Friday, June 06, 2008

Wokachang

finally today my design studios for this sem finished. and it ended with a presentation of our project, which i must say that Ross nailed. and thru the whole time we have been doing this project, i think it's like the most fun and awesome time. although it's been stress at some times trying to figure out stuff and all la. but it's still awesome. why? cuz of my group mates Caroline and Ross. they are awesome! the way that Ross says stuff and comes up with words is just a crack up.

yes, wokachang is Ross word. what it means, we still have no idea. i think it's something like "thingamabob, thingy.. etc..." yea. smth liddat la. and the way Caroline gets bugged abt it is funny too. haha. she totally can't stand it. but of course in a good way and all la. from the "Rational-e" to the "CAD" to the "well/good". hilarious.

Ross and Caroline

and i realise that my group can super waste time. tho we got more organized near the end. like the first meeting we had. we spent like 3 hours to create a simple problem definition. and we weren't even done then! and had to meet up some other day. i tell u the way we get distracted is amazing. we talked abt rowing to the Foundry and also Yanosh, and a bunch of other stuff. haha.

but near the end we were more focused i must say. well, at least me and Caroline. Ross still got distracted quite a bit. but it was cool in a way that i could find out more abt ppl and also listen to interesting stories.

but yea. i guess our group was balanced in it's way. Ross was the playful one who got distracted, Caroline was the one who did the most work of all i must say, and i was sorta in between (due to my short attention span and also not wanting to let my teammates down.). but even tho all of us tended to fool around and play around and get distracted, everyone came up with really gr8 ideas. and we did work quite hard on this. i hope we do well.

and the one thing i like also is that they sorta "noticed" the diff in my culture and all. like they were really considerate la. like things that i'm blur abt when they talked, they sorta explained it to me. they din expect me to know and all la. they knew i wasn't from here and they sorta made it a point that i understand and all la. plus they were also really encouraging. like when i jus sketched some pics that day for our recommended solution Ross told me, "wow man. thats tops! don't ever doubt yourself again." that really felt awesome to hear. and Caroline also never failed to mention that my SolidWorks designs look great. it was really encouraging la. esp since i dun consider myself artistic and all. and these wasn't the onyl time. there were heaps more times they were encouraging too. hmm. i jus hope i was just as encouraging to them.

so yea. my team was really really really awesome. like seriously. plus i believe the design we came up with was pretty stellar. i so so hope it's all good and we get a good mark for this. but even if we don't it was really great working with my teammates. :)

so to end here's a few pics of my teams design project. for a mechanical washing machine. made of Bamboo and plastic! =D

Exploded view of the washing machine.

The inner drum with the plastic mesh netting

Cross section view of drum with the outer drum


Currently Listening To: What The World Will Never Take - Hillsong United

Thursday, June 05, 2008

For The Love Of Music

then i realised why.

noone i know loves music like how i do.

and i guess that's a good thing.

cuz that intense love for music is what makes me Ben J.

so it's all ok.

In the Sun - Joseph Arthur


In The Sun

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God’s love be with you
Always
May God’s love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
’Cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can’t keep awake

May God’s love be with you
Always
May God’s love be with you

’Cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You

I don’t know anymore
What it’s for
I’m not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
’Cause I been caught in between all you wish for and all you need
Maybe you’re not even sure what it’s for
Any more than me

May God’s love be with you
Always
May God’s love be with you

Joseph Arthur


Currently Listening To: In The Sun - Joseph Arthur

A Decade Under The Influence


Sad, small, sweet, so delicate;
We used to be this dying breed.
I got a bad feeling about this.
I got a bad feeling about this.

You kept still until the long drive home.
You slept safe and close to the window...
I got a bad feeling about this.
I got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go? (I could go all night.)
Well say you'll have to go. (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends.
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on.

Sad, small, sure in porcelain;
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck;
I got a bad feeling about this. (When it comes to this.)
I got a bad feeling about this.

You kept still until the long drive home.
You slept safe and close to the window.
I got a bad feeling about this.
I got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go? (I could go all night.)
Well say you'll have to go. (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends.
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on.

