I'm An Internet Nerd

if you read that and laughed/cursed or actually realised what happened,

you're an internet nerd.




trust me, i would know. :P

hahahaha

that pic still rocks btw. :D

k crazy di. i should sleep now.

the song i'm listening to is super motivating in my opinion too. i shall post up the lyrics soon.

Currently Listening To: In No Hurry - Cartel

Bday Awards 09

lol. i dunno why i'm doing this. but i feel i should acknowledge all the ppl who did something awesome. if you din win anything this year, there's always next year! hahahah! no la just kidding. i still love all of you all la. don't have to try and win my love :P but i don't mind you trying of course :P

so anyway, let's see what we've got...

1. For the person first to wish me the first (according to NZ time): Bernard! (it would have gpne to the person i love the most, but i guess it prob wouldn't be fair. so Bernard gets first place! :D )

2. For the first person to send me an email: Lauren! (plus it was an awesome email with a picture of some guy i dunno and there was a nice template and everything! so Lauren rocks! :D )

3. For the person who organized a super fun time for me today amidst the exams: Gloria! (you rock so much, it can't be put into words. Thank you so much again. :) )

3. For the person to wish me first on FB: Karen! (i honestly wish i remember how or where i even met her)

4. For the most unique FB wish: Dana! (cuz she din even wish me.)

5. For the only person who had a whole blog post dedicated to me and my awesomeness + wishing me at the same time: Dana! (that's why she din wish me on FB. go here to see! click on the M in the empty. it'll get you somewhere.)

6. For the first person to wish me from Malaysia thru text: Yumey! (thank you for beign awesome and finding out my number and texting me. :) sry that i din get ur number b4 this! :( you're awesome la. :) )

7. For the first person to wish me thru MSN: My sister. (I like how excited she was when she wished me. and how we chatted and chatted til we had to go off.)

8. For the most persistent wisher: Su Yuan (she wished me thru MSN, text, and also FB. and i only replied her thru MSN, which she din get. must be cuz she's gaming! :P go study lar you! thx again! :D )


well that's all i can think of now. if you guys can think of more, i'd be more than happy to give! :D

seriously tho, i really had a good year. or good day for my bday. i mean seriously, most of the time i was studying and was in uni slaving away at work. but somehow i still ended up like happy giler. must be cuz of Mission AYWD a.k.a Mission Kit Kat la. so really, for all those who took part in it. thank you so much la. i really really appreciate it. i love the msges you guys sent. and the kit kats. really thanks a lot la. i know i don't need to say this and you guys know it already, but you guys are some of the most awesome ppl ever! really mean it. the photos of everything will be up soon k! :)

really been an awesome day. thx so much for everything once again. really really appreciate it.

so prob not hiding my bday can be a good thing afterall eh? :)

hahahaha.

k back to study. :)

Currently Watching: The Day The Earth Stood Still 1080p

Faster Ride

A green light, unkind
No where to go on a one track mind
It's a break down at the wrong time
I'm catching up but I'm still behind

We did it right, we did it right for some time
But I looked up and you were gone
We did it right, we did it right for some time
I couldn't give you what you want

Cause you just want to take a faster ride
Lower lows, higher highs
Get it, get it, go until you get it right
And I hope you find it
Cause you just want to take a faster ride
Lower lows, higher highs
But you just got to kiss me one more time
So just kiss me goodbye

A red light, wrong way
I'm just a game that you like to play
It's a hot start to your cold ways
You got bored then you walked away

You did it right, you did it right for some time
But I looked up and you were gone
You did it right, you did it right for some time
I couldn't give you what you want

Cause you just want to take a faster ride
Lower lows, higher highs
Get it, get it, go until you get it right
And I hope you find it
Cause you just want to take a faster ride
Lower lows, higher highs
But you just got to kiss me one more time
So just kiss me goodbye

So now you're moving on (you're moving on)
With no regrets (with no regrets)
But I'm still hanging on (I'm hanging on)
To every word you said (to every word you said)

But you just want to take a faster ride
Lower lows, higher highs
Get it, get it, go until you get it right
But you'll never find it, no

Cause you just want to take a faster ride
Lower lows, higher highs
Get it, get it, go until you get it right
And I hope you find it
Cause you just want to take a faster ride
Lower lows, higher highs
But you just got to kiss me one more time
Just kiss me goodbye

So just kiss me goodbye

Cartel

it speaks about you. :)

oh the song is awesome as btw.

Currently Listening To: If There's A Rocket Tie Me To It - Snow Patrol

Just Because You Can, Definitely Means You Should Apparently

k Ben seriously. don't go there.

yes it's very easy and you can def get it in a snap.

it's all laid out nicely for you to just say the right things and pick up.

but, you know what will happen if you do.

you pretty much got it wrapped around your finger and are in control. but just because you can, doesn't mean you should.

stop creating these chances to make sure you get what you want.


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the best part is, who i am now, has no reason to listen to that part of me.

funny how it has grown to the less dominant part of me.

and it's awesome. :)

Currently Listening To: Why Don't You and I - Santana ft Alex Band

My Body Clock Is Just Totally Whack

today i woke up at almost 4 again. for the 2nd str8 day in a row. this is bad. i'm supposed to study. and cuz i woke up late today, i din couldn't go for futsal to make up time to study. don't think i'll be able to go for volleyball tmrw either. haih.

anyway, just felt like putting a random post. with some pics. cuz i haven't done that in a while. plus i'm gonna sleep after this. so what a better way to end the day than with a blog post. :)


Presents from back home! thank youuuu :) and this is why i don't buy clothes much. :P oh Malaysian Kit-Kats taste diff. i've had one so far so cant really say for sure yet.

My attempt at preparing something other than pasta. :P

2nd batch. had tons of cherry tomatos and cheese and enchilada sauce left. so i figured use it all! :P it tasted not bad too imo.

i like this candle picture. seems DA worthy.


this thing smells freaking awesome! i just love the smell! :D guys, u should totally buy it. k maybe not. i don't want you smelling like me. k girls you should totally buy it for some guy whom i don't know. :D


and a few comics that make me laugh. some of them u need to know the internetz pretty well to get. so if you don't, you can ask, but chances are i won't be able to do the joke any good.






