Thank You

such a perfect song. heard it this morning. i dunno what else to say wei. haha. i guess this wud go under the songs where if i had to highlight any bit of the song i wud have to do the whole song.

I thought that I could always count on you
I thought that nothing could become between us two
We said as long as we would stick together
We'd be alright
We'd be ok

But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

Yeah

I wonder why it always has to hurt
For every lesson that you have to learn
I won't forget what you did to me
How you showed me things I wished I'd never see

But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

When the tables turn again
You'll remember me my friend
You'll be wishing I was there for you

I'll be the one you miss the most
But you'll only find my ghost
As time goes by
You'll wonder why
You're all alone

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

Simple Plan

Currently Listening To: Thank You - Simple Plan

I Like Today

yeah i really did. it's probably just the way that there were no rules u know? like i could do anything and wasn't bounded by factors like time, parents, studies or anything. today was what a holiday was like for me: just sitting and chilling and talking and doing stuff with my friends. it was nice. :)

i love being back. :) (i would say it must be cuz of my friends, but my friends are all perasan ppl so i probably better not =P)

and now i'm wondering whether i should go for the NCO retreat or not. i mean, it's not like i have anything better to do here. plus i still wanna lepak also la. hmmm. to go or not to go?

and on another note, i'm actually curious why noone else has actually asked me anything abt it. ok la. one person did. but that's diff case. haha. no la, i mean all the ppl i expected to ask didn't. maybe cuz they don't care or they expected it. or maybe i expected too much. haha! oh well, whatever, just let the wrong expectation go la. hmmm.

fuh. my longest post in a while.

oh ya. Malaysia is hotttt!!! melts!

oh and Dana can drive. not bad. hahahah!

Currently Listening To: This Moment - Disturbed

Well Just Maybe Some Overreaction

but i reckon it's pretty normal.

finding out your life is just gonna end suddenly one day.

but maybe freaked out too much.

haih. i guess guys like me shudn't know the future. or shud i just say "future".

Currently Listening To: Dear Maria, Count Me In - All Time Low

Strong Word

hmm someone once said that hate is a strong word.

i can safely say i know what they meant.

Currently Listening To: The Pinky and The Brain

Brilliant Idiot

got this from caleb's friend's blog. MUST WATCH!

i dunno who is dumber. the guy on the car or the driver.




Currently Listening To: Situations - Escape The Fate

After Watching The Bird And The Worm

this is what someone said after watching The Bird and The Worm video i posted a few days back:

".... i don't think i'll be able to sit on a couch peacefully again :S..."


hahahhahahahaha

Currently Listening To: Planetshakers - Saved The Day

Things Change

and making it seem like it didn't is hard.

and noone can find out cuz noone will understand.



things change.

and it causes people to change.

and most of the times it isn't into something good.

Currently Listening To: Wake The Dead - The Used

Pressure

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cuz I fear I might break
And I fear I can't take it
Tonight i'll lie awake
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all the days that we spent
Carry away from home

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
But I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me

Paramore

Currently Listening To: Pressure - Paramore

Asian Food

u know right, for this whole year so far i've been here, the only times i've actually gone out to eat asian food is when somebody else wants to eat asian food.

like really. not ONCE have i gone out to go buy asian food.

i've never even had the urge to want to buy i think.

hmm. i think i'm really half kiwi di. haha!

prob the only part still malaysian abt me is my speech la. haha!

Currently Listening To: Addicted - Simple Plan

My New Room

sooo yaa.. time for an update.

k like some of u know, i've moved out of Uni Hall and moved to Ilam Village. both are residential halls except Ilam is self catered. so yes that means i'll have to be learning how to cook. hahaha!

anyway, i tot i'll just post up pics of my room.

nothing much yet la. still needs loads of deco to come in and stuff. the pics are like on the day i was moving stuff and all. so yea la it'll be messy and not so fancy. sry. haha

Kitchen view from living room
Living Room

Dining Area
Kitchen
Hallway to Kitchen and Living Room
My Room From Door
My Door From Room

kk that's all. seeya!

yes i'm still dying of boredom. trying to get NFS.

Currently Listening To: The Sharpest Lives - My Chemical Romance

Away

Ben J has gone to visit his aunt in Rotorua. (that's in the North Island)

will be quite busy and not updating much.

be back soon.

