Thursday, May 31, 2007
Revenge Is For Kids
funny how u say it matters but don't show it at all. wudnt it be easier to say u hate me instead of acting as if you want my concern? yes, i know i wasnt the right guy. i was far from the guy u wanted. its so obvious right? which is y u werent satisfied with me n had to find others. we all get the story. so y r u telling it matters? we can see u hate me. y keep playing this game that you don't hate me?
n probably the only reason u answered the question is cuz i said u wudnt. n ur ego wudnt let me be right. on any other day u wud prob say u had nth in ur head n it jus came out. u wud nvr tell me whats in ur head. but hey, i dunno if thats y u told me so i wont complain abt that.
ur ego was also the one that prevented u from talking to me. dun act as if it was me only who din wanna talk to u. if u really wanted to then u wud haf found a way. which obviously shows u din want to talk. plus y shud u wanna talk to since u were happy with ur friends? i saw ur smiles. n i knew u din need me so y act as if u did? u'll only need me when things go wrong with ur frens or u need help, which clearly u din need me during camp cuz u had ur frens to satisfy u. u wud haf come if u wanted to talk, but ur ego stopped u.
n no my frens dun think badly of u. u ASSUMED. eventhough u'll NVR admit you assume, u did. they dun think badly of u n they dun give u looks n stares which u think u get. for a person who constantly reminds me not to assume, u assumed. u know it jus happens whether we want it or not. so stop acting as if u don't k. its annoying. esp when it sounds like ur lying. n u did say once u dun lie to me.
n to those who din understand y i did what i did, pls stop making things worse. thanks to ur questions i believe this is what happened. i did what i did for a reason. the fuel u added only made things worse because u din understand. how come u didn't ask if he was ignoring? how come its jus me? y do u only see what u wanna see? how come u nvr looked at both sides of the coin before making ur statement? thx a lot.
i know u hate me. it can be seen. everyone knows i'm not the one n u wanted better. yes i'm a big fat chicken who has a lousy attitude n ppl hate me a lot. but i nvr did say i was the guy. i wanted to be but nvr made it. so mayne i am pushing u away. but i guess its jus better this way right?
Currently Listening To: This Photograph Is Proof (I Know You Know) - Taking Back Sunday
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Pirates Of The Carribean!
anyway, went to KLCC today to watch POTC 3 with Lauren, Su Teng, Hannah, Julian, Esther, Richard, Wei Ren and Kenneth. When we first reached there, Lauren n I had to dissappear for a while to get Richards cupcake so we can celebrate his bday!! haha. yea. Richards bday was on Sunday but only could celbrate today la. haha.
HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY RICHARD!!! =)
back to the story. after that, we went to BK for lunch but since it was taking so long Lauren n I decided to go get the tix n thats where the fun began. Y? Cuz we managed to con everyone else that we forgot one booking number so we only got 6 seats n not nine which means 3 ppl wont be able to watch. haha! great con man. 7 in one shot kena con. haha! =P jus before going into the cinema we spilt the beans n out came threats to throw us both off the building. haha!
so after we saw the move then we had nth to do so we jus walked around n went window
shopping.
N julian succesfully made a tank top look like an apron! haha!! so finally walked around till we had nth better to do then we decided it was gonna be very late soon so we went back. At the lrt station it was jam packed as expected so Hannah came up with a brilliant plan to go the other way n come back. then we wont haf to wait uncomfortably for sooooo long to get an lrt. haha. we ended up Damai (two stops from KLCC) n changed lrt there where it was so free. in the end we managed to reach back without waiting so long. brillian plan Hannah! =)
i'll blog abt both my camps later la k. feeling soooo lazy still. haha. still feeling my emoness. it got worse when i realise some words cant be trusted. so oh well. i may suffer but at least other ppl dun haf to suffer more right?
