Tagged By Jon SE!

Rules:

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning

2. Each player answers the questions about themselves

3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Starting time: 12.27am

Name: Benjamin Jon K Abraham

Sisters: 2
Brothers: 0
Shoe size: 9-11
Height: 172cm (yes i'm short. shuddup. ish)
Where do you live: Christchurch, New Zealand

Favourite drinks: Currently water i guess
Favourite breakfast: Eggs and pancakes
Have you ever Been on a plane: ,... Yes
Swam in the ocean: Swim. hmm. i guess u cud consider attempting to swim as a yes la.
Fallen asleep at school: Pffft. teacher told my mom k. ish.
Broken some one's heart: yes
Fell off your chair: yes. but it's called skill k.
Saved e-mails: yeah. still got tons from like waaaay back.
What is your room like: wah damn tidy for a guy k. gayaness. haha.
What's right beside you: banyaknye stuff. key,card,phone,discman,pen,comb,mouse,books,cd....
What is the last thing you ate: UNI HALL DINNER! some beef and pita bread thing. not bad la.

Ever Had
Chicken pox: Std 3 i think. stayed home and played NBA. hahaha.
Sore throat: i do believe so. oh ya! after Hillsong concert.
Stitches: Nah. invincible. ;)
Broken nose: Refer to above.

Do you Believe in love at first sight: pffftttt. love? nope.
Like picnics: very interesting concept. shud try it sometime. haha.
Who was were the last person You danced with: erm. haha!
Last made you smile: answering the above question

Today did you

Talk to someone you like: haha no. well not yet at least. haha.
Kissed anyone: i told di. i don't kiss ppl that frequent one la. ish. haha.
Get sick: Invincible remember.
Talk to an ex: no
Miss someone: hmm. not today i think.
Eat: ,...

Best feeling in the world: being happy.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: when i was a kid yes.
What's under your bed: Drawers
Who do you really hate:pfffft sif i'm gonna say here. hahaha!
What time is it now: 12.37am

Random

Is there a person who is on your mind now: yeap apparently
Do you have any siblings: berape kali nak tanye??
Do you want children: yeap
Do you smile often: so-so i guess. can't tell la. don't really walk around with a mirror and notice.
Do you like your hand-writing: it keeps changing.
Are your toe nails painted: ,...
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: see first whether the bed is nice. haha.
What color shirt are you wearing now: Black
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: hmmm. i think it was the BBQ time at Hanmer. we were prob watching Prison Break then
When did you cry last: No idea.
Are you a friendly person: HAHAHHAHA. i doubt that.
Do you have any pets: I guess the cat counts la.
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: hmmm. i dun really know what feelings this is. haha. prob in their room i guess.
Did you hold hands with the person who means anything to you now: Maybe
Do you sleep with the TV on: Noisy laaa
What are you doing right now: doing this taaagg, listening to music, and chatting with someone new. haha!
Have you ever crawled through a window: think so.
Can you handle the truth: I would like to believe so
Are you too forgiving: well Su teng says i'm way too nice than i should be. so yea i guess
Are you closer to your mother or father: hrmm.. i guess my mom la.
Who was the last person you cried in front of: don't think i cried in front of anyone in the last 8 years.
How many people can you say you've really loved: There are some.
Do you eat healthy: Since coming here i think i do. UNI HALL FOOD!
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: yes
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: hmm. dun think so.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time: quiet la. humble ppl are liddat one. =P
Are you confident: No

5 things I was doing 10 years ago

1.TV

2.Comp games

3.Sleep

4.Cycle

5.Play

5 things on my to-do list

1.Graduate!

2.Get married

3.Get a proper job

4.become a good guitarist

5.gain weight!

5 snacks I enjoy

1.Crunchie!

2.Shapes!

3.Pringles!

4.Famous Amos

5.DOUGHNUTS! :D

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire

1.BUY GUITAR

2.Kereta mahal

3.Rumah besar!

