Songs Speak

songs jus really can speak to a person. esp me, a guy who has music blasting into his ears 95% of the time i'm alone. lets see what the songs are saying to me. maybe they may mean smth to you too. hmm.

And you'll never fall in love if you don't risk it all

Lostprophets

hmmm.

You're making a choice to live like this
In all of the noise I am silence
We already know how it ends tonight
You run in the dark through a firefight
I would explode just to save your life
I would explode

Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me tell you why
I would die for you
Let me light up the sky

I can't find a wall to pin this to
They're all coming down since I found you
I just wanna be where you are tonight
I'll run in the dark looking for some light
And how will we know if we just don't try
We won't ever know

Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me tell you why
I would die for you

Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me make this mine
I'll ignite for you

Let me light up the sky
Just for you tonight
Let me help you fly
'Cause you won't have time
To cover your eyes and get your disguise
They won't ask you why, they'll just watch you die

And it's still so hard to be who you are
So you play this part, and the show goes on
That you come this far with a broken heart
Yeah, you come this far and you're broken...

Let me light up the sky
Light it up for you
Let me tell you why
I would die for you

Let me light up the sky (Let me light up the sky)
Light it up for you (Light it up for you)
Let me make this mine (Let me make this mine)
I'll ignite for you, I'll ignite for you

Let me light up the sky (Let me light up the sky)
Light it up for you (Light it up for you)
Let me tell you why (Let me tell you why)
I would die for you (I would die for you)

And it's still so hard to be who you are
But you come this far with a broken heart
And it's still so hard to be who you are
But you come this far and you're broken

Light up the sky
Let me light up the sky

Yellowcard

gnite.

Currently Listening To: Savin' Me - Nickelback

So It's Been 3 Years

yup thats right. last tuesday marked 3 years that i've been blogging. i wonder if i shud celebrate or smth like that. haha. i nvr imagined myself blogging. but as time went by i realised that its a good place to share/boast ur life experiences. n sometimes also let out anger n frustration and happiness when no one else wud listen to u. n i remember y i started blogging to. it was because of you.

here's smth i got from Blog hopping and found on Suneel's blog. found it quite interesting.



You might agree with
it, but when it actually happens 96%
of girls don't realize it 'till it is
too late and that guy who did it is so
frustrated that he has moved on to
someone who will take notice.

From a guys point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other
guys.

We don't care if you're friends with
other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and
some random guy walks into the room and
you jump up and tackle him, without
even introducing us, yeah, it pisses
us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and
talk to him for ten minutes without
even acknowledging the fact that we're
still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but
at 2 in the morning we do get a little
concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/
beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/stunning, we
freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

One of the sexiest thing about a girl
is her confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door
open.
Take Advantage of the mood I'm in.

let us pay for you! don't "feel bad"
about it

We enjoy doing it. It's expected.

Smile and say "thank you."

But sometimes we like it the Dutch way.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's
looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for
us.

If we're going out with you in the
first place, you don't have to feel
the need to wear the shortest skirt
you have or put on every kind of
makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not
what you are.

honestly, i think a girl looks more
beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my t shirt and boxers, not all
dolled up

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the
beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your
bible.

Don't talk about how hott Morris
Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney
is in front of us.

It's boring, and we don't care. You
have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word
"handsome"/"beautiful"

Girls, I cannot stress this enough:if
you aren't being treated right by a
guy, don't wait for him to
change.ditch him.
sorry,,disgrace to the male population
ass and find someone who will treat you
with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when
you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when
you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter
how bad you make them feel, or what
you do.

Someone who will stop what theyre doing
just to look you in the eyes....and say
"i love you" ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance




not saying everything is true. jus saying that its interesting.

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so now it feels like the sand dune i was standing on in the middle of the river has been washed away. the current seems to be dragging me along. i'm not sure if i want to follow the current. but the more i try to reach for the river bank the more energy i lose. i'm hoping for help to appear from the bank. i see none. i know that its futile to try for the bank as the current is overwhelming. all i'd do is waste my effort. n i dun even know whether the place where the current takes me to is a bad one. yet for some reason i'm still unsure whether i want to be brought away by it. guess i'm still storing some hope for help from the river bank. so shud i follow the flow of the river?