Currently Listening To: Contagious - Avril Lavigne
Friday, May 25, 2007
It's 3.30 A.M
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
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personality tests by similarminds.com
Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
trait snapshot:
depressed, introverted, neat, needs things to be extremely clean, observer, perfectionist, not self revealing, does not make friends easily, suspicious, irritable, hates large parties, follows the rules, worrying, does not like to stand out, fragile, phobic, submissive, dislikes leadership, cautious, takes precautions, focuses on hidden motives, good at saving money, solitary, familiar with the dark side of life, hard working, emotionally sensitive, prudent, altruistic, heart over mind, unadventurous
Last Train Home
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all part of the choices that you making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
When I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To never fall in love
I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know what's going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
When I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To never fall in love
But we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to never fall in love
But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again
-Lostprophets-
Currently Listening To: Last Train Home - Lostprophets
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Emo Pics
Currently Listening To: All These Thing I Hate (Revolve Around Me) - Bullet For My Valentine
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Mid V
oh. i wud haf wanted to talk to you abt the movie. abt the stuff that happened n how u feel abt it. but since u din want to nvm. anyway, here are the photos :)
well, thats all i have for now. i've gone back to being emo. cuz i'm over exaggerating as usual. well, now i've left a scar on u. like a permanent scar. jus cuz of smth i did. i'm sry i told u n influenced u to do the same. haih. i feel so evil. =(
haih.
Currently Listening To: Sidewalks - Story Of The Year
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
WooHoo!!
ok for those who dunno IELTS is sort of an english entrance test that everyon goin to Australia/NZ have to do. the minimum requiemtns to pass given by INTEC is 6.5 or 7 la. smth like that. i managed to get an 8!!! =D eventho i though i screwed up my speaking test (which happened to be the worst results of the exam). haha.
funny how this great news wasn't shared with any of my close frens first. instead i told Jill first. haha. its jus weird cuz i hardly chat with her and happened to be when i found out she was the only one there. haha! oh wells.
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today had an excursion all the way to, i guess i cud say the middle of KL. thats like dunno how many ribu KM from my house. anyway, all this was jus to get the USB cable for my phone. Had to get it from Schoolgirl ;) who had to wait for me for so long. haha!
THANK YOU SCHOOLGIRL!!! ;)
see like i promised i thanked u big big. haha! i wud post ur picture up but u said it doesnt look nice so nvm la. haha! n yes i'll be using ur new nickname Schoolgirl. ;) hahah. so now thanks to Schoolgirl i can transfer pictures to my com so i can post them up later. hahah! n sry abt what we did today Schoolgirl. i know we shudn haf done it but it seemed so not wrong. sry. =/
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EXAMSSS!!!!!!! it started on Friday 11th May and ended on 17th of May. ESLS, Math, Spec Math, Chem n Physics.
it was suposed to be a surge graph. where it peaked at spec math n chem n went down during physics. but it turned out to be a logistic graph where it got harder n harder.
ish. physics was sooo tough man. chem was tough too.come to think of it. all the exams were tough except for ESLS.
haihh.. what the crap man. the onli thing that spoilt the ESLS exam day was the big traffic jam i got caught in for half an hour jus to get home. what the crap right.
hmm. other than that i got not much to say. i'll update abt other stuffs later la k. haha.
i'm feeling less emo i think. dunno y. must be today? hmm. i had fun. haha!
Currently Listening To: Trogdor - Strong Bad
Monday, May 21, 2007
One Tree Hill Makes Me Emo
"Rachel was telling me how i was good enough, how i was dangerous. And then one night there was this amazing sun that was setting. She called me worthy."
Chris :
"Ok ok. Fine. Fine. Tell me, what about the sex?"
Mouth :
"So we get to this hotel and we're in the bar, she kinda starts flirting with this guy, and then she says something."
Chris :
"What she say?"
Mouth :
"She told me he was worthy. Hearing her say it to someone else, i knew that there would always be a someone else with her. Cause thats who she is."
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yeah. hearing stuff said to u like it actually meant something to be said to someone else brings us back to the reality doesn't it. "Cause thats who she is."
anyway, i was thinking of making this blog private. which means only ppl i invite can view it. so u know, info abt me doesn't get to unwanted ppl that easily. also to keep a balance in the information. ;)
so what u guys think? let me know aight? thx! =)
Currently Listening To: Stolen - Dashboard Confessionals
Sunday, May 20, 2007
I'll Take The Tag First
note-to-self: blog abt exams, midvalley & camp and post pictures.
but for now. i shall do a tag which is complimentary from Joel. Thx? haha.
5 THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG(school bag)
1)my PURPLE pencil box. ;)
2)PURPLE file
3)Cap
4)my melted mars bar *runstoputitinthefridge*
5)junk
5 THINGS FOUND INSIDE UR PURSE/WALLET
1) some money. only some. ;)
2) Identity stuffs
3) Hers n our stuffs.
