like this. same goes for the lovely ppl who still use Friendster and comment. haha. :) and also to the gr8 ppl i need to chat with online. :) sry!

got so many things on my mind also now. worrying abt friends, things to do, ppl to please, self to please, friend to make sure don't become enemies, and enemies to make into friends, to know certain ppl more, or at least start talking to them, and seriously a bunch of other stuff.

k so ya. i'm kinda busy. so will prob won't be around for some time. see how la. maybe got time on weekends. see ya.

Currently Listening To: U Can't Touch This - MC Hammer

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Picture Post

Currently Listening To: Follow The Format - Taking Back Sunday

Revenge Can Cause Diabetes

because it's just super sweet. :)

reading ppls blogs when they dunno ure reading can be quite fun. i guess it's fair since they read ur blog and dun really tell. i mean they told la. but not really also. hmm.

and the problem with saying "i told you so" is that the person ure going to say it to needs to remember that you've told them b4. cuz it's no point going and telling them "hah! see la. i told you so b4." and then their reply is "oh is it? i really dun remember u telling me at all la. hmm." it's just not... satisfying. and u also go unappreciated when they remember what others tell and not when u say it.

but thats the story of my life. :)

and besides i'm in a good mood now. maybe cuz i'm feeling cheeky and sneaky and mischevious. which are like basically almost all the same thing. but yea. u get what i mean.

:)

Currently Listening To: Break Free - Hillsong

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Saturday, July 12, 2008

You Alone Are Worthy

The rules are:
a. put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. for each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. put this on your blog.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
Timberwolves at New Jersey - Taking Back Sunday
(err what the heck? hmm maybe i'm like refering to some event to remind the person how i felt then to answer the question la. haha.)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Out Of Control - Hoobastank
(hahaha. not bad)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Down on My Head - Yellowcard
(hmm. maybe i'm looking for some emo looking chick? like she looks down in from my view? hmm)

4. How do you feel today?
Baby Boy - Beyonce
(hahah! maybe it's cuz i was like sleeping whole day like a baby la. haha.)

5. What is your life’s purpose?
Tell Me Baby - Red Hot Chili Peppers
(not bad. sounds like i'll ask my girl to tell me whats my life purpose. haha)

6. What is your motto?
Where Are We Runnin'? - Lenny Kravitz
(heh. not bad. i think it sorta means know where ure going. haha)

7. What do your friends think of you?
How You Remind Me (Cover) - Sum 41
(i remind ppl of stuff? "And this is how you remind me, of what i really am" hmm. cool so i remind ppl of who they are. haha.)

8. What do you think of your parents?
God Is Great - Hillsong
(haha. yeah. my parents are Godly ppl. and they've taught me how great God is. and also i guess God is great for giving me such awesome parents la. cool.)

9. What do you think about very often?
I'm A Believer - Smash Mouth
(hmm. i think abt how i'm a believer in God and how i should live my life? cool. haha.)

10. What is 2+2?
Strong Tower - Kutless
(erm good calculations are needed to build a strong tower? =P)


11. What do you think of your best friend?
Forevermore - PlanetShakers
(wah. not bad. best friends til forever. cool. haha.)


12. What do you think of the person you like?
R-Evolve - 30 Seconds To Mars
(hmm. maybe it means my life revolves around her? or will revolve around her? or she will cause me to evolve. haha. )

13. What is your life?
Gunslinger - Avenged Sevenfold
(hmm. my life is the life of a gunslinger. nice. haha.)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Friend - The Feelers
(yeah. i wanna be a good friend to my friends in the future. =) )

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Know You More - Hillsong
(eh cool. i do want to know the person i like more. ;) )

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Break It Off - Rihanna ft Sean Paul
(hahahahaha! sounds like a bad wedding song eh? haha. but actually it means break it off with the it meaning my wife's old boring life la. cuz now she has me so it'll be all cool. ;P )

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Still Time - Hidenori Tokuyama
(hmm. time will be still cuz of my death. haha.)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Stars - Switchfoot
(well, no it's not watching stars as a hobby. it's playing guitar and this song is cuz this is the one song i'm proud of playing. cuz i can do it with my eyes closed. haha.)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Boro Boro - Bluffmaster
(err. i have no idea what to say. it's an Indian song and i dunno what it means. haha!)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Only Hope - Switchfoot
(maybe it's some hope somewhere in me...)

21. What do you think of your friends?
I Can Tell There Was An Accident Here Earlier - Saosin
(erm. nvm. haha)

22. What will you post this as?
You Alone Are Worthy - 1 A.M.
(nth to comment. but it makes it like smth very interesting to read aye. haha.)

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas - Relient K
(hmmm. i'll be soo good it'll be like getting a christmas present?? wut the.... haha!)

Ppl I Tag:
1. Dana
2. Lauren
3. Su Teng
4. Smith
5. Caleb

k have fun ppl. and enjoy! =P

Currently Listening To: Cadence [Acoustic] - Anberlin

Pool

k so the last few days been playing some pool. til like really late. but yest was def the best day la. for me at least. cuz of all the crazy shots i took. and the shots i aimed for went in.

k imagine this, behind the back shot, hits one ball twice so it goes in at one end. then the white ball travels all the way across the pool table and hits another ball in at the other end. behind the back shot okayy. haha!

then there was this other spinner shot. which basically went like this.



k my shot is to hit the purple ball. the yellow and red i cant touch.



so yea la. i hit the white and it goes in the middle of the yellow and red. then the amazing happens.


like u can see in the pic, the purple ball moves in direction 1, then somehow turns back and goes in the direction 2 which is like opposite of direction 1. then it goes in direction 3 which goes through the yellow and red and then goes into the pocket!

that was like the coolest shot ever la. instead of going right after direction 1, it turns back cuz of the spin. haha. quite cool man. prob one of the best shots i've made. haha.

other than that there were also times i used other balls instead of the white to hit the ones i wanted in. quite the skill. haha.

k thats all i wanna say for now. see ya.



Currently Listening To: Stan - Eminem

OWWWHHHH


LIKE WTH??

thats TOOO MUCCHHH!


how the hell she dare complain somemore??

that's exactly why she shudn't have it got the iPod.

too much of a manja kid and a spoilt brat.

seriously damn too much. damn damn too much.

WTH LA!

Currently Listening To: Johnny B. Goode - Chuck Berry

Friday, July 11, 2008

Disappoint






Currently Listening To: All That I've Got - The Used