I still don't have a reason
And you don't have the time

Maroon 5

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Doesn't he look like Jet-Li? Seriously

Lady driver. Haih. There was space to fit one Kancil behind her car.

I was abused! See the red marks? Caused by a Rubberband flick.

Physics Experiment. Observing the diffraction of light.

The shiny bright central band

Long post filled with nth much. no inspiration lah. haha.

Currently Listening To: Came To My Rescue - Hillsong United

My Classmates Are The Lamest Ppl Ever

*During Physics class, Poji doesnt understand this certain part abt how electrons can move through air (it was smth to do with light).....

Me:

It can move across the air. Its just the same as it is in X-Ray thing. The electrons will "jump"across.......


Poji:

No la! It wont. it cant jus jump like that.

Me:

Can la! k. Turn to where they talk abt X-Rays

Poji:

No la. That one is because its vacuum. ...........


This one is hair dryer. *giveshissneakygrin*

Me:

(what the crap face).

(then trying to be just as lame i say:)

no la its hampagas (vacuum cleaner in BM)

*givesmysneakysmile*

Poji:

u know whats hampagas?

Me:

(thinking i said smth wrong n thinking that hampagas isn't vacuum cleaner)

err... vacuum cleaner la right?

Poji:

No la. Depressed Gasses!

hahahahahahhahahah

Me:

................................................................

(WHAT THE CRAP FACE!!!)

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Thats jus one instance of lameness. gtg now. got worship practice. lauren's gonna kill me for being late. =P

Currently Listening To: Bring Me Down - Pillar

I'm Feeling Random....

... so i'll jus post some pics of the cat who stays behind my house and jus goes in the back and walks everywhere is likes. k not cat. kitten. n my family doesnt really mind. i guess cuz its cute la. haha. anyway here are some pics of it n a video too.

Its at the bottom left corner of the mirror in my room.

thats it walking around in my house. jus a short clip. watch for when it stops to lie down for a while. it looked like it jus died. haha. dumb cat. but yea its cute la. =P

oh n my bed is breaking.


looks like i'm getting fat eh. time to cut down on my intake on food n go on a diet. see! i told u i was fat. haha!

k thats all. a lot of words have been said. i've said so much abt how i feel tho i nvr planned to do so. cuz it felt really useless to do as nth wud change. but since when have i ever been able to keep my mouth shut when i'm aready talking to u right? maybe u know that too.

but thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore

Anberlin

Currently Listening To: Faking My Own Suicide - Relient K

I've Got Tons To Say

k last week was the Subang CF Rally week. good stuff. the msg was good. well, it was Ps. Sandra right? haha. she seriously is like some mix of Malay, Chinese and Indian all in one. its so cool how she switches between all three personalities to fit the parts of her msg. but! the best part was watching Yih Ren play la. he's currently on the top of my list of super chun drummers who dun haf a drumset to actually practice on. his crashing on all the cymbals reminded me of Travis Barker. haha.

Ji Ming on guitar and Yih Ren playing drums


Some beat boxing guys

On sunday i went to watch Transformers again. yes again. n we found this super useless door in One U......

college was really fun this week. well at least it felt fun. basically cuz there was the ICS week goin on. which allowed us to skip some, erm, actually just one class. but one class is still good enuf.

I found this page very interesting. NST Sports Page.

then there was the Maths and Science Carnival. I had fun then. I’ve got tons of videos actually to show all the stuffs. but I’ll post everything in another post la k. haha. there’s like 10+ videos. haha.

then there was CA this week to. yea it was tiring and exhausting to prepare and all and spend like the whole day out without my usual afternoon nap. but hey, it was worth it. got to jam with Amos too during practice The River – Good Charlotte. =D. Amos is another example of a great drummer I know. he would fall under the title super-chun-drummer-who-has-a-drumset-but-is-all-the-way-back-home. =P Joash’s sharing was good too. really felt I can learn quite a bit from the stuff he said. hmm.

