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so i'm back here. feeling emo. again. as usual. i have a feeling its cuz of Manjuli's blog. dun get me wrong. i love her blog. a lot. cuz the situation she has reminds me of Her. a lot. n i guess i get to see things from Her view too. well not exactly but in a way i guess. haih. yes i do wish things were diff. but things jus seem to slip away further everytime we try. its not only frustrating but also very depressing. all i have is hope that maybe something will go right. or we'll find out whats really supposed to happen. i really do miss You. more than i thought i would. more than i wanted to too i guess. i'd give anything in the world to take away all the problems. n i mean anything. ANYTHING. i just wish i had the same impact to ur life too. maybe jus a fraction. n i think i wud be happy. where the hell is the bloody time machine when you need it? =/

haih! i dun need this other prob now la. i feel i shudn have gave it out. i dun need another thing to think abt. i'm fine being all stressed up already. argh. i haf to organise myself n take out all these stresses slowly. i hope i can do that. hopefully. ish. i shud really study my knots. i dun wanna fail the badge. again. i dun wanna be used to failing. i've failed too many times before in so many aspects of life that i've had enuf. yet i cant move from my chair.

i'm blaming it on my emo-ness.

where are you when i need you? =/

Currently Listening To: The Carpal Tunnel Of Love - Fall Out Boy