And So We Walk Down This Road

yet again.

i honestly cant believe you could do such a thing. n the ppl i've talked to can't agree more. so it cant be jus me with the messed up view right? which means my view cant be messed up in the first place right?

for all the crap i've received. for the times u lied. for the times u've hidden from me the truth so u would seem righteous. for the times u've denied all this things when i told you. for all the times you chose to take the easy way out. for the times you repeatedly made the mistakes you said you would not do. for saying u'd be loyal when u did not want to be. for the things you did which u knew was wrong but still inteded to do knowing full well you would have to live with the mistakes you made. for saying you wanted me but refused to do anything to fix any of the probs u caused.

for doing all these things and knowing you would definitely hurt me.

but then again, i can't blame you for everything right? after all, i was the fool who stayed and waited for you to change. with the hope you wudn make the same mistakes. with the hope you would become a better person. so blame me for being the idiot and giving you the chances and being willing to forgive. blame me for being the loser who would forgive you for what you've done while i know there would not be anyone else in this whole world who would forgive you after what you did.

so y did i stay?

this i blame on love.

“What did it ever do for me?” I say.
It never calls me when I'm down.
Love never wanted me,
But I took it anyway.
Put your ear to the speaker,
And choose love or sympathy,
But never both.
Love never wanted me. 

Fall Out Boy

and all good things have to come to an end. tho i hate the way this is ending. and i absolutely hate what is ending. and even if there was anything to fix and you knew it. its not like anything wud happen right?

Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team)

Your lipstick his collar don't bother angel,
I know exactly what goes on.

When everything you'll get is,
Everything that you've wanted, princess.
Well which would you prefer,
My finger on the trigger, or,
(Me face down, down across your floor.)
Me face down, down across your floor.
(Me face down, down across your floor.)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded.

And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin.
This all was only wishful thinkin.
Let's go...

Don't bother trying to explain Angel,
I know exactly what goes on, when you're on and,
How about I'm outside of your window?
(How about I'm outside of your window?)
Watchin' him keep the details covered.
You're such a sucker, (You're such a sucker.)
For a sweet talker.

And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
(The only thing I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back.)
And will you tell all your friends,
you've got your gun to my head?
This all was only wishful thinkin'.
This all was only wishful thinkin'.

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens.
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know you never loved me.
(Why can't i feel anything from anyone other than you?)
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens.
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know you never loved me.
(Why can't i feel anything from anyone other than you?)
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens.
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know...

And all of this was all your fault.
And all of this....

(Makes things worse!)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason,
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life.
(She'll destroy us all before she's through,
And find a way to blame somebody else.)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason,
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life.
(She'll destroy us all before she's through,
And find a way to blame somebody else.)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason,
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life!

Taking Back Sunday

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