Late A Little?

k for those of u who still come here, i jus wanna wish you guys......





and Happy New Year. dun haf a pic for that yet. haha!

bye! ;)

Currently Listening To: Waiting On The World To Change - John Mayer

So This Is Goodbye?

hmm. maybe i think so. this place jus bugs ppl and it bores them too.

so its time to pack and leave.

bye ppl!

=D

Currently Listening To: This Is The End (For You My Friend) - Anti-Flag

Have We Tried Our Best?

When our time is up,
When our lives are done,
Will we say we've had our fun?

Will we make a mark,
This time.
Will we always say we tried.

Lostprophets

did i try my best? i dunno. considering i've done things most ppl wont do after going through what i went, i do believe that i haf really tried. forgiving isn't an easy thing.

n i guess as much as i din want to tell what i wanted, i did end up doing so anyway. well, that would be the sms that you couldn't reply. and maybe its best that u didn't. it wud haf hurt more.

yes i realise i'm getting in the way. i see that now. wish i wasn't. i wish i was the way u wanted to head to anyway.

i guess this shud b my last emo part post? maybe. but even if it stops i hope its for the right happy reason.

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for me to burn one cd of songs takes a lot of thinking. esp on a CD-R. why? cuz i haf to think of what songs i wud want to listen to for the longest time without having to burn another cd. cuz burning a new cd will take more time burning and choosing songs of course. then there's the putting in order of the songs so it'll turn out to be a nice mix CD. so yea. burning a CD to listen to is hard work k. haha.

so when the problem of i'm-too-sick-of-the-cd-in-car and also i've-heard-all-the-other-cds i have arises, i'm forced to burn a CD. and on a CD-R too. cuz if it was a CD-RW at least i can erase the CD later if i dun like it. anyway, it din turn out that bad. abt 20 songs of fast angry emo sort of songs. i'm so proud i burnt such a great CD. haha! plus it sorta gives u the energy and the feeling to drive. the music makes it feel like i'm racing in a game. that sort of feeling la. unfortunately noone to race with now. haih. but its still nice. haha.

speaking of driving, i floored my mom's car that day. and i guess it was kinda disappointing. i mean i managed to get at past 12 AND on a clear highway. yet, it cudn't go fast enough. it actually had like a set cut limit. i managed to reach 140km/h with a 4000rpm. and it never went higher. yes i was flooring it. and my mom's meter shows til 160km/h. like helo?? if i'm flooring it and it stays at 140km/h then how in the world do i get that extra 20km/h?? i jus noticed this. wonder if anyone else has experience this weird unableness to go faster even if the car is being floored.

anyway, i've still got loads of stuff to do which i haven't done yet. sheesh. haih. and this blog will prob close soon too. like real soon. so say ur last goodbyes ppl! =D haha!

oh i jus realised i din blog abt my non-existant bday yet. haha!

see how la. haha!

=P

p.s.: i've lost my voice too. ppl say i may be getting sick. haih.

Currently Listening To: Big Machine (Live) - Goo Goo Dolls

The Importance Of Being Right

When I was fourteen, my father was stationed in Japan. I went rock-climbing with this kid from school. He fell, got injured and I had to bring him to the hospital.

We came in through the wrong entrance, passed this guy in the hall. It was a janitor. Friend came down with an infection and doctors didn't know what to do. So they brought in the janitor.

He was a doctor and a buraku; one of Japan's untouchables. His ancestors had been slaughterers, gravediggers. And this guy knew that he wasn't accepted by the staff, didn't even try, didn't dress well, he didn't pretend to be one of them.

The people around that place, they didn't think that he had anything they wanted, except when they needed him. Because he was right; which meant that nothing else mattered, they had to listen to him.

Gregory House

because when you're right. nothing else matters. cuz noone can bring down someone who is right. cuz they're not wrong.

however, being right and doing the right thing tends to be one of the loneliest features in the world for someone to have.

and sometimes being right abt certain things or ppl can hurt. but i guess when u compare to being wrong abt the previously mentioned things and getting hurt, its much better.

thats why i'm trying to be right in everything. cuz nth else will matter.

Currently Listening To: The Importance Of Being Idle - Oasis

Why Exist Again?

(C) fluidish

man. i'm so selfish. i realise i've been getting worse and worse the past few weeks. causing hurt to people, letting ppl down.

gosh.

i'm sry. i know it can't change all the things i did. but it's all i can give.

and i'm really sry guys for spoiling ur plan and ruinin everyones day by backing out last minute. i'm really really sry.

=/

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Yellowcard

Currently Listening To: Believe - Yellowcard

When I Get Home You're So Dead

The words are coming I feel terrible
Is it typical for us to act like this
Am I just another scene
From a movie that you've seen 100 times
Cause baby you weren't the first or the last or the worst
And I've got to fill the blanks in the past with a verse
And we could sit around and cry but frankly you're not worth it
Anymore

[Chorus]
So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

On any other day I'd shoot the boy
But your simple toy
Had caused a scene like this
Leave him hanging on the walls
Just a picture in the hall
Like 100 more
Consider this as a gift as you taste him on your lips
And he's making you scream with his hands on your hips
I hope he's leaving you empty baby this is just a fix
For such a simple little whore

[Chorus]
So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Whoa whoa whoo whoa oh yeah

And your name remains the same
All that has changed is this pretty face
So pull the trigger
It never gets closer
You want to start over
But never start over

So pull the trigger
It never gets closer
You want to start over
But never start over

[Chorus]
So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Let's sing lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Say hello say hello who oh oh ohh

Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand how your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry
And...