:)

Currently Listening To: Friends And Alibis - Escape The Fate

It's The Beard La

i promise. that's prob the only reason i never get my ID checked.

so far whenever i dun shave and keep a beard, then i go and buy stuff that requires ID, i have never been asked for ID.

i prob look damn old man. haha. so next time if i forget my ID, all i have to do is make sure i have a beard! hahaha


and on another note, those two dining hall server girls are so funny la.

i find it so cool how they're fascinated with my hair. it's really quite amusing.

one of them was "OMG i love his hair i love his hair!" today.

hahahha. and she says that when i'm standing right there in front of her. damn cute la both of them. hahahah.

it's nice to see ppl like what i do with myself. hahahahah

so hah! see Karen! some ppl don't find my hair "scary". hahahah.

k la. i'm prob high on syiok sendiriness now. hahah.

Currently Listening To: I Write Sins Not Tragedies - Panic! At The Disco

Obviously Hidden

u make something so obvious, nobody will guess it's hidden. ;)

Currently Listening To: There's No Solution - Sum 41

Fertostry

k Ben is bored.

but Ben has things he's been doing.

you could say he's busy.

he's has been packing stuff and moving them to Ilam Village.

he shall post up pictures soon.

he shall go off now

*i swear the bored is the one typing in this weird manner. it's not me. seriously

Currently Listening To: Blurry - Puddle Of Mudd

The Difference Between You And Me

"see? that's your problem. that's why you'll never win.

you're here to teach me a lesson.

i'm here to kill you."

i think i need my own fight club.

hmm

Currently Listening To: Times Like These - Foo Fighters

The Bird and The Worm

the video may be disturbing. so watch only if u are brave enough to handle it.

He wears his heart safety pinned to his backpack
his backpack is all that he knows...
Shot down by strangers whose glances can cripple
the heart and devour the soul...

All alone he turns to stone
while holding his breath half to death
Terrified of what's inside
to save his life
he crawls like a Worm from a Bird
(ALL ALONE)
(crawls like a worm from a bird)

Whispers of...(just keep working...just keep working...im terrified)

Out of his mind away
pushes him whispering:
"Musta been out of his mind..."
Mid-day dillusions of pushing this
out of his head
make him out of his mind..

All alone he turns to stone
while holding his breath half to death
Terrified of what's inside
to save his life
he crawls like a worm...
(crawls like a worm!)
crawls like a Worm from a Bird

(ALL ALONEEE)
crawls like a worm from a bird
(ALL ALONEEE)
crawls like a worm from a bird
(ALL ALONEEE)
crawls like a worm...
crawls like a worm from a Bird...

Now he knows
if he can't relieve it, it grows...
and so it goes...
he crawls like a worm...
(crawls like a worm from a bird)

out of his mind away
pushes him whispering: musta been outta his mind

All alone he turns to stone
while holding his breath half to death
Terrified of what's inside
to save his life
he crawls like a Worm from a Bird

All alone he's
holding his breath half to death(holding his breath half to death)
Terrified to save his life
he crawls like a worm (crawls like a worm)
crawls like a worm (crawls like a worm)
from a bird...
(ALL ALONEEE)
crawls like a worm from a bird
(ALL ALONEEE)
crawls like a worm from a bird
(ALL ALONEEE)
CRAWLS LIKE A WORM...
CRAWLS LIKE A WORM...
CRAWLS LIKE A WORM FROM A bird...

Currently Listening To: The Bird and The Worm - The Used

If You Get Past Me, You're Quite Set

i dunno why la, but somehow, i'm the type of person who will try to find all the wrongs and faults in a certain idea.

it's like when someone suggests smth, i will question it til i find myself comfortable with it.

k just for the record, i don't do this to piss anyone off like i'm purposely trying to find fault. it's just that i wanna know that this idea is good la. it's not gonna fall flat.

i mean, to me la, no point having a plan that is pathetic and can't stand on it's own right?

unfortunately, most of the ppl i know, hate this. even if they don't say it, you can just feel it la.

it's like i'm just supposed to agree and not question just cuz i know them.

prob to them i'm really annoying, but like to me, they are the annoying ones. prob it's jus a Malaysian thing la. like we're just so nice to each other that when an opposing opinion comes abt, the stress level just rises and there's tension in the room.

it's kinda weird la. cuz i'm there chilling and just pointing out stuff, and the other person there is getting all stressed up. hayooo. relax la.

but yeah, i've had no choice but to try and control it seeing certain ppls reactions. i know now that i can't give them proper feedback on their opinions cuz they can't take it.

hey, i'm jus doin it for ur own good la k.

it's like if you get past me, your plan/idea/suggestion is good. i'm not saying i'm like the guy who's so great that u must come check with me and all. no. i'm jus saying that ur idea is better since i will most prob look at the wrongs that might come out of it and if you have an answer or good explanation then cool la. only you benefit right?

i'm not that pathetic to take enjoyment in watching you look bad. i've better things to do than try and make u look bad. it's not my intention also to make u look bad by questioning ur ideas.

gah. words just don't flow the way i want it to la. i'm prob talking in circles. wtvr la.