I got a bad feeling about this. (What is this for?)
I got a bad feeling about...

Anyone will do tonight.
Anyone will do tonight.
Close your eyes, just settle, settle.
Close your eyes, just settle, settle.
Anyone will do tonight.
Anyone will do tonight.
Close your eyes, just settle, settle.
Close your eyes, just settle, settle.
Anyone (Anyone.) will do tonight.
Anyone (Anyone.) will do tonight.
Close your eyes, just settle, settle.
Close your eyes, just settle, settle.

Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this. (To hell with you and all your friends, it's on.)
I'm coming over but it never was enough;
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you.
Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this. (To hell with you and all your friends, it's on.)
I'm coming over but it never was enough;
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you.
Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this. (To hell with you and all your friends, it's on.)
I'm coming over but it never was enough;
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you.
Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this. (In you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough,
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you.
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this. (In you...)
I'm coming over but it never was enough;
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you.

I got a bad feeling about this.
I got a bad feeling about this.
I got a bad feeling about this. (I am you.)
I got a bad feeling about this. (I am you.)
I got a bad feeling about this. (I am you.)
I got a bad feeling about this. (I am you.)
I got it bad. (I am you.)

I got it bad.
I got it bad.
I got it bad.
I got it bad.
I got it bad.

Taking Back Sunday


Currently Listening To: A Decade Under The Influence - Taking Back Sunday

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Ka-Ching!



seriously la. i'm spending way too much. =/ i'm supposed to limit myself to 100NZD a month. but last month itself i spent 200NZD. haih. way over la. ish. how to survive within the JPA money la liddat. dah la last month i spent almost 700. but thats cuz of holiday la. so i guess it's excuseable. but i still am spending too much. gonna cut down from now on for buying stuff. i seriously din think i was spending so much la. ish. dammit! i jus checked my this month's spending and it reached 180 already! >=( but that includes the Snap bill, metrocard, fixing my watch, and also buying the pillows and stuff la that day. crap la. i'm so not going out this month. cannot afford too. ish. but i wanna buy guitar. :( haihhhh. nvm nvm. control control.

i guess now i feel guilty for buying this....



but it was SOOOOO worth it k! it's a double disc CD. plus it was the platinum edition. that means it has 6 extra bonus tracks! and the DVD comes with 3 video clips (in very high quality) and also 4 live AOL Sessions. plus it's a great album k! so for just 20NZD, it's like super super worth it! but still guilty la. k. from now on til at least near the end of the year, no more buying anymore CD's. which reminds me, i need to ask my sis to send my Goo Goo Dolls CD over for me. hmm.

and yes i've finally replied all the emails ppl have sent me. i'm slowly crossing things off my things to do list. feeling quite happy. and like a lot of the stuff i havent done are like the ones that are gonna cost me money... HAIHHHHHHHH. ish. and i just realized that i'll most prob be missing Dark Night and a bunch of other "Summer" blockbusters. =/

k enuf abt that. oh i finally went to class today after a week of not going to class. but i dunno if i actually learnt much. i felt i learnt more math from friend than in class. and also the same for Chem. i think it has something to do with my short very very very short attention span. i can only prob concentrate for a minute tops if someone is talking. my mind fades away from that person like so fast. damn la. i hate it. it's so hard to learn or listen to anyone like this. so now i'm forcing myself. hopefully it'll become a habit and lenghten my attention span. hopefully for my sake la. oh and thanks to my own revision and also Ross' help in teaching how to do some math problems, i managed to get 10/10 on my 3rd skills test. which i reckon is the hardest of all the skills tests. so yes i'm very bangga! =D

still yet to find out how BB2SJ did in pesta. for the singing at least. hopefully it's way better than the drill which somehow we were conned off again. ish. plus it was nice chatting with ppl and hearing their voices again. somehow it just felt like things din change. like somehow i was back in Msia and jus din go for pesta when i called. it was nice to hear friends' voices again (yes it is a super super super rare occasion that i pick up the phone and make a call recently). so yea. i'm left with like 80 cents in my calling card. but it was worth it spending an hour or so talking on the phone. haha.