4.Kasut!

5. CDS!

5 of my bad habits

1.don't pay attention

2.lazy

3.procrastinate

4.lack of motivation

5.sleep late

5 places I have lived in:

1. KL
2. Selangor

3. Penang
4. Kedah
5. New Zealand

5 jobs I've had
1. Card Marketing Officer with Chevron Texaco Ltd

I TAG!
CALEB!
Josef!
Eunice!
Su Teng!
Lauren!
Ji Ming!
Dana!

and whoever who wants to do this tag.


and hrmm. the only way i read throught everything is cuz i did this tag. kalau tak... tak bace laaaa. haha!

Currently Listening To: Burn This City - Cartel

Talk To Me!

k like not seriously la.it's just a title. don't get carried away.

ANYWAY, i realised that for some reason, i just don't initiate conversation. i'm most likely the person who will add in the convo or stuff. i hardly even say hi to anyone on MSN. like seriously. i'm sure all the ppl who msg me online prob would have noticed this.

dunno why la. anti-socialism la i think. seriously. but the thing is, it's not like i don't like to talk la. i mean, i see myself and i think i can talk la. cept i won't be the one to start talking.

For example, apparently i haven't called home for like 2 months (according to my mom la). so that day my mom called me la. and k first of all i didn't call cuz like i got nth to say la. and kinda malas also. but then when my mom called, then sudd only got things to say and things to talk abt. like really. then when my mom wanted to say bye i was like alah, too much so fast wanna go di. haaha. padahal i'm the one that din wanna talk in the first place.

i'm damn weird la too much.

Currently Listening To: Holding On - Planetshakers

Mercy

Angel of mercy
How did you find me?
Where did you read my story?
Pulled from the papers
Desperate and hardened
seeking a moment every fix

All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
Its all my fault now
A Tradegy I fear

Angel of mercy
How did you find me?
How did you pick me up again?
Into the mercy
How did you move me?
Why am I on my feet again?
And I see you

Whoa Whoa Whoa
I feel you
Whoa Whoa Whoa

Before just the daylight
Come and i stand by
Waiting to catch the quickest plane
Flying to nowhere
Is better than somewhere
That's where i've been and nothing's changed

All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
Its all my fault now
A Tragedy for sure

Angel of mercy
How did you find me?
How did you pick me up again?
Into the mercy
How did you move me?
Why am I on my feet again?
And I see you

Whoa
I feel you
Whoa

Im so lost in you
A tredgy seemed to be over now
A tradegy it seemed to be

Angel of mercy
How did you find me?
How did you pick me up again?
Into the mercy
How did you move me?
Why am I on my feet again?
And I see you

whoa
I feel you
Whoa
I feel you
Oh Whoa
I feel you
Oh Oh Oh

OneRepublic

if you don't have this song yet. GET IT! and also get Say (All I Need) by OneRepublic

peace

Currently Listening To: Mercy - OneRepublic

Tagged By Ji Ming!

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
pfffttt. nooo. haha. but i think my parents mmg know la. but waiting for me to tell i guess. haha.

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
ppl say lame. i think i'll go for thinker.

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
someone who loves me

4) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
love is a strong word. so no. if you say liked then yes.

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
yeah i guess

6 ) What's the best thing to do with the one you love?
hang out with each other doing nothing or maybe just some random talk

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
eh! seriously la! ish. fine!

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
still trying. haha. so yes got.

9 ) What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
normal. everyone is jealous of something.

10 ) What would you say to playboys/playgirls?
nothing. i wouldn't even want to talk/look at them.


[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
err. weird. i don't really cry. so no best place. haha.

2) Who do you love the most?
i'll go with God la.

3 ) Tell us about ur dream last night?
crap. i don't remember my dream. thats weird. hmm. i do believe it's something happyfying tho. haha.

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
yes. and it's still going on.

5 )The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
it'll never happen again.

The last person..
-you had a beer with?
the ppl at Acacia Avenue. too many ppl to name la.