I am so getting a car with a sunroof

oh. n ESLS has got to be the best class ever. Ms. Ong is jus the best lecturer that I have ever had in INTEC. she is seriously a fun lecturer and also good at teaching too. y exactly she is the best u come ask me n I’ll tell la. ;)

hmm. n I’ve been thinking abt the comment u left, looking at the msgs u sent, the words u said abt others and how it reflected on what I mean to you. I realize that I’ve actually got a lot to say. but I guess “its my side that cant be changed” right? so there wud be no point in saying anything. its like when I started trying, u gave up.

one reason y I like this a lot is cuz I find it really artistic cuz the viewer can sorta feel the hurt from the redness. I find it cool also cuz the ‘hurt’ is the one that actually causes the hurt n pain. some sort of symbolic metaphoric thingy? I dunno. but maybe u dun understand what I’m trying to feel. maybe its some emo understanding. that’s y Su Teng can understand. haha.

it has also left a scar.

n it also sorta has ur name in there.

so I guess I’ll be remembering u forever.

I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth

Instead of wondering why

I wanna know the answers

No more lies

I wanna shut the door

And open up my mind

*Linkin Park*

Currently Listening To: Runaway - Linkin Park

Yet Another Song Post

cuz i jus dunno what to post right now. my mind's kinda empty. k maybe not. its filled with you. n i know my frens have been telling me not to think of you but its jus not that easy. n whats worst i cant stop thinking abt how hurt i feel. knowing the fact that in a day, i think of u more than u wud think of me in a whole week doesnt help any bit. bugger, damn emo la. haih. =/ so anyway, here's the emo song i wanted to post. The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars

*************The Kill*************

What if I wanted to break

Laugh it all off in your face

What would you do?

What if I fell to the floor

Couldn't take all this anymore

What would you do, do, do?

Kill

Break me down

Bury me, bury me

I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight

Beg for the rest of my life

What would you do?

You say you wanted more

What are you waiting for

I'm not running from you

Kill

Break me down

Bury me, bury me

I am finished with you

Look in my eyes

You're killing me, killing me

All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else

But nothing seemed to change

I know now, this is who I really am inside

Falling from myself

Falling for a chance

I know now, this is who I really am

Kill

Break me down

Bury me, bury me

I am finished with you, you, you

Look in my eyes

You're killing me, killing me

All I wanted was you

Come, break me down

Break me down

Break me down

What if I wanted to break...?

*************30 Seconds To Mars*************

Currently Listening To: The Kill - 30 Seconds To Mars

070707

for some reason i'm jus feeling so happy n sooo totally not emo today. haha! must be BB i feel. but dun really know y also. but i know PT jus now jus killed like most of my muscles in my body. but for some reason i feel so totally HAPPY! GEMBIRA!! NOT EMO!!! *smiles* =D

hahaha. i haf a photo of us dead ppl after PT today but so lazy to transfer from phone la. even tho the phone is jus like a few cm away from the cable. haha. n there was also a interesting video of what all we were doin when "planning" the script. today jus feels so CRAZy! i'm like damn hyper now. n i dunno y. ahaha! oh got a nice song to show u guys too. watch the vid too.

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************A Day Late************

so let me get this straight
say now you loved me all along?
what made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel
i can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
i remember so long ago, see i felt that same way
now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
insignificantly enough we both have significant others

only time will tell
time will turn and tell

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

but thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore
loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore
but i must confess you're so much more then i remember
can't help but entertain these thoughts
thoughts of us together

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

my day late friend

so let me get this straight
all these years and you were no where to be found
and now you want me for your own
but you're a day late and my love,she's still renowned
we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

so let me get this straight
all these years and you were no where to be found
and now you want me for your own
but you're a day late and my love,she's still renowned
we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

************Anberlin************

was gonna blog abt smth serious where i need u guys views too. but i'm too hyper for that today. so some other time la. hopefully i remember. haha.