oh and i realise i can't stand ppl who think they basically "deserve" to be treated nicely, when they don't do the same for you. yes i know the do unto others thing. i've lived that way, and it so wasn't worth it. everyone still gives u crap eventho ure nice to them and give them what they don't deserve. so ya, now i'm saying, i really don't care anymore. if you kick my leg which is in a cast, i'll def kick ur leg twice as hard when ur leg is in a cast. don't bother saying, "come on Ben, be nice. my leg hurts. please don't kick it." oh yeah, sure. like you tot of that when you were kicking my leg. ppl who suck don't deserve good things.

hmm. k i think thats all for now. typed a quite long post di. so this shud last for the whole week then! =D gtg makan then go College House! ;D

Currently Listening To: Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

"I Hate You"





Peyton. I hate you. You ruined my life.

Lucas Scott


You know, you love all the lies
So don't act suprised
That I just love to hate you

Escape The Fate



Is there a word stronger than hate?

Currently Listening To: I'd Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About - Mayday Parade

I Has A Piwwow




i bought a new pillow! and i love it!

it's so nice to sleep with. haha!

and i shall update soon la maybe. very malas and got other stuffs to do.

but soon soon i'll update. =)

Currently Listening To: Fallen - Sarah McLahlan

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Even Scrubs Has Good Quotes


and this is just a tiny tiny tiny one of them

Nothing in this world worth having comes easy

Dr. Bob Kelso


Currently Watching: Scrubs 420 - My Boss' Free Haircut
while Currently Listening To: Collide - Howie Day (cuz it was playing in the show =P)

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

One More Sad Song

i have so much to say. but i'm just so lazy to say what i've been up to. and maybe some things i shouldn't say. so it's probably best to just guess what i'm up to. it's safer.

so here's to my 300th post. and i've got a gr8 nice slow emo song. beautiful i must say.

Sober - Kelly Clarkson

Sober

And I don’t know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing’s real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it’s never really over

And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won’t worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I’m still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It’s never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I’m still standing here
Three months and I’m getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

Three months and it’s still harder now
Three months I’ve been living here without you now
Three months yeah
Three months I hurt

Three months and I’m still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up

Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

Kelly Clarkson

maybe this emo song is prob why i'm emo now too?

who knows.


anyway, here's to the best American Idol.


Currently Listening To: One More Sad Song - The All-American Rejects

Friday, May 23, 2008

It's Like Psychic Or Something

cuz right, just that day, i was thinking how i haven't seen two of my frens in some time. then sudd as i'm goin out for my afternoon class i see one fren. then later at dinner, i see the other one i was thinking abt. soooo weird. it's like jus when i wonder what in the world happened to them and how come i've nvr seen them in a while, he/she appears. keweirdnessan.

it's like a lot of things i've been thinkin abt are somehow just happening. i had another cool example, but i can't remember it right now.

but it's jus so weird. seriously.

oh ya! now i remember, i was thinkin where was someone during dinner, and then poof! (k not literally la) they sudd appear lining up for dinner. weird betul la.

oh and i heard something quite interesting tonight when i got back. heh. ;)

and i prob shud sleep early as i have a meeting tmrw. hmm. we'll see.

p.s.: SCRUBS is an awesome funny lame and cool show. and very meaningful also.

p.s.2: going to the Health Centre can be beneficial. ;)

p.s.3: I FINALLY GOT TO PLAY AN ELECTRIC GUITAR TODAY! YES MY FIRST TIME SINCE LEAVING MALAYSIA! I AM CRAZY HAPPY. THO I STILL HAVE SO SO SO SO MANY SONGS I WANNA PLAY, I STILL HAD TONS OF FUN! =D THX SO MUCH IAN!