-you went to the movies with?
hmmm. Tanmay and gang. Dark Knight.

-you talked on the cell phone with?
MY MOM! :D

-you texted?
Siew Ping

-you yelled at?
someone at football? "Center center!" =P

In the last week have you..

~Kissed someone?
pfftt. macam la every week i kiss someone new. haha. no. haha.

~Danced crazy?
nope. do i look like a dancer? haha. k dun think breakdancing counts right? haha.


Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
human caused problem.

If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
answered b4. change the past.

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
not much a travelling person. but i guess europe?

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
yeah i think so.

Are you old fashioned?
yeah i think so.

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
to tell someone i love them. if they don't already know la.

What thing would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
i don't know actually. haha. i already gave up on the hardest thing to give up on. so i dunno.

5 Facts About Me:
plays air drums really well. like seriously.
first guy in my family and extended family to have long hair.
one side of my chin is longer than the other.
my right hand thumb has a black line that grows with the nail.
my hands are quite huge.

5 Things that Scares Me:
losing my friends
failing subjects.
failing Uni.
making a fool of myself in front of ppl i dunno.
disappointing ppl i care for.

7 Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
Feel Good Drag - Anberlin
You're Gonna Go Far Kid - The Offspring
Snow (Hey Oh) - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Beautiful Machine - Shihad
Ammunition - Switchfoot
Sorry - SunsetWest
Beat It - Fall Out Boy

pffft wrong time to ask the question la. been listening to all 3 of the Yellowcard albums. so i guess all their songs are in my head now. haha.

7 Words/Things I Always Use:
too much!
cekap
rubbish
pffftttt
lah
haram
yea sureeee

I tag...

heh. the fun part! :D

Caleb!
Bernard!
Calvin!
KS!
JSE!
Eunice!
Sanjit!
Su Teng!

Currently Listening To: Dear Bobbie - Yellowcard

I Love Constantly Amazing Myself

i think thats the good thing about setting low standards. when u overcome ur standards u feel really good about urself. i mean i've seriously been doing this a lot to myself. esp in my guitaring.

there was once i could play Minority by Green Day by plucking it with my fingers and i could do it really fast and i was amazed at myself. then i saw Billie Joe Amstrong play it live by just plucking with a pick and hitting every note accurately, i was like too much! thats hard! but then in the end i pushed myself and managed to get it with plucking with a pick as well. i was pretty happy with myself esp when i managed to amaze some ppl by plucking it with a pick. haha. so yea i was happy then. BUT then i saw the fella in another live video JUMPING and playing with a pick. thats even more too much! but yet again after, actually not much practice i could do it also. so once again i amazed myself.

then there was like Hillsong's All Day. to me i thought it was pretty impossible to play the bass line and sing. but then after MUCH OH SO MUCH trying to multi task and concentrate, managed to do it also. and amazed myself once again. did the same for Green Day's Warning bass.

then came Taking Back Sunday's song Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team). once again i said the lead guitarist is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much. and he mmg still is way too much la. i mean seriously. palm muting? and plucking soloish bits? and singing?? AWWWW TOO MUCH MAN. seriously. so had to practice la. first of all playing that part i found it really hard for some reason. my fingers i guess are not that fast enough la.dah la palm mute means cannot really move so much. so fine la. practiced til i got that part right. then after a lot of practice again, managed to get the singing and playing also. MAN i was sooooooooooo impressed with myself. i watched like ALL the YouTube vids of ppl who covered that song, and NONE of the guitarist who played that part cud sing the parts the TBS guitarist sang and played. they always got someone else to sing. so lagi lah bangga. haha. man this was like the peak of feeling awesome about myself. haha!

