Math Final Exam Paper. 7a.m. to 10p.m. 8th Nov. Deepavali day.
Night b4. A few Indian guys decided to celebrate Deepavali by playing football at the field which is like just 5 floors down my hostel window. They played eventhough it rained. They made a hell load of noise. i cant sleep with noise. they played til 5 a.m. i am supposed to wake up for my exam at 5 a.m. so yes. I DID NOT SLEEP THE WHOLE FREAKING NIGHT. AT ALL. note the 3hour Math paper i'm due to sit for.
din haf time to eat breakfast either. went to INTEC anyway cuz i dun haf a choice. was so pissed with those guys cuz i din get my sleep. even Erica and Karen noticed my grouchyness. so sat for the test. damn it was ok. so i tot. realised i made a lot of careless mistakes now. rubbish la. and the hall was damn cold. yes i was wearing my jacket.
so came out of the hall: brain dead cuz of sleepyness, stomach growling cuz no food, body shivering cuz of extreme coldness. yes horrible k.
came home for 10 min to change then went out for Nisha's Deepavali Open House. My goodness. Her house is like a palace. and i'm not joking. too bad i got no pics. after that had nth to do so went with Ruth to go watch movie at Mines. Bee Movie. not bad. kinda nice. funnily i din sleep off at any part of the movie. then walked around cuz some ppl cudnt decide where to eat. settled for Subway. shared a 6-inch cuz neither of us were hungry due to the popcorn we ate earlier. then after that went home. there was some drama thingy goin on at the KTM la. which was kinda cool.
went home kinda emo and confused abt situations and stuff. whether what is right and wrong. what are the limits. am i teaching ppl the wrong thing. haih.
finally reached home at 9.30 and my mom is sooo pissed off. cuz she feels i spent the day out so long. like haih. come on la. i'm 19 already! thats a year older than 18. i know how to take care of myself la. y cant i go out and haf fun with my frens?? its not like we're doin anything bad and illegal like drinking,smoking or even clubbing. its just an open house,movie and dinner.its good clean fun and yet i'm so restricted. after some crazy exam somemore k. let me haf some rest la. i know how to take care of myself. i live at the hostel 5 days a week k. and at least i tell where i'm goin and with who too. i've got nth to hide. aih!
aih. anyway, extremely tired now. physically spent cuz right now its been 36 hours straight i havent slept and i've been doin a lot of stuff i feel. emotional spent cuz of the emo stuff i was thinking and the other limits stuff. hungerly spent cuz i hardly ate today eventho i was at an Open House with great food and hardly ate for dinner.
so i'll jus die soon la k. :) i'm surviving on nth so far. food sleep and emotions all gone. soon i'll lose control and go into insanity.
k i shud really go now. i think i'm like on the way there. haha!
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
Hoobastank
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