Mayday Parade

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its at times like this i think. think abt all the stuff thats happenned. abt how things wont change. how you nvr want things to change. how ure happy living the wrong way. and its not jus me who thinks it.

n i realised when i was talking with her during VBS earlier, thats the main source of the probs. it was all downhill from there. and now the more i think abt it. things will nvr change. cuz u've changed n u like it where u r and u wont change even tho u shud.

and the sad part is i jus cant and wont live there with you. i'm mean, ure jus happily living ur life happy with everything u've done. thats y u dun see a need to change. its like u always want to take. u always want things to go ur way. u always want things to go the way which the world thinks is right eventho u know its wrong. u always want to take the easy way out. u always dun wanna commit urself to anything so that u haf an escape route to do the wrong things. u always wont even try for me yet u say u want me. but then again u wanted him when u wanted me too right? so i guess i shudn't complain since i'm jus like anyone else. cuz thats who i'm supposed to be right?

damn it. ish. i'm not sure i can do this anymore. hmm.

Currently Listening To: MakeDamnSure - Taking Back Sunday

Because This Won't Go Away.

its like no matter how good things get, it will nvr be right/good enough for things to go back to normal.

at least thats how it seems for now. its feels like you're avoiding it for some reason. but the exact thing ure avoiding is the exact thing i need to fix it.

i hate living my life always havin to wonder what happened exactly. and it bothers me how much it meant to u to that its like u choose to hide it. not let me in abt it. i cant ask cuz i'm afraid of the answer.

i jus wish it didn't mean that much to u that u cudn't tell me. but i cant change the way u feel abt things. haih.

y did this have to happen? but maybe in some way i must have deserved this right? haih.

n y does it mean so much that i sill dont know? "we only hide stuff that matters". but i tot it was a mistake? but i guess it still matters and means smth. haih.

it will always be good. but it seems that it'll nvr be good enuf be right once again. =(

Thought this would turn out so well
But I'm beginning to see that instead it's trouble
Into a pattern we fell
Of prolonging the inevitable

Relient K

Currently Listening To: Come Right Out And Say It - Relient K

Paintball

haha! yeah. today was paintball day. thx to Clarence winning that voucher on lelong, the 8 of us managed to play paintball with abt 200 pellets each at an amazing price of 21 bucks. haha!

it was an awesome experience i must say. had a ton of fun. but i was extremely tired each round, no stamina la. lousy. ish. so anyway, there were 3 rounds. the first round was the worst for me and my team. yeah we lost the first round. and i like got shot in the face (but thank God for the mask or i'm sure i wud haf died. haha ), my wrist (which actually ended up bleeding) and......

i almost did not be able to become a dad. ;)

but the next round we won! i only got shot once this round. but it was in the head. =/ but thx also to the great wall i was hiding behind i din get shot more la. haha! i was basically covering my teammates and making sure the other team din manage to get their flag. haha. so now the game was tied since we both won one each.

then we went on to the third and final and deciding round. this was the best of all. i din get hit! i so rule! haha! plus! i manage to hit everyone on the other team! i even got Joel by hitting him through two barrels. that was a hard shot k. haha! and thx to Leon's maneuvering skills we managed to get all the flags back to base. so my team won the third round and also the whole game! =D

oh it was a capture the flag game btw. haha. i also managed to get a flag back to "base" in the 2nd "war" cuz my "comrade" was "pinned down" in the "crossfire" . haha! ok i shall stop now with the war terms all. =P

so anyway, was extremely tired. BUT it was damn freaking fun. i'd def do it again. but i'll need more cash. haha!


Currently Listening To: My Blue Heaven - Taking Back Sunday

GUILTY!

haih. damn it la. y did i do that. i shud haf known better.

i promise to never to such a thing again.

i'm sry.

haih. stupid me.

Currently Listening To: Guilty - Blue

Oh Did I Mention?

That this guy is damn pro?



seriously. some ppls hands are jus too fast la.

Currently Listening To: Liar (It Takes One To Know One) - Taking Back Sunday

New Com (Sorta)

well, cuz it's reformatted la. sorta like new. and it took damn bloody long jus to get this done ok. i'm so tired physically and mentally. had to burn out all the stuff off the com. that took me 23 CD's ok. haih. and the burning took the whole day! but thats also cuz i wasn't around at some times la. and when i first refortmatted. there was a virus! which stopped everything from working! gosh. it was so annoying. and the reason i reformatted was cuz of the virus!

so anyway, today i decided to reformat again. and this time things are much better. i haf Norton on now too. hopefully it actually does smth. and the new ares and firefox running too. plus i partitioned the hard disk too. so yea. feeling really acomplished abt the com. although a lot of other stuff went wrong today. annoyingly wrong. haih. but now i need to get my com back to how it was. haih.

i want a new com la. aih.

Currently Listening To: Nth - No songs in com yet.

Oh Happy Day

hmm today seems to have went like really good la. dunno y.

1. Lunch was at TGIF. really good and tasty. haha.

2. Got to drive the Perdana today.

3. found out my (self proclaimed) car is getting a NEW ENGINE! (this was the best part of the day) and apparently its faster than the old one. y new engine? cuz for some reason a piston came lose and broke through and made a hole in the engine block. mechanic says its a freak accident and has only happened one other time in his whole mechanic life.

4. i beat Ruth in an arguement. haha! because i was right la of course. hahaha!

5. i finally got my new earphones! another great part. now i can blast music into my ears again. haha! Thx Caleb.

