Trials Is OVER

but it ended horribly! haih. k i admit i din study at all. all i did was read through and look at examples. din do latihan so thats not counted as stuyding. so this is blamed on me n noone else. haih. shud haf concentrated n studied more la. ish.

but on the bright side it's over!! =D hahaha. n i've got nth to do for the next 2 days. absolutely nth. sheesh. i'm bored. i slept mostly the whole day today. exam ended at 10 i came back n slept at 11 smth. then at 2 i woke up had lunch n came back at 3 and slept again at 3 smth. then woke up at 6.40 to dnner. n all i ate for dinner was the kfc's garden salad. haha. yes i'm on a diet. too fat di. ;) i so sound like a girl man. haha!

so as u see. i'm damn bored. n i haf no car here. so all i can do is take the bus or ktm n go places if i want to. haha. i'll prob leave this com lab later to go watch house. my only way to not keep me bored. haha.

oh yeah. i saw Joash today smiling away at the Cemara gate. i asked where he was going and he said to see the doctor cuz he had an asthma attack. wow. for a guy who had an asthma attack he sure looked pretty cheerful abt it. i think thats smth i shud learn from him. to not let things like that bring me down and worried and all. shud learn to be calm like him. k lesson to learn: learn to be calm and cheerful in the face of danger. cuz i'm sure u wont feel better if u worry abt it and panic.

hmm. thats abt it today. of course i haf nth more to say cuz i was sleeping the whole day la. i jus keep wondering y some ppl din turn up 4 d test n there's no reply too. kinda worried. but may be nth.

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u know some ppl are just so fake. when they think ure not around they will act as if ure crap and talk bad abt u. then suddenly when they know ure there they'll act nice and say nice things like they actually like u. oh come on la. do u really think i din know u set the whole thing up? its so FAKE. noone changes like that so fast. pathetic.

n its also obvious that the whole bunch of you are against me now. its prob cuz u think i had a hand in it and was " betraying" u guys. i din know anything k. it happened without me knowing. so y r u boycotting me? well, at least it feels so. or maybe i'm jus paranoid. but i can sense it so much. and most times i'm not wrong. but everyone's jus different now. haih. nvm. for now i'll jus accept it as i'm being paranoid.

What if I say I'm not like the others

What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays

You're the pretender

What if I say that I'll never surrender

Foo Fighters

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