Currently Listening To: Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team) - Taking Back Sunday

Arkham Asylum

this game was so frustrating to install. SO FREAKING FRUSTRATING. wanna know why?

k first, i get the iso copy off the hub. then i install, it decides to stop half way. k not even halfway. a quarter of the way, and it doesn't move anymore at all. plus u cant cancel. and if you use autorun to try and install after that, it doesn't work. cuz u don't cancel the game properly. so fine i get the other installer. and that's some unpacker thing. so fine, use that and played. but during the game got some sesat bugs like grapple not working and grappling into total darkness of a bottomless pit where you don't die. mind you, i had to grapple through the walls (somehow) to get into this empty unknown space.

but fine whatever, at least i still get to play the game right? WRONG! 62% through the game, then suddenly it decides to have a major bug where i can't see the stuff i'm supposed to see. so i can't go to the place i'm supposed to go. so irritating man. worked so hard to get there and now can't do anything. i tried so many ways to fix it. reinstalling (about 5 times this round), playing around with the Start Application. finally din know what to do, so i restarted. everything all over again. well i tried. with some things turned off and all. but then i got worse bugs like glide not working. wah stress man.

so fine i said forget it. but i tak puas la. still wanted to play. so since Ka-Mun said his copy of it works. i got it from him. then i tried installing again. SAME PROBLEM! wah stress again la. i mean can work for others why me cannot? :( but i was determined. i went inside the iso folder, and found the setup file, and used that to install since autorun, couldn't work for install. this time i realised that the progress bar got further than the previous one. then i realised, it was skipping the stuff installed the first try and just continuing on with the other stuff. but it still stopped before reaching the end. so i had to Ctrl+Alt+Del to close the setup each time, then start the installer manually again. and each time it got further b4 jamming til it was finally done. this i had to do about 5 times too. so yeah, had to run the setup around 5 times just to properly install it once! fine.

i mean now at least i got a copy which is known to work installed. so i should be able to finally enjoy the game even though i have to start all over again. right? wrong! again. i mean so close this time. all i have to do is crack. and my comp wont let me! what crap?? and u know why?? it's cuz it's saying that the dll file in the crack which i wanna copy is a virus. so it won't let me copy. so fine i find a way to turn off Norton's Auto-protect (which i didn't know how to do til today), and finally i can copy it into the folder. so yeah. okay. then i figure okay since it was copied i can turn auto protect on again and play. what a bad move. as soon as i try and play, the game tries to execute the dll and Norton flags it and removes it str8. so the game says it can't play cuz of an error. so then i have to turn off norton again and keep it off this time, then copy from crack to game folder then only can launch the game. and then finally i got to play the game. albeit from the very start.


SEE! 4 paragraphs of problems just to get one game working properly!! that's just madness! my comp was totally totally against me. stupid thing. but i still love it. :P



so, the actual question is, was it worth all the trouble to install the game?






YOU BETCHA!


totally awesome! had a lot of fun playing it and being batman and taking down the baddies. plus the i reckon they had a pretty solid story line too. the graphics were awesome (tho i had to overclock and turn everythnig else off to play on Very High and enjoy the game). and one of the most fun things in the game for me was the Riddler challenges. cuz u actually have to use your brain for some of his riddles. though the maps help find it, i guess it would be more fun without the map. but then again, the whole place was too big i guess to do without a map. hmm.

so yeah. FREAKING GOOD and FUN game. would totally recommend it. Thank You Ka-Mun for recommending it to me. had fun.

but for now, back to studies. i'm glad i finished it b4 monday too. now can concentrate on studies fully. :)

ok gnitezz! :)

Currently Watching: The Bourne Supremacy (HD 720p)

Well That Was Fast

i honestly don't think i've had what i said in a blog post actually happen so fast (refer to first part of previous post). brilliant.

Cartel - Faster Ride. good stuff.

Currently Listening To: Faster Ride - Cartel

Honestly Why Does It Have To Be This Way?

i dunno what is it with certain ppl (i'd say Malaysians, but i cant verify that it's general to most of them) la. they just have so many attitudes that can get pissing off.

why is it that when you don't know smth, then have to like "rub it in your face"? i ask you, how many of you have said "oh i didn't know that", just to be replied with a "harr?? how can you not know?? everyone knows this sort of thing." or "you stupid is it?" or any other comment indicating of how stupid or ignorant you may be. seriously, do you know everything in this world? not everyone walks down the same path of life and learns the same things. have you ever thought that what might seem obvious to you, may not be to others? the opposite may be true too. like things you think are not obvious, seems very obvious to others. i get so irritated when i don't know something just to replied with laughs or "how come you don't know?" statements. there are better ways of putting it i'm sure.

how about the one where ppl don't like to share information or knowledge which is free? one example i can think of is those ppl who download series and movies off the internet. i know a few ppl back home, who know all these sites, but will refuse to tell them to friends. why? my theory is that it's the kiasu mentality. they want to be the first one who watches the series. and how do you secure that? by being the only person who knows where to get it. seriously, how many friends do you know who will update their status after watching the latest released episode of a series? it's somehow like a show off. as if to say "hah. i've seen it and you havent". who's willing to bet that if they watched it a few days later instead of a few hours after release, they wouldn't say anything about it at all? but honeslty, why not share the place where you got the ep from? why say secret? honestly, it's not like you recorded straight from the tv and had to encode and sync the audio and video. all you did was download. and you wanna claim that? and not share? gosh. i dunno la. and this is definitely not exclusive to series, or movies or music. share knowledge on stuff also cannot. ESP WHEN IT'S FREE. so dumb that you put in nothing to get smth, but aren't willing to do the same for others. you aren't even at a disadvantage to share the info.

well that's all i can think of for now. i think i had smth else. but it escapes my mind for now.

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on another note. all my games are boycotting me as they refuse to work. clearly even my comp wants me to study. great.

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i gotta be honest! gotta gotta gotta! cannot be nice to ppl i feel are being a pain to me. cannot stand hypocritism and i don't want to be one. i gotta learn to hand out the truth even though the person may not like it. and deal with the fact they aren't gonna like me for it. i'll comfort myself with saying they are just not mature enough to handle the truth.

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there's so many things i wanna blog about. but so many controversial issues. and so many things ppl will terasa. but i'm still too nice. haih.

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it's been 2 n a half years. it's sad that we'll have to leave each other. :( i'll miss you.

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damn. just when i had a plan of what to do, my brain brought in new ideas. now i don't know which to choose.

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if heaven had a "What If" machine that lets you go to every point in your life to see what whould happen if you did something different, i think i'd wanna go now.


thats all i wanna rant for now. i blame Arkham Asylum for not working properly. 100NZD for the ori game. so tempted to go buy. lol.

Currently Listening To: Fake It - Seether

I Figured It Out!

so i was talking to Lauren and then i was talking abt how i reply her emails super slow this year. as compared to me being so good at replying last year. relatively. and not only Laurzkena. a lot of other ppl who have emailed me also i haven't replied. sheesh hopeless.

BUT!


now know why!!



it's cuz of.........





FACEBOOK!

seriously. that's the only thing that changed since last year. now i spend time on FB instead of replying ppls mail. too much. see i knew there was a real good reason i wasn't using FB. nonsense betul.


but right, even though FB has brought some bad to my life, actually a lot of bad, i still don't regret getting it la. :)


so yeah. if i don't reply my mails, blame FB! :P

Currently Listening To: Umbrella - All Time Low

If This Isn't Creativity, I Don't Know What Is!

brilliant! Bearer just totally owned with this album. how geniusly done.

i am so impressed.

good job Bearer. awesome stuff. even if it's not ur original idea, you got it going and got it going good bro. kecekapnessan.