6. i got to rub it in to Eunice's and Hannah's face that i'm done with my exams!! woohoo!! haha!

thats all la. but i'm not a guy who needs much to be happy. haha!

anyway, GOOD LUCK STPM-ERS!! this goes out to Josef, Darryn, Jason, Eunice and anyone else i've missed out. study hard and concentrate well and most importantly: DON'T FORGET TO PRAY!!! =D

Oh happy day (oh happy day)
Oh happy day (oh happy day)

Currently Listening To: Lift Your Name Up - Planetshakers

Where Are Those Words?

u know right. when ppl are emo, they need to hear like comforting words. words that totally put out all their fears and doubts. but sometimes ppl dun need any words of encouragement. they need the right one. the ones that they want to hear. sometimes they're emo so that they get to hear those words from ppl. some reassuring words. but when no words are given to assure, it jus makes things worse. for example, if person A were to emo and tell person B that they don't feel loved, person A would obviously want person B to tell them that he/she is loved by person B. it sorta makes things better i believe.

but the prob is when person A doesn't get that. they get smth like "hey, things will get better.". it jus doesn't help. and another problem arises to person A. as it wud sorta be obvious that what answer they would have wanted, why couldn't person B say that? it only leads to one conclusion, person B doesn't feel that way. Person B doesn't even care abt person A. cuz they wud haf said so if they did right? but they cudn't and wudn't if they didn't feel tat way. and they wont even lie and say they do to person A cuz they know person A hates to be lied to. so they jus haf to say the truth and avoid saying such a thing.

person B thinks they're managing to save their butt from telling a lie to a fren who hates lies but fails in comforting their fren. and if they were to lie and make their fren better for that while, their fren wud be mad cuz they said smth like that and din mean it if they found out. so it's like a lose-lose situation in any way.

and person A is also in a lose-lose situation. either they get what they wanna hear and be lied to, or they dun get lied to and be emo cuz they know their fren can't say it cuz they dun mean it.

so which wud u prefer?

no i din get what i wanted to hear. but i guess cuz u know i dun like ppl saying what they dun mean, you couldn't say it. and as much as i'm happy u dun say things u dun mean to me, the feeling to know you couldn't mean that hurts much, much more. =(

Where are you now?

Jack's Mannequin

Currently Listening To: Not Now - blink-182

Die Spec Math, DIE!

yes Die!! finally done with SPEC MATH!!
STUPID PAPER WAS SO FREAKING CRAZY GILER HARD!!

COULDNT ANSWER 2 WHOLE QUESTIONS!!

AS IN BLANK!! NTH!!

SHEESH!! TOO MUCH MAN!!

BUT!!

it's over so i dun wanna care di. plus a lot of ppl said it was hard also. so i'm in a mix of happiness and sadness. but more happiness now.

CUZ IT"S OVER!!! =D

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

30 Seconds To Mars

yes u may have killed and buried me Spec Math with your hard killer questions... BUT!! I AM FINISHED WITH YOU!!! =D


Currently Listening To: March Of The Dogs - Sum 41

Big Machine

Ecstasy is all you need
Living in the big machine now,
Oh you’re so vain,
Now your world is way too fast,
Nothing’s real and nothing lasts,
And I’m aware
I’m in love but you don’t care.

Turn your anger into lust,
I’m still here but you don’t trust at all,
And I’ll be waiting,
Love and sex and loneliness,
Take what’s yours and leave the rest,
So I'll survive,
God it’s good to be alive.

(Chorus)
I’m torn in pieces,
I’m blind and waiting for
My heart is reeling,
I’m blind and waiting for you.

Still in love with all your sins,
Where you stop and I begin, and I’ll
I’ll be waiting,
Living like a house on fire,
What you fear is your desire,
It’s hard to deal,
I still love the way you feel.

Now this angry little girl,
Drowning in this petty world,
And I'm who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills,
That’s what makes you beautiful,
You’re all or not,
I don’t need what you ain’t got.

(Chorus)
I’m torn in pieces,
I’m blind and waiting for..
My heart is reeling,
I’m blind and waiting for you.

I’m blind and waiting for you,
I’m blind and waiting for you,
No I can’t believe its coming true,
God its good to be alive and I’m still here waiting for you,
No I can’t believe its coming true,
I’m blind and waiting for you.

Goo Goo Dolls

Perfectly said.

Currently Listening To: Big Machine - Goo Goo Dolls

Soon Soon

yes. soon it'll all be over. but i know its gonna be a hard test yet i hardly studied. ish. stupid la. if i do badly its all my fault. ish. dumb me la.

k enuf cursing myself. haha. yup still thinkin abt a lot of stuff. stuff i shud know and stuff thats gonna happen. but i'm not emo. which is good! =D

n House yesterday was the bomb la. nvr seen him so pissed off b4 this. n that stpid Tritter. and i pity Chase too. for once actually. hayooo. House rocks la. for those who dun watch u shud watch now. cept this week u dun see how chun he is at solving cases la. u jus see him pissed off. haha!

House:
Monday 10 p.m.

Repeats on:
Tuesday 3 p.m.
Saturday 12 p.m.
Saturday 9 p.m.

man i sound like some AXN ad now. haha. k really need to go now. study and pack and what not.

bye!


Currently Listening To: Not Ashamed - Planetshakers

This Is What I Do During Study Time

aiyooo.. either way also i lose. and how long will it be like this? i know things wont settle cuz u wont let it settle. aih. problem problem. but i'm tryin ur best to follow ur plan and pretend nth ever happened and everything is fine. but its damn hard k. cuz i know its not settled even if we pretend it is and it will still bug me and stayin my mind. aih.

anyway, made some dumb mistake last night. i shall not do it again. like seriously. damn malu man =S haha. hope they are not angry or pissed or anything tho.

and studying has been goin bad. cuz i've planted myself with the thought that everything will be fine tho i know its not. plus now when i study i end up thinkin of the future and stuff so lagi hard to study. ish.