then so ya la. managed to learn the singing and playing part. but then, there was like still one part of guitaring which i always avoid. and that's soloing. cuz i honestly feel like i can't do it. some of them are just way too fast la. so i don't bother trying. but then came Good Charlotte with the song The River. and the solo is played by Avenged Sevenfold guitarist Synyster Gates. so yea. it's a bit hard. but somehow la, i wanted to play this song fully. so practiced again and finally got the solo bit. once again i amazed myself. my first solo! and it was pretty not bad solo also. bot like crazy fast but not like super easy also. so yea was quite proud of my awesomeness.

then there was Hysteria by Muse. pffffffftttt. listen also i will say rubbish. watching Josiah play also i can see it's fast and i can't do it. but practice practice, in the end dapat! HAPPY LAGI! :D hahahaha.

and finally my most recent one is Snow (Hey Oh) by Red Hot Chili Peppers. that song is HARAM FAST. like seriously! i say the guy play and tried to play a bit, and i told myself no way. dah la my fingers are huge. how to move so fast?? and then the finger positions also damn weird. pffftt dunno la how. but then, after much practice again, dapat! wah damn happy la now and amazed at myself. haha.

SO ANYWAY, the moral of the story is, PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT. and NEVER GIVE UP EVEN IF THINGS LOOK TOUGH. and DON'T BE AFRAID TO TRY THINGS THAT LOOK HARD AND DIFFERENT.

oh and i think i'm pretty amazing too. :D

Currently Listening To: Friends And Alibis - Escape The Fate

I Want A Baju Melayu

i don't have like any of the Malaysian traditional costumes la. and like cuz of Malam i now only realised. and there's like so many other guys and girls who have traditional costumes of their own and also of other races. so like too much right? they have more than one and i have like hardly one. actually i do have one indian one la. but i've never worn it yet i believe. so ya. now i want a Baju Melayu, i think it's quite cool la.

kk that was like just a random want that i wanted to say. now on for some more pictures from Malam which i just got.

Backdrop

Self explainatory

Kampung side info card

Reception table

Photographers of the night

Ushers to usher the VIPs

UCSA President Michael Goldstein wearing a sarong and also CMSA president Azmir (Tengkuk)
The wonderful Fashion Show ppl

The impressive Boy Band. (They danced to Bye Bye Bye. and did a good job too. =D )

The RAM dancers and singer Haizom

Currently Listening To: Bye Bye Bye - *NSYNC

Happy Merdeka!

well, it honestly doesn't feel like a merdeka. must be cuz i spent the whole day sleeping. but i guess after the much preparation and also running around, plus coming back pretty late and also sleeping late, the sleep was so worth it. haha.

the only two things i did today was walk to Siew Ping's place for makan and then watch 2 movies. yea. not so patriotic right? haha.

Malam Malaysia yesterday was really good. in my opinion la. k la, i'm prob happy that all the events and the flow of events went well. and the performances were good too. so yea. i liked the Deco too. Merlin and his team really did a good job on deco i must say. the bandar and kampung thing was done quite well i think. i liked the decos on the tables la. haha. k i shall post some pics up la. just of the deco tho. haha.

k i feel like i'm talking rubbish now. like really. like some super crappy stuff. so i'll stop here la. see ya.

VIP table deco

Kampung table decorations

Bandar table deco

Some food some of us had

Our venue

Calvin and Eric with Calvin's hardwork (helped by Eric also)

Kampong table b4 event started

Surroundings

Some of the beautiful girls of the night. Oh and Merlin too. =P

Currently Listening To: (The Symphony Of) Blase - Anberlin

ZYX!

OHMYGOSH LAAAAAA!!

babi. type mail means u press send after finish writing la k. PRESS THE FREAKING SEND BUTTON!!

ESP WHEN THE EMAIL IS LONG.

BEN, URE SERIOUSLY DUMB. LIKE REALLY. SUCH A BRILLIANT IDIOT LA.

and now i'm too pissed off to send the mail. ish. sry zhen. will reply soon.