Currently Listening To: Kings and Queens - 30 Seconds To Mars

Hey I'm Improving!

eh not bad. out of the recent 10 posts. prob only 2 you wont understand. lol not bad.

i realised this after readings ppls blogs and there was like totally nothing to relate to or understand. all their posts. which lead me to be like, ah forget it, if i cant understand i'm not gonna bother reading. which is prob what ppl do here la if they don't understand.

so yeah. i'm proud that i managed to blog understandable stuff recently. lol. shall try to keep it up.

at the same time, have to kurangkan the perasanness and the conning ppl-ness. i'm like a con addict these days. everything also wanna con. til certain ppl don't bother to listen di. b4 i talk also they walk away. hahahaha. lol so ya. gonna try and con ppl less so they believe me when i'm being serious next time. haha.

Currently Listening To: Soldier - Hillsong United

Narcism

i may just be a bit too narcissistic.

because i actually know and recognise how i REALLY sound like and am not shocked by it.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


Currently Listening To: Enter In - PlanetShakers

Photoshopping

playing around with photoshop.

before

after


before

after


i love doing these kinds of stuff. i love creative and arts stuff. so why am i doing engineering? hmm.

p.s.: the guitar pic reminds me of New Divide song. must be cuz of the MV.

Currently Listening To: New Divide - Linkin Park

What I Learnt

still kinda emotionless now. but i'm gonna bring smth back from this. so here goes.

preparations.
need to be done early and properly. assuming things will work out, is not gonna work. should have run it exactly like how it was supposed to be done on the day itself. so i know what to expect.

secret stuff.
i really don't like it. cuz it's hard to plan for something i know nothing about. in the process of running the thing, panic sets in and everything is done wrong. make sure there's no such thing next time.

familiarise with equipment.
getting the cable from their tech crew 5-10 mins b4 VIP walks in sucks. plus not knowing the laptop sucks too. projector and laptop stuff has always sucked since i don't know when. but there's always a problem. which i was hoping to avoid.

the nagging.
10 ppl coming to tell you the same, which you can't do anything about gets fucking irritating when you're already stressed. i need patience for this.

performing and working.
i realise, having ppl from protocols and tech crew in performances, just cannot go. cuz these two teams are the busiest on the night itself, getting them to do stuff that takes them away from the things that their supposed to do, may end in disaster. esp with trying not to get too many ppl in ur team so the subsidising can be reduced adds to it kinda. like when mamat was performing, there was noone to do lights. and when i was acting, noone to do comp properly. i just believe it wont work well if ppl in the protocol and tech have to perform. now i know.

sound.
sound was a problem. if the volume was turned up, the front would be too blaring, but the back would hear. and if it was not blaring for front, then the back wouldn't hear. the ppl talking had different pitches too, so if we turned them up too high, it would sound bad. but if we don't, it would be too soft. no idea how to fix it.

the screen.
the screen was turned halfway, i don't even know why. and cuz of that, i couldn't see from where i was sitting. which is quite irritating.

last minute things.
wah. this one i dunno how. cuz things were planned already, telling last minute was quite a kacau to change and add things in. esp since we din have time to test stuff.

lights.
i think it's really irritating how we have to go and ask the guy to on the main lights all the time and we're not allowed to do it ourself. and when the guy cant be found, crap. have to wait so long to on.

previous disappointments.
i think cuz of the whole cyber games thing, i totally had no mood at all. i guess i worried too much abt that i somehow din feel like caring about a lot of stuff anymore. plus the other stuff with the other ppl also left me irritated and disappointed and so moodless with the whole thing. but it was wrong of me to take it out and be so uncaring about this. it's not fair to YL. wish i saw this earlier. i think i would have tried harder.



hmmm think thats all i got for now. i clearly should have done better. i'm totally grateful to my team whom i think did an awesome job, considering we only got everything a few minutes before everything started. it was very very very very last minute. still trying to figure out how it could have been improved. i think mamat did a really good job with lighting, esp with the sketch cuz he hasnt actually practised with us. and everything was done on the spot with the script. so that was awesome la.

honestly, i dunno if i'm ready to talk to ppl abt this. it's like, those i need time on my own sorta thing. but i guess it's fine la cuz i just need to blog abt it and it's off my chest in a way. i think the protocols team did a good job. Xin Yee really did a gr8 job organising everything and getting ppl organised. deco team was gr8 too. they really worked hard and it paid off. the food was amazing too. tho i din really get to enjoy it fully. but what i had was gr8.

what else went wrong? i'ld like to know actually. and how i could fix it. it'd be great to learn.

do i set the standards of quality for myself too high? i think not? i guess i don't want to satisfied with being mediocre. but then would i be able to handle the amount of disappointed i serve myself?


one good thing about this year is i'm learning a lot, like really a lot abt organising and being in charge of something. what sucks is that i wish i learnt is earlier like in school or smth. so when it comes to more high class events like the ones in uni, i'd actually know what i'm doing.



hmmmmm. learn learn learn.

Currently Listening To: Brand New Day - Ryan Star

Maybe I Should Start Deleting Some Games Huh?

after all i can't play all at the same time right?

but i do at least play 7 of those regularly. sort of. hmmm. i think Generals should go first. then Rainbow 6. and i think i'll stop there. lol.

k back to work!

Currently Listening To: New Born - Muse

Well Now You Know I Wasn't Joking

it's kinda funny. for me atleast.

you took what i said, and made it a joke. why? cuz it seemed to good to be true. cuz i was just being arrogant and talking big.

to sum it up, you looked down on me cuz it seemed like i was only talking big.

and now when the time came, i showed you i wasn't all talk. now you're irritated. maybe ashamed too.

and i feel awesome. :) cuz it's fun proving you wrong. actually no. it's fun proving me right. :) actually, it's fun both ways la. haha.

i already have many reasons not to like you. but i'm better than that. :)

Currently Listening To: The Webs We Weave - Escape The Fate

Bitch Time

k the whole lucky draw issue is what i wanna talk abt. sry for those who won't understand. and honestly, the whole discussion deviated greatly from the original point. it's quite amazing actually. anyway..

k first of all i wanna start out saying the fact that she commented AFTER everything is done is really irritating. and out of this whole issue, this is the one thing that pissed me off. why? cuz it relates to Cyber Games.

k for those who don't know what happened, the ori CG was supposed to be DotA (cuz a lot of ppl said they wanted to play that). then sudd those a lot of ppl disappeared. and then in the midst of that, when some ppl heard that we couldn't get enough ppl for the CG, they said that "oh if it was CS we sure will join la". so fine, we changed it to CS, and guess what?? NOONE SAID THEY WANNA JOIN NOW. noone replied the emails or the texts. (k only one person did. but what happen to all those ppl who talked so much saying they sure join?). i mean seriously, no way ALL can be busy right? so yeah, it's easy for ppl to talk after the thing is organised and comment on things saying oh it should have been done like this. when we change to cater to you, sudd no response. what crap?

so yeah. this is why this issue bugs me la. i mean it's so easy to sit and comment. but when ppl put you up to the challenge, you don't wanna take. reason? i'd rather be an observer? what stupid rubbish is that. then like this u'll just sit and forever try to find faults and complain la. it's way easier to do that anyway rather than try to change the problem. that's the problem with most ppl also. like in our country i'm sure there's a lot of ppl who can sit there and complain and complain and complain abt the country. but who is actually doing something to change it?? i mean seriously, sitting back with a stupid excuse "i'd rather be an observer" ISN'T gonna change ANYTHING. if you wanna talk, better be ready to freaking walk ok.

