It Kills Me Not To Know This

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
'Cause I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

Savior
Rise Against

Currently Listening To: Savior - Rise Against

It's Kinda Sad

and also makes you wonder why.

He clearly doesn't care for her. in any way. it's like he's just using her.

so why is she with him? he def does not make her happy. or feel happy about herself.

so seriously, why is she with him? she should have just gone with the one person who cares and makes her happy.

it's just dumb.

but i'm glad she made the right choice and stopped it with him and went for the one who cares for her.






aaaahh. tv shows. they make me think too much. lol. :P

Currently Listening To: The Office Theme - Relient K

I Tried I Really Did

but the disgust of what you told me, and the embarassment to be associated with you, is really killing it.

i honestly can't do this. i just find myself not at peace. trying to act as if it's ok.

but the worst part is, that's all i can do.

well that's all i can do to avoid anymore drama. just too sick and tired of it.

so here is to acting like i care when i don't.

and actually really learning not to care. again.

cheers.

Currently Listening To: Superman (It's Not Easy) - Five for Fighting

Would I Lie To You?

most definitely

without hesitating

prob smth you should know to make things a little more fair for you

Currently Listening To: Ppl Outside my window talking

And Apparently, Countdown Is The Map I'm Best At

Europe server


Malaysian Server



but i guess the Europe server i was top cuz i was the only one who seemed to be doing the work like capturing the flags and killing the ppl trying to capture the flags. that's why my score is like waaaayyy above the other ppl in my team i guess. but we still lost. :(

and i take my gaming pretty seriously. i shout too much at the comp. lol.

k back to movie.

Currently Watching: Blade II

Why I Think Kowhaii Is Better Than The Rest

k this was long overdue. but since Mr. anon wants to know to decide his/her future accomodation at UC, why not list it out?

so first, my problems with Hinau:
-fridge too small
-room doesn't have drawers to put stuff in
-you gotta pay 4 bucks a week for laundry
-no light switch near bed so you can tuck urself in and then turn off the lights.
-the closet is like totally open most of the time.
-theres no oven (for those who like to bake or cook food that requires baking
-the heater was a pain to figure out. can only work it illegally.
-the room comes with only 2 hooks to hang clothes.
-further from uni
-small living room
-flat doesn't have doorbell
-no mirror in room

but there's some good also:
-"home-ly-er"
-newer than the others.
-bigger bed
-when the heater works, it'll be really hot.
-bathroom and toilet are linked together. so you can do your business, then have a bath! lol
-lifts move way faster than Kowhaii


and i think that's all i can think of.

why i want to move into Kowhaii?
-big fridge
-room has drawers to put stuff in
-free laundry
-light switch near bed so you can tuck urself in and then turn off the lights.
-closed closet
-oven (for those who like to bake or cook food that requires baking)
-think the heater is easy
-i think there's more hooks
-closer to uni
-big living room
-flat has doorbell
-room is big
-there's a mirror in the room

the bads are pretty much the opposites of the goods of Hinau la. but yeah. u get the picture.

well i hope that helped. and anyone else who knows any other reasons for either side, feel free to comment! :)

Currently Listening To: Beat It - Fall Out Boy ft. John Mayer

Apparently My Holidays Are For Photoshop

this is what i do during my free time of my hols.

it's enjoyable as. seeing something turn out pretty awesome. :)

those tutorials are REALLY good.

ah. what a gr8 day. :)

Currently Listening To: Believe Me - Fort Minor

Too Much Talk

i don't like this feeling like i've spoken too much.

said things that'll give me away.

for this, i blame my stupid habit of must having to say everything i'm thinking of and feeling.



but the question arises, maybe since i don't care now, will i not be emo? hmmm

Currently Listening To: Never Let Me Go - Planetshakers

I'm The Support Hero

i dunno why, i just prefer to take the role considered as "support hero" role.

in Dota, i prefer to be the guy that helps other ppl get the kill. i guess cuz i'm not good at the game so i prefer to let the pros do the killing.

in futsal, i prefer to be the defender or the passer, not the goal scorer. to me, it doesn't matter, as long as the goal is scored. i guess cuz i know i'm not that good in futsal la.

in playing guitar, i prefer rythym guitar rather than lead, giving melody to the song and supporting the lead. this is prob cuz i'm not good at guitar and i can't solo. so rythym is easier la. plus i guess it's easier to go crazy on rythym la. ;P


so yeah. i'm the support hero. and i like it that way. i don't mind other ppl getting the attention. :)

prob the only time i like taking the spotlight is in COD4. but not like i'm thaaat good at COD4 also. oh the happy thing today is, i was the last guy left in a game of Sabotage, killed 2 ppl. planted the bomb, killed another guy, got my 7 streak kill and won the round for my team. that was pretty awesome. gr8 feeling. esp when playing with online ppl whoa are way more pro.

this is online with 36 players and clan members. considering i got 3rd in my group. that's pretty awesome. :)


but then again. i like playing Sniper. and that's sorta like support hero. lol.

Currently Listening To: Why Don't You and I [Alternate Version] - Santana ft Alex Band

Possibly My Most Irritating Habit

on facebook at least. i tend to write something to comment on ppl stuffs.

then i find i'm not satisfied with what i type and try to retype it it.

then i find i'm still not satisfied.

by this point i lose interest and just don't bother commenting since i can't say it right.


what a waste of a few minutes of my life.