Currently Listening To: The Remedy - Jason Mraz

Space?

i'm like probably the last person to know that men never really landed on the moon. sheesh!

feel so dumb man. ish. plus i made it worse by asking has ppl landed on Mars. macam bangang je. ish.

nvm nvm. we all must learn stuff somehow la right? haha.

and too much! =D

Currently Listening To: Beautiful Love - The Afters

Because I'm Kay-Poh About Music Also

i'm probably like one of the only few ppl who actually has this sort of feeling in me. to be a busybody and find out as much as i can about music. like seriously the most randomest stuff i will find out. and i find it like really interesting. here are some examples.

• The front man for Foo Fighters, Dave Grohl, used to be the drummer for famous band Nirvana
• The frontman for Lostprophets, Ian Watkins, recorded all the drums for their album Liberation Transmission
• The original drummer for My Chemical Romance, Matt Pellisier was kicked out of the band because he couldn't stay sober for performances.
• The only original member of Yellowcard is the drummer, Longineu W. Parsons III.
• The only original member of Taking Back Sunday is the rythym guitarist, Eddie Reyes.
• Jesse Lacey who was originally bassist for Taking Back Sunday is now lead singer and guitarist of Brand New
• Jon Foreman sings the ending bit for Relient K's song Deathbed
  

So yeah, pretty much random stuff like that which ppl don't know about is what i like finding out about. quite interesting no? and there's so many more interesting stuff but i can't remember them now la. sry.

Other than just that, there's also like info on some songs. interesting stuff again.

• Sara Bareilles' Love Song is actually directed to her record label company who wanted her to write a love song.
• Brand New's song Seventy Times 7 and Taking Back Sunday's song There's No 'I' In Team are responses to each other and even have the same lyrics in each song. The songs were related to the incident when Brand New's Jesse's girlfriend cheated on him with Taking Back Sunday's ex-guitarist John Nolan.
• Third Eye Blind's popular song Semi-Charmed Life is about drug usage.
• My Chemical Romance's song Helena is about frontman, Gerard Way and bassist Mikey Way's grandmother.
• Taking Back Sunday's song Liar (It Takes One To Know One) is based on the novel Lord Of The Flies
• blink-182's song All The Small things was the first song written for frontman Tom DeLonge's wife.

interesting tak? bet u guys didn't know some of those stuff right? haha. yeah. i waste a lot of time reading up all these interesting facts. haha. i even force myself to find like all the versions of songs. quite a few songs have two versions. examples?

• Stars, Oh! Gravity, Meant To Live, Dare You To Move, The Beautiful Letdown - Switchfoot
• The Kill, Attack - 30 Seconds To Mars
• This Photograph Is Proof (I Know You Know), A Decade Under The Influence, Great Romances Of The 20th Century, Error Operator - Taking Back Sunday
• Suffocating (To Stay Alive) - Sound The Alarm
• Face Down - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
• Love Song - Sara Bareilles
• Why Don't You And I - Santana
• Emergency - Paramore
• When I Get Home, You're So Dead - Mayday Parade
• What I've Done - Linkin Park
• Golden Skans, Gravity's Rainbow - Klaxons
• The Adventure -Angels and Airwaves
• Thriller, The Take Over, The Breaks Over - Fall Out Boy
• Again I Go Unnoticed - Dashboard Confessionals
• Feel Good Drag, (*Fin) - Anberlin
• Miss Murder - A.F.I.
• No It Isn't - +44
  

kk i shud stop here. sry got carried away. haha. but yea. there's like 2 versions for those songs. some sound different. some are longer and all la. quite interesting to hear the differences.

kk thats it for now. :)

Currently Listening To: Bleed It Out - Linkin Park

Dreamy Dreams

that dream was seriously happyfying. i mean it was just seriously happiness. i was together with her.

and i honestly never saw it coming. she somehow always had a guy. like always. and i know that there's no way for me to be with her. cuz i know that nobody would approve. ok, maybe just 95% of my friends and family wouldn't approve.

but then suddenly la she said let's just try it. and i didn't care. i mean it's just a try right. plus i guess deep down both of us knew we wouldn't last. but we both wanted that fun and short happiness. and yea. i was happy. i really was.

the good thing about this is that i knew it was a dream the whole time. so i didn't feel bad when i woke up knowing that it all didn't happen. it's nice to wake up happy. :)

but it sucks to know that happiness exists in dreams only..................