Currently Listening To: This Photograph Is Proof (I Know You Know) - Taking Back Sunday

You Can't Go Wrong There

to me, you pretty much can't go wrong with emo hair. haha.

it's like ur "coolness meter" just goes up a few notches. hahaha.

but! the problem is, some ppl who want the hair, don't want the label emo. too scared of what ppl think. esp since emo ppl are like 'persecuted'.

well, if you care what ppl think sooo much, then gone la, ure never gonna get what u want.

emo hair is cekap la. seriously. haha. jus like my hair. cept it's not really that emo. cuz i dun wanna comb it that way. it's seriously annoying when it gets into ur face.

which reminds me, i shud blog abt my hair soon. haha.

k i'm obviously bored that's why i'm here. oh well, see ya!

Currently Listening To: Perfect - Simple Plan

Done With RA3

and now on to Fallout 3! hahaha.

Currently Listening To: When I Get Home, You're So Dead - Mayday Parade

Caleb's Logic

k so Caleb asked me last time whether i will get FB last time. and since i was still doing the challenge that time (i guess we shall call it the period of challenge), i said i will never get it to him.

so according to him, eventhough the challenge was with my sister, he wins. just cuz i said i will never get FB to him and now i do.

i dunno la how come i din challenge him or he didn't challenge me also he can win. can someone explain to me? hahaha.

and yes. this is all posted with Caleb's permission. He asked me to go and post this actually.
(*k update: he asked me to go and post this up last time. but now he said i don't have to. and post if i want to. so yea. now i'm posting cuz i want to)

so ya. here it is. but i need to know what logic is this la. haha.

Currently Listening To: Rough Landing Holly - Yellowcard

Band, Song, Album Are All The Same!

u know what'd be cool?

if a band, had a song which is also the name of the band, from their album which is also the name of the band.

not bad right? i mean, do u know of ANY band that has a song which is the same name as the band? i seriously don't. but if u do let me know la.

see that's why it'd be so cool to have a song with the same name. if from the same album somemore, then wah. super chun. haha.

and if it does actually happen after this, remember! u saw this idea here first! :D

Currently Listening To: Champagne's For Celebrating (I'll Have A Martini) - Mayday Parade

Obama

i honestly do not see why all the people who don't live in US, won't be living in US, not a single bit of American blood in them and pretty much have NOTHING to do with America (other than tv shows), care so much about who won the Presidential Election.

like it's fine if they jus want to know. hey knowledge is important right? but for those ppl who say "YAYYY Obama won" "I was rooting for him the whole time!"

like seriously? you didn't even vote. He's not the president of YOUR country.

somebody please explain why it affects them so much. i seriously wanna understand why it's so important to them.

Currently Listening To: Dear Angel - April Sixth

That's Pretty Cool

i picked up 150++ friends in 2 days.

mmg like everyone was waiting for me to come also.

i had like 20 requests b4 joining itself. then when i joing and didn't approve anyone for 2 weeks, got like 72 requests.

then after joining more came in. giler. didn't expect that at all.

famous also kot. hahahahah :P

Currently Listening To: Can You Feel The Love Tonight - Elton John

So This Is Officially My First Day of Holidays

and i spent so much di. ish.

but it was worth it!



aaahhh. i'm so glad i found Escape The Fate. i mean it honestly can't be found anywhere.

and the Switchfoot. well i thought of buying a CD from them. and since got the greatest hits. well, good la. then bought la.

but hayoooo. expensive la. haha.

nvm worth it. :D

Currently Listening To: When I Go Out, I Want To Go Out In A Chariot Of Fire - Escape The Fate

1 Year Down, 3 More To Go

YUSSS!!

exams are done!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

hahaha. as u can see the blog is back open! so for all the ppl who actually asked why is the blog closed and why you couldn't log in and all, I EXPECT YOU TO READ ALL THE POSTS I POSTED SINCE I CLOSED IT K!

and just for the record the blog was closed off to EVERYONE. i didn't remove anyone from the readers list or anything.

so yea. exams are over. what shall i get up to now? :D hahaha i dunno

k see ya!

Currently Listening To: In This Diary - The Ataris

It's That Smell Again...

i know that smell....

http://nothing-is-what-it-seems.blogspot.com/2008/10/i-smell.html

hmmm...

Currently Listening To: Start The Machine - Angels & Aitwaves

Unspoken

i like how it was sorta like an unspoken rule that day.

"what happens here, stays here."

Currently Listening To: Time Stands Still - The All American Rejects