4) Touch-N-Go
5) LINKIN PARK CONCERT TICKET! =D
5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM
1) Wives. err i mean my guitars. =)
2) stand fan. =/
3) tv with astro! =)
4) discman with speakers.
5) overloaded plug point.
5 THINGS UR CURRENTLY INTO
1) Lostprophets
2) Emoness
3) Peter Parker's bad guy hair
4) My super chunted phone
5) Getting used to the reality that things will never be okay.
5 PEOPLE YOU WILL TAG
I hereby tag:
1) Lauren
2) Wei Zhen
3) Dana
4) Su Teng (start a blog!) =P
5) Anyone else also can la. =)
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an off topic thing: that guy looks sooooo gay. seriously. O_O" i shall hereby declare that all guys who take part in cheerleading are gay. fullstop.
Haha. ok. i gtg for dinner now. be back to watch my OTH ep 17&18, Smallvile 621&622, and Lost 321. Haha! but i wont blog for today. i need to get the cable from Her (see its capitalized. happy? sheesh. haha.) so i can transfer data from my phone. haha.
bye!
Currently Listening To: Lostprophets - Goodbye Tonight
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Cant Study
Never felt so good to be so wrong.
Hero/Heroine - Boys Like Girls
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I'm so lost
I'm barely here.
I wish i could explain myself but words escape me.
Stockholm Syndrome - blink-182
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n now i've got pressure from this exam too. yet i cant study. maybe i shud just go and fail eh. then my parents wills cold me and blame it on my lack of studying and wasting time on guitar, tv and com. sheesh.
Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he’s bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly
Meant To Live - Switchfoot
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Turn your anger into lust,
I’m still here but you don’t trust at all,
And I’ll be waiting,
Love and sex and loneliness,
Take what’s yours and leave the rest,
So I'll survive,
God it’s good to be alive.
Big Machine - Goo Goo Dolls
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If onli i cud say that last line. sheesh. babi la. i shud be studying! haih. but i need to lepas now. if not it wont come out later. n chances are by the time i'm done writing this everything i based this post on will be wrong and i wud haf changed my mind. but i still want to let it out now. even if i'll be wrong. hmm.
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Maybe someday you will grow
Maybe someday you will know
Maybe someday you will end these tears and go
Can't Catch Tomorrow (Good Shoes Won't Save You This Time) - Lostprophets
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Currently Listening To: Thank You For The Venom - My Chemical Romance
Friday, May 11, 2007
Photos Post
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Projekt Revolution 2007
I wanna go!!!! =( Comeon lah. With 3 hugely awesome bands as the starting line up who wouldn't want to go??? ARGGG... i wanna go!!! =( LP!!! MCR!!! TBS!!! crazy lah not to go. yea i may not know the rest who will be performing but who cares!!! its LP, MCR, and TBS man!! 3 great ppl in one show!!! how the crap can you miss that!!! arg. y do i have to be in Malaysia. crappy la.
Lostprophets. It seems i'm like one of the some ppls who actually love their songs. n i don;t mean jus one songs like Rooftops. seriously, all their songs are jus awesome la. no wonder they can come out with so many singles from jus one album. Like Start Something had abt 8 singles which came out. 8 singles from one album man. n all were good. Linkin Park had only 6 from Meteora (but i still love LP. they got good music too. =) ). Liberation Transmission has so far 4 out already with their latest song 4:AM Forever. Although its not so much of a rockish song but its still a great song. I guess one reason i really like their songs is cuz of the energy u feel on the songs. Like Burn, Burn and also Can't Catch Tomorrow and of course Shinobi Vs. Dragon Ninja (from Fake Sound Of Progress album). For me as guitarist, u definitely feel like jumping around when hearing this songs. Its just filled with soooo much ooomph!! haha! Then u have the songs with the good music. I thought A Town Called Hypocrisy and Last Train Home had good guitars in it. N the way they jus fit all the 6 ppl in the band to make a great song is cool too (2 Guitars, 1 Bass, 1 Vocals, 1 Keyboard/Piano, 1 Drummer). oh yeah, Ian (lead singer) has an awesome voise to. He can sing high notes like normal and also scream and sing man. thats skill la. Then there's also the kinda emo emo a bit songs. (When i say emo its my emo la k. =P ) Songs like Rooftops, Wake Up, 4:AM Forever, Last Summer. Aiyo. u know what all their songs rock in all ways la. haha!