If you talk you better walk you better back your shit up

London Beckoned Songs Written About Money By Machines
Panic! At The Disco

then the next part, thinkin you wont cause and hurt or disappointment in the organisers? really? with all the arguing ure doing based on ur BIG EGO and ur failure to just let this thing go? and forget about it? after all, by saying and constantly arguing it also gives the impression that you think we are being inconsiderate and insensitive to let the dance go on? this could lead to a whole point altogether. i mean really, how much do we have to give in to your views? it's not YOUR night. it's for everyone. back to not meaning to hurt anyone. let's put it like this la k. what if someone comes up to you and says "daymn ure ugly" they meant no intention of hurting you. just telling the truth. now what? i believe everyone would know how hurt u'd feel right?

and how much do you follow your words? saying that the women shouldn't dance and sing in front of guys means that you SHOULD NOT support any women who do right? so there goes all the women singers in Malaysia who are muslims la. i mean, you shouldn't listen to them right, unless ure a hypocrite. so what now, listen to guys? what if the guys turn the girls on? so then no listening to guys as well? so no music from any muslims right? can you follow what you're preaching?

and then you complained and said 'whoa don't get all emotional when writing the comments'. like hello, as if you weren't all emotional in your first few comments. what with the excess of question marks and exclamation marks. classic example of pot calling the kettle black la.

and honestly, the way you talk clearly and the things you said was saying that whoever disagrees with you is wrong. yet you still can say you are not acting like that? you clearly have the "holier than thou" complex. your ego will prevent you from seeing it.


funny thing is, you said that it's okay if you lose friends for fighting for the whole issue. you assume you can survive alone. 500 bucks says you cant. so stop trying to act so tough.


honeslty, i've known you for 4 years now. i know you're the type of person who like to comment on ppl. you always sit back and comment on the things they do wrong or if whatever they do doesn't agree with you. when oh when will you ever try and make the change? sitting back and talking is damn easy ok. and stupid fool can do it.





pssshh. k i think i'm done la. k no that's a lie. that's actually more stuff that i can talk about. but considering, it's 3am, i can't form proper sentences to explain myself (like in this whole post), and i can't remember what else, i'm just gonna leave it here.

feels good to lepaskan. now it won't be on my mind.

Currently Listening To: Hammerhead - The Offspring

When You Become A Sell Out

nobody remembers you cuz they hate you.

for real. i mean seriously who knows that Avril has a whole new album out this year?

i didn't even hear of such a thing. and it's a good thing too. after her disaster of her previous cheerleader album, probably nobody wants to hear her anymore.

well i guess that's what happens when you go from punk to cheerleader. you lose whatever respect ppl had for you.

lol.


on a happier note, Mayday Parade's album is out! :D listening to it now.



Currently Listening To: If You Can't Live Withouy Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet? - Mayday Parade

I Think I Shall Bitch About This

but maybe tmrw. as for tonight. i'll sleep.


and darn, why'd it have to be taken down? =(


p.s.: Black Ice + ulcer = DAMN CRAZY FREAKING PAIN OKAY

Currently Listening To: Slow Dance With A Stranger - Danger Radio

I Refuse To React On Knowing Through FB

i honestly don't like doing things on FB based on what other are talking about for everyone on FB.

what the hell am i talking abt?

it's basically like this, if it's someone i'm hardly close to, just cuz i'm notified by the facebook events section that it's their bday or even if i see someone wishing them, does not mean i'll wish them.

i mean, i feel it's really insincere don't you think? the only reason i would be wishing is cuz someone told me, not that i actually care about the person or that the person actually did tell me before. not cuz i just found out based on someone wishing that person.

cuz seriously, if there wasn't FB, then i wouldn't know abt the person's bday. and if i din know, i clearly don't know that person that well and i haven't taken the effort to find out.

so yeah. and it's basically not bdays only. like anything happening in the other person's life. if i find out they're leaving for some other country through their chat with someone else, i see no reason to wish them bye if i'm not close to them. i mean, first they did not tell me personally, so we both acknowledge that we're not close to each other. and 2ndly, saying bye and i'll miss you when i don't mean it is just pure dumb.




pssshhh once again jumbled unorganised thoughts. but yeah if you get me, you're awesome. and the only time i reach to what ppl have been talking abt, is only when i care about them enough that i feel i should know about them. other than that, i refuse to react based on finding out something thru ppls chats. just because it's insincere.

Currently Listening To: Majestic - Majestic Youth

So According To What I Said

well apparently since i've gotten what i wanted, it's time to change isn't it?

i should. it wouldn't be fair if i didn't.

but it feels like under the deformation i've been through, i've gone past my yield strength from elastic to plastic deformation.

or so i think. maybe i just wanna stay plastic.

well, we'll just see what i decide.

This city's killing me
I want, I want, I want everything
This city's killing me
In the heat of Los Angeles
What has become of me?
I want, I want, I want everything

Currently Listening To: Los Angeles - Sugarcult

Yes This Is Why I Like COD4

i still got it in me. and this is like 3 months++ not playing. plus it's on a new comp so it's a whole diff feeling.

yes this is why i like the game. :) i like being good at something. :)


25-30 Kill streak. can't remember the exact number


unfortunately, i was using the sniper after dying the first 2 times. plus i wasted a lot of bullets missing the target. gotta improve.

aahhh how i love COD4. :)

Currently Watching: House Season 6 Episode 1 & 2

Use Somebody

listening to the original version, the paramore version and remembering last night's ball version, this is the conclusion:

EVLYN + MERVYN + ADRIAN > PARAMORE

which means..

Evlyn, Mervyn and Adrian TOTALLY PWNED Paramore at the song. totally. and some of you know how much i like Paramore. i've two CDs on my wall ok. so u know i'm not being biased. Paramore just sounded like they ruined the song. but Ev just made it sound so awesome. like really.

i'm still in disbelief how ppl can actually say the Paramore version is good. what crap.

ish.

ROCK ON EV, MERV AND ADRIAN

(though you'll probably never see this. :P)

hmmm i hope somebody recorded it.

Currently Listening To: Use Somebody - Kings Of Leon

Mornings

i hate waking up early on mornings.

esp after late nights.

now the inclination to change this has fueled other supposed dying thoughts in my head.


oh and last night may not have been perfect, but it was good enough plus i'm too lazy to care di. so whatever i got, i'm happy with. :)

Currently Listening To: Ignorance - Paramore

Friday No Drink

this probably the first friday where i had smth to drink and didn't drink it.

prob i should celebrate by drinking. hahahaha :P

Currently Listening To: Whatever You Like - T.I.

