The World Needs Strangers

weird right?

this thought came to me as i was sitting at captain ben's next to 2 strangers wondering what if i was friendly and decided to befriend them. yes. weird thoughts from an antisocial. lol.

so anyway, the world needs strangers.

why?

cuz if everyone were friends, ppl would just end up being irritated/pissed off with each other and also they won't get things done.

k this scenario came to my mind.

imagine ure in a mall. and k malls have a lot of ppl walking around in them. and now imagine if ALL of them were ur friends. you'd barely be able to walk a few steps before bumping into a friend and having a chat like how friends shud. now the chat doesnt have to be long, but i can tell you, after "bumping" into 20 ppl, you're gonna get quite irritated.

also just say u have a chat with someone, and with every person u meet. ure gonna find, u may just run outta time to do the things u need to do cuz u were catching up with ur friend.

and k fine, just say u don't have a chat. would u really wanna be walking by everyone at the mall waving hi! ten bucks says ure gonna get tired of it really fast.

so in some way, as i see it at least, the world NEEDS strangers for ppl to survive and do their everyday life things.

somehow also, i'm reminded of the Giodarno(?) shirt "World Without Strangers" and how this should never happen. (on a side note, ppl should really walk up to these ppl wearing those tshirts and start to try and be friends with them. i'm pretty sure they may just end up creeped out since prob 90% of the ppl wearing the shirt just wear it for the brand name and not cuz they believe in what the tshirt says.)

so yeah. the world needs strangers.


but, it doesn't mean u can't be nice to strangers as well. ;)

Currently Listening To: Na Na Na - My Chemical Romance

It's Like An Uncurable Disease!

ARE YOU KIDDING ME???

THE MOMENT I DELETE THOSE SPAM COMMENTS IN THE CHATTER BOX, NEW ONES APPEAR.

IT'S LIKE SOME HYDRA!

CUT OFF ONE HEAD, THREE MORE APPEAR.

RAGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


DAMN SPAMMERS.

Currently Listening To: Toxic - A Static Lullaby

You Choose Who You Fall In Love With?

honestly, that's what i think it is.

it's like you go, "hmm k that person."

and seriously, if u really tried ur hardest, and the person did as well, i think you may just fall in love.

i'm not sure la. it just feels like it.

guys will choose the pretty girls, and the girls will choose the good looking guys. and work from there.

so technically, you could fall in love with anyone! all you had to do is try.

but the question is, is that the wrong way? like is it wrong?

it feels lame and retarded in some way. but what other way is there?

i for one, def don't believe in love at first sight. so that explains a lot of this post i guess.

maybe you fall in love for the one who cares for you a lot? and the other person cares for you cuz they're in love with you.

but, i've got quite a few friends whom i truly love and care about, but, i'm not in love with them. and i know they care for me, but def not in love with me in anyway either. so maybe not that theory?

it feels like i'm prob gonna end up one day saying to some girl, "hey, i find you attractive, and i'd like to see if i could fall in love with you, wanna go out??"

LOL.

actually. i kinda don't know what i'm trying to say or talk abt also. ramblings.

i guess it's like, how do you know who you like? it feels like, if u tell urself, k u shdu go try for this girl, then that's the one u like. like u could say anyone, and that will be the girl.

maybe the one whom u'll end up loving is the person who have a chance with?

but what if you have a lot of chances with a lot of ppl?

if it's based on chances, then i would def have no prob. since i'm living my life convinced i have no chance with anyone. sometimes it feels like, i'll go for the girl who shows me i have half a chance with her.

but then i don't want it to be like "eh half a chance! quickly grab it!" cuz that's like damn despo. i'm pretty sure i wanna fall for a girl not for the reason that i just want someone, but for the reason, i really want this specific girl who can be everything i need.

yeah. i guess i won't fall for the first girl that comes along, but i would if she's really someone i can be with.

but seems like i'd work and try and try to fall in love with any girl now. lol. yes i've been single-ish for too long.

but nah. as long as i'm thinking like that, i don't think i'll let myself fall for anyone yet.

but then again, if i can realise this abt me, maybe i'm ready?


gr8. good job ben. confuse urself even more.


not bad. i can talk a lot of rubbish. if u read the whole thing. i'm amused. cuz u pretty much just read exactly all the thoughts that went thru my mind. this clearly had no preplanning when i wrote it. it's like think --> type. which is exactly why it doesn't make sense. and like i'm debating with myself.

hhaha. k i'm done talking nonsense. bye. :)

Currently Listening To: Assassin - Muse

I Want To Highlight Certain Lines

but every single word suits. every single word.

read.