Currently Listening To: So Far Away - Crossfade

Disease Starters

k first of all, i'm not talking about mosquitos starting malaria and all those stuff. i'm talking about ppl. and no they don't spread diseases that kill you. haha. the type of diseases they spread is the one which are the phrases they use. like seriously. i've met so many ppl with so many phrases they use which somehow everyone will catch on. these are the disease starters.

dunno la, but for me i think it's super cool to have ur own word u use and then everyone following ur word. quite banggafying. haha. k so here are some of the disease starters that i know who has influenced my speech and also others.

Dana :-
Ben-o, Lauren-o, Teng-o (basically add an -o to everyone's name.)

Merlin :-
Okai!
Win!

Bernard :-
Wodetiankong!
Oh my (precious) sky!
Cilaka!
Very Nice!

Peter :-
Ohmyhomie!

Josef :-
pfffttt.
apa ni!
cekap.
rubbish!
joker.
(too many i can't remember la.)

Jon SE :-
well, you know me.
*something abt punching which i can't remember*

crap i can't remember any other ppl i've been influenced by la in speaking. k i'll update this place when i remember la. haha. but good job so far Disease Starters! :D hope i can become one one day. haha.

Currently Listening To: A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me" - Fall Out Boy

Hmm. For Next Time Maybe?

The River - Good Charlotte ft M. Shadows and Synyster Gates

(sorry can't find a video i can put up)

but thats the song i think we could have performed la. i mean, it's like a pretty chun song. got two guitars, keyboard, bass, drums. like perfect also. quite a cool song. and fast song. hmm. kk for next time la. try something adventurous. haha. but pfft. finding this out now doesn't help. oh well. haha.

Currently Listening To: The River - Good Charlotte ft M. Shadows and Synyster Gates

Talent Night Was Awesome!

seriously! like wow! there were so many good stuffs man! like out of 17 (yes 17 performances) i only prob couldn't appreciate 2 of them. other than that, they were all really good! like really!

damn skill man. and there's like so many ppl who can sing well, like really well. dang i can't remember if i remember them all. but i'll try.

Best Singers:
JJ, Amar, Chin Feng, Aliff

k the guitarist not that many skill fellas la. but seriously, the paling chun was Raden la. he's the man la. seriously. he's like super super SUPER pro. heard from Amir that he's been pro since like form 1. seriously he's damn good. He even wrote a song (which he did perform with some others) and he even had a pretty awesome solo for the song. like really. i honeslty think he's really really good. and he's damn humble also. i went to tell him he's awesome and he just denied it saying he isn't. wah. really that guy is awesome man.

for bassist i think i'll give it to the girl bassist from Lincoln la. cuz first i think she got gaya la. and she's pretty not bad looking. so ya, hot girl + guitar + style = awesomeness :D

for drummer i still think it's Ian la. he was good i thought. but the high school guy was pretty not bad also. quite chun. haha.

i think for one of the most entertaining ones was the Bunyi Guitar song. k la maybe not la. but it was cool. cuz they sang and they even had a dance. not bad la. and i think the Beat It song another band performed at the start was pretty cool too. quite well done i must say la. The Bye Bye Bye performance also not bad la. haha.

EH SERIOUSLY LA. THE WHOLE TALENT NIGHT WAS CHUN LA K. FULL STOP. IF YOU DIDN'T GO THEN YOU WASTED LA. HAHA.

k i dunno what more to say la. it was seriously done very well. OHHHH and i got a good joke from the MC, Ka-Mun. the pregnant lady one. seriously damn funny. one day i'll tell la k. haha.

kk now for some pictures. PLS SEND ME ANYMORE PICS FROM THE TALENT NIGHT PLS. I WANT SOME PROPER PHOTOS INSTEAD OF CACAT CAM PHONE PHOTOS. KTHXBYE.