Lesson 101

~Hiding something from people

-give them no reason to ask or suspect anything

~Making people curious

-give them a reason to ask or suspect something
-be a failure at hiding something


Currently Listening To: Headfirst Slide Into Coopestown on a Bad Bet - Fall Out Boy

ZOMGWTFBBQROLFLMAO

k ignore the title. but this is funny for those of you who watch CSI: Miami



hahahahahhahahah



on a more emo note, test today sucked so bad. i dunno why i panicked for. so i din have enough time to do. what crap. plus 211 design task this time sounds like a lot of work. crap.


on a happy note! my Lab Report got amazingly high! i dunno how also. i mean when doing the discussion, i simply wrote and it wasn't like so much explanation also compared to other ppl. and i din even do the error propogation. plus the song 10,000 Nights is getting really addictive. i can't wait for the ball on Sat. it feels like it's gonna be fun. So seriously, YOU GUYS SHOULD GO FOR THE UCSSS BALL. :)

i feel happy now. cuz i managed to finish online quiz, finish test, finish memorizing chords, finished learning the solos. i feel like i accomplished a lot but it's not really a lot. haha. now the Cyber Games poster is sorta half done too. i hope there's enough ppl this time tho.

Currently Listening To: Rock & Roll - Eric Hutchinson

Remembering Sunday

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Starting making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place is familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, whoever she may be

[Juliet Simms:]
I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt; now the rain is just
Washing you out of my hair
and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
So many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head

[Alex Gaskarth:]
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home

All Time Low

Currently Listening To: Luckie St. - Cartel

Facebook Is My News Page

seriously. it's the only place i get my news.

well even if i don't get the news there, if ppl say something interesting enough, i end up googling to find out.

and just for the record, yes, that is how i found out abt Michael Jackson.


sad. i should read the news more. :P

Currently Listening To: Say It Again - Marie Digby

Crap I Think Everyone Knows

malunye. like hilang muka di. :(

Currently Listening To: Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

I Think I May Have Overpacked Myself

somehow maybe i've got too many things going on at once.

in CMSA committee. Refuel band. UCSSS band. sunday church service band.

on top of that there's homeworks and assignments to do.

this week will be pretty bad. UCSSS band have to memorise all their song chords and stuff for the ball this sat. and practice is whole of friday. and sat.

on top of that. there's a 224 test on wednesday worth 20% of final grade. and a 227 quiz on friday. not to mention onine homeworks for 227 on sunday, monday and thursday.

Design task 3 is out on wednesday as well.

gotta plan for the next Cyber Games too for the sat after the ball. hopefully can go talk to the place ppl tmrw and see how it goes.

i think i may have overpacked myself with stuff.

and with my self set standard and pride, things probably get worse as i expect myself to do extremely well.

hmmm


Currently Listening To: Unnatural Selection - Muse

Malaysia Negaraku

Currently Listening To: Didn't See That Coming - Taking Back Sunday

How Objective Can You Be?

when you act or feel something, can you be objective?

for example. you don't like something someone does, but then realise that you are the one doing it or have done it b4.

do you continue to get irritated by what the person did? or realise ure not any better and you shouldn't be complaining or you deserve it? do you still think that you have reasons for doing what you did while the other person has no excuse?

why do you get immunity?

it's ok to feel guilt or shame knowing what you don't like was what you have done/are doing.

it's NOT okay for you to be angry or upset.

seriously.


no idea why i used you here. it feels like i'm refering to somebody. funnily enough, i'm not. i guess i'm refering to you reader. so yeah. you.

Currently Listening To: You Know How I Do - Taking Back Sunday

I'm Freaking Out. Great

how am i supposed to concentrate like this??

most prob cuz i've nvr done such a thing b4.

well i asked for it, now i got it.

crap. i'm nervous as.

like for real. i just stoned and zoned out staring at the screen thinking abt.

it's exhilarating yet nerve wrecking at the same time.


kk. don't think much of it. it's nothing. you will be fine. breathe in breathe out.

and i realised i have no idea how i'm going to lie abt it.

i tend to sneak a smirk when i lie about sneaking stuff.

and now i'm staring at the email i got. freaking out.


and i realise i'm typing the same thing over again. blame the freaking out la k.


GGGAAAAHHH.

Currently Listening To: Come Home - OneRepublic

Albums Left Worth Buying

k so the ones on top are the ones left to buy. the others since my other post have finally been bought after hard searching. and i saw a Deluxe Version of Switchfoot's The Best Yet. now i so wish i waited (hmm). plus a Deluxe version of Where You Want To Be. dunno whether to buy or not. expensive. almost bought it that day out of impulse.

crap la. i spend A LOT when i'm pissed off.

75 bucks right there. crap.

and Kim! i've got the baileys! now what?? haha.

Currently Listening To: Which To Bury, Us or The Hatchet - Relient K

Cons

i'm still pissed off.

fuck you guys la.

wasted my money.


i guess i have myself to blame too for being nice.

fuck la.

i wish i had more guts and know how and bravery and not niceness to handle this situation.

argh! >:(

Currently Listening To: Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

Note-To-Self: Pictures

take as many photos with all my friends as i can.


so that in a few years time we can look at them and look at how much we've changed and laugh.

well i think it'll be pretty cool. :)


which reminds me, i think my batch ppl shud take a picture again like last year. sitting in the same position. and if we do it every year, we can watch how much we grow year by year! :D

Currently Listening To: Untitled/Trapped - Paul Dateh

Question

if you don't care abt something someone is explaining to you, do you just tell them you don't care or pretend to care?

one choice, you be sort of rude (cuz hey ppl want you to care cuz they care. how that works i dunno). and the other choice, you be fake and you suffer listening to smth you don't wanna listen to.


solution?

somehow just find a way to care.



crap.

Currently Listening To: Slow Dance With A Stranger - Danger Radio

Well It's That Time Again

What we have in life is based upon moment to moment choices of what we do in each of those moments we choose.We either take a risk, move toward what we want or play it safe & choose comfort, most of the people most of the time choose comfort. In the end people either have excuse or experience reason or result buts or brilliance.They either have what they wanted or they have a detailed list of all the reasons why not.

This quote, speaks to me. and in more ways than one.

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I know i shouldn't let it affect me. guess i'm not fully over it as i should be. i don't wanna care. i don't i don't i don't. it's so irritating how it always appears there. and i'm reminded. well, for now at least. by tmrw it'll all be gone, mostly at least. then i won't be forced to think abt it.

sucks to know i mattered. and now i don't.

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ran across some quotes i put up in the closed down blog. pretty awesome stuff. love those quotes.
feel free to get some awesome quotes here.

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i need real ppl. not ppl who agree with you all the time. i don't want to be soft. it'll be painful yeah i know, but that's what i want. i gotta force myself to take it. life isn't a perfect place.

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if you congratulate and encourage ppl for the smallest good things that they do, doesn't that mean you kinda look down on them as being a low self esteem person who isn't capable of doing smth big? cuz if u lift them up for the small things, then they end up thinking that's all they're capable of so they don't achieve higher.

dilemma?

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i think my arrogance is getting out of hand. it's that or ppl just like proving me wrong. they seem to go out of their way to do so. hmmm.