When I Get Home, You're So Dead

The words are coming I feel terrible
Is it typical for us to end like this
Am I just another scene
From a movie that you've seen 100 times
Cause baby you weren't the first or the last or the worst
And I've got to fill the blanks in the past with a verse
And we could sit around and cry but frankly your not worth it
Anymore

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

On any other day I'd shoot the boy
But your simple toy
Had caused a scene like this
Leave him hanging on the walls
Just a picture in the hall
Like 100 more
Consider this as a gift as you taste him on your lips
And he's making you scream with his hands on your hips
I hope he's leaving you empty baby this is just a fix
For such a simple little whore

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

And your name remains the same
All that has changed is this pretty face

So pull the trigger
It never gets closer
You want to start over
But never start over
(x2)

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Say hello, say hello ohh
Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that your making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

Mayday Parade

and yes. even the ones u didn't think applies, applies.

who'd have thought, lying would actually turn out to be worth it.

Currently Listening To: ...To Be Loved - Papa Roach

This Is What Happens When You Get Away With Everything

you don't change. at all.

and u expect the world to just forgive.

no remorse. no regret at all.

and i'm still the bad guy throughout all this.


i'm am so pissed off right now, that's i'm gonna stop here before i start swearing.

leaving me alone, would be a good idea right abt now.

Currently Listening To: The Catalyst - Linkin Park

Is This Proof Enough?

so it's like 4am. and i'm doing some busybodying and stalking. and i found something horrible out.

and it sucks. this proves that bad things happen to good ppl.

and it's damn bloody annoying.

and the horrible ones, get away with everything. like COME ON.


bloody hell. it's pissing off.


damn. i feel horrible for her. esp cuz she's awesome. and she was good to him.

why oh why does life suck like this. it's unfair. =/

Currently Listening To: Everyday I Love You Less and Less - Kaiser Chiefs

Listen To Barney Stinson

cuz when he says "Suit Up", you suit up.

:)

Currently Listening To: Pray Tell - Anberlin

It Worked Out!

i have no idea how. but it did.

well actually i knew how. and i hoped so much. and it happened! like towards the last minute as well!

i spent the last dunno how many days scheming and thinkin how i'd "avoid" it. albeit i'm the one who caused it in the first place.

then i got a solution. then spent the last 4 days planning and procrastinating to tell her.

but then she comes along, and says no.

and now, all settled.

SWEEETTTT.

problem. solved. :)

Currently Listening To: You've Got The Love - Florence + The Machine

Sic Transit Gloria ... Glory Fades

Keep the noise low,
She doesn't want to blow it.
Shaking head to toe while your left hand does the show me around.
Quickens your heartbeat,
It beats me straight into the ground.

You don't recover from a night like this.
A victim, still lying in bed - completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper.
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets barely whisper,
This is so messed up.

Upon arrival the guests had all stared,
Dripping wet and clearly depressed, he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch.
Unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.
(Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing up.)
He keeps his hands low, He doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe, and his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns, and he thinks of throwing up.
But the body on the bed beckons forward, and he starts growing up.

The fever, the focus,
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself!
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathe, But now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

She hits the lights, This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends, he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth, He is gasping for air.
This is the first and last time, he says.
She fakes a smile, and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her exactly what it really feels like.
He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast, and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her, but she's probably only looking for...

(Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing old.)
So much more than he could ever give, A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides,
He waits for it to end and for the aching in his gut to subside.

The fever, the focus,
The reason that I had to believe you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of,
It used to be the reason that I breathed, But now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes, the art of growing up.

The fever, the focus,
The reason that I had to believe you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of,
It used to be the reason that I breathed, But now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

Brand New

in some way, thanks, for screwing me up.