The only problem now is i don't have both albums. n when i say i dont have i mean don't have the original la. the one u buy from the shop. not download. i wanna buy la. jus that its kinda expensive. abt RM 45 jus for one CD. killer right? haih. if only i was rich. i need money!!! =(
ok i'm getting really fed up of some ppl. when they need you they will act nice and ask for ur help. then when things are going ok they jus forget you and tak layan. babi. u think very nice is it kena used? hey, i dun mind being there for u la. but u forgetting me when u haf a good life is just to o much la. buat tak layan somemore. ish. sakit hatinye.
arg. gotta go study now. exams coming n i haf a good feeling i'm not gonna do well. must be cuz of the minimal studying. hmm.
Currently Listening To: I Need You - Relient K
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
A Short One
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never say i love you,
if u never really do..
never touch a life,
if u mean to break a heart..
never look me in de eye,
wen all you do is lie..
and never say forever,
cos forever makes me cry..
1000 words cudnt bring you back,
i know cos i tried..
and neither cud a 1000 tears..
i know cos i cried.
you left behind a broken heart and happy memories too..
but i nvr wanted memories..
all i want is you..
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Sunday, May 06, 2007
Oh The Nerve!
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on less stressing news, BB yest was good. got some pictures to post up of our two new..... SERGEANTS!! haha. congrats Benji and Jo. i feel u guys deserve it. =) dun abuse ur new found power ya. haha! unfortunately i cant post up the pics right now. cables gone back to ruth. haih. some other time la. maybe i shud buy my own cable as i know i'll use it much. hmmm.... haha.
ielts was horrible i feel. speaking wasnt good at all. i just cudnt think of what to say. haih. so depressed. listening and reading was ok i feel. writing was so-so. was hoping deep down for a 8 at least but now i feel with a 7 i'll be satisfied i guess. haih. emo emo.
well thats all i have for now to say. feels like i'm becoming more and more emo each day eh. or maybe i'm jus maintaining it. well. the end result is i'm still emo. hmm. well cant stay long. got spec math quiz tmrw.
stress betul la. ish.
Currently Listening To: Break Free - Hillsong United
Friday, May 04, 2007
This Is The World Coming Down On My Head
oh yeah. i forgot to post this earlier. its a very meaningful song by Casting Crowns. got it from Joel. dun jus listen to it. look and think abt the lyrics. really think deep ant the lyrics k.
As she slips in
trying to fade into the faces
the girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
farther than they know
CHORUS
But if we are the body
why arent His arms reaching
why arent His hands healing
why arent His words teaching
and if we are the body
why arent His feet going
why is His love not showing them there is a way
there is a way
A traveler is far away from home
he sheds his coat
and quietly sinks into the back row
the weight of their judgemental glances tell him that his chances
are better out on the road
CHORUS
But if we are the body
why arent His arms reaching
why arent His hands healing
why arent His words teaching
and if we are the body
why arent His feet going
why is His love not showing them there is a way
Jesus paid much too high a price
for us to pick and choose who should come
and we are the body of Christ
Chorus (2x)
But if we are the body
why arent His arms reaching
why arent His hands healing
why arent His words teaching
and if we are the body
why arent His feet going
why is His love not showing them there is a way
Jesus is the way
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man i have this habit of just biting off the skin on my lips. i dunno y also. gotta stop. i know its not good and its obvious. ish.
I Should Definitely Know Better
it happened again. i should know better.
i do know better.
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anyway, in other events, i forgot to mention a new addition to my family. my new phone! =D haha. its like everyone around me (and younger than me) are getting new phones and i'm stuck with a phone from ages ago. looks like i finally got the chance to buy the phone i wanted to. =D
Cendana not into rain from opposite view
Cendana a bit of side view
Cendana Video
Hostel Room Video
In Joel's car
The Eye Of Sauron!
Math Test!
Jin's shocked face seems to say "Shit! Thats how you do it ah??" =P
The Settlers of Catan
Su Teng n Ruth
Self Portrait of Miss Ruth Choy. =P
Driving Time. =)
Other than that i dun really haf anything more interesting to say la. Jus that some super last minute work which i blogged abt is finally done slept 2 hours the whole day on thursday n yet i'm still surviving. haha. i gotta go sleep and get fine. i got IELTS tmrw! die man. i hope i get a good score. Everyone says it should be fine. I hope to get band 8 at least but i guess as long as i pass i'll be fine. haha.
k gtg ppl. my head's so heavy.
Currently Listening To: Come Home Soon - Pug Jelly