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and that is exactly why i don't give my opinion. cause nobody likes to hear smth that they don't agree.

how lame.


Currently Listening To: What To Say - MoZella

The Random Video Post

ok so youtube has like tons of videos which are awesome i've seen lately. and i decided i'm gonna put them up. haha

the famous sohai vid



amazing coordination



joker n batman :)



the awesomely talented ppl i play with (i still think this is so awesome)



halal (seriously what the crap man. hahahah)



k that's all i have for now. enjoy la if you got free internet. :)

Currently Listening To: Collapse - Saosin

I Apparently Can Talk To Randoms

seriously. i think it's easier to talk to random ppl i meet, and when i say talk i mean talk quite a lot, well relatively, as compared to ppl i should know and should be able to talk a lot to.

maybe cuz i know i won't be seeing them again so i don't have to worry about what to talk next time? hmm i dunno la.

i guess that's why one night stands are way easier than real relationships?

who knows. oh well.


and today was a good day. hair got cut. and washed. plus went skateboarding for an hour with friend. good day. the sun was out too! plus going out later tonight. aaahhh. good times good times. :)

Currently Listening To: Beat It - Fall Out Boy

I Know It's Not Wrong, But It's Just Weird

k to me right, when somebody does an accent/slang that is not originally theirs, it's like super weird. it just feels out of place and very noticable a.k.a weird.

example? when a Malay/Indian person starts speaking with a Chinese slang (the lor, meh, etc). or when a Malay/Chinese person speaks with an Indian accent(?). or even when a Chinese/Indian person speaks with a Malay slang.

it's just weird! am i the only one who notices it? i dunno la. maybe sometimes it's the person who says it la. actually ya i think it's the person who says it. cuz i realize some ppl, when they speak malay it's really weird. like it's real funny. well, that's what i noticed from my sis la. she just speaks it in such a mat salleh way. and it's hillarious. but some ppl can do it just fine. like Bernard. i don't think i've felt weird whenever he spoke it.

but yeah, when an Indian guy starts using "lor", it's just so weird la. and when other ppl tend to use the Indian accent, it turns out funny, which i guess was the main point of them mimicking it which does make it insulting la but i don't wanna be a bitch and be over sensitive (though maybe i'm not being that) and whine and say you shouldn't but yeah. it's just weird la.

i think cuz maybe sometimes ppl try to hard to put on the accent that it sounds so fake and that's why it's weird.

ah whatever la. u get what i mean.

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on another note, it's super hard to NOT be pissed off at some idayots who simply cari pasal with you because your friend doesn't want you to get into a fight or for things to get worse.

what a dick la. seriously.

but i guess i probably asked for it with what i said. aih wtv la.

don't wanna let it affect me.

but yea i'm pissed.


and omg nice guy, my friend, pretty good friend too, is now pretty good friends with bitch? what? seriously? come onnnnn. what are the oddss?? stupid la.

Currently Listening To: All I Need Is You - Hillsong United

What Conditioner Do You Use?

hahahaha. i find this photo funny.


Currently Listening To: Slow Down - The Academy Is....

I'm Pissed But Trying To Change, So In The Meantime

**** inside jokes la.

it's only purpose is to irritate other ppl who don't get it.

am i the only one who seems to understand the concept of control? or consideration?

Currently Listening To: Knock You Down - Keri Hilson ft Kanye West & Ne-Yo

So Far Gone

Late night contemplating on the words to say
Gotta set the record straight
I can't pretend that I'm alright
I give in to the night

She's got me on the edge, I'm slipping
Try to look away
But she stares down inside me
And I lose my way, can't fight
I give in to the night

So if it's love that she wants Love that she's after Don't come looking for me Cause I'm so far gone If it's love that she wants Love that she's after Don't come looking for me Cause I'm so far gone

Been exhausted
I'm so worn out by the games she plays
Sneaking off, you leave me hanging
I won't take that bait
Can't offer you forgiveness
Or justify your foolish mistakes

So if it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come looking for me
Cause I'm so far gone
So if it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come looking for me
Cause I'm so far gone

So far gone, so far gone, so far gone


So drained and falling apart
Predicted it from the start
Tried hard to break it
But I strayed too far away
Your words, they don't mean a thing
I stayed despite of the pain
I'll keep my distance
And you'll keep all the blame

So if it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come lookin' for me
Cause I'm so far gone
If it's love that she wants
Love that she's after
Don't come lookin' for me
Cause I'm so far gone

Love that she wants, whoa, love she's after
Don't come lookin' for me.
Cause I'm so far gone.
Love that she wants, whoa
Love she's after
Don't come lookin' for me.
Cause I'm so far gone.
I'm so far gone.
So far-

Danger Radio

why does it feel i was pushed away just to be pulled back in?

or i just thought i was pushed away?

or maybe i think i'm being pulled in?

we'll see soon.

Currently Listening To: So Far Gone - Danger Radio

Stuck

so which do i choose?

to just leave i feel would raise a ton of questions.

and the party that would have caused it, would think it's cuz of the other party.

and the other party would definitely think it's cuz of them when it's not.


things just change. they don't fit anymore. with one. the other, well, i thought i would have eventually, but it doesn't seem so.

and it feels like i can't leave more because i would feel bad if i leave cuz i know i'm needed. and no i'm not being perasan.

and heck, i don't know if i should. maybe i'm concentrating on the things that don't matter when it comes to that. my focus should be elsewhere. but i still don't think i can/want to focus for now.


what to do? =/

Currently Listening To: Love Is Waiting - Brooke Fraser

My My How Things Have Changed

seriously, other than the obvious, i've like totally become the opposite of who i was.

i used to be pretty outdoor-ish (cuz of BB i guess). going for camps, hiking, jungle trekking and all the other things that go with it.

and now, if i had a choice, i wouldn't go for any of these things.

i used to cycle everywhere. i've even cycled to One Utama from approximately Taman Paramount LRT station.

and now, ppl wonder if i can even ride a bike. (even i'm starting to wonder if i still can)

i used to know ALL the cars on the road. the brand and model.

and now, i just don't care. all i know is a tiny bit of fancy cars.

i used to know who wears what number of ALL the MU players.

and now, i don't even know who's still playing for MU.

i used to collect Nokia cards.

and now, i don't even try anymore.

i used to only play Need For Speed as my main game.

and now, well, it looks like the list of games won't end.


funny how i'm nothing like i used to be and i don't even look like i would have been able to do such things.

the only thing constant was my love for music that just grew and grew.

from the sorta outdoorish guy, i've become the gamer-skater-rocker guy.

i find myself pretty interesting. :)

Currently Listening To: Monsters - Matchbook Romance

If You Wanna Talk, Let's Talk

seriously, one of the most irritating things i find is when ppl start saying something, and then stop.

and then when you ask them more about it, they don't wanna tell.


WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU BRING IT UP IF YOU DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT?

ugh.

fine, you have the right to say what you want and not say what you don't want. but it's just SO FREAKING IRRITATING.