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i cant stand the way ppl hide stuff. its like they know its bad news and its not smth good abt them so they dun tell. esp to someone who is supposed to be important to them. ish. k for example (no this is not real) if ppl haf said that u and some girl look really close together as tho u guys are mmg together, y cant u jus tell ur real girl abt it? if its nth then u wont have a prob telling them abt it right? and if u cant tell it obviously means smth right? that means u shud stop and get out while u can. but noooo. u wont wanna get out cuz u enjoy her company and the "closeness" u haf right. u'd rather not abandon that closeness but u'd rather abandon ur girl and lie to her.

so who's more important? ur girl or ure supposed fren which the thing u have between u n ur fren is nth? if it means nth to u abt the other girl u cud tell ur girl everything abt the other girl and not be worried. cuz ure telling the truth and not hiding anything. sure u may argue that "oh i din lie to her. i jus din tell her." rubbish la k.u know ure still lying and cheating her.who are u trying to fool by giving urself an excuse, a way out, if ure found out. everyone knows what it means when u hide stuff like that. ESPECIALLY stuff like that. y cant u jus tell her if it means nth. if what u haf is nth but frenship then u shud haf no prob telling. or ure prob the type of person who believes a good relationship is built on lies. bullshit la. and lies are not when u dun tell the truth only k. it covers half-truths and also stuff u dun tell.

if u cant trust her by telling and if u realise that u cant tell, ur girl doesnt need to know the truth. doesnt deserve to know the truth. then maybe she's not the one for u and u shud leave b4 u cause anymore damage. cuzabt smth that supposedly means nth to u, y wud she trust u either. and if she really does mean smth to u, well i dun need to emphasize on what u need to do right?

honestly ask urself, do u really think she wud be mad if u told her the truth or if u nvr told her. and if u say oh, she'll nvr find out. can u live with the fact ure living with her and ure lying to her? cuz if u can u sure have one heck of a great "conscience". n ask urself too. if she did smth like that to you, wud u want her to tell u or jus act as if u dun need to know? obviously u wud want to know right? even if it was smth between them too. so if u want her to tell, you know u shud tell too. treat others how u wud want them to treat you.

oh and thats jus one example. if i go into more this post will be crazy long and i still need to study. haha. maybe some other day la k. and this hiding stuff thing ins't jus for a guy and girl who are together k. it can be between frens and family too. a small example is hiding what you do. the things u say.

so i'll leave u with a question, would you lie/hide things from the ppl tha are important to you? jus so u can pretend to them u live a perfect life? ask urself that.

There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
What you build you lay to waste
There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got's what you didn't take

So I / I wont be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces
And you / You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets
Don't lie

Linkin Park

Currently Listening To: Memory - Sugarcult

Try Again?

nope i think not la. been tryin and trying that i do believe that i've come to a point that i've become annoying. so i'm not gonna bother already la. checked jus now and it stands at fourteen. i think la of course. not sure at all. but nvm la. the important parts r d ones missed out but i'm not gonna do anything anymore. jus too tired of tryin and gettin no results. dun say i din try cuz i know ure annoyed by the trying. hayooo. y u like that ah?

n i realised if ure always afraid, u'll nvr go anywhere. and procrastination (maybe it fits here) will just screw ur life. cuz when u realise u need something done, u dun haf time to do it. oh well. some ppl choose this path.

hayooo i'm like sooo not in the mood today la.

esp cuz i'm right abt sutff. ish. y la.

k gtg. game. i mean study.

bye.

And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can't hear what you're thinking
Maybe if I just let go
You'd open up your heart

Daniel Beddingfield

Currently Listening To: I Can't Read You - Daniel Beddingfield

Surviving On Nth

like really. long story short.

Math Final Exam Paper. 7a.m. to 10p.m. 8th Nov. Deepavali day.

Night b4. A few Indian guys decided to celebrate Deepavali by playing football at the field which is like just 5 floors down my hostel window. They played eventhough it rained. They made a hell load of noise. i cant sleep with noise. they played til 5 a.m. i am supposed to wake up for my exam at 5 a.m. so yes. I DID NOT SLEEP THE WHOLE FREAKING NIGHT. AT ALL. note the 3hour Math paper i'm due to sit for.

din haf time to eat breakfast either. went to INTEC anyway cuz i dun haf a choice. was so pissed with those guys cuz i din get my sleep. even Erica and Karen noticed my grouchyness. so sat for the test. damn it was ok. so i tot. realised i made a lot of careless mistakes now. rubbish la. and the hall was damn cold. yes i was wearing my jacket.

so came out of the hall: brain dead cuz of sleepyness, stomach growling cuz no food, body shivering cuz of extreme coldness. yes horrible k.

came home for 10 min to change then went out for Nisha's Deepavali Open House. My goodness. Her house is like a palace. and i'm not joking. too bad i got no pics. after that had nth to do so went with Ruth to go watch movie at Mines. Bee Movie. not bad. kinda nice. funnily i din sleep off at any part of the movie. then walked around cuz some ppl cudnt decide where to eat. settled for Subway. shared a 6-inch cuz neither of us were hungry due to the popcorn we ate earlier. then after that went home. there was some drama thingy goin on at the KTM la. which was kinda cool.

went home kinda emo and confused abt situations and stuff. whether what is right and wrong. what are the limits. am i teaching ppl the wrong thing. haih.

finally reached home at 9.30 and my mom is sooo pissed off. cuz she feels i spent the day out so long. like haih. come on la. i'm 19 already! thats a year older than 18. i know how to take care of myself la. y cant i go out and haf fun with my frens?? its not like we're doin anything bad and illegal like drinking,smoking or even clubbing. its just an open house,movie and dinner.its good clean fun and yet i'm so restricted. after some crazy exam somemore k. let me haf some rest la. i know how to take care of myself. i live at the hostel 5 days a week k. and at least i tell where i'm goin and with who too. i've got nth to hide. aih!

aih. anyway, extremely tired now. physically spent cuz right now its been 36 hours straight i havent slept and i've been doin a lot of stuff i feel. emotional spent cuz of the emo stuff i was thinking and the other limits stuff. hungerly spent cuz i hardly ate today eventho i was at an Open House with great food and hardly ate for dinner.

so i'll jus die soon la k. :) i'm surviving on nth so far. food sleep and emotions all gone. soon i'll lose control and go into insanity.

k i shud really go now. i think i'm like on the way there. haha!

