Saturday, January 27, 2007

Regrets

how i hate myself. i hate myself for being so damn selfish and the biggest hypocrite in the whole world.

i'm really sorry. i wish i cud take back all i did that hurt u. u sh nvr haf gone through such pain. everytime i look at u now i know u deserve so much better. but i cant let u go. u mean too much for me to let go.

i'd give anything to have u stay.

anything to take back what i said.

anything to take back that damned day where i acted on my stupid anger.

anything to go back to how we were.


now i know how regret feels like. n i know that day is my most regretful day in my whole life. nothing hurts as bad. i wish i didn't live to see that day. i wish it cud be erased.

but it nvr can. some wounds go too deep to heal.

n i caused it.

i'd give anything to be normal again.

i'm sry.

for the hurt i've caused.

for the words i've said.

for my fake self.

for not loving u the way i should.

for blaming you when it has always been my fault.

for making u feel bad.

for acting like a jerk.

but please know.

I Love You.

and i always will.

Always.

='(

Currently Listening To: Always - blink-182

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

you say she means too much to you that you cant let her go. but you still did let her go in anger, ryte? stop dwelling in the past and start moving on. learn from past mistakes & never repeat them again in future relationships. im sure you love her very much and she is an awesome gf, but if it already happened, you cant do much to change it. we cant turn back time and change the past. but no matter what, just keep holding on and believing. if it's the Lord's plan, then you guys will get back together again. it's just a matter of time. everything happens for a reason, ryte? well, just let every obstacle you go through in your life teach you and make you stronger to face the world, kayz? =)

Anonymous said...

you say she means too much to you that you cant let her go. but you still did let her go in anger, ryte? stop dwelling in the past and start moving on. learn from past mistakes & never repeat them again in future relationships. im sure you love her very much and she is an awesome gf, but if it already happened, you cant do much to change it. we cant turn back time and change the past. but no matter what, just keep holding on and believing. if it's the Lord's plan, then you guys will get back together again. it's just a matter of time. everything happens for a reason, ryte? well, just let every obstacle you go through in your life teach you and make you stronger to face the world, kayz? =)

Anonymous said...

bluekk! ur blog page hates me! ='( err, don blame urself only lar..i made lotsa mistakes in our relationship too..lets just learn from it k..ill alwiz love you too, ben..don keep forcing me out of the cage..i don wanna go out..and if u want me to go out, i tink u shud go out too.. =p hmm, i just hope things would be back to the way it was last time when we first knew..yesh, maybe not exactly..but close enough..i miss you..take care, ben! =)

Anonymous said...

ben, what anonymous say is right..u shudn terasa lor..learn from anonymous..

thx for understanding, anonymous..whoever u are.. =)

Weijun Lim said...

Only cowards express their feelings as anonymous =) Heh =)Crap la, the first blog I am surfing for the day and I see a morbid post. I shall take my revenge by burning your lovely bed at Cendana =P Man, you should appreciate you have a neighbour like me! Heh =)