Currently Watching: Babel 1080p

I Like This

so i was on FB (as usual) and i came across smth a friend wrote. i REALLY like this cause he's being very real and logical and well, i don't know how else to explain it. it's just that i think he's thinking very real and very str8 and very true (well to him at least).

pssh. i have no idea if i'm explaining it right, but yeah, i really like this. there's truth in it. give it a read.

i hate malays.malays are stupid!they dont even need to be educated to get into uni.i hate chinese.they eat pork!disgusting!

*the author like to express his intention of naming the post as so is that it is a quote from a movie he recently watched

recently i watched a malaysian movie entitled 'gadoh'. personally, i think the content is interesting as well as the presentation (it gave me a theatrical kind of feeling after i watch the movie)
anyway, the issue tackled in the movie is basically on racism, facism and all those stuff related those words. i remember someone once told me that racism in malaysia is overrated. it is just being amplified by media and old people's talk. the young ones are actually uniting under one umbrella regardless of skin color, eye size, height, body odour, hair style or race.but sadly, i hardly think so.

being a born malay, i was destined to be able to mix around malays easily.sometimes unconsciously.it is so hard to break the bond and just hop to another group of friends with different races (though i personally think that this is mostly due to language constraint.malays generally suck in english and they often think that the chinese sounds superior when they converse in english even if some of them speaks ah beng slang).but what makes it even harder to leave the malay group is how hard it is to be accepted in another group - in this case, another race group.its hard to mix in with the chinese because they prefer to speak mandarin/cantonese/hokkien

/whatever-chinese-slang that they use.maybe thats why malays who understand mandarin mix well with the chinese.

its hard to mix in with the indian because they are too busy trying to mix in with the chinese(since the word chindian is synonym to coolness and hotness at the same time).its hard to mix in with white people because they think asians can't speak english and for some reason every asian just have to know 'arigato'.its hard to mix in with black people because when we talk to them in english, they just have to be ludacris.

generally, it is hard to mix in with anyone.that's why you rarely see tigers playing around with hyenas.it is by nature that everyone have their own soft spot towards their own species.but sometimes being too immersed with this nature might be stopping everyone from looking ahead, from enjoying what life really offers.sure that there are certain constrains that some races feel 'uncomfortable' with but still, that is not an excuse to be left out from the world.once in a while try to do something out of the ordinary.

imagine a world without indian.there would never be curry.imagine a world without white people.there wouldnt be hollywood.imagine a world without arab.there wouldnt be al-jazeera.imagine a world without japanese..there wouldnt be porn.(there are a lot more better examples than what i just provided, but i guess you smartasses could figure it out yourselves)see?we are actually in need of each other.so why arent everyone shaking hands rather than hiding in their own group?

lets be honest.some of the most important person in my life are not even my own race.and i dont regret that.some people ask me why do i hang out with these guys?usually i would answer because i want to try something else.i've been living, growing up with malays for 18 years of my life.why not try spending a year with indians?why not spend a year with black people?taste their food, talk their talk, walk their walk, understand what to they see as home.

it pisses me off when i read something about freud's research saying that white people carries superior genes compared to asians.screw freud.we stand on the same ground.we eat the same food.we throw away the same food.so why bother comparing genes?just because asians are shorter than white people so asians are inferior?

anyway, this is just another session of my ranting because i can't get enough sleep and im pissed of with something(which the author would not reveal in this post).

anyway, watch gadoh (with subtitles if some of you dont understand mandarin)

the only part i may disagree on is the indians being too busy mixing with the chinese cuz chindian is hot. well that's for me of course. i mix with ppl who can and want to speak english, which happen to be chinese. so yeah that's me.

what do you think about his thoughts?

Currently Listening To: Hoopes I Did It Again - Relient K

Once Again, What Holidays?

so this holidays i have:

Solidworks Design Task 2
EMTH271 Assignment 1
227 Lab Report
224 Long Lab Report
CMSA Cyber Games
Band Prac + Ballroom Check
Malam Stuff

ALL in the 2 weeks

so seriously, what holidays? seems like no time to do anything else also. so how to do everything else??

:(

Currently Listening To: Darkshines - Muse

Something's Not Right But I Can't Place My Finger On It

k so i created my third wallpaper. but somehow, it kinda looks okay, but just doesn't feel right. but i dunno what.


so take a look. and let me know what you think. i personally don't like the way the main pic turned out. and for the verbs, i wanted more, but din know what else i could put. plus i'm not sure if i wanna list them or just randomly put them overlapping each other with the last one over everything and in red as well. plus choosing the fonts itself gave me such a headache but i settled for what you see. i think the blend of the picture to the black area cud have probably be done better.

maybe if i actually knew how to use photoshop instead of simply trying stuff it could have turned out exactly how i wanted. but yeah.

what's puzzling is how when i create stuff, ppl tend to like it more than i do. it feels like somehow it cud have been better, but ppl tend to like it as it is. an example, my current FB profile pic. i really think it could have been way better. but somehow ppl like it.

maybe it's cuz i had a picture of how it's supposed to turn out like. so knowing that, i'm not happy with what i got. and others, well, they weren't expecting anything i guess. hmm.

but yeah.

k tell me what you think.

p.s.: you're supposed to tell me WHY you got the joke la, not whether you did or did not. tell me what you understand from the "joke". cuz there's ppl who say they got the joke, but totally didn't get it. so yeah, WHAT did you get? hmm.

Currently Listening To: One Man Drinking Games - Mayday Parade

My Most Frustrating Joke EVER

somehow it seems like this joke noone can get (except smart ppl like Gloria. thanks Glo for getting it! :D ). and it's so frustrating! trust me, when someone doesn't get your joke, it's not cool man.

anyway, here's the thing, i'll tell the joke, and then you tell me what u understand from it k. leave a comment. and it must be the first thing that came to your mind. no cheating and looking what other people answered b4 answering.



Q: When are your eyes not eyes?

















A: When the wind makes them water.



ok! comment away! do you get it? or do you think you get it?

Currently Listening To: Breakin' - The All American Rejects

I Give Up

cuz i'm seriously too lazy to be bothered.

i try. seriously i do. but if you don't want me (to), i'm going to leave it.

there IS other people.

this is why i end up nonchalant.


and to you. i don't respect you because you don't respect me. i know you don't like me. and with recent days and the way u've been recently, i'm growing not to like you too. i know how fake you can be. but if i can withstand this for so long now, i believe i can go on. why? because when it comes to people like you, i'm better at being fake. but just to you. other people don't deseve it as much as you.

remember, i don't see who you want others to see, i see the real you. the twitch in your facial expression, the tone of your voice, the intonations, the words you use and how you use them, they all mean something. and these things, try as you might, you can't control it.

so, to you, you and that subject, i give up on. it's a good thing both parties won't care. you won't notice, but i will.

being care-less is like being free. :)

Currently Listening To: Every Day - Ten Second Epic

I Love Futsal

i absolutely love playing futsal here. it's an utter joy i tell you.

it's like total enjoyment. and i'm faaaarrrr from good at playing football. but yet it' so fun.

why? cuz of the awesome ppl who play. everyone funny reactions and everything la.

at least once during the game smth will happen that will make everyone laugh.

i think that's why it's fun also. everyone is laughing and playing.

possibly also cuz i don't take winning seriously. so even if my teams loses i still have tons of fun playing the fun ppl i play with. but i still try my best.

isn't gr8 when you can try your best, fail, but still have the time of your life?

well i think it's gr8. :)

Currently Listening To: America's Suitehearts - Fall Out Boy

Biggest Mistake Of My Life

i should have gone to watch Iiro Rantala and his Trio. this is by far the biggest mistake and the biggest regret of my life. :(

30 bucks is cheap for a show. if only i knew that. plus they're damn good.

arrgghh. i think i regret more reading what Deb said about it. damn she made it sound so good. plus they got photos and autographs.

craps.

biggest mistake of my life!