I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control

Hoobastank

Currently Listening To: When I'm Gone - Simple Plan

Remember Remember, The 5th Of November

and so it begins. my final days at INTEC doing my AUSMAT program.

hopefully it will all turn out the way it shud.

jus hopefully.

Waking up at the start of the end of the world...

Matchbox Twenty

Currently Listening To: The Last Something That Meant Anything - Mayday Parade

The Perfect Sorry

stolen from Rebecca Choy's blog:

"Dont just say sorry because people would not know how sorry your are.Show that u are changing the situation."

"Sorry may be the hardest thing to say, but if it is said without any action backing it, it is of no use."


nth more to say la. thx Beccy for the spot on quotes. =)

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and maybe i'm overreacting. but right now i wanna do anything to make sure it doesn't get any worse. but it seems i'm fighting a losing battle. cuz "i nvr had that impact in ur life" to change u.

damn it. i wish i was someone more important.

i dun want u screwing ur life anymore than what u haf already done. get that into ur thick head please. cuz it hurts k. it hurts me. and yes i'm being selfish. and right now, deal with my selfishness. i really dun wanna care.

Can't get over you
Can't get through to you
It's been a helter-skelter
Romance from the start

Take these memories
That are haunting me
Of a paper man cut into shreds
By his own pair of scissors

Papa Roach

Currently Listening To: Forever - Papa Roach

Makes Me Wonder

it feels like a mistake. but no its not. i guess the mistake was believing you when you said you nvr changed from the person u were. ure still the same.

but from what u said, obviously u haf changed. and i see that i'm not worth it now.

and i'm not sure if the changed you is who i want.

time go back into my corner and think things over again. and maybe its for the best now due to the time of the year i'm at.

n when u think ure sure, ure not. again. and ure pushed back to square one. thx for the push. at least i've got more time to think and not make a mistake which i may have made if i wasnt pushed back.

You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down

OneRepublic

Currently Listening To: Apologize - Timbaland ft OneRepublic

It's Either...

the best move/choice i've/i'll make

or

well, u get the picture. haih.

Currently Listening To: Numb - Linkin Park

Keep It To Yourself La!

haram betul la! when i complain to you stuff abt other ppl it absolutely in no way means go tell that person what i complained abt. and if even more doesnt mean say I am the one who complained. gosh. its like ure purposely trying to get us to hate each other. my probs i'll settle myself thank you very much. i dont need you to go and tell the person abt my prob with them so they can fix it the next time they see me. like hello?? i dont need ur help. all you have to do is listen to me complain and thats it! thx to u now this person thinks bad of me.

jus imagine the awkwardsness when the person needs your and only your help comes to you and says: "hey, i need your help but i dun really wanna ask you cuz u might complain to other abt the way i ask or the way i treat you." damn weird k.

yes i know i'm prob bein a hypocrite, but who isn't right? plus the things i say to u arent meant to go any further than us. not even to others. i dun want to start any freaking rumours. esp bad stuff abt ppl. i was jus voicing my dissatisfaction at the moment. and things may have been exaggerated too. you DID NOT haf to go report this to the person.

*pissed off now*

hate ppl who try and make me look bad in front of others and make them hate me. i trusted you for a reason k. and you din have to go tell him and jus make things weird.

so i said a few things i wasnt happy abt someone else. dun haf to tell la! its what i think abt others so i shud b d one telling them. and if it is smth serious i will tell them to their face. with YOU goin and telling them makes me look like some guy who goes around talking bad abt ppl behind their back. and YOU like d righteous one reporting it.

screw this la. damnit.

Shut Up!
Shut Up!
Shut Up!

Simple Plan

Currently Listening To: Shut Up! - Simple Plan

Right Now...

i feel i need you. so much. yet i know we shudn't talk. cuz if we do i'll prob find out more emo stuff and it'll make things worse. but i still feel horrible.

and i know too. if we do msg, i'll prob end up thinkin of what u did.

Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back upon my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

Linkin Park

yes it still haunts me. and i hate it. y did u haf to do it. its not smth that can be taken back. it sucks so much k. u gave a part of u away. and sry for being greedy but i jus want u all to myself. i dun want a shared version of you.

thats all i wanted. all of you.

and i guess i'm scared to msg u too. afraid of the reply. afraid if ure too busy. afraid ure msgin others that u dun notice me. afraid that ure out of credit. afraid of the reason ure out of credit. afraid that i've lost u to someone else again. haih.

its still hurts. and i believe it'll always hurt. and if it can be solved for now i dunno if it'll last forever. y? y did it turn out like this? ='(

but still. right now i feel i really need you. like there is a need to contact you. jus to know ure there. yet. will you be there?

i need you know. yet i know shudn't.

=(

Currently Listening To: From The Inside - Linkin Park

Blonde Joke

ok now this is jus super hilarious. i found it damn funny. haha!

*****************
this blonde calls her boyfriend, and says 'you gotta help me!'

bf: whats wrong?

blonde: im doing this jigsaw puzzle, and its driving me crazy! i cant do it!