Currently Listening To: WTH>You - Linkin Park

There's No Way

just no way she would know the reason.

absolutely none. i don't recall telling it.

well was it the reason in the first place?

til now, i've yet to decide.


************

funny how i would/will change and do the things i said i wouldn't do for the things/girl i want.

Currently Listening To: Never Let You Go - Third Eye Blind

Facebook Troll

this is my definition of a facebook troll.

it's someone who uses facebook, relatively a lot, but doesn't post much or do anything actually just for the sake of making it look like they don't use facebook much. purpose? so that they can stalk other ppls profile.

it's really lame. really.



Currently Listening To: Disappear - Motion City Soundtrack

This Just Goes Unsaid I Believe

you know how super uncool you really are when you have to proclaim out loud and openly to everyone about the one small little bad thing you did.

it sets your badass level to -1000.

fail.

try again pls.

Currently Listening To: Sink Into Me - Taking Back Sunday

For All The Things That Has Happened To Me

honestly, how should i not hate life and those who make it displeasurable for me.

so many fakers, users, jealous ppl, arrogant ppl and the list can go on.

seriously, the rubbish i've been put through, it's amazing. it sucks when u know it's not in your head. and other ppl actually agree that the things that happen in your life sucks and you are not exaggerating.

at this moment, i hate the fakers the most. so irritating. prob it's more irritating when i have to act like i dunno who they really are and what is going on in their mind everytime i see them.

seriously, the one thing i want is for you ppl to come and tell me in my face. so irritating that we have to put on this act each time.


honestly, for all the things that has happened to me, i should be one of the most bitter person that u'll ever meet.







but i see no reason to. :)

i like being happy. :)

so i shall stay happy. :)


bet u din see that coming! :D

see ya!

Currently Listening To: (If You Want It) - Relient K

This Is Bad. Real Bad.

i believe i still have some standards.

so the fact that my mouth seems totally out of control while playing games is just terrible.

the worst part is it happens when i'm not alone as well.

i refuse to be not fully in control of myself.

changing.

Currently Listening To: Until The Day I Die - Story Of The Year

Plans And Downfalls

My downfall and ruined plans shall come from my inability to shut the hell up about talking about myself and stuff.

the probable causes are the fact that i can't let things be unsaid and also this blog.

now let's try to change that.

Currently Listening To: Fire Fall Down - Hillsong

It Wouldn't Be Fair Would It?

It wouldn't be fair would it?

if you make fun of other people's God and get all worked up when someone insults yours?

or turn a blind eye when someone insults someone else's God but expect everyone to listen to you protest when someone insults yours?

Currently Listening To: Bullet Soul - Switchfoot

Relient K Has Awesome Song Lyrics

but for now i'll just share this

"... It's funny how you find you enjoy your life, when you're happy to be alive."
High of 75 - Relient K

^ is so so so true.

on another music note (pun not intended), this song currently owns:

Disappear by Motion City Soundtrack.


absolutely love the way there is a stop of music at the start of the chorus the 2nd time. epic.

k back to studying.

Currently Listening To: Disappear - Motion City Soundtrack

In No Hurry

Sit up screaming at the break of dawn
Pull out your hair, biting your tongue
Its getting you nowhere
You're fed up, leaving at the first chance
Never look back, never a last glance
And you have no interest there

Well its been hard, I know
It's just the way things sometime go
All you have to do
Is learn to let it go

I have no worries
I'm in no hurry here
I've been through this before
And I have no fear
I have no worries
When things go blurry now
It's just the world spinning
Round

No time wasted, smile on your face
Gotta get out, out of this place
And I'll lend a helping hand
Cause we got it now, we got it good
We got the beat, but misunderstood
And they just don't understand

It's a long hard road
It's the art of letting go
It's the ride
Cause we're never gonna know

I have no worries
I'm in no hurry here
I've been through this before
And I have no fear
I have no worries
When things go blurry now
It's just the world spinning
Round

Things can be extraordinary if you try
Give them time to grow

It's a long hard road
It's ebb and flow
It's an art of the
Art of letting go

I have no worries
I'm in no hurry here
I've been through this before
And I have no fear
I have no worries
(I have no worries)
When things go blurry now
It's just the world spinning
Round
(I have no worries)
It's just the world spinning
Round

Cartel

i'm in no hurry. :)

Currently Listening To: In No Hurry - Cartel

Just Because I'm Paranoid And Think Of The Worst Situation Possible

i hope hope hope hope hope hope

that it's not him.

i definitely panicking over nothing.

but just in case, i really hope it's not him.

he doesn't deserve such crap in his life.

heck, i hope none of my friends are the one.

go torture some useless idiot. nobody i know pls.


gah paranoid.

Currently Listening To: Knock You Down - Kanye West

Facebook Dislike Button

just a short post. for the ppl asking for the dislike button in FB.

think about it, the stuff you add and share on FB are the stuff you like, find cool, find interesting etc.

would you really want someone or in fact anyone disliking ur stuff? at all. i don't think most ppl can handle it.


yeap. that's it that i want you to think about today.

that's all. :)

Currently Watching: Lie To Me - Season 2 Episode 5 (Grevious Bodily Harm)

I Can't Wait To Go Home!

>;D


Currently Listening To: Hello Hurricane - Switchfoot