p.s.4: finally saw Iron Man (yes Caleb, i've just seen it today). and it was really cool and all. but somehow like tak sedap hati la. it was really good and all, and i know, but i jus nvr came out with a WOW! THAT SHOW WAS GR8! but the show was really really good. i think? weird. but it sure was cool la. i wanna be IRON MAN! =D

p.s.5: Thx to my new gadget for my sidebar, i managed to join a 7 player COD4 game. haha! and like basically upped 2 levels. which is all good.

p.s.6: I finished my Math Assignment on time with help from so many ppl. i feel so stupid somehow that the simple stuff i cudnt remember at all. it was so annoying. like i'm stupid or smth. dunno whats wrong with me la. hmm. plus there still is that question i'm not satisfied with. hmm. but i', jus glad like the assignments are all finishing up and being done with! =D

p.s.7: TODAY WAS A GR8 DAY. =D

p.s.8: man thats a lot of p.s.s

Currently Listening To: Basket Case - Green Day

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Big Mac Chant

yes yes. those of u in Malaysia know all about this Big Mac Chant. but did u know there was a contest abt it?

yea. the contest is to say the Big Mac Chant in a video the most creative way possible. the contest is organized by Nuffnang (Asia's First Blog Advertising Community).

click here for the website. and u can see all the vids ppl have made. seriously, some of them are sooo lame and funny. and some are jus lame and dumb and boring. and the weirdest thing is, the current top with the most votes is jus sooo lame. and not in a good way lame. like seriously, it's so boring. but yea la. somehow got the most votes.

ANYWAY, i jus wanted to put some vids of the some that i saw which are cool. by me at least.


Human Big Mac


Big Mac Saves A Life



Big Mac Thief



Alien Fries!


They Share EVERYTHING!


i think i like the last one the best. and also the human big mac. haha!

let me know what u think.

oh and if u like it, go sign up and vote too! =D

Currently Listening To: Your House - Jimmy Eat World

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Autumn Is About 3/4 Gone

and i've got proof too:



see, only 1/4 of the leaves are left on the tree. and everyone knows when it's winter there's no leaves on the tree. so logically, Autumn is 3/4 gone la. haha!


aaanndd. this is a pic of my uni at the background at 5.19 p.m.




no it seriously is 5.19p.m. and not 7 or 8 or 9 pm.

and yes that big white thing is the moon.

=)

Currently Listening To: COD4 Music

Monday, May 19, 2008

I Just Have This Feeling

that this week is gonna be a horrible week.

cuz it sure started with a "blast" today.

Currently Listening To: Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Addicted to COD4

why?

cuz i jus basically gamed THE WHOLE NIGHT.

seriously.

sheesh.

but it was good. =)

plus i won my first game against pretty pro ppl. bangga! =D

Currently Listening To: Open Up The Gates - Planetshakers

Just Before Leaving


... he turned around and said,

"You deserve all this."



Spin

That look was priceless, don't let me get carried away.
I've seen it before, and it still suits you the same.
You catch on quick! (You catch on quick!)
As the cynics stop before they give the same reviews.
(You catch on quick!) You catch on quick!

I heard that this is where, where the party is.
Are you coming home? (Well, are you coming home?)
Are you coming home? (Well, are you coming home?)
You had your chance! (You had your chance!)
Open arms reject assuming hands. (Arms reject assuming hands.)
You had your chance! (You had your chance!)
Open arms reject assuming hands. (Arms reject assuming hands.)

The abortion that you had left you clinically dead,
And made it all that much easier to lie.
But it's nothing that I'm proud of. (No, it's nothing that I'm proud of.)
We're making an example out of you. (This is phase one.)
This is a preview. (This is phase one.)

I heard that this is where, where the party is.
Are you coming home? (Well, are you coming home?)
Are you coming home? (Well, are you coming home?)
You had your chance! (You had your chance!)
Open arms reject assuming hands. (Arms reject assuming hands.)
You had your chance! (You had your chance!)
Open arms reject assuming hands. (Arms reject assuming hands.)

Don't act like you're the first one,
I treat it like disease.
Sure, it's rough around the edges,
It's the only thing you see.