The boyfriend looks at his watch and decides he can come home 15 minutes early. he gets home, and sees his girlfriend sitting at the table. she sees him and says 'oh, im so glad your here!'

bf (looks at table) :so whats it supposed to be?

blonde: well on the box it has a picture of a rooster. none of the pieces will fit together!

bf: i know i know. (gives her a hug) now, lets put all these cornflakes back in the box...









*******************

amazingly genius. the funniest joke i heard the whole day. cudnt stop laughing. =P


Currently Listening To: Carry Your Candle - Chris Tomlin

Smiles All Around

u know i tend to smile a lot when ppl do smth caring and unexpected. but it wasn't really unexpected la. guess it was jus caring. this is y i love my frens a lot. it was really nice of them. i jus cudn't stop smiling. like really. even Faris noticed how i cudnt stop smiling. yea. i was happy. =D and it felt good to be once in a while. =)


other than that my results suck so bad. aih. 74 for physics. horrible man. thats my worst subject la aih. and my internal marks for chem was 39/50. shit la. i must do damn well for finals then. and i dunn if i can. =/

aaannnnnddddddd...........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARENCE!

Clarence and his bday gifts. His Okla sunglasses and his Relax watch. haha!

well actually it was on the 24th but nvr had a chance to post this up. celebrated at Secret Recipie. good food and REALLY GOOD cake. CHOCOLATE INDULGENCE! =D haha!

yest was the last day of CA. seriously gonna miss all those ppl there. really great bunch of ppl. and i also realised that after this i wud prob nvr again b able to play anything with Amos, Jim ,Calvin, Evelyn, Joash and Leon ever again. this sux. =( these ppl are like damn pros man. u can like play any song with them. they jus know what to play and all. esp Joash. he can jus come in anytime without practice and jus play so well. seriously awesome pianist/keyboardist. i wud actually say the best la. that i know of course. then there's Jim with his superb bass-ness. i need to learn a lot from him. of course, not forgetting, there's Amos. the BEST drummer that i've seen so far. awesome la. damn la. i'm gonna miss you guys a lot. =( haih. plus there's all the other CA members i'm gonna miss too. banyak ppl whom i've learnt from and had the pleasure of knowin. ish. emoing now la. =( ish.....

thats all la for now. i shudn even be here now. shud be studying for Moral!! im gonna die!! like seriously la. aih. and was emoing and thinkin so much earlier too.

and i think i spoilt some plan earlier. well i'll nvr know for sure right. haha.

study!

Sometimes I just want to know what it's like to be you

Fall Out Boy

Currently Listening To: Of All The Gin Joints In All The World - Fall Out Boy

Knowing This Sucks

knowing ure keepin ur mind away from me by keepin urself busy msging him sucks.

knowing that u would do anything to get any other guy but not me sucks.

knowing i will nvr be worth it or good enough sucks.

knowing that ever other guy in ur life will always be treated better then me sucks the most.

Where are you now?

Jack's Mannequin

Currently Listening To: The Mixed Tape - Jack's Mannequin

How Far We've Come

*************

(Hello, hello, hello)

I’m waking up at the start of the end of the world
But it's feeling just like every other morning before
Now I wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone

The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour and I
Started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

But I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well, I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I believe it all is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess we're gonna pretend
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know
And I can't remember caring for an hour or so
Started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there's no where to run to

I sat down on the street, took a look at myself
Said where you going man, you know the world is headed for hell?
Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well, I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come (right now)
Let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe it all is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess we're gonna pretend
Let's see how far we've come (oh yeah)
Let's see how far we've come

It's gone, gone, baby it's all gone
There's no one on the corner and there's no one at home
Well it was cool, cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me, and it's over for you
It's gone, gone, baby its all gone
There's no one on the corner and there's no one at home
Well it was cool, cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me and it's over for you

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come (oh yeah)
Let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe it all is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess we're gonna pretend
Let's see how far we've come (oh yeah)
Let's see how far we've come

Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

Matchbox Twenty

p.s.: Streamyx is being screwed up right now so u prob cant watch the vid. jus come back and watch when the internet is fine (God knows when that will ever be.). or jus get the song now. trust me its worth it.

Currently Listening To: How Far We've Come - Matchbox Twenty

Somebody Explain This Video!!

like how is it possible?? they are all playing the song exactly like how the song is. the guitarist is playing the exact same notes according to the song. the drummer is playing the exact same beat hitting his drums exactly according to the song. the singer is singing exactly to the song too. watch his mouth. but the whole thing is backwards!! it jus doesnt make sense!! i tot their music video was already super chunted cool. now they come up with a backwards LIVE yet all playing and singing the right stuff??? what the crap?!!?! it doesn't make sense k! the only way is that they practiced playng the whole song backwards or smth. this is a must watch video!

my brain is gonna fry.

they've definitely got my vote for best music video of the year.

**********************

update: they actually did learn all their parts backwards................... even the singer. amazing. now thats a dedicated music band who wants to make an awesome video.




Currently Listening To: Typical - Mute Math

Be Not Emo

been trying my very best. very hard. but taking my mind off things is good.

been listenin to sort of happy songs these few days too. Like John Mayer's Bigger Than My Body and No Such Thing. blink 182's All The Small Things is great too. reminds me of work. n yih ren. n watching the video for the song during work with him. the video is hilarious too which is prob y i haf really goo memories with the song. Yih Ren! we have to jam that song again one day k! =P haha. but so far one of the most encouraging songs has to be The Middle by Jimmy Eat World. definite. its like u listen to the song and u realise that life can get better.

The Middle

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in.
Live right now and
just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Hey, don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just do your best,
Do everything you can.
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts
Are gonna say.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright,alright.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine.
Everything, everything will be alright. 

