This Feeling Is So So Different

well, the last week has been awesome la. i've been happy the whole time. like a whole burden has been lifted. now i understand what she meant when she said that last time.

and i remember what you said also abt fighting for what u want. and i've def seen u work for stuff u want. like some super will power. but i guess thats for smth u wanted right? so yea, when u dun fight for me its ok. i get it. u dun want me.

and the stories abt wanting me and putting me first always? its ok. i know it wasn't true.

and i'm not angry or pissed or anything at all. i'm jus happy. =) i see now y it wudn't work. and y it'll nvr work. i see that i was crap to u.

and i'm not gonna whine and whatever. i wanna grow up and take it in my stride. cuz life sucks. i'm gonna deal with that.

so all the best with you! =) cuz u know whats right and wrong. and u know what ur frens r doin aint right. but if u wanna follow them, hey its ur choice. i jus dun wanna b a prt of that. i'm sry.

all the best with ur new guy too. i hope he's cool with all u do and all that. i know he'll make u happy cuz like u said everyone makes u happy. but i hope u can b comfortable with him. no i'm not talkin abt the physical part cuz u know la. but u know what i mean.

jus be happy and dun regret whatever u do.

jus remember, bein cool now may jus kill ur life later.

and no, dun think u only haf one life so might as well screw it all now. u still haf another life after this life. and i'm sure u dun wanna suffer in the next life. cuz i dun want u to either.

but its all up to u. i'm not gonna say anything anymore. cuz we know how low i was in ur life.

so goodbye and all the best then. :)

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