Don't act like you can't see me, darling.
Coming...
Don't act like you can't see me, darling.
Coming in...
Don't act like you can't see me, darling.
Coming in...
Dont act like you can't see me, darling.

You had your chance! (You had your chance!)
Open arms reject assuming hands. (Arms reject assuming hands.)
You had your chance! (You had your chance!)
Open arms reject assuming hands. (Arms reject assuming hands.)

You had your chance!
(Spin 'sugar' spin)
You had your chance!
You had your chance!

Spin


Currently Listening To: Spin - Taking Back Sunday

But It Doesn't Make Sense

why did i have that dream?

or rather, why did that happen in my dream?

hmmm.

Currently Listening To: Inside Out - Yellowcard

Saturday, May 17, 2008

And Now I'm All Out

... of series to watch of course.

cuz Smallville season 7 just ended. and so did Lost season 4.

One Tree Hill season 5 is ending monday. and so is House season 4. sheesh.

Prison Break is coming back in september only. and Heroes is coming back who knows when.

so i'm all out of stuff to watch. i'm so not watching OC, or Grey's Anatomy or any lame pointless stuff.

BUT i'm watching Scrubs now. just finished season 1 and in the middle of season 2 now. jus another 5 more seasons!

so maybe i'll be occupied.... hmm.

k gtg. dinner!

and yes! i still have a mail to reply by today! i haven't forgotten! dun worry i'll get to it. haha! =P

Currently Listening To: When I Go Down - Relient K

Epic Win Song

seriously. i think this cud b like the best love song that i know. haha.

The Best Thing

It’s been a year
Filled with problems
But now you're here
Almost as if to solve them
And I can't live
In a world with out you now

All my life
I've been searching for you
How did I survive
In this world before you
Cause I don't want to live
Another day without you now

This is the best thing
The best thing that could be happening
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that its happening to you and me

All I want to have
Is all that you can give me
And I'll give right back
Everything I have in me
Cause nothing ever felt as right
As this does right now

I'll go back
To before we met
Try and erase the past
Try harder to forget
Cause nothing will ever be as good
As here and now

Cause when I looked into your eyes
And you dared to stare right back
You should've said nice to meet you, I'm your other half

This is the best thing
The best thing that could be happening
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that its happening

This is the best thing, the best thing
The best thing that could be happening, the best thing
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that its happening to you and me
The best thing is that its happening to you and me

I always knew I'd find someone
I never dreamt it'd be like this
Cause you've surpassed
All that I'd hoped for and ever wished
And I'm trying so hard
With all my heart and mind
To make your life as good as you've made mine

This is the best thing, the best thing
The best thing that could be happening, the best thing
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that its happening to you and me
The best thing is that its happening to you and me
The best thing is that its happening to you and me, the best thing

The best thing that could be happening, the best thing
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that its happening to you and me

Relient K


Currently Listening To: My Girl's Ex-Boyfriend - Relient K

Friday, May 16, 2008

Lefties, 'Sup


u know right, sometimes i think most lefties jus dun get the recognition they deserve.

why i'm saying this? cuz i like heard quite recently "oh u know right, David Cook, he's like so awesome. He can play a left handed guitar!"

err. okayy?? he's left handed so he plays a left handed guitar la. i'm right handed and i play a right handed guitar. how come i dun get recognition for that la?? it's the same thing whaaattt....

but then u say, but it's LEFT HANDED! then i ask u. how come u dun go, "hey look! that guy is writing with his left hand! thats sooo cool!" or "he's brushing his teeth with his left hand! wow!"

comeon la. seriously. left handed ppl use their left hand. nth fascinating abt it k. haha! and if u say guitar again, then i'll go back to me playing guitar again k.

so don't praise CERTAIN lefties. all are the same ok. all use their left hand. and playing a left handed guitar when ure left handed is just normal la k. he's not cooler than any other left hander. actually, come to think of it, when it comes to guitars, that wud make him not cool at all. think abt it, a lot of lefties play right handed guitars. now that's pro k. ok la not so pro. but what's pro is playing a right hand side guitar left handed. thaaaattt's pro.

k la. i'm babling away. bet u dun understand. but i guess the point i'm trying to say is, dun make something normal look cool. like David Cook playing a left handed guitar.
(Note: i'm a right hander, i dun know who the heck is David Cook, and i'm not trying to kenakan anyone. just something in my mind)

anywayy, in other news. i've been wondering right, everytime i greet ppl with the word 'sup i tend to get a response i nvr expect. even tho i get the response quite a lot.

so here's like a typical convo with me la and what i tend to expect.

