Now I Need A Break

from like everything and everyone. jus no mood. none. haih. there's jus so many stuffs goin on in my head. and basically i think i'm crazy again. need to relax. disappear for a while.

maybe its jealousy. but heh, who am i to say anything. just a passerby.

n it seems like that day and what i said changed everything. if i din say anything maybe there would be no realisation. n it wud b diff.

n what started off as smth done for noble intentions has now turned into something to gloat about. to show superiority. u know that its wrong. but i dunno how to say it to you.

its funny. we both know it happened between us. yet neither of us has ever said anything abt what happened. its like we completely ignore it and just avoid talking abt it altogether. haih. i wish it didn't happen. =(

y does things feel better when its not ok? this is jus exactly like that saying "you don't know what you have til you lose it". and when u lose it you want it back so much.

but now i feel exactly like everyone based on what you said. nth of me is diff anymore. i mean., hey, everyone makes u happy right? everyone is a nice guy too. n worst of all for me, everyone can do things for you. give things u want. be a better person than i can. so maybe i'm not like everyone. i'm less than that.

n it still hurts. everyday for me. wish it was as easy as u to pretend its jus nth.

i remember once u told me to find the reason i wanted you. whats your reason?






so i guess i'll be leaving everything for now. when i'll be back? i dunno. i may nvr be back either. who cares.

hopefully the drive tmrw will sort of let things out. the speed will thats for sure. heh. so i guess i'll def be speeding tmrw.

Goodbye.

So why can't you see it’s not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Sum 41

Currently Listening To: No Reason - Sum 41