The chun guitarist Raden

Bernard, Aliff & Freddi

The guy in front singing is Amar

Chin Feng

The Bunyi Guitar song.

Currently Listening To: What's Going On - All-Star Tribute

Feel Good Drag

"I'm here for you" she said
and we can stay for awhile,
my boyfriends gone,
we can just pretend.
Lips that need no introduction
Now whos the greater sin,
Your drab eyes seem to invite
(tell me darling) Where do we begin.

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands

Everyone in this town
is seeing someone else
Everybody tired of someone
our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now
I'm tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
You littlest sin

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands

Failure is your disease
You broke my heart my joy
You brought my greatest failure
Discourse won't save yourself

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands

Anberlin

Currently Listening To: Feel Good Drag - Anberlin

I Shouldn't Complain But....

if i don't i can't stand to just keep it all in.

i can't stand the fact that the money i'm saving my parents by getting the scholarship is just going to my younger sis to buy her pleasures and make her such a manja.

i mean seriously, why do they let her get all those things she doesn't need at all? why are they making her such a spoilt brat? why do they let her just spend spend SPEND?? it's like they don't control her at all. anything she wants also she'll get it.

argh it's so not fair! and what do i get out of it? nothing. it's just pissing off la. i know it's prob selfish to think of it this way la. i mean, for the money i saved my parents from getting JPA, shouldn't I be the one enjoying it? but yet, even here i'm trying to save as much as i can eventhough i honestly don't think i have to do so.

i mean seriously, out of all my siblings, i'm the ONLY one who actually thinks before buying stuff. i only buy the stuff i need and the things that are a good deal. and i won't buy if it's gonna cost my parents a lot. i would definitley say i'm spend the wisestly among my siblings. heck! i hardly buy anything at all! last year i only bought 2-3 tshirts. for the WHOLE year. it's not like i didn't want to buy. it's cuz it costs money and i already have enough and i don't want my parents spending stuff for me which i don't need.

argh. just not fair la. i don't like this at all. :(

haih. i dunno what else to say la. just why can't my siblings be more like me. or maybe why can't i enjoy more.

ah. jus ignore this post la. nonsense talkings of a pissed off guy.

Currently Listening To: Are You Happy Now? - Michelle Branch

The Bugs In Life

Disclaimer: The rules are simple. If you can't handle the truth, stop reading and don't bother reading. And it's a high, super high chance it won't be about you, so don't perasan k. Thx.

k la. that incident is still bugging me.

i mean ok fine that what happened could not be changed and all. but the fact that you coudln't think better of me? like come on, seriously la. did you really believe that about me? well. i dunno la. but it's just bugging that you thought that way about me la.

hmm. another thing that annoys me is how ppl that are not close me expect me to be close to them. i mean, they're not like always there and it's not like i talk to them always and are close to them la. but when they expect me to treat them like a close friend? come on la. i can't do that. ure still my friend. but u can't expect me to treat you like my other close friends right? hmm. i don't know anything about you. yet i see you so often. and you have your friends that hardly see you but know EVERYTHING. i'm okay with that. you have your close friends and i have mine. and i know i'm not one of yours. so don't make me feel bad that i don't treat you as one. it's different k.

i KNOW i don't fit in with your group either. so yes maybe i do keep away from you. i mean it's pointless right? can u imagine just sitting there listening to you talk about stuff which i don't follow? i don't fit in. and i honeslty don't feel like i have to force myself to. do i have to make myself fit in to be your friend? thats why there are somethings i choose not to do with some people just cuz i don't fit in and i know i will have a miserable time if i do join them feeling like an outcast. but it doesn't mean i don't love them as the friends they are to me. they're def still my friends.