Ben: Yo, 'sup.

You: 'Sup.


BUT, this is what i get quite often. and i end up stoning after the answer cuz i always dun expect it.

Ben: Hey, 'sup!

You: oh nth much/oh something awesome happened today!/erm the ceiling?

Ben: *stoneee......*


u see what i mean? like to me 'sup is like hi. like yo. i know la it originally comes from "What's Up". but when i say it i so dun mean it like that. haha! imagine like saying HI to someone and they reply with "oh nothing much has been happening with me". kinda surprising la. haha.

it's not wrong of course. jus that i somehow always dun expect it even if it's actually the right answer. weird la.

ya. thats all. i actually did some work tonight. not bad. and i watched Swordfish. quite a good movie.

k i need to go take out my contacts!

bye.

Currently Listening To: Everytime - Simple Plan

Thursday, May 15, 2008

YES I'M PISSED OFF



WHY?

CUZ SOME SCREWED UP KID WAS CHECKIN MY FRIENDSTER WITH THEIR MOM THERE (FIRST OF ALL WHO IN THE HELL DOES SUCH A THING). AND THEN HAD LA TO CHECK THE EMO PICS ALBUM I HAD. AND THEN HAD LA TO LET THEIR MOM SEE.

AND THEN THAT MOM WENT AND ASKED MY MOM WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. LIKE I'M SOME NUT LA NOW. AND NOW MY PARENTS ARE WORRIED ABT ME.

GOSH! GOT NTH BETTER TO DO AND GET MY PARENTS WORRIED?! I AM OK! PLUS SOME ARE PICTURES FROM THE INTERNET!

SERIOUSLY LA, SCREW YOU FOR CHECKING MY FRIENDSTER WITH YOUR MOM AROUND WHO HAS TO GO GET WORRIED FOR NOTHING AND CAUSE MY PARENTS TO WORRY FOR NOTHING

JUST MIND YOUR OWN FREAKING BUSINESS CAN OR NOT?

WHEN I FIND OUT WHO.....

WAIT LAA...

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: THE WAR - ANGELS & AIRWAVES

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I Guess It Depends Who You Are

like really. there are some ppl right, when they do well or get something good, somehow, even if you know you shouldn't feel that way, you will feel envious of them. envious of their success. envious of their blessings they receive.

it's like u will somehow in ur mind ask, why couldn't that be me. and this will sometimes happen even with best friends. it's weird isn't it. i know most of us won't want to feel that way among our friends. like it's just not right to envy ur friends who do well and think "oh why couldn't that be me." i mean, as friends we should be happy for them right? not jealous of them.

but i guess u can't blame urself. it's natural human behaviour i guess?

but there's something i realize, there's certain ppl, no matter how well they do, i won't be jealous of them. it's like i'll automatically be happy for them. i can think "wow! they did well! that's really awesome!" it's like a genuine feeling of happiness for them. like ure so happy ur friend did well for something or got something.

aih. dunno if i'm making sense la. anyway, i jus tot to myself, why do i feel like so happy when a normal feeling would be jealousy. the only answer i could come up with is because the person itself is just that awesome person. in the way they live their life, their attitude, the way they treat u, the way they treat others etc. basically cuz the person is jus awesome.

so i guess it just depends on the type of person u are la. like there's someone i know who did a tag and got over 20 comments for it. it shows that this person is awesome right for like so many comments to happen?

yea. i guess my mission is to become like that sorta person la. someone awesome as how i see them.

gahh. dunno if i'm making sense la. but ya. jus thoughts in my head.