Simple? Hmm Maybe Not

it's simple, why bother if noone cares and nothings different and everything and everyone is the same?

simple? hmm maybe not.

well it's easy to talk but not easy to do.

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u know it's funny how we always wish for things to happen. but we never wanna say anything.

i guess for me i don't wanna say anything cuz when something happens, it's cuz it was supposed to happen. it was meant to happen. and it was done cuz somebody wanted it to happen. somebody tried hard for it to happen.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that i rarely say what i mean. i may mean something like, "hey, you don't have to buy me a christmas present la" but deep down i really do want u to. it's just that i don't want to say it. i want you to do it on ur own and for u to think of it on ur own. it's more sincere i guess.

but that's the problem isn't it? we always expect ppl to read our minds and expect them to just figure out what we're really thinking. but haih. that never works. it never does. well with certain ppl la.

maybe it'll be better if we just spoke what's on our mind? but then it wouldn't be sincere.

i guess i'm the kind of guy who thinks, if u don't want to think or care abt me it's ok. i would love for you to do so. i would really love. but i would never say it. never. cuz i don't want a sympathy care or smth like that. i want pure honest ones. like if u really wanna do it, then do it. maybe go against what i say just to prove it.

but then again i guess i'm quite perasan to think so highly of myself. or is it normal to have such expectations?

a friend called it mind games. hmm

sounds simple to just voice out how we really feel. but hmm. maybe not.

Still Listening To: Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team) - Taking Back Sunday