ppl who are not my friends are the ppl who only want to include u on things when they don't have anyone else. but when they got ppl and all, oh yeah, sif they're gonna remember you. it's pretty much annoying. then u act like we're "supposed" to be close. err, no way. dream on.

and i need time for myself too. i mean sure it's cool to hang out with friends and spend time chatting and doing stuff. but i still need time to do my own stuff. ppl shud know that just cuz they're at a disadvantage doesn't mean that they shud bug ppl with advantages. i mean i need my space and time too. i need to do my things. and most of the time i need time to myself cuz i already have a lot of things on my mind. the fact u are bugging me just adds those things to my list. and you have no idea the stuffs i've been through to have my mind working overtime with all these crazy thoughts. so don't think that i don't need my time. i need my time to do my own things. i can't always layan you.

i'm pretty much not who you think i am. i'm not how i look like. i'm not how i seem.

NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS.

so don't make it out to be what u want it to seem.

Currently Listening To: Saturday - Fall Out Boy

Scary To Know

it's scary to know that just cuz of one habit, i lose 1 out of 3 friends that know about it. and the other two, well let's just say they don't like it either but are bearing with it cuz they wanna be good friends. and maybe change me.

it's scary to think about how everyone would react if they found out. would i really lose 1 in 3 friends? would the remaining 2 only stay cuz they are forcing themselves?

funny how one change in one's life can cause a whole bunch of things to change.

i had no choice. i had to do this.

hmmm.

Currently Listening To: Brake! Brake! - Go Audio

Weirdity

I feel disappointed for some reason. yet i know i shouldn't be. aih i also dunno why i'm disappointed. hmm.

and sometimes ignorance is bloss la. cuz now i know there's like no surprise. too much la. me and my curiosity and my ability to find out stuff i wanna know. ish. too much.

oh and i've had this in my mind for some time: What if you COULD go back in time, BUT you can't change that part of your life that's messed up. I mean, there's no way for you to change it. The situation is just made for you to fail. Hmm. If only some people could see that instead of thinking of themselves all the time. Some people do try and put others first you know. Even if it doesn't seem like it. But as for me, i will not put others first if i have to suffer. Why? Not only because i find it to be pointless and unappreciated, there are other reasons to.

And! the weirdity part is that i'm happy now. at least u guys did something la. Good job! :D

see? i'm happy and disappointed at the same time. skill right? i also dunno la. my brain is just. well my brain la. haha.

k i think i will study and watch Crank now. seems like a cool movie. haha.

Currently Listening To: And The Hero Will Drown - Story Of The Year

Lauren Chia Yan Hong!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS LAUREN CHIA!! =D

wow! sudah damn tua man! 16 years old! =D ahhaha. soon u'll be 50 and all wrinkly! hahhaha! =P well, i hope ur 16th has been a sweet one girl! if it hasn't, you know la which guy i'm gonna have to find for not making it sweet. haha! =P

anyway, sorry this post didn't come up earlier. have been busy the whole day with assignments which i had to stop at 11 smth pm cuz me and my partner were just getting absolutely nowhere with it. hope you don't mind! it should have come up like last night la. at 12 am. but u know me procrastinator. haha!

and about ur present..... hmmmmmmm. well, i haven't really got anything proper yet la. but i did reply ur mail! :D and one whole post just for you also. thats counted as a present rightt?? =P and i also made u an ambigram! =D



hope u like it la. it's nothing fancy and all. but yea. and yea, i will try and think of something to get u k! =D

oh ya. and thx for being an awesome sis to me for the past 4 years! (wow thats really long time di eh? =P) i shall expect to see more awesomeness for another year to come k! haha!

kk i shall end now. hope ur day has been great enough for ur sweet sixteen! =D Sayang Lauren! *bighugehugallthewayfromnz!*

Love,

The Awesome! =D

p.s.: reply my mail laarrr. why u make me wait so long??? one day di tau!! =P hahahahhahahah! jk jk =P

Currently Listening To: Happy Birthday To Lauren Chia! =P