Jimmy Eat World

other than that been listenin to KT Tunstall too. heard a lot abt her but din think she was any good. then i heard Suddenly I See and Hold On and i guess suddenly i see she's not that bad and maybe i shud hold on to her and listen to her more first. haha. ok lame joke i'll stop now.

been guitaring soooo much these days too. too much maybe. can actually play Cute Without The E and sing now. thats like major achievement in my coordination man. like seriously. and i think i can play The River blindfolded now too. and The Mixed tape is damn freaking hard to play. like how in the world do they do it?? it jus doesn't make sense. and thats jus the intro. speaking of intros, i've jus managed to learn Tell Me Baby's intro too. see like i said. a lot of guitaring. like seriously.

i've really got to study. 10 days of holiday and all i've studided so far is one chapter of Physics. what crap is that. ish.

*************

no emo post today. nth to say plus i dun wanna be emo. maybe i've given tryin to speak to deaf ears.

oh well.

Hold on to what you've been given lately.
Hold on to what you know you've got.
Hold on to what you've been given lately.
Hold on 'cause the world will turn if you're ready or not.

KT Tunstall

Currently Listening To: Hold On - KT Tunstall

I Hate Grey's Anatomy

yeah. the episode i chose to watch was the recap of season 2. that show is damn bloody freaking emo. i cant believe i stayed for the whole thing. haih. there's jus too much la.

esp the way the girls wud do anything to get the guy they want. like that lady who gave up her apartment. and that other lady who risked her job for the guy she loved. and she quit in the end when he died.

its jus damn emo la. ish.

it gives u false hope that what u see in tv can happen in real life. ppl like me shudn watch shows like that.

babi la.

ish. anyway i havent been around much and there's a reason to that. well, actually a lot of reasons. but basically my mind has been really busy. n i've been busy trying to keep myself doin stuff so i dun keep my mind busy. so i'll prob be away for a lot now.

*********************

yes? no? crap. i dunno anymore. damn. but as i can see all i can compare it to now is smoking. i'll not explain but briefly u know its bad but yet u still do it for some reasons.

i dun deserve this. i know i dun. aih. n the answers are here. they've always been. its whether u choose to see them.

and i also tot that common sense wud be able to solve it.

but even if it's fixed will the pieces fit the way it used to?

or will all we're doin is jus forcing it in. cuz ur piece changed with the things u did and the way u lived ur life. u jus cut the pieces that made u fit with me. u din want us to fit. haih.

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore

Hmmmm, Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
But Still I don't know why
No I don't know why 

James Morrison

Currently Listening To: The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore - James Morrison

And So We Walk Down This Road

yet again.

i honestly cant believe you could do such a thing. n the ppl i've talked to can't agree more. so it cant be jus me with the messed up view right? which means my view cant be messed up in the first place right?

for all the crap i've received. for the times u lied. for the times u've hidden from me the truth so u would seem righteous. for the times u've denied all this things when i told you. for all the times you chose to take the easy way out. for the times you repeatedly made the mistakes you said you would not do. for saying u'd be loyal when u did not want to be. for the things you did which u knew was wrong but still inteded to do knowing full well you would have to live with the mistakes you made. for saying you wanted me but refused to do anything to fix any of the probs u caused.

for doing all these things and knowing you would definitely hurt me.

but then again, i can't blame you for everything right? after all, i was the fool who stayed and waited for you to change. with the hope you wudn make the same mistakes. with the hope you would become a better person. so blame me for being the idiot and giving you the chances and being willing to forgive. blame me for being the loser who would forgive you for what you've done while i know there would not be anyone else in this whole world who would forgive you after what you did.

so y did i stay?

this i blame on love.

“What did it ever do for me?” I say.
It never calls me when I'm down.
Love never wanted me,
But I took it anyway.
Put your ear to the speaker,
And choose love or sympathy,
But never both.
Love never wanted me. 

Fall Out Boy

and all good things have to come to an end. tho i hate the way this is ending. and i absolutely hate what is ending. and even if there was anything to fix and you knew it. its not like anything wud happen right?

Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team)

Your lipstick his collar don't bother angel,
I know exactly what goes on.

When everything you'll get is,
Everything that you've wanted, princess.
Well which would you prefer,
My finger on the trigger, or,
(Me face down, down across your floor.)
Me face down, down across your floor.
(Me face down, down across your floor.)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded.

And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin.
This all was only wishful thinkin.
Let's go...

Don't bother trying to explain Angel,
I know exactly what goes on, when you're on and,
How about I'm outside of your window?
(How about I'm outside of your window?)
Watchin' him keep the details covered.
You're such a sucker, (You're such a sucker.)
For a sweet talker.

And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
(The only thing I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back.)
And will you tell all your friends,
you've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
This all was only wishful thinkin'.

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens.
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know you never loved me.
(Why can't i feel anything from anyone other than you?)
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens.
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know you never loved me.
(Why can't i feel anything from anyone other than you?)
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens.
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know...

And all of this was all your fault.
And all of this....

(Makes things worse!)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason,
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life.
(She'll destroy us all before she's through,
And find a way to blame somebody else.)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason,
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life.
(She'll destroy us all before she's through,
And find a way to blame somebody else.)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason,
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life!

Taking Back Sunday

Currently Listening To: Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team) - Taking Back Sunday

Predictable

Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
It's so predictable (so predictable)

So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doing everything I should've
And now I'm making a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
It's so predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all wanna know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
It's so predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable)
Everyone that I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable)
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now..