Currently Listening To: Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

Emo People

they piss me off. like seriously. i just realised how annoying it is.

and note, when i say emo people. i mean those types who sit and brood and whine ALL THE FREAKING TIME. this doesn't include when normal ppl have a down time.

but seriously, they are so annoying. thank goodness i grew up and left that phase. but i shall still apologize for being emo last time and no doubt being freaking annoying. man was i irritating.

actually right,when i say they, i actually mean one fella la. this guy, every single freaking day has some emo thing to post as his status update on FB. and everyday he's sad. it's actually gotten to the point it's annoying. sheesh. let it go man. whatever it is. it's not worth it. start living life. enjoy!

being an emo kid is so not cool. u should at least try like ppl i know to not be emo. u wanna look emo, fine. just don't act all emo ALL THE TIME. it's annoying.

but seriously, damn i must have been so annoying last time.

yes, apparently i am heartless too. deal with it. >:)

Currently Listening To: Disturbia - The Cab

Other Alcohols>Beer

just because you get to keep your abs

Currently Listening To: Weightless - All Time Low

I Miss My Sister

i really do. and i knew i would. like i said in a post b4 i left.

i miss her lame jokes
i miss bullying her
i miss lepaking with her
i miss jamming with her. (tho we only really properly did Check Yes Juliet)
i miss picking her up from school. (cuz it gave me a reason to drive)
i miss how she would "apologize" to the drivers that have to move out of the fast lane to make way for me.
i miss how she would get irritated for me using noob so much that'll she'll use it in a burst against me.
i miss walking around in the mall with her and pointing out random strangers and making fun of them and calling them nerds.
i miss how it irritates her so much when i do that and how she'll say i'm so mean and how she'll tell other ppl how mean i'm being.
i miss the way she then tries to find ways to call me a nerd.


hayooooo. i miss my sister la. :( how to not miss her when she's so cool?

nvm, a few months time i get to see her. yeay! :D

Currently Listening To: Running From Lions - All Time Low

Save Save Save!

for a guy who is supposed to be saving, i spent 32 bucks altogether tonight.

5 bucks for ticket and the rest on drinks.

crap la. save save save!

shud have just spent that 30 bucks to go watch Iiro Rantala.

but then again, i dun regret going. and i regret not going Iiro.

so if i dun wanna regret, i should spend more.

gr8.

oh a stranger at Coyote said i look like Taboo from BEP. 3rd tme now. must really look like him then. haha

k la. it's freaking late. i shud go sleep now. makes sense since head feels heavy.


p.s.: band prac is sooo gonna be crap tmrw. everyones gonna be wasted as. hahaha

Currently Listening To: Shit Catapult - Iiro Rantala New Trio

Name The Nameless

i just realised, for more than a year and a half up til now, not once have i heard anyone say her name.

not ONCE. like seriously.

ok fine, the lecturer did call out her name to answer questions. but that's it! (assuming she is the one who answered the question. don't blame me! i sat at the back so couldn't see.)

haven't heard any of her friends call her name.

so, maybe, she has another name! that's not official.

but no, i prob would have heard that name.

interesting how some people can be nameless.

of course all this assuming i got her name right last year. but i'm sure! hundred percent!

plus i don't think i'm that blur to not notice. i tend to notice this stuff ok. lols


k random. i know. i'm just finding excuses to take breaks from my online quiz now. haha.

crap quiz tmrw too. and weird situations happening around me. really can't understand why certain ppl are acting that way.

and why certain ppl who read my blog and know i when ppl make up excuses still wanna try. haiz. oh well, don't wanna linger on it la anyway.

and k, seriously, i gotta post up the stuff i wanna post b4 it becomes irrelevant to post anymore.


oh and comp died again. but hardly feeling the effects. think i got used to it. now can concentrate on studying. hahahaha. damn i sound like a nerd. yucks.

which brings me to think, what is a nerd anyway. officially. k let's go check.

Nerd (pronounced /ˈnɜrd/) is a term often bearing a derogatory connotation or stereotype, that refers to a person who passionately pursues intellectual activities, esoteric knowledge, or other obscure interests rather than engaging in more social or popular activities. Therefore, a nerd is often excluded from physical activity and considered a loner by peers or will tend to associate with like-minded people

wikipedia definition. hmmm. ok definitely don't wanna be a nerd. brrr. so for now i'll just say i'll study for the sake of passing my next quiz la. haha.



aaaahh man i'm crapping so much. k here's the plan. finish the online quiz. go get dinner. camp in library to finish studying for tmrws quiz. gr8. now go!

byes!

p.s.: Mayday Parade's The Silence - pretty good stuff. i like Anywhere But Here better tho.

Currently Listening To: The Silence - Mayday Parade

Promotion

It STILL pisses me off how the undeserving get promoted and awarded, while those who deserve it more get forgotten.

like someone once said to me, "open your eyes to the things you do not see"

granted i may not know who does deserve the promotions and stuff, but who doesn't deserve, anyone who knows can clearly say so.

nothing is what it seems.


so irritated by the way ppl get away with stuff just cuz "administration" doesn't know shit.



on a side note, i think it's called ironic when someone who wants justice sides with someone who continously fucks screws up and gets away with it citing the same stupid reasons over and over again.

congrats. you know who you are.

Currently Listening To: Breaking - Anberlin

Don't Ask Me, Ask My Body

looks at the snacks i eat la.


the yoghurt, there's 5 more in the fridge. the tupperware is filled with awesome popcorn. the kit kat, the other pack is finished and there's barely any left in this pack.

so despite all the snacks i eat, i don't get fat. what rubbish.

why?

don't ask me, ask my body.

ish.

Currently Listening To: A Decade Under The Influence - Taking Back Sunday

Change To Dependance

i realise i'm needing ppl a lot. not good not good.

but haih, now i'm stuck. i want to know what exactly i should say. but nobody knows this about me. and i guess i don't really want anyone to know either.

but i need someone to ask! so i don't make a fool of myself. grrrr.

but thinking back, those days when i just did whatever i wanted were the days that were really fulfilling.


arrgghhh. so here goes!

don't regret this ben, you clearly don't know what you're doing.

Currently Listening To: Guilty - Rasmus