07/07/07 = My happy/crazy/hyper day! =D

Currently Listening To: A Day Late - Anberlin

Dream Girl

i think this wud be the 2nd time i saw her. or at least thats what it felt like in my dream. i dun really remember much abt her. but i remember how she looks like. she was a Goth sorta emo chick. her hair wasnt that long but she looked great in it as usual. come to think of it, i dun remember her name. i think it was Elizabeth. or Mandy. her surname started with O. Orr? i somehow have a feeling her name was Elizabeth Orr. but i really dun remember.

what i do remember is finding her hidden underground room. someone else was with me. i knew he shudnt haf been there but yet i knew he cud be trusted. after a while she appeared. she gave a shocked look and started firing questions at me. she sounded angry but i cud tell she was glad to see me.

we ended up sitting at the doorway to her hidden room and talking. then i held her in my arms. she was still complaining abt how i shudnt have brought him there, but yet again through the complains i cud tell there was no other place that she wud rather be. n i cud say i felt the same way too.

she felt so real. like the whole thing actually happened. like i wasnt sleeping but i was out with her. maybe someday i'll actually meet this Elizabeth Orr, the girl from my dream.

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k. i shall declare not to inflict pain on myself on my hand even if it is for art purposes. i nicely kena marah from so many ppl n kena tegur from lots of ppl and also a lot of unexpected ppl too abt my lies hurt photo. for one thing i kena belasah from Lauren on saturday for doing it. then kena marah by Ewern which she so totally has the right to be sooo pissed off with me cuz i told her not to do such things n yet i did it. n friendly Jill seemed sooo serious n marah in her msg,"Better take care and don't do stupid things k". Poji was spot on. he said smth like, "Why did you do this for? Cuz of your girl?". then KS asked "Whats wrong with you?". Came back today and went to Friendster and even Abbie noticed and said smth abt my emoness. Sashi sent me a Freindster msg: "wat hapen 2 u la??very emo..". man. i'm gettin msg from ppl i dun normally chat with abt the pic. its not supposed to get so much attention. i was jus lepasing emo. but yea i can see that a lot of ppl dun want me to do it. n for once i guess i'll jus follow what other ppl are saying. anyway, i'm SORRY ppl for doin it. i wun do it again. but don't u think its artistic??? =D kk. its not. nvm. cancel that. ahaha.

hmmm... tmrw is 07/07/07. great date. hope smth great happens tmrw. but haih. hope onli leads to disappointment in my case. so i guess i shudnt hope.

It never calls me when I'm down.
Love never wanted me,
But I took it anyway.
Put your ear to the speaker,
And choose love or sympathy,
But never both.
Love never wanted me. 

XO - Fall Out Boy

Currently Listening To: XO - Fall Out Boy

I Forgot

there was smth i was supposed to blog abt but i forgot what to say. haha! basically nth much happened today la. church as usual. then came home and tv-ed then online now. trying to learn Godspeed by Anberlin now after influence by Julian. haha. oh there was this girl in church today too. i sooo thought she looked like Brenda Song. managed to sneak a photo of her. k maybe not just one la. haha. but anyway, here's the photo. Don't u think she look like Brenda Song? =P


oh smth else in church happened today too. smth in the sermon that struck me. Ps. Phillips said smth like this: "Are you super concious even when you tell a lie?" hmmm. think abt it.

k nth much else left i guess. oh WAIT!!! one more thing!! THIS SATURDAY! Parent Trial! at FBC Subang. its basically a program for the youth where youth can voice out their dissatisfication abt their parents' doings and punishments and what-so-ever. Parents are invited also so they can hear what their kids haf to say n put into consideration abt what thier kids haf to say n maybe make life better for the kids too. so as i see it, IT IS A MUST GO THING FOR THE YOUTH. I BELIEVE IT'LL BE WORTH IT! SO U ALL MUST GO LA K! u want more details come look for me. haha!

k thats all. i gtg pack soon.yes. i'm still emo. n yess it looks like i'm not cuz i'm trying hard to cover it. cuz u dun care anymore. i find it so weird how Joe said i look so happy yest. other ppl realised i'm not. hmm.

PS: The Ausmat Juniors are coming in tmrw. unfortunately, some ppl aren't goin to be there. maybe i shud haf nvr taken the scholarship. wud it be better? i dunno. haih.

Currently Listening To: Viscinity Of Obscenity - System Of A Down