Good Charlotte

everything i've ever wanted to say, is here on the blog. its whether u want to read it. or whether u will turn ur face away cuz u dun wanna hear it now. u dun wanna know. ignorance is bliss right? haih. this is like the 6th time i've gone into emoness. and all cuz of you. well, dun say u were nvr important.

Currently Listening To: Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall

Reading History

heh. i tot i wont be back here but i was reading my msn msg history jus now. cuz of my emoness. n heck. it was damn depressing reading that again. but the weird part is....

u answered my question then. u let me into u. u let me into that moment. u showed me it meant nth so u told me.

im telling you cos thats the past ben...thats the kind of mistake i don wanna repeat..

(April 07)

i came first then. thats y i think i managed to leave it behind.

i know its gonna hurt you..but u deserve to know..

i hate hiding it from you..

(April 07)

sucks to know things changed. haih. crap.

i know by hearing all this, ure even more hurt than ever...pissed with me for doing it, disapointed in me, etc..but i hope i hope i hope, that u wouldnt look at me as a different person..that u wouldnt jus judge me through this.

(April 07)

so now i judge?

if i'm not mistaken, it was a bit more than month later when it happened again.

n so many other things were said. but it all jus seems meaningless now.....

u shud read it again one day. our history.

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all 

Simple Plan

Currently Listening To: Hands Held High - Linkin Park

Now I Need A Break

from like everything and everyone. jus no mood. none. haih. there's jus so many stuffs goin on in my head. and basically i think i'm crazy again. need to relax. disappear for a while.

maybe its jealousy. but heh, who am i to say anything. just a passerby.

n it seems like that day and what i said changed everything. if i din say anything maybe there would be no realisation. n it wud b diff.

n what started off as smth done for noble intentions has now turned into something to gloat about. to show superiority. u know that its wrong. but i dunno how to say it to you.

its funny. we both know it happened between us. yet neither of us has ever said anything abt what happened. its like we completely ignore it and just avoid talking abt it altogether. haih. i wish it didn't happen. =(

y does things feel better when its not ok? this is jus exactly like that saying "you don't know what you have til you lose it". and when u lose it you want it back so much.

but now i feel exactly like everyone based on what you said. nth of me is diff anymore. i mean., hey, everyone makes u happy right? everyone is a nice guy too. n worst of all for me, everyone can do things for you. give things u want. be a better person than i can. so maybe i'm not like everyone. i'm less than that.

n it still hurts. everyday for me. wish it was as easy as u to pretend its jus nth.

i remember once u told me to find the reason i wanted you. whats your reason?






so i guess i'll be leaving everything for now. when i'll be back? i dunno. i may nvr be back either. who cares.

hopefully the drive tmrw will sort of let things out. the speed will thats for sure. heh. so i guess i'll def be speeding tmrw.

Goodbye.

So why can't you see it’s not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Sum 41

Currently Listening To: No Reason - Sum 41

I Annoyed The Crap Outta Caleb

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
i think i have some weird psych disorder la..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
just have this urge to procrastinate till d last minute..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
right

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
but as long as u can finish ok la

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
but if u cant u need more discipline

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
looks like bb aint helping eh

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
haha

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
funny..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
dunno la..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
whats funny?

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
when it comes to BB, things get done early..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
BB la

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
so BB aint training u fully la

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
jus making u some imbalanced guy

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
its not BB's fault..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
its my fault cuz i have a different perspective with BB..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
compared to most ppl..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
no

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
BB aint training properly then

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
they're supposed to make u not think like how u think

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
n if u still do means BB if failing

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
no..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
u can draw a donkey to water, but u cant force it to drink

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
BB has done all it can for me..but i still am like this..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
which means BB failed

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
......

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
they din managed to do their purpose

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
change ppl to follow the BB object

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
its like saying d school system has faild cuz i failed SPM

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
yea la!

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
of course!

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
so its not my fault at all la?

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
thay din get u interested enuf to study n do work

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
a small bit ur fault la

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
maybe its cuz i didnt study..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
but mainly its the other part who has a duty and responsibility to u who has not fulfilled their responsibility

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
maybe im interested enough but just didnt study..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
still their fault for not encouraging you to study or make you study in class

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
maybe i did..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
just was too confident then failled..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
where got such thing

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
too confident also wont fail

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
just say la..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
u do noe i didnt fail SPM, rite?

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
errr whats ur point?

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
my point is that BB is not there to change u..its just there to show u d difference..its up to u to change..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
like d famous saying goes, "BB doesnt need u, u need BB"

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
yea la exactly la

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
u cant blame BB if u procrastinate what

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
its ur fault if u do it

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
........

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
BB does what it can for you

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
im soooooooooooooo going to smack u..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
thats what i've been trying to say all along

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
at least u finally get it

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
=)

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
y la?

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
blaming others again?

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
not good la

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
this is soooooooooooooo annoying!!!!!!!!

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
i'm jus trying to tell u its not fair to blame BB or anything else if u dun try

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
SHUT UP!!

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
u must put in effort too u know

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
they did all they can

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
=D

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
shut up..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
strong bad says: Shut Up

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
ok that felt awesome!

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
like seriously

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
amazing!

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
=D

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
i'm like laughing so much now

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
hahahahahhahaha

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
trogdor: I decree that u shalth shuth upth or i will burnanate thee..th..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
u know what

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
i think i shall post this convo up as a blog

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
=D

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
'hahahahah

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
.......

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
ur soooo annoying..

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
title: i Annoyed The Crap Outta Caleb

[~:¦| ρђόέήχ |¦:~]® - Spin - Studying says:
=P

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
u better run this sunday..

Three Cheers for Five Years - Fedelo Giorgio Mamano says:
like seriously..

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oh i'm good. =D sry caleb. was feeling a bit high. hahaha! n had to disturb you. =D

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