Currently Listening To: Don't Let Me Get Me - P!nk

88

just 88 more!

then done. :)


on a side note, what if 50 Cent or Eminem wrote a christian song, with a nice tune, meaningful lyrics and all. but they didn't mean it? like they just wrote it to make money.

would you sing it?



Currently Listening To: Sympathy - Billy Talent

I Figured Out Why

i know why i'm still around.

i wanna see how this life plays out. just the curiousity to see what will happen in the future.

otherwise, i'm def out.

Face the facts you're a betting man and the deck is stacked
Against you all the time
Since your life is just a failure by design

Four Year Strong

Currently Listening To: It Must Really Suck To Be Four Year Strong Right Now - Four Year Strong

Like You Didn't See It Coming

oh please. it's been here this whole time. you just chose not to see it.

besides, doesn't it suit the current profile. what you actually should have been shocked abt is why not.

and now that you do know, does it really make me less of a person?

think abt it, still the same person, just that now you know something which happened 2 years ago.

it's all in the perception of things i would say.

Currently Listening To: Didn't See That Coming - Taking Back Sunday

Is There A Problem?

G: You asked me if there was a problem earlier. Yeah. There is one. We don't like you.

M: Heh. That's not a problem. ;)

- Pathology

>:)

Currently Watching: Pathology

Find My Way Back

I can't believe what this is doing to me
I've seen so many cities
Fall down to their knees
I'm begging you, please
Don't bury me underneath their crumbled walls
My barren thoughts weigh heavier
Than the weight of our demands

I feel the pressure building up inside my head
I feel the distance drowning me in my own sweat
Cause I need the cold now
It's my turn to roll out all the stops
And show that I know where I have to go

I've got to find my way back
Retrace my steps
So I can prove to you that I'm alive
Crawling my way back to the place
I know that's meant for me to find my way back
To find my way back home

I feel the heat and what it's doing to me
I've been pulling at my own skin
To hide my face
It's hard to relate
Forget the way you feel when you are safe at home
You leave this world alone, stone by stone
If only I had known about the

Pressure building up inside my head
I feel the distance drowning me in my own sweat
Cause I need the cold now
It's my turn to roll out all the stops
And show that I know where I have to go

I've got to find my way back
Retrace my steps
So I can prove to you that I'm alive
Crawling my way back to the place
I know that's meant for me to find my way back
Find my way back home

One mile left
It lasts a lifetime
Like a promise kept
Under the weight of the world
Falling down on your shoulders
It's colder

I've got to find my way back
Retrace my steps
So I can prove to you that I'm alive
Crawling my way back to the place
I know that's meant for me to find my way back
Find my way back home
Find my way back home
Cause I've been crawling my way back to the place
I know that's meant for me to find my way back
Find my way back home

Four Year Strong

Currently Listening To: Find My Way Back - Four Year Strong

So Apparently I'm Kinda Mean

so here's the thing, i got this friend organising this thing. and in the thing, there's like this entertainment part, which a member in her thing is organising. and, this person, let's name her A.

So A, thinks she knows it all, wants to do everything her way and won't listen to other ppls suggestions. not even her superiors a.k.a my friend.

so my plan, which i mentioned to ppl when we were talking about this issue is this: when A's entertainment thing is done on the event day, i would casually walk behind her, while (acting like i'm) talking to my friend and say "Yeah, this thing is pretty awesome, cept for that entertainment bit which was crap." loud enough so she can hear it.

and surprisingly, a lot of ppl were shocked at how mean i am/could be, which btw, i def don't think i'm being mean at all. which is kinda weird. i mean, hey, this girl is being a bitch thinkin she's right and not listening to my friend who is actually the leader of the whole thing. so yeah, why should i be nice to someone who's being a bitch to my friend? and yeah, i do think being "mean" to her is justifiable.

hey, she's my friend, i'd def have her back if ppl mess with her. and yes, that includes being mean to those who mess with her.

i'm not mean. i've just got my friend's back.

:)

Currently Listening To: Guernica - Brand New

I'll Be Here Waiting

and unfortunately, hoping.

Currently Listening To: Deciphering Me - Brooke Fraser